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I can't. I can't do this. I Can't FUCKING do this. I feel like a monster. I know she loves me and I'm breaking her heart. As I leave Quinn's room I feel disgusted with myself. This girl is fucking perfect and I'm breaking her. I run down the stairs from her room to find my shoes. I leave her house and make my way to my car. I see her watching me as I leave from her window like she always does. I pull out and speed home. Once I get there I take a shower then collapse on my bed. Then I hear my phone then I see:

1 new message: Quinn

Come back

Me: y

Quinn: I want to talk.

Me: about?

It's a while before I get a reply.

1 new message: Quinn

Plz?

Me: I can't

Quinn: y?

Now I'm angry. I don't want to talk about this and I don't want to stop because I love her. I love her but she deserves so much more so when I send this message even though it kills me I don't regret it.

Me: I can't do this ne more. I'm sorry Quinn but this ends now.

After that she calls and I'm so hesitant to pick it up but I finally do. If I'm going to do this I could at least talk to her.

"Hello" I say.

"Don't do this."she says. She sounds like she's on the verge of tears and my eyes start to mist over.

"I have to Quinn you deserve better."

"You are better and I deserve you… all of you and not just when you're lonely and need a warm body". That broke the dam and I'm full on crying because as much as I want to be with her I'm just too fucked up. "

"I'm sorry… I'm so fucking sorry" I'm full on sobbing and I have to stop.

"Don't be just be with me…please I lov…"I cut her off and yell

" DON'T YOU FUCKING SAY THAT! Don't love me I'm not worth it. I'm so fucked up and you don't need that or me." She's sobbing just as much as me. She finally collects herself and goes into HBIC mode just like I wanted and she says

"Fine. Santana I don't need you. Your right you don't deserve me and I CAN do better". I know she doesn't mean it and shes just trying to protect herself but that doesn't mean it hurt any less. We sat in silence before I said

" I love you" I heard her burst into tears and say

" I HATE YOU!. I hate you so fucking much… why do you keep doing this to me".

"I don't know" I say and then she says

"I love you too." More silence and then I say

" Just… just go on with your life and forget about me Quinn but just know I love you and always will" and with that I hang up and cry myself to sleep knowing I could never be good enough for her. She deserves better.

The end. hope you enjoyed. i may write another story about quinntana but i havent decided yet.