Bleed Me a Melody

His eyes are dark as I stare at him from across the room, he doesn't think I notice what he's doing but I do. I always have. It's not that well hidden – the stitches, the bandages, the scars. All of it is on show, just to see if someone will turn around one day and ask what's wrong. Just to see if someone actually cares. Well, I do. And I always will.

I sit on the small step outside of his dorm room and look it the window above before allow my eyes to turn black. Sighing to myself as I watch his eyes fill with tears, I knew what was coming next, I knew what he would do, I just couldn't stop him, I couldn't do anything to make him turn around and put down that damn knife and it killed me every time I saw him because I can't bring it up, I can't stand up for myself.

I'm just there, no one really takes notice of me when the other's are around and because of that I allowed myself to become invisible and now...now I can't even help my best friend, my brother, when he needs me most. I can't stop the sudden need he has to see if someone cares by trying this almost every night.

The next day, at school, we sit next to each other in English and I watch him fidget with his sleeve sadly. I smile over at him and he looks over to me with blue eyes shining with tears. He squeezes my shoulder and smiles at me; his pale skin was cold as he touches my cheek. We were one of the only people here and we sat right at the back, no one took notice of us. He leans into me and gently brushes his lips against my forehead softly. His lips are chapped but warm as I close my eyes like we did when we younger.

This was his apology, and because of this I thought he was going to stop, I thought that maybe I had gotten through to him without noticing but if that was true, why would I be writing this? Why would I be informing you people of the pain you caused to someone to perfect for your eyes to see? He was everything you all could dream of being but you will never know that because you never gave him a real chance and now, I can't give one to myself. So, this is goodbye, you will always be my friends but Reid was my family and now he's gone. And so am I.

~ Tyler N. Simms