Coming Home Chapter 5

AN: Sorry about the uploading time guys I have just hd so much going on recently but I'm back to my old self now! Anyway I hope you all enjoy! Xoxo-Beth

PS I should mention that this chapter has flashbacks in italics, so I hope hat no one gets confused!

XOXO

Blair smiled at Chuck as she walked with him and Monkey through Central Park. Chuck pushed the black classic pushchair in which Charlie was happily playing with a teddy whilst Blair held the dog leash. Both of them ignored the paparazzi that were currently following them, snapping every picture that they could of the family.

"I love the park in spring" She announced. "There's something about the leaves and the air"

Chuck looked down to see that Charlie's hat was coming off his left ear. He pulled it back over his ear and Charlie giggled.

"There you go, little guy" Chuck cooed as they neared the duck pond.

The paparazzi still clicked their camera buttons.

"You think they'd be tired of us by now, it's been months since we've introduced the world to Charlie" Blair sighed. Chuck stopped the pushchair near the water's edge and put the break on. He then leaned in to get Charlie. Charlie dropped the teddy bear and clung to Chuck with his tiny gloved hands. He looked around anxiously for his Mother. At the age of only ten weeks, Charlie Bass hadn't been in an environment where he was far away from Blair.

"Hi, Charlie" Blair cooed.

Charlie smiled shyly and buried his head into the crook of his Father's neck. Blair bent down to retrieve the loaf of bread in the lower compartment of the pushchair before opening the bread and smiling at Charlie.

"Do you want to feed the duckies, Charlie?" Blair asked as she broke off some bread and walked over to the edge. Chuck followed her with Charlie. When Charlie saw the ducks swimming over, he squealed with delight.

Blair tossed a piece of bread into the duck pond before handing Charlie a piece of bread. Charlie dropped it into the water's edge and a baby duck swam over to collect it. Charlie screamed with happiness.

Blair and Chuck's phone buzzed in their coat pockets. Chuck balanced Charlie in his right arm whilst his left hand took out the BlackBerry and read the e-mail aloud.

"Parents of the year? Seems that Mommy and Daddy Bass are taking this parenting role seriously. One more trip to Central Park and they could probably be nominated for Parents of the Year! Charlie Bass really is a lucky boy!-xoxo Gossip Girl" He read.

"Hear that, baby. Even Gossip Girl loves you!" Blair smiled handing Charlie another piece of bread. He threw the bread into the pond and watched as the ducks swam over to him.

Blair, Chuck, Charlie and Monkey had been at the park for over an hour and half now. Blair loved taking Charlie to the park. She felt like it was the only way in New York that he could see nature. They were at the boat pond now and Charlie was fascinated by the boats, as was Monkey. Chuck had taken over holding the leash now as Monkey had attempted to run into the pond and Blair wasn't strong enough to hold him back in her stiletto Christian Louboutins.

Blair's phone began ringing in her pocket and so she got it out. She quickly checked the caller ID. Serena.

"Hey, S" Blair greeted happily.

"Hey, B. I'm two blocks away, where are you?" Serena replied.

Blair's smile faded. "What?"

"Our lunch. It's 12.30" Serena replied.

"Oh right, yeah the lunch" Blair said realising her plans with Serena. She had been so sidetracked she had completely forgotten. "I'm just leaving the Empire now. I'll be ten minutes" She quickly lied ending the call.

She looked back at Chuck and Monkey. "I completely forgot about my lunch with Serena!" She exclaimed.

"Oh yeah" Chuck replied. "You go. I've got this"

"Chuck, I'm not leaving you with Monkey AND Charlie" Blair replied. "I'll just cancel, I'll say Charlie's being difficult"

"Hey, I can handle it. Plus, I could do with some Father-Son time" He smiled.

"Well, I've already prepared a bottle for him. He's had formulated milk before. He should be fine" Blair smiled. "But are you sure, I mean he's never been without me before and-"

"Blair" Chuck took her hand in his one and made her look into his eyes. "I've got this. Go and have fun with your best friend"

Blair smiled before kissing his lips lightly. "Okay" She agreed against his lips. Blair looked to Chuck and then to Charlie who was happily gurgling and playing with his tiny ugg boots.

"Call me if you need me" Blair said to Chuck.

"I will" He agreed kissing her. "Now go. You know how angry Serena gets if you don't arrive on time"

Blair laughed as she reached into Charlie's pushchair and took him out of it. He giggled. She kissed him on the cheek and held him against her chest.

"Oh, baby. I love you" Blair cooed to Charlie. "Mommy will see you later, okay?" Blair smiled as she brought Charlie up to her eye level. Charlie reached out to tap her nose with his tiny gloved hand. Blair kissed him on the forehead again before handing him to Chuck and stroking Monkey.

"See you later" Chuck called as Blair began turning away and walking down the pathway. As soon as she'd faded into the background of joggers, Charlie looked at Chuck.

"Hey, Buddy" Chuck smiled. Charlie looked upset as he reached out for Blair. "Mommy's gone to lunch with Auntie Serena" Chuck told his Son who was still reaching out for Blair.

Charlie's face scrunched up as his hands flexed, trying to grab the air and make Blair come back. Monkey lay on the floor and put his paws over his ears. Charlie began to shriek.

"Uh oh" Chuck said.

XOXO

Blair walked into the restaurant to see Serena sitting there with a glass of white wine. She looked up from the tall menu at Blair.

"Hey, S" Blair smiled as she walked over and sat down in the opposite chair. Serena looked up from the menu with a strange look on her face. "Sorry I'm late"

"Where's Charlie? I thought you two were inseparable?" Serena asked.

"Chuck's looking after him. It's my first time leaving him...And I know that I should trust Chuck and I do but I'm getting him to text me every ten minutes on the dot, Charlie's never been without me since he's been born." Blair replied stealing Serena's menu and looking through it.

"B, I know that you're a loving Mother but every 10 minutes?" Serena asked.

"When you're a Mother you'll understand" Blair replied.

"So...Tomorrow night, let's talk outfits!" Serena squealed excitedly as she clasped her hands together. "Oh, and has Chuck decided what charity he's giving the money to?" Serena asked.

"I bought a dress the other day from Ellie Saab but we'll go shopping later to find you something and I have no idea! Chuck wants me to pick one now but I just don't know. $5 million is a lot of money but I just don't know there are so many worth while causes" Blair replied.

XOXO

"Shh, its okay, Charlie. Shh, Mommy will be home soon" Chuck soothed, it didn't work and Charlie screamed at the top of his tiny lungs. Chuck turned to Monkey, who was looking at him with worried eyes. "Can you help me out, buddy?" Chuck asked his dog.

Monkey ran off and returned a few momets later with the singing Winnie the Pooh teddy. "Of course, Mommy uses this all the time. Look, Charlie" Chuck pressed a button that made the bear sing as he played with it and gave it to Charlie, who threw it furiuously away from him and continued to scream.

Monkey ran off to his basket in the kitchen. "Thanks for nothing" Chuck muttered to the dog uder his breath, Monkey put his paws over his ears.

Chuck turned back to Charlie. "I don't know what it is you want, Charlie. Daddy's changed your diaper and given you your bottle, I don't know what's up with you. You gotta help Daddy out here" Chuck said to Charlie who momentarily calmed down a little before continuing to sob. "Okay, Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird, I'm gonna give you the world. I'mma buy a diamond ring for you I'm sing for you I'll do anything for you to see you smile, and if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine I'mma break that birdy's neck..." Chuck stopped whe he realised that he was singing Eminem's version on 'Mockingbird' and not the nursery rhyme. Charle stared at him in confusion. "I'm sorry, that's the grown ups version. Now how does the Childs version go?" He asked himself.

Charlie still cried and so Chuck had to think fast. "Okay, I don't remember how that one goes. So...uh... let's make up our own song." Chuck announced. "Urm, Daddy owns this hotel, and a few more hotels and a strip club where Mommy danced for Daddy and then the rest is history...Where's your Mommy gone? She's with Aunty Serena having lunch at Daniel, then they'll go shopping and buy more clothes-" Chuck stopped singing his new song when he saw Nate walk into the room with a confused look on his face.

"Wow, I did not need to see or hear that" Nate laughed.

"Believe me, if there was another option, I would have done it. But I think he's mad at me, or Blair. He hasn't stopped crying since she left this morning" Chuck replied.

"Well, why don't you call her and ask her to come home?" Nate suggested.

"Are you kidding me? No! She'll never let me look after him again!"

"Well he is closer to Blair, maybe he just thinks she won't come back"

"Mommy's coming home, Charlie. She's just shopping with Aunty Serena" Chuck re-assured Charlie who's crying subsided. Chuck's phone began vibrating in his pocket and so he took it out before handing Charlie to Nate and checking the caller ID. "It's Blair. Shit!" Chuck muttered. Charlie began crying again and so Chuck looked desperaetley at Nate.

"It's okay Daddy didn't mean to swear" Nate soothed in his 'baby voice'. Charlie stared at Nate with the same confused look that was normally on Nate's face. "I think he likes me" Nate smiled.

Chuck answered the phone and put it to his ear. "Hey, Blair!" He answered enthusicastically.

Charlie began screaming again and both Chuck and Nate sighed.

"Oh my God is that Charlie?" Blair asked automatically alarmed. "What's wrong with him?"

"Urm...Urm..." Chuck had to think quickly. "He was asleep and then the sound of the phone ringing woke him up, he's fine, Blair. You don't need to worry" he lied.

"Oh, I'm sorry. How's he been?" Blair asked.

"Like a dream"

"Oh I'm so glad! Hey, put the phone near him" Blair told Chuck. Chuck complied.

"Charlie, it's Mommy on the phone" Chuck said to Charlie who was still crying uncontrollably.

"Hi, Charlie" Blair said through the phone. Charlie stopped crying and smiled when hearing Blair's voice, he gurgled a little. "Are you having fun with Daddy?" Blair asked in her baby voice. Charlie giggled, making Nate laugh. "Okay, well I gotta go but I'll be home soon baby, I love you" she replied before Chuck put the phone back to his ear.

"How do you do that?" He asked in amazement.

"I have a natural gift. Just like I have one for helping Serena pick the perfect dress which I think she just found. I have to go, I love you" Blair said into the phone.

"I love you too" he replied before ending the call. Charlie was happily smiling at Chuck now. Nate handed him back to Chuck who kissed Charlie on his forehead. Charlie reached his tiny hand up to touch Chuck's nose. "And just like that, my sweet little boy is back" Chuck laughed a little.

"How does she do that?" Nate asked.

"Blair has a natural ability to make everything seem as though it's going to be okay even if it seems like your world is falling apart" Chuck smiled down at Charlie.

"What do you mean?" Nate asked. Chuck looked up from Charlie, who was now playing with one of Chuck's fingers.

"When Blair was pregnant with Charlie, there were...complications" Chuck answered.

"What kind of complications?" Nate asked.

"I'm not supposed to say, Blair doesn't want anyone to know"

"Chuck, man you gotta tell me. I'm your best friend" Nate replied. Chuck sat down and handed Charlie a teddy. Nate sat down too.
"Okay, but you can't tell anyone, especially not Serena." Chuck warned.
"My lips are sealed." Nate agreed.

"A few weeks after we'd left Manhattan, Blair started to get sick. And it wasn't typical morning sickness sick, it was really bad. She was throwing up everything she ate and drank and she started getting really weak and fainting all the time so I took her to the hospital and they diagnosed her with severe Hyperemesis Gravida. It's a severe type of morning sickness and she'd been losing loads of weight so they had to put her on a drip and feed her through that and she was so thin and weak and pale it was awful to watch. Anyway, she got better sort of and the hospital let her go home and then one night, she was just three months pregnant and we were in bed asleep and she let out this awful scream, it sticks in my head even today and so I took her back to the hospital and they told us that she had placenta previa and the doctor said that the baby had leaned down and touched the side of it with his foot and it had detached a little bit, making her scream. And anyway, the doctors said they'd keep an eye on her and the baby and if something happened they'd let us know. So they kept her in hosiptal for like a month and then the doctors pulled me to the side and said that she was at a huge risk and that the safest option would be for her to have an abortion. So the doctors told her and we went home to think about it and..." Chuck trailed off as he began to think about what had happened that night...

"Chuck-" Blair said in a pained voice as she sat in a chair in the living room. It was the first time that she'd spoken since they had left the hospital. She had her hair down with loose curls still in it and was wearing and Abercrombie and Fitch t-shirt along with one of Chuck's grey hoodies and a pair of leggings and a pair of black Repetto flats. She had no makeup one. Chuck returned from the kitchen with a plate of dry toast and handed it to her.

"Here, you need to eat this" Chuck smiled as he handed her the plate. She placed the food on the table near her.

"I'm not hungry" she replied in a weak voice.

"Well you need to keep your strength up" he replied.

"Chuck. I know that your just trying to avoid what the Doctor said at the hospital, you can stop pretending. I know that you're upset" she replied.

"I'm okay. It's okay. We'll try again for a baby in a few months if that's what you want?" Chuck asked.

"What are you talking about, Chuck? I'm having the baby" she stated. Chuck froze.

"W-w-what?" He stuttered. "B-Blair, no! Y-you can't! The doctors said it's too dangerous"

"I don't care. I know the risks but I'm keeping the baby"

"Its not 'risks' Blair, you'll be in hospital all the time, you'll be sick and...Just no! No you are not doing this!" He was beggining to lose his temper now as he bent down on one knee and rested one hand on her thin knee.

"You can't stop me, Chuck. It's my decision" she replied calmly.

"Blair, the doctors said it to your face. YOU COULD DIE!"

"That doesn't matter"

"Well it matters to me! Blair I don't know what I'd do without you. You cannot leave me alone! Especially with a baby! You just can't"

"I have made my decision, Chuck" she said sternly. "I will not kill my baby"

"Its not 'killing' its protecting you" he replied with tears now fully formed in his eyes.

"I can't believe you are being like this, Chuck. This is your baby! You've seen it on the ultrasound machine, you've seen him or her moving inside of me!" She cried.

"Just stop! Blair, please don't do this to me. I'm begging you, please." The tears began to fall from his eyes as he took her hand in his and kissed it. "Please don't do this" his head fell onto her lap as he cried into it. "Please don't" he sobbed. Blair placed her fingers through his hair and patted him softly.

"I'm sorry, Chuck. I can't" she replied as a few tear drops fell onto his head. "I just can't do it"

He looked up at her and stared into her eyes. She lifted up her hands to cup his face but he shook them away and stood up and turned away from her.

"I'm going to go to bed, the Doctor told me I should rest. Goodnight, I love you" she said softly as she slolwy stood up from the chair and made her way slowly to the staircase, holding her small bump as she did so.

Chuck didn't even watch her leave but when he knew she had gone, he took the plate and tossed it against the wall with all of his strength. It made a loud SMASH as it broke into tiny pieces. He walked over to the dining table that had candles in holders and plates from a few nights before that Chuck had forgotton to clear away because he had been at the hospital. He swung for the candlesicks and they flew across the room, smashing. He then knocked each plate off of the table before picking up the vase of flowers and smashing them against the same wall as he had the first plate, sending baby pink peony roses flying across the room. He then went into the kitchen to get some scotch...

"She was so upset the next day when she came downstairs to find the smashed glass and china everywhere and me on the couch with an empty bottle of scotch" Chuck said. "But all she said was..."

"I'll call a maid to clean this mess up"

"No. I created it, I'll do it." Chuck replied quickly as he almost fell off the couch and began picking glass up. A shard cut his hand and he let out a list of swears. Blair quickly rushed into the kitchen to grab some antiseptic wipes and a bandage. She took his bloody hand and wiped it. Chuck swore again at the stinging pain of the antiseptic.

"Stop being a baby" Blair replied almost playfully and with a smile. Chuck looked down at her bump and her smile faded. "You look exhausted" she stated.

"You look sick but you don't seem to be paying attention to that" he replied bluntly.

"Chuck, I know what you must be thinking right now but I want you to respect my choice"

"Well I don't have a choice, do it? I don't have a say in any of this! So why should I?" He questioned her.

"You have every right to be upset with me, Chuck-"

"I'm not upset with you, Blair I'm furious! And confused!"

"I'm the baby's Mother, Chuck. It's my job to protect him or her"

"And it is my job to protect you, Blair! IT IS KILLING YOU! Why can't you see how selfish you are being? If you die, I'll be alone. And I couldn't live like that!" He said, annoyed.

"Chuck, I'm not going to die, I promise you. I love you and I'm right here. I'll never leave you" she promised taking her hand in his.

"You can't promise me that" he replied pulling his hand out of hers...

"We didn't speak for weeks after that" Chuck told Nate. "We'd just tip-toe around each other for weeks, not saying anything. I slept on the couch and she slept upstairs. She was getting healtier though and I had been asked to go back to the city for an important business meeting to do with Bass Industries and so she encouraged me to go, assuring me she'd be okay and so I was packing my things and she'd gone to get my passport from the safe and she came back in the bedroom and she looked as tough she was going to faint so I ran over to her, making sure she was okay and she was sick everywhere and then she told me she'd been feeling dizzy all day but she just assumed it was just the Hyperemesis Gravida and she was just having a bad day with it but then she collapsed so I rushed her back into hospital and the doctors told me she'd been under so much stress that the Hyperemesis Gravida had come back and was making her sick again so she had to go back on the IV line again..."

Chuck returned to the hospital room that Blair was in. She looked weak as she lay there. She smiled when she saw Chuck.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Chuck asked as he approached the bottom of her hospital bed.

"Dizzy" she answered. "And sleepy"

"It's probably what's in the IV line that's making you tired" he replied. "I spoke to the doctors"

"And what did they say?" She asked.

"That they'll be keeping you in for a few days to see how you do and then they'll take it from there"

"Great" she replied sarcastically.

"They told me that it was because we'd been fighting that the illness had taken its chance again and got the best of you" he told her.

"Typical"

"You should get some sleep. You need to keep your strength up"

"You should get going. You have your business meeting" Blair protested weakly but he walked over to her side and tucked a stray curl behind her ear lovingly.

"I'm not going. I'm going to stay right here" he answered as he pulled up the two arm chairs to make a makeshift bed, he the took a spare blanket and placed it on the chairs. "I'll be right here when you wake up" he smiled at her and she smiled back. "I won't let anything bad happen to you... either of you"

Blair gasped in shock. "W-what are you saying, Chuck?"

"If you want to keep the baby, then that's okay. I'm going to respect your decision. Whatever that decision may be, I'm here for you a hundred percent"" he replied.

"What made you change your mind?"

"I realised that I can't risk losing you. And if we keep fighting like we are, I will lose you and I could lose my child too, I don't want that to happen, I couldn't bear that" he told her. "I love you, Blair. I'm so in love with you it's unbelievable. And I know that I haven't said it to you in a long time but I do love you" he told her, noticing tears glistening in her big brown eyes.

"I know that. And I love you too" she smiled. Chuck smiled back as he touched Blair's tummy that was just starting to show signs of pregnancy. Blair's smile widened before she kissed him. She then lay down slowly and carefully and he pulled the blankets up to keep her warm. Once she was settled, he took his shoes and belt off and sat down on the chairs and removed his jacket to create a pillow. Her hand was stretched out as she slept and so he gently took it in his...

"Even after I'd said all of those things in the hospital to her...I still wasn't happy about her choice. I saw how sick she was getting. Some days she'd just sleep all day and she'd wake up and give me this look and she'd force a smile and then she'd fall asleep again. It was just awful, Nate" Chuck told Nate whilst still holding Charlie who was intently set on playing happily with his teddy.

"But something must have changed, I mean you love Charlie" Nate replied.

"Something did" Chuck replied...

"How have you been feeling today, Blair?" The Nurse asked with a smile.

"I'm okay" she smiled fakely. "Actually, Nurse there is something. I've been having this feeling in my stomach today, it's very strange" Blair added. Chuck was automatically alarmed, especially because this was the first time he'd heard anything mentioned of it.

"Blair, why didn't you tell me?" He asked, slightly upset but more concerned for her safety.

"Because I knew how you'd react. It's probably nothing to worry about" she replied.

"What does it feel like, Blair?" The Nurse asked.

"It doesn't hurt, it just feels weird. Like I'm being poked" Blair answered. "And it moves about"

"Okay, well lets do an ultrasound and then we'll know more, if you'd just like to lift up your shirt" the Nurse smiled turning the ultrasound machine on.

Blair lifted up her t-shirt. Blair looked at Chuck and smiled at him. He smiled back at her and she held out her hand for him to take and hold. He took it and kissed it before kissing her temple.

"I love you" He whispered into her ear as the Nurse took the bottle of gel and squirted it onto Blair's bump. Blair gasped at the cold gel before relaxing.

The Nurse pressed the scanner onto Blair's tummy and began moving it around a little. An image of a baby flickered onto the screen as it moved its arms and legs around. Blair and Chuck both stared intently at the screen and smiled at their child.

"There's its head and it's body" the Nurse told them pointing everything out. "Would you like to find out what you're having?" She asked.

"Do you want to find out?" Blair asked.

"Do you?" Chuck asked.

"No, I want it to be something to look forward too" She smiled. "Do you?"

Chuck's smile disappeared when he realised what she meant. She thought that if she didn't know if the baby was a boy or a girl then there was more of a chance that she would survive. It would give her body more of an incetive to survive.

"No" he answered quickly. "Is the baby okay?" Chuck asked. The Nurse nodded.

"The baby's absolutely fine" Doctor Ellison smiled. Blair and Chuck both let out a sigh of relief, the Nurse then wiped the gel off of Blair's stomach, and turned off the ultrasound machine. "I'll go and get you both a picture then I'll be back to asses the feeling that you're experiencing" she smiled before she exited the room.

Chuck could see a small blob of gel still on Blair's stomach and so he gently went to brush it off for her. As he put his hand of her belly, when something moved inside of her stomach. It kicked at his hand. They both gasped and their eyes both darted to her bump. She pressed her hands to her belly, just above Chuck's hands.

"Oh my God," She gasped.

"Blair?" He asked, eyes widened in concern. He needed confirmation.

It happened again. She blinked up at him and Chuck could see the tears glistening in her eyes.

"I can feel the baby kicking" he announced before he swallowed a hard lump in his throat. Keeping his hands placed gently on her stomach. His eyes staring at it.

"I-I...it's never done that before" She gasped in amazement.

"Oh my God" He gasped. "It-It's so strange, but a good kind of strange" He added in complete awe as the baby kicked at his hand again. He looked up at her. "Does it hurt?" He asked switching is attention from the baby to Blair. But she shook her head.

"No, it just feels...Well weird" She was still in shock.

She smiled and a teardrop fell down her face. He quickly wiped it away with is thumb.

"He knows who his parents are" she smiled.

Chuck and Blair began laughing and crying all at the same time and it was the first time Blair had seen Chuck truly happy since he'd found out she was pregnant. Even then he wasn't smiling this much. It looked as though he was about to burst with excitement. He leant down to kiss her bump and nuzzle his nose on it.

"I love you, mini Bass" he said to the baby. Blair had to choke back tears of joy.

"Oh, Chuck" she gasped. Chuck looked up and kissed her as passionately as he possibly could.

"I love the baby, Blair. And I love you! I love our family so much!" He cried with happiness, Blair thought he was going to do a little dance...

"Ever since that moment I've loved him unconditionally, I'm just so mad with myself that it took so long. Charlie never did anything wrong but I hated him for it, until I felt him kicking. After that I was like a whole new person. I don't know, maybe sometimes he knows what I was like before that day. How cold and selfish I was" Chuck said to Nate before looking down at Charlie who had a confused look on his face because his Father had a sad one on his. He slowly leant down and blew a raspberry on Charlie's tummy, making him scream with laughter. "Now Daddy loves you and Mommy more than anything in this world, yes he does" Chuck cooed befoe blowing another raspberry.

"The important thing is that your here for him now, Chuck. He knows you love him, everyone knows how much you love him" Nate smiled before noticing the time on his watch. "Oh God. I gotta go, I have Lacrosse practise and the coach will kill me if I'm late!" Nate exclaimed. "But hey, I know what you told me today hasn't been easy for you, but I'm glad you trusted me enough to tell me. Don't wory, I won't tell anyone what happened, I wouldn't dream of it" Nate smiled.

"Thanks, Nathaniel, it means a lot to me. And it feels good to finally get it off my chest to my best friend" Chuck replied as he stood up with Charlie. Nate hugged him, being careful not to crush Charlie.

"I'm always here to talk, Chuck. That's what best friends are for" Nate smiled before stroking Charlie's head and tickling his tummy, making Charlie giggle. "Goodbye, Charlie. See you soon little man" he smiled before heading over to the elevator, when he was gone, Chuck smiled at Charlie.

"I love you, Charlie. No matter what" Chuck assured his Son, holding him up to his face. Charlie put his short arm out to touch Chuck on his nose.

"So, what should the Bass men do while Mommy's away? I think you're a little young for the lost weekend" he laughed. Charlie smiled at his Fathers laugh. "Okay, how about we put you in your jungle gym thing and take it from there?" Chuck asked as he slowly went to put Charlie in his little jungle gym. Charlie smiled up at Chuck when he was lying down on his mat and began playing with the crinkley snake that was above his head. He then took a small teddy and began playing with that. Chuck smiled at his happily playing Son.

"Now, where has Monkey gone?" Chuck asked turning around to look for the dog when something hit him on his back. He turned aroud to see Charlie errupt wth laughter. "D-did you just throw that at Daddy?" Chuck asked, in amazement at how good his Son's shot was for a practically newborn baby.

Charlie giggled and threw his arms around and let out a high pitched scream of happiness. Chuck walked over to the jungle gym and knelt beside Charlie.

"Oh, so this is how its going to be is it?" Chuck asked as he quickly picked Charlie up and began twirling around with him in his arms. Charlie once again errupted with laughter and Chuck twirled him around again.

XOXO

Blair walked into the Empire's penthouse suite and looked around. It was silent. There was no crying baby or barking dog or cursing Chuck. It was peaceful. Blair let out a sigh of relief as she placed her shopping designer labelled bags on the pool table. Monkey came running over to see her and she patted him on his head.

"Hey, boy" she smiled. "Isn't it quiet?" She asked the dog before walking further into the living room to see Chuck, sitting on the couch with his feet up on the long part of the L shape of the couch. He appeared to be fast asleep, whilst protectively holding Charlie in his arms, whilst the infant slept soundly resting on his Fathers chest. Blair smiled and quickly whipped out her phone and snapping a picture before sending it to Gossip Girl.

XOXO

With Chuck and Charlie sleeping in the living room, Blair decided to take advantage of the peace and quiet and have a relaing bubble bath. She had just climbed out of her hour long soak and headed back into the living room after drying herself and putting her dressing gown on. She walked into the living room to see Father and Son still sleeping soundly. Chuck's phone suddenly buzzed on the table and Chuck jerked awake.

Blair giggled as Chuck realised his surroundings as he realised Charlie still sleeping on his chest. Chuck smiled at Blair before slowly sitting up. Charlie opened his big brown eyes to stare at the room around him.

"Hi, boys" she smiled. Chuck held his Son as he smiled at Blair.

"Hello, beautiful" Chuck replied.

Blair walked over to Chuck and Charlie and the baby stared up at his Mother.

"Hi, Charlie" she smiled stroking his cheek. Charlie squealed with delight and waved his arms around. Blair picked him up and gently kissed Chuck gently before standing up and patting Charlie on his back gently. She kissed her Sons head lightly.

"Did you have fun with Serena?" Chuck asked.

"I did. But the main question is 'Did you two have fun?'" She asked.

Charlie let out a loud laugh, making Blair and Chuck both smile and laugh.

"Did you keep Daddy entertained?" Blair smiled.

"He did, we had lots of fun" Chuck laughed.

Blair kissed Charlie on his head again as she rocked herself gently from side to side. She closed her eyes as she held him close to her.

"Are you okay?" Chuck asked her when he sensed her upset. She didn't reply. "Blair?"

She opened her eyes that were exactly the same colour as her Sons and stared at her fiance.

"It's nothing" she answered quickly before putting her head down again and closing her eyes.

"Hey, whatever it is you can tell me, Blair"

She re-opened her eyes after a few moments, but didn't look up at Chuck, instead she just stared at the top of Charlie's head.

"Today at lunch, I looked over at Serena and I felt so guilty Chuck. I felt awful" she admitted to him.

"About what?"

"Not telling her the whole story about why we didn't come back. How we almost didn't have Charlie" she replied.

Chuck stood up and walked towards Blair and Charlie. He put his hand under her chin and lifted her head uo so that she was staring into his eyes.

"If you want to tell her then you should" he smiled encouragingly.

"I can't. If we don't talk about it then it will just fade into the past" she faked a smile.

"But it won't fade if it's constantly on your mind"

"I'm scared, Chuck. I'm terrified of her reaction" Blair wiped away a fallen tear drop from her cheek with the back of her hand.

"Well it's your decision. And whatever you choose I will stand by you" he smiled before kissing her. "Speaking of choosing, did you decide on a charity?" He asked.

"No, I just can't think of one. There are just too many" she replied.

Chuck stared at Blair and Charlie for a moment before realising something. He smiled at his family.

"It's okay, I just thought of a worthwhile cause" he smiled before grabbing his BlackBerry from the coffee table. "I just have to go and make a phone call"

"Okay, I'll go and change Charlie then" she smiled back.

XOXO

"How do I look?" Chuck asked as he walked into the bedroom with a brand new traditional tuxedo with a navy bowtie to match Blair's dress. Blair turned around and her dress floated around with her as she checked Chuck's outfit for the evening over.

"Okay" she said before walking over to him and fixing his slightly wonky bowtie so that it was neatly in place. "There. Perfect."

"Just like you" Chuck smiled at her before shooting her a cheeky wink and a smirk.

"Just like our Son" she corrected walking over to Charlie ad picking him up from his Moses basket. Chuck noticed that his Son was wearing exactly the same outfit as he was, just one for a baby.

"Is the idea of us all having matching outfits so that if we lose him, everyone will know he's ours?" Chuck joked as Charlie waved his arms around in his new outfit.

"No, the idea of matching him is so that he looks just like his Daddy. Not that he needs an $800 suit to do, he's the spitting image of you" Blair smiled handing Charlie to Chuck when the infant began holding out for his Father.

"Daddy's little boy, plus you have the Bass jaw" Chuck smiled at Charlie who began gurgling something, the baby then lifted his hand up and touched Chuck on the cheek before smiling.

Blair smiled at her family. "Come on then boys. We don't want to be late"

XOXO

Everyone who was anyone was in the lobby of the Empire hotel as Blair and Chuck walked down the stairs, with Blair holding Charlie. A woman stopped the young family on the stairs so that the paparazzi could take their photo.

A waiter walked over to Blair and Chuck with a tray of champagne flutes that were filled with what Blair hoped was Dom 95.

"Champagne, Mr Bass and Miss Waldorf?" the waiter asked. Blair and Chuck both took the glasses and thanked the waiter before she walked off.

All of the guests gathered at the bottom of the stairs to listen to Chuck and Blair. Chuck smiled as he placed his hand on the small of Blair's back.

"Thank you all for coming tonight. Now, in an hour we will all be meeting on the rooftop for me to announce what charity I will be donating to this year, so on behalf of Blair and I, we all hope that you have a great time tonight, and have the oppertunity to meet and chat to some of the amazing charities here this evening. Cheers" Chuck smiled at Blair as the whole crowd cheered.

Lily smiled as she made her way to the front of the crowd whe Blair and Chuck walked down the stairs to meet her. Rufus was there too, as was Dan and Serena and Nate. Blair smiled as Charlie began gurgling at his parents loved ones.

XOXO

Blair, Chuck and Charlie had been at the party for about forty five minutes now and Blair had just spotted Anne Archibald amongst the crowd and so she handed Charlie to Chuck and followed Anne.

"Anne!" Blair declared as she swished through the party's crowd in her Ellie Saab floor length twilight coloured gown. Anne turned around and looked at Blair.

"Blair" she smiled fakely at the younger woman. "What do you want?"

"I was thinking about bringing up prenatal and antenatal government services at the next Girls Inc meeting, when is that by the way because I haven't been getting texts or e-mails from you about meetings" Blair smiled politely.

Anne laughed a little. "Blair, your not in Girls Inc anymore. Not after what you've done, you're a disgrace" Anne told her sharply.

"Excuse me?" Blair asked in shock and confusion.

"You heard me, Blair. You call yourself a lady? On the night of your engagement to a Prince, you slept with another man and he got you pregnant!" Anne snapped a little. "And then you ran away like a coward, and that goes for your knight in shining armour, Chuck as well"

Blair came closer to Anne. "With all due respect, Anne; you have absolutely no idea what happened and why I left the Upper East Side" Blair replied quickly and definsively.

"And what happened, Blair? You ran away to avoid a scandal? Because that is what it seems like to me"

"I'll tell you what happened, Anne. I found out I was pregnant, Chuck and I left the city to figure things out, but I got sick. I was severly dehydrated and I couldnt keep any food or fluids down and I kept collapsing and so I ended up in hospital being fed through a tube. Eventually, I got better and they let me go home. When I was seven months pregnant, one night I started bleeding and I collapsed, when I woke up, I was in the hospital and Chuck was teling me that I was going to have the baby that night. Before I knew it, I was having an emergency C-section. Charlie was so tiny, and he had to go in an incubator and have all of these tubes and wires in him. So don't you dare stand there and judge me from your high horse because you cannot even begin imagine what I went through those couple of months and why I left, so don't you dare judge me or my family!" Blair almost screamed with tears almost falling from her eyes.

She turned around to see that everyone from the party had stopped what they were doing to stare at her. Chuck carefully stood a few meters away. But Serena stood closer, staring at her best friend. Chuck began making his way over to Blair.

"Blair" Serena almost whispered.

Blair's teary eyes flickered from Serena to Chuck before they darted back to Serena.

"I-I'm so sorry" Blair tried to explain as her voice broke. "I was gonna tell you"

"Blair" Chuck said walking over to her. She shook away his hand whe it reached out to softly take hers.

"Don't, Chuck!" she snapped making his hand retreat. "I-I think I need some air" she added quickly before running out of the room. Serena started to run after her.

"Serena, wait!" Chuck shouted after the blonde, who spun around in fury.
"No, Chuck! My best friend is upset from a lie that you knew about and you said nothing!" Serena shouted.

"Because she told me not to!" Chuck defended through gritted teeth.

"I don't even have time for this, Chuck" Serena replied before running in the same direction Blair just had.

Gossip Girl: Spotted: B's baby blues. Who knew littl C caused so much drama before he was even born! But don't worry, baby; the tuths out now.

XOXO

Serena found Blair on the 8th floor lobby, sitting on a couch. She walked over slowly.

"Hey" Serena smiled.

"Hi" Blair returned.

"So, that talk with Anne was urm...eventful" Serena said sitting on the space on the couch next to the brunette.

"Yeah. To say the least" Blair replied wiping away her tears.

"B...Why didn't you tell me? You or Chuck?" Serena asked.

"I-It was a traumatic time, Serena. It doesn't even bear thinking about or explaining, to anyone. And if no one knew, that would mean that Charlie would never know" Blair explained.

Serena took Blair's hand in hers ad gave it a gentle squeeze.

"I can't imagine what you and Chuck must'e gone through. And it would've only been made worse by not having your best friend by your side" Serena smiled.

"I didn't want you seeing me like I was. It was horrible. It almost killed Chuck, I could see it in his face, in his eyes when he'd look at me. It was like one wrong word and I'd break into a million pieces" Blair explained.

"Well, the main thing is that you and Charlie are okay. But you and Chuck will never be alone again, okay? Nate and I will always be here, no matter what"

Blair smiled and rached out to hug her best friend.

"Thanks, S. I love you" Blair smiled against her best friends golden hair.

"I love you too, B" Serena smiled before pulling out of the hug and taking Blair's hand. "Come on, we need to get you back to the party. Or should we just head straight to the rooftop?" Serena asked.

"The rooftop, it will be starting in a few minutes"

XOXO

Blair and Serena walked onto the rooftop to see that everyone was already out there. All of the guests turned their heads to see them when they arrived. Chuck was standing with a brunette in a black long dress and was having a deep coversation with Chuck about something. Chuck was holding Charlie who was lookig around for his Mother. The brunette woman looked over at Blair and then pointed her long thin finger at Blair, causing Chuck to turn around and stare at Blair. They just stared at each other before he smiled at her.

Blair ignored the gossiping guests as she made her way through the crowds and over to her family. Serena left her to go and stand by Nate's side.

"Hi" Chuck smiled kissing Blair softly.

"I'm sorry" she apologised before kissing Charlie on his forehead.

"You don't have to apologise for anything, it's not your fault. It was Anne's"

"I can't believe I anounced everything in front of everyone!" she exclaimed.

"At least it's all out in the open now" he smiled.

"Yes I suppose. Hey, you never did tell me what charity you picked" she replied.

"You'll find out now" he smiled at her before kissing her again.

The brunette woman that Chuck was talking to earlier was now at the speaking podium, clearing her throat. The whole crowd fell silent when they saw her.

"On behalf of Manhattan's philanthropic community, thank you all for coming. Now, I know that we are all dying to hear Charles Bass' speech, so without further ado, Mr Bass!" The brunette exclaimed and the crowd cheered.

Blair kissed Chuck on his cheek. "Good luck, I love you" she smiled against his lips. Chuck smiled and handed Charlie to his Mother before making his way up to the podium.

"Look at Daddy, Charlie" Blair smiled as she took her sons tin hand in her and waved at Chuck. The baby gurlgled and squealed with delight as he began kicking his feet. Chuck smiled at the crowd and quickly winked at Blair before clearing his throat.

"Thank you, Alexandra" Chuck thanked the woman as he kissed her on the cheek, she then left to join the rest of the crowd and Chuck continued. "There were just so many worthwhile charities for this year's event, I had a difficult time in choosing just one. So I went to someone who I knew would know the answer. Someone who is a wonderful inspiration not just to me but to people everywhere, especially young women. She is also the bravest person I know and I hold a particular fondness for her. She showed me that it's okay to fall in love and she loved me when I thought no one else did."

Blair gasped. "Oh my God"

"And she gave me a Son, who I could not imagine my life without. Ladies and gentlemen, tonight it is my great pleasure to announce a new charity; The Blair Waldorf Foundation. I will be donating $15 million to Miss Blair Cornelia Waldorf. It is then in her discretion to do whatever she wants with the money and hopefully, make a difference. So introducing, Miss Blair Waldorf" Chuck said as he raised his glass of champagne to Blair.

Serena rushed over to take Charlie from Blair. "I'll take him" the blonde smiled.

"Thank you, did you know about any of this?" Blair asked.

"Nope" Serena smiled. Blair kissed Charlie on the head again before handing him to Serena and making her way over to the stand as the crowd applauded her.

"Surprise, baby" Chuck smiled as he kissed her on the cheek before leaving the stand.

Blair cleared her throat as she scrambled to think of what to say. She was utterly speechless.

"Wow, I wasn't expecting any of this" she started. She was running out of things to say already. "When Chuck first told me about choosing a charity this year I thought that he would've chosen one almost instantly"

She looked over at Chuck and Charlie and suddenly it hit her. She knew why Chuck had done this she smiled at him as she laughed a little.

"But I know what I'm going to do with the money. Our Son, Charlie was actually born from a difficult birth and so I will be using the money to set up a foundation that helps with dealing with the aftermath of complicated births and babies born with birth defects. As a Mother, this is an issue that I hold very close to my heart and I don't think that it is recognised enough" Blair announced as she looked over at Chuck, Charlie and Serena. Serena had hold of Charlie's arm and was waing at Blair.

"Look at Mommy" Serena smiled.

The crowd errupted with applause as Blair smiled and stood and took it all in. She couldn't beleieve that Chuck had done that for her. It was increible! She made her way back to her table and kissed Chuck passionately.

"Thank you" she smiled against his lips.

XOXO

It was getting late now and Blair had taken Charlie upstairs to Dorota as he was falling asleep and so that her and Chuck could still join the party. A woman, a few years older than Blair's walked over to Chuck and Blair.

"Miss Waldorf" she greeted the couple, causing them to turn around.

"Yes?" Blair asked.

"I just wanted to say that I loved you speech today, yours too, Chuck. It was so inspirational, it was just amazing. I think your charity is incredible" the woman smiled.

"Thank you" Blair smiled.

"Your Son is abdorable! You should be very proud of him" the woman replied.

"Thank you, he's just wonderful. Were so lucky" Chuck beamed.

"Its incredible how a child can change your life style choice, isn't it? Before my daughter was born I hated kids! Now I love them! They just make you so much more aware of things and so much more mature about decisions"

Something hit Blair, making her feel awful. She forced a smile for the woman.

"Yes it really does" Chuck agreed.

"Well, I just wanted to come and say that, thank you for this amazing party, Chuck" she smiled before walking off.

Blair turned to Chuck, who was smiling. "Well that was nice" Chuck smiled.

"Yeah, it was lovely...urm...I have to go somewhere, will you be okay here by yourself for a while?" She asked.

"Sure, where do you have to go?" He asked. "I'll go with you-"

She cut him off. "No, I have to do this myself. I have to make something right"

"Okay" he agreed before taking her hand. "Blair, is everything alright?"

"Yes, everything is fine. There is just something I have to do, for me and Charlie. I won't be long" she replied kissing him.

XOXO

Blair walked up to the grimaldi home and smiled at the doorman.

"Evening, Ms Waldorf" the doorman smiled.

"Evening, Gregory. I assume Mr Grimaldi is home?" Blair asked in a sweet voice.

"Yes, he is in his apartment" Gregory smiled before opening the door for Blair, who walked inside.

She knocked on Louis' door lightly with her small hands. He answered it a moment or two later with a smile on his face which immediatley vanished when he saw who his guest was.

"Hi, Louis" She spoke softly.

"Blair Waldorf" he greeted. "Or is it Bass now?"

Blair sighed. "I was just wondering if I could maybe come in and we can talk? I'm not expecting you to forgive me, I would just really like a chance to explain everything." She announced.

He thought about it for a few moments before nodding his head and allowing her inside his apartment. She walked over to large white leather couch and sat on it oppsosite from him. She took a deep breath before speaking softly.

"I had no intention of getting pregnant or staying away for as long as I did" she began but he cut her off.

"So you really did just forget about me that quickly?" He asked.

"I did not forget about you" She quickly stated.

Louis sighed and looked down to his hands. "I just wish you'd told me where you were. I was worried sick, so was your Mother and Serena, we all thought that something terrible had happened to you"

"I can only imagine how betrayed you must be feeling right now, Louis. I'm so sorry that I kept you in the dark, it was never my intention but things just spiralled out of control so quickly and I just didn't know what to do." Louis noticed tears forming in her brown eyes. "But I can't control my feelings, no matter how hard I try its always Chuck that I go back to." She continued. "I love him, Louis. I'm sorry that I have to tell you that but I am. And he's a completely different person now" she smiled slightly at the thought of Chuck holding Charlie in his arms.

"Because he has to be!" Louis snapped. "He can't not be! He's put himself in a hole because he got you pregnant and he's destroyed everything for us so now he can't back away especially because of the child! You know that he has to be different now because he's a Father!" Louis almost shouted staring at her intensively. "Wether he'll be a good one is an entirely different story!"

"Chuck is an amazing Dad to Charlie. He's been wonderful. With all due respect, Louis you have no idea how hard it is being a parent!" Blair hit back automatically.

"No your right, Blair. I don't because I don't run around sleeping with my ex's on the night of my engagement!"

"I know that you're angry, and I don't expect you to ever udertsand, Louis. But Chuck and I have a Son now. And I love him so much its unbelieveable. I love them both. But I'm so sorry about everything that happened with us. I think I should go now" she said standing up and exiting the room.

XOXO

Blair Waldorf walked into the penthouse suite to see Dorota reading a book on the couch.

"Hi, Dorota" Blair greeted. Dorota looked up from her book.

"Miss, Blair! You are home!" Dorota announced surprised.

"Where is my baby boy?" Blair asked.

"He with his Papa, Miss Blair" Dorota answered pointing to the bedroom door.

"Chuck's here?"Blair asked slightly confused that he wasn't still at the bar or overseeing the clearing up of the party. Blair smiled at Dorota when she nodded her head yes. "You can go home now, Dorota. Thank you" Blair thanked walking into the bedroom and leaning against the door frame. Suddenly, it all came flooding back to her...

Blair walked into the incubator room to see Chuck standing over an incubator with a tiny baby inside. The baby was breathing rapidly and had many tubes and wires stuck to its tiny body. He had a little white hat on and was sleeping. Blair looked over to the name card, BASS. The baby was holding onto Chuck's finger as he slept. Chuck looked up to see Blair standing there. His eyes were bloodshot and his suit was crumpled up with his tie lose and his top button was not done up, he was starting to get the stubble of a beard. He looked exhausted, and as though he had been crying. He had only had a few hours of sleep for the last few days, she didn't blame him, she wouldn't be able to sleep if it wasn't for those powerful painkillers the doctors had put her on for the constant pain still throbbing in her stomach.

"Blair" he greeted. "You shouldn't be out of bed"

"I wanted to see my baby again, Chuck. The midwife said it was okay, just as long as I'm careful" Blair replied.

"Well he's sleeping" Chuck smiled as Blair slowly walked over to him and her child. "The Doctors said that in a few days, he might be able to breathe on his own"

A huge smile broke out across Blair's face. "Really?"

"What if he doesn't make it though, Blair? What if our baby can't survive on his own?" He said this without looking up at Blair so that she wouldnt see his tears.

"We can't think like that, Chuck. He's going to survive and he is going to be okay. And we are going to take him home and he is going to get so much love" She took Chuck's hand. "And we are going to be a family"

Chuck quickly wiped away his tears before looking up at her. "Thank you" he smiled.

She smiled before leaning her hand through the circle and into the warm incubator to brush her fingertips against her Sons tiny cheek.

"I want to name him Charlie" she announced smiling at her Son. "Because he is just like his Father, he's strong and he is not giving up"

Chuck paused to think for a moment before turning his head to Blair and smiling. "Charlie, I like that" Chuck smiled.

"Hi" Blair whispered to him as she walked inside the bedroom and over to him and a sleeping Charlie. Chuck looked up as she approached him and smiled at her softly when she rested her hand on his arm.

"Blair thank God your home. I was starting to get worried about you" he replied taking her hand that was resting on his arm. "God, your freezing. Where did you go?" He asked.

"I'm sorry I'm back so late. I went to see Louis" she answered looking down at Charlie.

"Why?"

"Because I realised that I need to start taking responsibilities for my actions. I left for months without even telling him and then I retured with my ex boyfriend and a baby. It must have been so confusing for him. I at least owed him an explanation and an apology" she replied.

Chuck didn't reply. He just stared down at Charlie.

"Are you angry with me?" Blair asked confused. Chuck looked at her and smiled.

"No, no of course not. How could I ever be angry with you, huh? You're perfect" he cupped her face in his hands. "And I love you" he kissed her lips softly. "I just wish you told me you were going there. I could have come with you to make sure you were okay, I could have been there if you needed support"

"You've done way more good here than you could have if you came with me to the embassy. You made sure that Charlie was okay and that the party was a success and I love you for that" she smiled.

"Its been a busy few days" he smiled at her making her giggle a bit.

"Yeah tell me about it. As long as Charlie is okay though that's the main thing that's important" she replied.

"Yes it is" he replied wrapping his arm around her shoulder and pulling her in close to him. She fell against his chest and listened to his beating heart before she twirled Charlie's mobile around making it play a nursery rhyme. They both smiled as they watched Charlie sleeping peacefully.

XOXO

AN: So I'm thinking about bringing Bart into this story in the next few chapters but let me now what you think in your reviews! Xoxo-Beth.