AN: Here's a short little bit that was stuck in my head that just had to get out. I'm not sure if I'll make it longer yet or not. I guess it depends on the reactions I get? I hope you enjoy.
Disclaimer: I don't own this stuff. Just sayin'….
BPOV
I was burning. God, I was burning and I felt like it would never stop. I felt like I had done nothing but burn since the beginning of creation. In my mind I knew what was happening. I was finally getting my wish. I was going to be a vampire soon.
Fucking idiot.
Why in the hell did I want to do this again? Oh, that's right. Eternal love and bliss with my vampire family. I sure as hell hope it was worth it after all this fucking pain. I tried to calm myself but that sure as fuck didn't work. I actually think I just made the shit worse. Okay, Bella. Breathe. Just inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.
FUCK MY LIFE.
Okay, new trick. Think about Charlie. Think about Renee and Phil. Think about anything. Here pick one. Edward. Esme. Carlislie. Alice. Emmett. Rosalie. Jasper?
Jasper? Why do I feel better when I think about him? What the hell is this pleasant tingling when I think about him? This inward calm? This contentment? Love?
Okay. I think something has gone wrong with my transformation. I think my brain has finally fried itself. I should be thinking of Edward. Edward. Hmmm, that's interesting. Animosity and the urge to punch him in the face. I think I'm actually excited that I'm going to be able to do that when I wake up. I would do a happy dance if my body wasn't burning so fucking bad. OKAY. No, I love Edward. I love Edward. I love….
"I think she's almost done," I heard a voice speak quietly. It barely registered as the pain in my heart tripled. Nope, it more than tripled. This was the worst part yet. I groaned as I tried to keep my body from thrashing around.
"You're right. There's her heart. It'll stop soon and then she'll wake up. We might want to move back to the walls. We don't want to crowd her when she opens her eyes," another voice spoke. I could hear small shuffling movements and then I felt a small wave of calm creep into my senses. I felt better instantly and I smiled. I think? Maybe? It might have come out as a grimace being that the burning was now centered in my chest.
I gasped as my heart beat rapidly in my chest and then slowed. Once. Twice. Silence.
I sighed in relief. I sat in the darkness only a second more before I opened my eyes. Hmmm. Well that's new.
"Dust," I said. I'm pretty sure I sounded confused as I watched the dust particles float through the air. I frowned though as a tugging sensation started in my chest. Oh my fucking God. I thought this shit was done. I reached up and rubbed my chest. I closed my eyes and sat up.
"Bella," I heard Edward say calmly. He didn't feel calm though. He felt nervous. Terrified. Why would he feel like that? WAIT. How would I know he's even feeling like that?
"Hmm," I answered as I took in the sounds around me. I could hear the birds and animals out in the woods beyond the house. There was the stream trickling over the rocks and the wind rustling in the leaves. I focused closer and I could hear the family shuffling nervously. I opened my eyes. They flew over the family quickly, barely taking in anything except for the brief excitement, before they landed on Jasper. I inhaled for the first time and the most enticing scent I had ever smelled flowed through my senses. Hot whiskey and magnolia's mixed with the scent of tall grass and leather. Something so manly and alluring I growled deep in my throat. Lust filled me as my eyes stayed locked on Jasper. Emmett stepped in front of him to hide him from my view and I growled deeper. I crouched on the bed. All coherent thought left my mind and my only goal was to reach him.
"Move," I hissed.
"Bella you need to calm down it's just Jasper. He's not going to hurt you," Edward said as he moved towards me slowly. All eyes shot to Jasper as he growled low in his throat. His eyes were black as he began moving towards me. I'm sure mine were too.
"Oh fuck," Rosalie said as she pulled Emmett out of the way.
"Grab them," Alice said frantically. Bitch. I would worry about her later but right now I only wanted Jasper. I felt someone grab me from behind and Jasper roared. I saw Alice grab his arm and my anger flowed through me.
"MINE," I yelled as I jerked from whoever had me from behind. I was instantly by Jasper's side. I tore Alice's hand from his arm. She gasped and jumped back holding her hand to her chest. I turned to the rest of the family and growled low in my throat. Carlisle was the first to respond. He lowered his head submissively and backed away to the wall. Esme followed suit. Then Rosalie and Emmett and finally, after Carlisle dared to speak a warning to the both of them, Edward and Alice did as well. I turned slowly to Jasper as the growl that was rising from me turned into a gentle purr. I felt his fingers graze up my arms before his hands pulled my body into his. My eyes locked onto his again as I felt a purr rise through his chest. His eyes were a deep gold, yet darkened from the lust I felt from him.
"My mate. Mi amor," he whispered roughly. I ignored the gasps I heard from behind me as his hand slid into my hair. He tilted my head sideways and lowered his face to my neck. He inhaled as he nuzzled right below my jaw. I pushed against him and moaned low in my throat.
"Only yours, my mate," I told him softly. I ran my hands up his chest and then into his hair. I pulled his face to mine. I could only think of how much I wanted him to kiss me. How much I wanted his hands on me. How much I wanted him inside me so we could be one. I saw him smirk as he felt my lust spike. I could feel him beginning to harden against my stomach so I shot him a grin and pushed as much lust as I could towards him. His eyes turned black and he growled as his lips crashed down on mine. I knew at that moment, that every second I had burned had been worth it.
AN: I might be persuaded to write a little more on this one. I had a few ideas come up with it but nothing really serious. Just something a little wild a crazy really. Maybe some smut. I hope you enjoyed this little piece though. It was something that I just HAD to get out of my head.