'Where the end and the beginning meet...'

Chapter 1: I've been here before, It's all I ever know.

The flame flickered over Tsuna's hands, his rage was higher then it ever had been. He had blood on his clothes, and all he could do was think to fight. "Why...!" He cried out and slammed his hand into the person's face throwing them against the ground. The flame flickered, as rain started to fall, the person didn't move. He fell by her side, and took her pale and cold hand in his. He had failed to keep her safe, out of this world, her blood was on his hands. The water mixed with the blood on his face, as he screamed, the flames seemed to react to his rage. And as they grew, his eyes changed to a flame like color, the rage flickered through them. "Tenth!" Gokudera and the others surfaced out of the pouring rain, his eyes flickered over her dead body, and the blood that stained Tsuna's clothes. He looked at them, and started to fall, only to feel strong arms catch him. Gokudera was a fast person, and he scooped the Tenth up, not reacting to the flames that licked at his body.

"Do something about that..." He hadn't trusted that girl from the day they met her, and now look what had happened. Tsuna was clinging to Gokudera, almost like he was having a nightmare. Something wasn't right about what had happened, she was gone right or was this just the beginning?

~Tsuna's Dream~

The boy was floating in the dark, it was black he couldn't see anything but a flickering flame. He turned and faced the flame as it formed into a person. "You killed me Tsuna! bear my curse...Haha..." the girl's black hair flicked in a invisible wind as Tsuna was tossed backwards. He saw a golden flame, and felt soft yet strong hands catch him. As he turned he saw a familiar face, but the name was escaping him. "Don't let her trick you Tsuna...be prepared..." Tsuna looked at him, and blinked when he snapped his fingers in front of his face. 'It's time you awoke...the world is waiting...' With that he seemed to flick his hand over Tsuna's chest as if he was drawing something, and Tsuna felt his body land on a soft surface.

~end of dream~

Tsuna jumped out of the bed, his feet colliding with the cold floor. He bounced up and tried to find a warm part of the floor. "Ow ow cold!" He found slippers to cover his feet, and slipped them on, he walked out of his room and he had no idea why he was so tired now. "How long was I asleep...?" He looked to see the others sitting at the table, and he was using the wall to hold himself up. Just because of how tired his body was feeling at this point. He looked at the clock and realized he was late for school, as he raced down the stairs grabbing a piece of toast. "I have to go! Bye Gio I'm late..." He raced out the door, it had been years since he had that dream.

Since he had moved in with Gio, he had felt the arms wrap around him, and it was just that way, and he was living here ever since. He didn't like to talk about that day, or what had happened there. "Alright be careful!" He handed the boy his lunch thing, and waved to him as he left. Tsuna was going to hope to avoid Enma today and not see him. It would be better that way, things would just get even more complicated if he took more time. And ran into him, that was just not what he wanted, they were not on good terms. 'Havent' seen him yet...so that's good...' He walked closer, and slipped around the gate, he wanted to get out of here.

But he heard that one familiar voice and jumped almost out of his clothes. "E...Enma..." He had wanted to avoid him, and it looked like it had failed. "Hey Tsuna! come on we should get to class..." He held onto Tsuna's hand and he waved to Gokudera being dragged away. He didn't know why he was putting up with this maybe he should have just kept on walking and ignored him. Not that it would help him if he had left. "So we are hanging out at lunch today aren't we?" he was not looking to happy with Tsuna, maybe it was because he had ditched him yesterday he wasn't sure. He was sick and he had to go home, but there was nothing he could have said.

That was unless he decided to say he wasn't feeling good and had been taken out of school. Instead of hanging out with Gio at the house. It was something they had been planning for weeks, and Enma was trying to keep him from it. And he hadn't listened to him instead, and now he had to be punished by the look on Enma's face. "I'm sorry I was busy yesterday...and I have homework..." Enma grabbed Tsuna's arm, and dug his nails into it, drawing blood. "Don't think you will be getting away from me today...we have plans...stick to them..." Tsuna nodded, he had to protect those close to him. And Enma had a habit of threatening them and he was in no mood of dealing with that this time.

"Good Boy now get to class" Enma forced the boy against the wall, and took a bite at his neck leaving a mark there. He quickly moved away and covered up the mark. As he walked into the bathroom, he removed his hand from it. "He had to leave a mark again..." He was not happy about this and did his best to pull his shirt over it and make sure no one would be able to see it. He didn't want anyone to know about it, or what had happened it was better if they didn't know. '...that isn't helping...' He sighed and walked back out towards his classroom, Gokudera was sitting there waiting for him.

"Hey Tenth where did you go?" He just smiled and waved, didn't want to bring it up. "Oh he just wanted to talk to me about a project I have to work with him at lunch..." He really didn't want to go there, he wanted to get out of going there it was better if he did. That way he didn't have to deal with but then the others would get hurt and he didn't want them to get hurt. It was why he put up with this and the way things were going between the two of them. "Oh uh okay...Well we should sit down!" He sat down near the Tenth, in a way to keep Enma away from him, and yet he wanted to just see if there was something up with him.

Cause he really felt like something was off with the Tenth, he was never like this. Not that he remembered anyway and he didn't want to miss something by the off chance there was something really wrong. '...I don't trust that kid why is Tenth hanging around with him...?' The bell rang and Tenth moved away, vanishing from the room without even saying much of a word. It was lunchtime anyway, and he was tired, he wanted to get some rest.

"What are we going to start with?" He sat on the desk in the classroom, after all it was lunch, the early part of the day had flown through pretty fast. And he hated it, he hadn't told anyone else that he should have. Now he was stuck here and trying to get away was impossible. "Oh just a little fun..." He dug his nails into Tsuna's arm near the old wounds, and shoved him onto the table. The room was locked, and the windows were blacked out, or well the curtains were closed. Not that anyone would be able to see in the rooms anyway, since it was too hard to see it. There was nothing that would get in his way now. He would get his fun that he hadn't gotten before because of Tsuna's foolish family.

"Wait Enma..." the kid tried to shove him away, a fierce blush coating his face. He couldnt' believe he was trying to do this, nor did he want to think about it. The kid struggled but Enma was holding him down slipping his hand under his clothes. "You won't escape didn't I tell you that already? or did you forget that?" Tsuna whimpered, and struggled away, he accidently rubbed his leg against Enma's inner thigh, getting a moan out of the male. He hadn't meant to do that, but there was nothing that was going to help him from here. He had to be careful, and just let this go as it did. "keep fighting me boy...and those little family members you hold so dear won't last much longer..." He didn't want any of them to die, but he had to put up with this if he wanted to save them.

He just stopped fighting and let Enma do as he pleased, though his mind was confused, and didn't like that feeling of guilt that kept on growing. He winced feeling Enma's hand slip into his pants, he hated this it was just so Enma would get his pleasure. Other then that this meant nothing to him, and he just struggled hearing the bell ring. "I have to go..." He heard Enma hiss and felt him punch him in the face, he was thrown back into the wall, the bruises he didn't like the thought of that, it hurt him more then he wanted to mention. "Get out of my sight...do not think you are done..."

Tsuna grabbed his shirt, looking over the bruises that stained his arms and chest, he was in pain now. But he just walked out of there after slipping his shirt back on and acted like nothing had happened. "Ow..." He wiped the blood from his mouth, making sure it was on the inside of his pocket, so no one else could see it. And not like Gio would notice that it was on the inside of his pocket unless he decided to do his laundry this time. "Can't wait for today to be over...hopefully can get home without a problem..." His mood was shot, Enma had been doing that to him a lot lately, or trying to. And he refused to let him be the one who took what was important to him.

But then he was no longer as innocent as he might have been, now he was stuck with this. To bear this all alone, and he wouldn't let anyone get in the way. His mental state was already messed up, and Enma knew the reason why. He had a habit of mentioning when they were alone, and using it against him, one of the many things he did. 'Sawada...' He heard a voice in his head, like someone was listening to his thoughts, he didn't know why but the voice was familiar. He was sure he had heard it before, maybe during a certain fight, he wasn't so sure of it now, he just had to be careful.

'Ugh my head...' He leaned back in the chair, his eyes meeting the teachers as he fell backwards. "Eep! ow..." He hit his head on the desk behind him, as he fell to the floor. He could feel eyes on him, it was Gokudera, Yamamoto the teacher and some of the students. "That's no good Tsuna for you..." He just smiled and laughed pulling himself up off the ground. "I'm alright heh...just wasn't paying attention..." He sighed and moved to sit back in his seat looking out the window. Time was going by way to slow, he disliked that, but now even more then before.

'Just dream it away...' He seemed to keep his eyes open but he was half asleep, almost like his body just passed out with his eyes open. It was no surprise he just wanted to get out of here and go get some rest. He could feel hands shaking him, trying to get him to wake up. "Tenth school's over wake up..." They had realized he was asleep halfway through the class and had covered for him. Even if they didn't get the questions right at least he didn't get in trouble for being asleep. He was not much awake when he opened his eyes. His vision was blurry and he was trying to figure out what he would do. "Tired...what happened?" He didn't mean to fall asleep, it had just happened but he just let it go.

"We should go~ Gio said mother was coming over and bringing some of her food..." He had missed his mother's food for so long, but he knew she was busy where she was and he was supposed to be training as the head of the family underneath Gio, and keep his friends safe. "Oh yea you told me about that? Yea let's go!" Gokudera and Yamamoto always followed him home now, whether it was to protect him. Or just because they liked being around him. He didn't think about that all that much, but things were happening neither of them could understand and he never talked about.

He walked out of the school, he hadn't seen Enma around maybe he was busy that was all he could hope for, no one had questioned what had happened at lunch. Or the mark on his face, he just said he had run into a door, if anyone looked at him or asked. It was much better if they thought he was the one who had hurt himself, it would keep them out of this. "I hope she makes those noodles she made last time!" He was talking excited like about the food she was going to make. He didn't even think about what had happened earlier, he couldn't wait to get back. He went to open the door but his mother already had and she was hugging him, almost to the point of where he couldn't breathe. "It's nice to see you too mother...but...can't breathe..."

She jumped back and let him go. "Oh I'm sorry Tsuna! I just missed you here the food's set up in the kitchen already." She had set it up just a few minutes before he had gotten out of school, after all she had been cooking all day with the help of Gio when he wasn't working on something in his room. "It smells so good! I've missed your cooking mother..." He sat down at the table, after putting his bag away. He was starving also since he had skipped lunch, and would probably eat more of this food, and whatever he was going to do later. He had his homework to finish, but it could wait and that would be the end of it, if he didn't pass out before that.

"Well eat up Tsuna!" She placed a plate in front of him, and set out two more for his friends. Then two for I-pin and Lambo, the plate for Giotto was sitting on the counter behind them. "Who are those two for?" He didn't think anyone else was here, he had to wonder who it was. "Oh I-pin and Lambo came back with me. They should be around here somewhere." Knowing those two they would come running, and just as he thought that, he felt like someone or two someones jump on him. "Tsuna!" They sat on his lap for a minute then climbed over the table onto there spot sitting down.

"Hello you two." He smiled, acting as if everything was alright, looking around and that was that. There had to be a reason for this, the feeling of pain he had. But no he didnt' care, he was going to figure out what was about to happen. "Giotto are you going to eat with us?" He pointed to the plate next to him and then looked to the seat he wanted him to eat with them, it was only usually him and Tsuna. But Giotto was usually working and Tsuna always fell asleep before they actually got any food. He rubbed his forehead his headache was back. And he was full of food, literally. This was well worth skipping lunch for, Gokudera and Yamamoto had gone home already and his mother was leaving after cleaning up.

"Well um I'm going to do my homework..." He slipped a knife into his shirt as he moved upstairs, his eyes seemed empty for a minute almost like nothing had happened. "Alright Tsuna. If ya need help just ask." Giotto picked up a piece of paper and started to scribble on it, probably something for another thing he was working on. "Hm...he seems out of it...I'll see you later...feel free to let yourself out..." He handed her some food for the way home, since he figured Lambo and I-pin would be hungry again, and he didn't want to have her cook again, after she had done all of this for Tsuna.

~Up in Tsuna's room~

He sat down against the door, and held onto the knife looking at his wrist, he wanted to get out of here. There was nothing that he could have said, something had to be done, and that was just the end of it. He let the blade touch his skin and didn't know what to do next. He was worried, and he heard that knock on his door. "Ow..." He muttered the knife had cut into his skin and he hated it. "Whose there?" He didn't know what was going to happen, there was something bad going on, and now someone had to get in his way. "Mind letting me in?" Giotto asked, he was worried about Tsuna. The boy didn't seem like himself, and now he was up here to find out what happened.

"Um yea just give me a minute..." He sighed and put the knife away to hide it, he wrapped up his wrist trying to clean it up, he didn't want to let anyone see the mess. As he moved to open the door. "What's up? Was just doing homework.." he didn't know if he would see the blood or any of it, he just acted like everything was alright.

"Has something happened? You seemed depressed earlier?" He wanted to know if something was wrong, but Tsuna just shook his head like it was nothing. "I'm alright just tired lately..." He moved to sit down on the bed, and picked up a pencil to start working on his homework. He felt the bed move next to him, and looked up at Giotto. Did he know something had happened, and if he did what would happen to him next?

Author Notes: Well the end of this one, yes I made Enma seem evil...this is cause well I'm ticked off and annoyed with how my life is right now. And so i'm putting all my rage into this thing, and yet it'll improve later. ^^