Summary: Hermione and Draco have been having a friends with benefits relationship, but what will happen if Hermione is tired of being something to be used.

Selfish

Hermione watched him from her spot in the library. He flirted shamelessly with a Ravenclaw on the other side of the library. He lent over the desk stood with one arm on her chair and the other next the book she had open that was clearly unread as the Ravenclaw traced her fingers over his hand and watched him talking to her through her eyelashes which where fluttering. Hermione bit her lip and held back her tears. Hermione slammed her book shut and threw her parchment and quill into her satchel and help the book up to the bookcase and waited for it to float up to its place as she always did. Hermione stormed out of the library trying to ignore the flirting Slytherin but as she stormed through the large doors she missed the blond's eyes following her out. She didn't know where her feet were taking her until she arrived on the seventh floor. No, Hermione told herself, you will not go there. Hermione felt her tears fall down her cheeks as she ran away to find Ginny stumbling over her feet. She pushed past people in the corridor until she reached the courtyard and saw Ginny sitting with Blaise on a bench. They sat holding hands with heads close and Blaise kissed her temple. Hermione felt a whole new wave of tears well up on her eyes again. Ginny looked up and saw her dishevelled friend.

"Hermione." Ginny gasped.

"I need help." Hermione sniffed. Blaise kissed Ginny's cheek once more before getting up and hugging Hermione, whispering that it would all be all right. Ginny walked towards her friend and watched her crumble.

Ginny had taken Hermione to her room in the Gryffindor tower and sat her down on the bed.

"I made a mistake." Hermione sniffed.

"What do you mean?" Ginny asked watching her friend carefully.

"I've done something bad." Ginny watched Hermione and waited for her to continue.

"Hermione, you know you can talk to me."

"I-I..." She took a second and swallowed. "I slept with Draco." She mumbled. Ginny sat quietly for a second. More tears poured from Hermione's eyes as she realised what she had done.

"You're not pregnant?" Ginny asked.

"No!"

"Hermione we have all made mistakes."

"Ginny you don't understand. I slept with him more than once." Hermione bit her lip as the tears fell silently.

"You're seeing each other?" Ginny asked quietly.

"No." Hermione said quietly, slowly looking up to Ginny.

"Do you remember that evening a few months ago you, Blaise, Draco and I we were in the Room of Requirement? You and Blaise hadn't been together long, and you wanted your friends there?" Hermione asked and began retelling the story.

(Flashback)

Laughter filled the RoR as Blaise was retelling a story from earlier that day. The four of them were sitting on pillows on the floor. Hermione watched as Ginny and Blaise sifted closer to each other. Hermione flushed bright red as Blaise started to kiss her neck. She stood up and began clearing away the leftovers of the mini picnic they had previously eaten. Draco chuckled and leant over to the couple.

"Maybe you should take Ginny back to her room" He smirked and added "or yours?" Blaise shot him a look and Draco held up his hands.

"You're probably right." Blaise said with a sigh, disappointed his evening with Ginny had to come to an end.

"What about Hermione?" Ginny questioned. "I shouldn't just leave her."

"I'll make sure she gets back all right, if you want? Let you two have a proper good bye?" Draco sent the two another wink. Ginny and Blaise thanked him and walked out of the room fingers linked. Draco looked around and found Hermione scrubbing plates in a small sink that appeared. He walked up behind her and placed a hand on her shoulder.

"You know where we are and who we are, right?" He asked making her jump slightly.

"Yes." She said tightly, slightly annoyed that Ginny had left her alone with him. She didn't mind hanging around in a group but on her own with the Slytherin Prince was worrying.

"Then why are you cleaning?"

"Because it's polite." She said.

"To a room?" Draco raised an eyebrow.

"It makes me feel better alright." She shook her head as she finished the last dish. She turned to face him and the look on his face only made her laugh.

They had migrated to the sofa and were now talking and laughing. Hermione was acutely aware of how close he was to her and the hand that started on her knee was now halfway up her thigh, his thumb rubbing back and forth. An action that was relaxing to Hermione and making her eyelids drop.

"Am I boring you Hermione?" Draco said in a smooth voice into her ear. She willed herself not to react, to remember the countless other girls he had had in this position. She was just another knot on Draco's vast bed post.

"Yes." She said. Draco chuckled in her ear, slowly dragging his hand up her left thigh and onto her hip, pulling her around to face him.

"I can help you wake up." Hermione kept her eyes closed hoping that if she couldn't see him she would be able to calm herself and walk away from here. Her plan went array when he trailed his lips up her neck to her pulse point and felt her heart beat speed as he trailed his hands up her sides to replace his lips at her neck and she could feel that his face was next to hers by the breath on her face. Before she could ever think about getting up and leaving, he firmly presses his lips to hers and body reacted without her minds consent. She moved closer to him but he pulled her even closer and threaded an arm around her waist and gentle shifted Hermione onto his lap. She finally opened her eyes to look at him. His hair was hanging just above his eyes which were staring back at her. He kissed her once and rubbed his nose against hers.

"What are we doing?" She asked leaning back away from him.

"We are having fun." Draco said with a smirk. Hermione thought about what she was doing and began to climb off his lap. Draco was having none of it and pulled her chest to chest again.

"Hermione, don't over think it, I'm not letting you go." Draco said kissing her softly.

(End flashback)

Ginny sat back.

"What did you do?" She asked quietly. Hermione flushed bright red and Ginny chuckled.

"I meant after, in the morning."

"I panicked. I knew I was just another girl to him, so I left. I didn't want him to think I felt things for him. He found me in the library the next day. I told him quickly that I didn't like him and it was a mistake. He proposed a friends with benefits relationship. He talked about how great the night had been and how he didn't want to stop, but seeing as neither of us had feelings for the other it would just be about having fun to relieve stress and everything. It didn't sound like a bad idea at the time. So we continued. It was like we were magnets when we were together. But then I started to feel more and he obviously didn't, he flirted with other girls and it was like two sides of a coin. When he was with me it was like pure devotion and as soon as we were outside it was like he reverted back to man whore. Although I suppose he is an expert at what he does. Every time I saw him touch another girl it was like he stomped on my heart all over again. So tonight I couldn't take any more of it, when I saw him in the Library with some Ravenclaw I sort of lost it." Hermione twirled her thumbs.

"Hermione we can fix this, I can help you move on." Ginny put an arm around Hermione watching her friend wipe her eyes.

Blaise stormed into the Slytherin common room and immediately spotted his blond hair on the sofa with Pansy. Draco didn't have a chance to look up before he was dragged by the collar into the dorm room.

"What are you doing?" Draco protested shaking off Blaise's hand and straightening his shirt. "What's got you in a tizzy?" Draco said now stripping out of his school shirt and throwing it at his chest odd draws and bent down to pick up his base layer as he wanted to go for a jog.

"What did you do to Hermione?" Blaise faced Draco with his arms crossed. Draco froze for a second arms above his head, t-shirt half on.

"What do you mean?" Draco turned to face his Italian friends.

"Come on mate. I know you and her have been fooling around." Blaise said out right, causing Draco to stumble.

"I don't want to know the details. I just want to know what you have done to have her in tears." Draco's head shot up as he fell onto the bed.

"I don't know. We got together and then I felt thing I never felt before but he immediately said she had no feeling towards me and I went into defensive mode. I couldn't lose her. So we began to...meet frequently. I tried to convince myself and her that I didn't have feelings for her. I did that in the only way I know how." Draco recalled.

"Open your eyes mate!" Blaise said sitting next to Draco. "She said that because she didn't think she meant anything to you and didn't want to seem weak! She agreed to sleep with you again because she feels for you and you go around rubbing other girls in her face! She likes you!" Blaise said slapping his back. Draco looked at him with a questioning gaze.

"GO!"

"Hermione!" Draco called out to Hermione who was a few steps ahead of him. He had been shouting for her and she was still ignoring her as they reached the Great Hall. He finally caught up to her and held her wrist.

"Hermione wait!" Draco pleaded. Hermione stopped dead in her tracks on the way to the Gryffindor table.

"No! I am done! I am done waiting. Waiting for you to decide that I'm good enough. Waiting for you to come around. Waiting for you to want a shag!" She shouted and the rest of the hall went quiet. Hermione flushed as she remembered where she was. She snatched her wrist away from him.

"Now if you'll excuse me I'd like to be selfish for once." Hermione said moving away from him again.

"What if I want to be selfish." Draco said looking up from his feet. Hermione stopped fuming.

"Excuse me?"

"I want to be selfish."

"And you don't think you have been selfish already?" Hermione turned around.

"No."

"You have used me shamelessly as one of your whores." She took a menacing step towards her.

"Because I thoughts that's what you wanted!" Draco blurted out. Hermione took a second before her hand flew out and a loud smack was heard throughout the great hall.

"I do not deserve to be treated like a slut." Hermione spat.

"You agreed to have a friends with benefits relationship, this is what you signed up for."

"The key word is friends! You treated me like crap outside of bed!"

"I didn't mean it like that. That day you told me you didn't have feelings for me, but I couldn't let you go." Draco held her shoulders and tried to look in her eyes. "I thought you didn't like me and that broke my heart. So I tried to pretend that I didn't want you didn't need you. I cowered behind flirting to pretend" Draco tried to pull her close and Hermione allowed him to slide his arms around her waist and she put her face on his chest and her hands on his arms.

"Did you kiss any of them?" Hermione whispered.

"No!"

"Did you sleep with any of them?" Draco took her face in his hands and rested his forehead against hers.

"Merlin no! Hermione I wouldn't, I couldn't!" Draco made her look up at him. They stood in silence for a few seconds.

"I like you too, Draco."

"Really?" Draco grinned broadly.

"Really." Hermione smiled up at him. Draco watched her for a second before kissing her deeply. He relished in the taste of vanilla on her lips and he was addicted too. As they were about to break away Draco squeezed her waist and gentle bit her lip leaving her to smile.