Epilogue

Its been three months since Rin killed Len. As expected from Len's passing, the murders of the brothel's patrons ceased to be and peace settled back to the neighbourhood.

Shortly after those horrific events, Rin and I chose to wave goodbye to our careers as prostitutes. Using the substantial amount of money that we possessed, we found ourselves a small, quaint house to reside in. Unfortunately, as much as I want to reveal the dirty, little secrets to a glorious fairytale esq happily ever after, I can't. Why? Because reality sucks.

On that tragic night, once Rin's cries for her brother had dried up, she had insisted on visiting her home. Just like Len had revealed, we found Rin's father lying facedown in a lake of dried up blood. I spent the rest of that night by Rin's side in that icy room, as mournful raindrops started to pour once again.

Meiko arranged a joint funeral for the two deceased Kagamines that was held a few days later. A bunch of unfamiliar faces to me payed their respects to their lost comrades in a tragically beautiful ceremony.

I had anticipated that Rin would choose to also offer up some final words but instead, she remained eerily silent during the entire service. She'd been in that state ever since the morning after murdering Len. I believed her emotionless manner was just apart of her grief mechanisms and that the usual Rin would soon be restored. I was terribly wrong but more on that later.

In case you're curious about what's become of the surviving members of this tale and how they were affected by Len's ramage then I'm here to spill all the juicy news. If you don't care, then, well, whatever. I'm telling you anyway, so pay close attention.

First up: the Kiyoteru group.

Coincidentally, the same day that I moved out of the brothel was the same day Kaito had popped in for a visit. After the dramatic commotion that had taken place at Miki's birthday party, I hadn't seen even a single thread of Kaito's blue hair since then. So, yeah, I will admit to being more than a little flabbergasted to be reunited with my old friend.

No, he wasn't there for some sleazy thrill. His objection was only a simple chat with me, for old time's sake, before we were due to permenently depart from each others lives.

I learnt from him about how Lily had struggled to come to terms with being a widower and dealing with being a single parent. She still hadn't fully recovered from Kiyoteru's betrayal when the news of his passing had journeyed to her ears but with the guidance of her younger sister, Miki, she somehow found the strength to be strong. If only for the sake of her precious daughter, Yuki.

Miki also eventually forgave Kaito for his lustful ways and the pair gave their relationship a fresh start. Miki's reasoning behind this was simply due to witnessing how Lily would never be able to discover if her marraige could of been salvaged. Miki's heart was still fond of Kaito and so, she allowed Kaito to take baby steps back into her world. Life was too short to bear an angry grudge, after all.

Yeah, I know that there's that classic saying 'once a cheater, always a cheater' but in my honest opinion, I think Miki made the right decision. Because in my brief final chat with the my former flame, I could instantly spot the changes in him. Compared to when he had been my personal favourite client, constantly joking about how much of a delicious fiend he was; the reformed Kaito spoke about his love for Miki in such a sincere and tender manner. I almost thought I was hallucinating because I used to believe that he would remain a dirty, sleezebag for his entire life.

As for the uberly eccentric Yowane Haku, she's still as creepy as ever. She continues to run her weird store and I do drop by occasionally. Actually, there has been a slight change regarding Haku. Not with anything she's done but just with my opinion of her changing from one of tiny fear to one of respect. She's a tough, mature cookie who refuses to allow any hardships to break her down. She kind of reminds me of Meiko. Maybe that's why the've always given me the impression that they were close buddies.

Speaking of Meiko, yup, she still runs the brothel. Of course she had to recruit some new girls to replace the gaps Rin, Luka and I left behind but she frequently comes around to check up on her retired girls.

Gakupo's little sis, Gumi, is another frequent visitor. She especially tends to hang around Rin. Maybe I should be jealous of her or something? She could be attempting to steal Rin away from me. Kidding, kidding...maybe.

Okay, seriously, though, Gumi's pretty much my best friend these days. She knows everything, including what Rin and I used to do to earn a living. Obviously that tidbit of info shocked her but she swiftly made a full recovery and is now a valuable asset.

Personally, I believe that the whole reason Gumi decided to devote part of her time to Rin and I is due to Gakupo. She understood that Rin had been extremly important to her older brother and most likely believes that staying by Rin's side will allow her to remain conected to her deceased brother.

As for my former mentor, I obtained one more letter from her. Reading the elegantly scripted letters, I learnt of how Luka's dream to enjoy a typical, ordinary life had been fufilled. Her penmanship recited tales of the friendships she had formed, the building she know called home and of her occupation as an asssistant to an elderly tailorshop owner.

Near the bottom of the slip of paper was a section devoted to stating her address, should I ever desire to chase after my pink haired pal. I tore that segment out before using my hands to rip it into little, bitty pieces and therefore removing any temptations to abandon my precious, irreplacable Rin. Especially when she needs me most.

You see, Rin's heart had been shut off and she was no longer the same as before. No longer the person who had captured my heart. The fragmented images of seeing her dead twin and father shattered her soul, only leaving behind the pathetic shell of a broken doll.

Nowadays, Rin barely utters a word and fails to express even an inkling of emotion. During the first month after Len's death, she had even refused to swallow a bite of food. That left me with no other option but to shove it down her throat. Thankfully, she now eats, drinks and sleeps like any other person but she still lacks the most important item: her heart.

I have a dream. Throughout my entire existence I have only ever had one serious dream. My childhood dream to be reunited with my long, lost father. That dream faded into dust and my life quickly got sucked into a void, as I had absolutely no goals or aspirations.

Honestly, I still have no clue what I really want to achieve with my life but I am confident about one thing. Rin gave meaning to my life. She wasn't the only one though. Luka, Meiko, Gumi, Kaito, and heck, even Gakupo. I stupidly thought I was all alone but I was surrounded by all these people who cared about me. Thanks to their support, I'm confident that I won't waver from my dream.

What exactly is my dream? I think it's pretty obvious. My dream, my deepest desire is for Rin to regain her senses. I get that my miraculous dream may never shine but even so, I love her. No matter how much my heart may ache and groan, i know that I can withstand this torment of watching my lifeless lover.

Because I'm positive that the cage trapping Rin's heart will one day vanish. When that glorious day occurs, I will be here. The day that Rin can share her pain and shed her tears, knowing that I can be by her side, my will to stay here will never waver.

A/N: Sorry if you were expecting a happy ending. I don't really know why but for some reason I tend to make most of my stories end with unhappy endings. Trust me, I do enjoy happy endings but I guess my imagination is kind of sadistic. :P For the people who plan on reading the sequel to I Want To Meet You But I Can't, I don't plan on murdering characters in it and it shouldn't be as sad as this fic. The first chapter should be up before the end of December. :) Anyways, thank you all so much for reading this until the end. ^-^