DISCLAIMER: NO RIGHTS TO DIGIMON

As promised to a couple of my supporters/friends, here is a story for Digimon Season four. I must say I had to do a lot of research for this story because I hadn't watched it in awhile nor did I remember a lot about it but it was all worth it.

The start of this story might be a little too intense but I hope it would be a good start to a good hurt/comfort story so please bear with me!

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Zoey POV

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It was the fifth time that I showered when I realized that no matter how many times I tried to get rid of the filth on me, it would be impossible to.

My body felt dry and like a sun baked prune when I left my steamy bathroom. I held my bathrobe tighter around me as I sat down on my bedroom bed.

Unwanted thoughts slowly started to reel in my mind but I tried my hardest to push them away.

It didn't work because I started to feel my body trembling violently with fear.

Suddenly I felt the tightness of a hand around my mouth and then around my neck like someone was trying to silence my screams. My body was being dragged into a dark alleyway against my will.

Then I felt as though I was being thrown against a brick wall.

But…This is my bedroom… No one's here…

It's all in my head..

I grabbed at my head and shut my eyes close to think of something else.

Desperately at anything else…

But then out of nowhere, a hand tightened around my mouth while the other hand glided his fingers down my chest and continued down my body until he reached the ends of my skirt.

He roughly yanked down my skirt and underwear. His hand released my mouth for a moment and roughly tore my shirt.

My hands pushed, shoved, and hit at my hardest but it was no use. The brute man just wouldn't budge! His calloused hand moved my mouth to my throat. He started to squeeze the breath out of me until I start to feel dizzy and weak.

Before I knew it I was screaming at the top of my lungs just like I was when it happened. I yelled louder and louder as I felt him inside of me; pushing hard.

It was excruciating pain.

My own loud scream brought me back into reality, back into my bedroom.

I was just thinking back to the attack but it was able to bring back the emotions and the horrifying sensation of it too.

Or was it real..?

Was I being attacked again..?

How can it feel so real if I was just thinking back to it.

My eyes shot around frantically until I grasped the reality that I really was in my bedroom instead of an alley.

I hugged my legs to my chest as I lay down onto my side; dazed beyond belief and feeling ashamed and naked.

It was my fault that it happened to me… I should have never gone to that party and I definitely should have called a cab or take the subway instead of walking home.

But… My apartment was so close and it was a dinner party… I didn't think anything like that could have happened…

I should have done more to stop him..

Who was he…?

I never got a good glimpse of his face because he was wearing a mask so even if I wanted to call the police I wouldn't be able to give him a good prescription…

If it was Kazemon or Zephrmon, I could have killed him.

But no.. I'm just human in this world…

It had been five years since I've last been the digital world. I was twelve then and now seventeen turning eighteen soon.

I guess I've changed a lot since then.

When I came back from the digital world, I made lots of news friends because of that change. I managed to stay friends with the guys and kept in touch with them but as time grew on, that slowly faded; especially this year.

I was so busy this year preparing myself for exams and University that I never get the chance to hang out with the guys or even give a simple call. They all had their own things to do too.

Even thinking of them now started to make me feel dirty… For some reason I started to feel afraid of them even though I fought beside them and they had always tried to defend me back then.

I've change more after tonight and it was all against my will…

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It was dawn but I didn't sleep the entire night.

I kept on shuttering and wishing that I was back in the digital world with my human and beast spirit.

I could do anything including the power to kill.

Still feeling tired; I lethargically lifted myself out of bed.

My feet touched the ground as I pulled myself up from the bed. I was so sore down there and it was hard for me to stand up nonetheless walk.

It was hard but I managed to walk to the bathroom adjacent to my bedroom. I looked into the bathroom mirror hanging over the sink.

My reflection was terrible. It was clear that I didn't get any sleep and that I had been crying for hours on end; my eyes were hideously puffy and red.

They stung and were blurry too.

There was a bruised handprint around my neck…

If I still had tears in me I would be crying them out because of what I saw in the mirror but I was running on empty. I dropped slowly to the floor; feeling so tired and so ashamed.

I have school today…and the day after that and the day after that…

What am I suppose to do…?

I don't want to leave my home…

I can't stand to have anyone looking at me…

So I stayed inside..

I stayed inside day after day..

Those days slowly turned into months.

The only time I did go out was when I had to take important tests for school. A close friend would usually deliver my class work and homework to my apartment mailbox.

After I had first missed a couple of days I knew that I couldn't afford to miss out on the class work. I had to find some way to make things work.

So…

I managed to forge a doctor's medical report saying that I had critical lupus. It's a chronic illness that allows the immune system to attack itself. It's a serious illness so the school never really questioned that.

My parents don't live with me so it made it easy for me to constantly stay home. A couple years ago, my parents wanted to move back to Italy but I chose to stay here.

When I need to go grocery shopping or buy new clothes, I would normally order clothes or some needed things online. For food, I would give a list of groceries to my neighbor next door so she could help with that.

She's a single middle age mother of a four year little girl. I babysit for her when she goes out on errands like that.

A win-win situation.

Despite that it's been months since that night happened, I'm still constantly scared.

For the first month, I was even scared to go downstairs to get my mail from the mailbox. I was terrified when I had to step out of my apartment.

I would scream like there was no tomorrow in the middle of the night when the nightmares came.

My friends stopped calling and I couldn't find the heart to care about that.

I got tired of them asking me why I wasn't at school, when I would be going back to school, why did I sound so funny over the phone.

I never told anyone about what happened and I'll take it to my grave before I let anyone find out about that shameful embarrassing moment.

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It was late and I was already snuggled warmly in my bed. I wasn't asleep yet but I was falling into it when my doorbell rang continuously.

I sat up thinking it was odd for someone to be ringing my doorbell at that time of night because it was too cold for anyone to travel anywhere.

It was winter and the snow fell almost every day.

Almost immediately I thought the worse…

What if its…

I didn't want to answer it until I heard familiar voices.

"Zoey open the door! It's us! Are you home! IT'S AN EMERGENCY! A DIGITAL EMERGENCY!"

It sounded liked Takuya..Koji..and..

It was the guys..?

Was I hearing things?

I threw back my covers and got out of bed to answer the door but when I got in front of it I was a little skeptical.

Shakily…I slowly unhinged the multiple latches and opened my door enough for me to see.

It was them…

They had trouble seeing me because of small opening from the door. The lights of the hallway were all on and brightly too.

They were standing at the door trying to get a glimpse of me from the cracked opening of my door.

Takuya leaned in a little closer and Koji did the same in attempt to see me more clearly. I gave them the benefit of the doubt and opened the door just a tiny bit more.

"Zoe…? Is that you?" Takuya called to me.

It had been so long since I had last seen them that I almost didn't recognize him if it wasn't for their trademarks.

They all had gotten so tall, even little Tommy and he was in his early teens. Their faces had sharpened into mature handsome features.

Takuya still wore those goggles over hair but the hat he wore back then was gone. His hair was styled stylishly to fit the fashion of his goggles.

Koji didn't wear a bandana anymore and he didn't leave his long hair in a ponytail. His hair was shorter; up to his shoulders. He braided his hair halfway and tied it up from there. The bottoms ends of his hair were spiked with style too. He looked like someone that belonged in a boy band.

His twin brother cut all of his hair off but he was pretty handsome with his short hair too.

Tommy got rid of big orange hat too. His hair looked like Takuya's but without the goggles and slightly shoulder. He could be Takuya's brother.

J.P. was still big but not as in fat. It looked like he packed on some muscle. A regular hunk by all girls' standards

I felt an emotional pang at my heart. It twinge with guilt that I didn't keep in touch with them as I should have.

Perhaps another reason for the water welling in my eyes was when I saw them; I felt a hint of safeness. It wasn't an immense feeling but it was enough for me to realize that I was wrong to think that I couldn't trust anyone including them.

"Zoe it's us!" Takuya said with laughter but he saw my teary eyes when I opened the door more to show the rest of my face. "Zoe..? Zoe what's wrong? Aren't you happy to see us?"

Tommy looked at me weirdly, "Zoe, did you forget about us or something? Why are you crying?"

I held onto the door with a clutch, trying to contain myself.

Takuya stepped closer, "Zoe…? What happened to you..?" He finally saw the thinness in my face and the dark rings under my eyes. He held out his hand and reached for the side of my face but I flinched away and evaded away from his eyes while gripping more onto the door.

I was ghostly pale and sometimes with a hint of sickly green in my face especially when I don't sleep at all so I knew what he was talking about. That and of course the tears on my face.

"Zoe." Takuya lightly said my name. "It's me, Takuya. Don't you recognize me?"

My eyes diffidently look back to him. "T-Takuya…" I whispered involuntarily sobbingly..

He smiled kindly liked back then, "Hey.. You do remember me. I knew you wouldn't forget about me."

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