~~~Clary's POV~~~

Izzy looked at me in shock. I'm not surprised or anything by her reaction, I mean when your new best friend tells you she has a son you would imagine this reaction.

"Hi! I'm Joshua and I'm two!" Joshua exclaimed, holding up four fingers when he said two.

"Josh, honey, that's four, this is two," I laughed putting two of his small fingers down. He looked at his hand with a small pout before letting out a little 'oh' and snapping his head back to me with a huge smile,

"Guess what, mommy!" he said excitedly. Izzy was still silent and was just watching the small boy in my arms with a blank expression.

"What?" I asked Joshua with a matching excitement.

"Me and Aunt Lucy made cookies! Do you want one?" I laughed at his little grammar problem but ignored it and put him down and he took off into the small house to get the cookies. My eyes darted to Izzy to see her reaction. She let out a sigh and looked at me.

"So you have a kid?" she said, I didn't detect any disgust in her voice so I guess that was good, right?

"Yeah, I do," I said lowly.

"Why don't you tell anybody?" she asks and I look at her with a blank expression.

"I just feel uncomfortable talking about it, people are nosy and like to know everything but I don't want most people to know everything," I explain and Izzy nods before Joshua runs out of the house and grabs Izzy and I's hands and drags us inside, talking about milk and cookies and I can't help but laugh.

Joshua, Izzy, Lucy, and I sit around laughing and talking about whatever comes to our heads while eating the milk and cookies.

After a while Joshua falls asleep in my lap, leaving us three girls to talk. "You know, Clary, Joshua is lonely here, he misses you and there doesn't go a few hours without him asking when he gets to see you next. I honestly think you should take him back home with you," Lucy says quietly.

"Lucy, you know I can't, I wish I could but I really can't," I say sadly.

"Why not? Is it because of Jace or your brother?" Izzy asks me. I close my eyes.

"Izzy, do you know what people say about girls who have a child at my age? We are considered sluts. People don't have any mercy, they won't let me explain anything. They would label me then hate me forever, I can't handle that. I'm not strong enough to deal with being called a slut or whore without the chance to do anything about it. And quite frankly, I don't want people to sympathize me if they do let me explain. I don't want everyone being nice to me due to the fact of my past," I say to her before adding, "Not everybody is like you Iz, they will judge me in a second, they are cruel," Izzy just looks at me in anger.

"So you care more about your appearance then your child? What a great mother you are! Dumping your kid with a friend while you go out because you don't want anybody judging you! Yeah, have fun with that!" Izzy half shouted at me before getting up to leave.

I gently move Joshua off my lap and storm after Izzy and grab her arm before she opens the door.

"Listen to me right now," I growl, "it's nothing like that, stop making me seem like the bad guy here! I left Joshua here to protect him. I don't want him being with me because I seem to attract bad luck and people into my life and I don't want my child to get hurt. The second I get out of high school, I'm going straight to college and after that I'm taking Joshua and getting out of here before something from my past comes back to haunt me. I'm doing this for Joshua's sake, I don't want him in harms way and I get the feeling if I take him away from being here, where he is safe, something bad is going to happen and I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to my baby. So before you tell me I'm a bad mother, think about why I would keep him here. I don't trust anyone anymore, and it's kind of hard judging by my past," I tell her with a sneer at first but by the end I was in tears. Izzy was watching me in shock.

Before I could do anything, Izzy had me in a hug as I sobbed into her shirt. After about ten minutes of me crying I finally calmed down to a small choking noise as Izzy stroked my hair soothingly.

"Clary, I'm sorry for telling you that, and I understand now, but I still stand by the idea that you need to take Joshua with you, he needs his mom," she says softly.

I nod slowly. "Okay, I'll take him home, but if anything starts to get out of hand or something threatens the well-being of him I'm bring him straight back here, okay?" I say. Izzy smiles and nods frantically.

"Yay! Oh my gosh! We have so much packing to do! Come on, we have to get going!" she exclaims, I laugh and stop her.

"Calm down Izzy, we can stay here tonight and pack tomorrow, okay?" I say.

She nods before going on and on about how fun it's going to be with my little precious two year old around.

What have I gotten myself into?

Hi guys! Long time no….talk! It's been so long! I'm so sorry for leaving you hanging for two years! I didn't realize how many of you guys liked my story so I was just like okay well nobody will care if I stop writing!

Okay, but I have a question, does anybody want to co-write this story or my other story Crush with me? I don't exactly need one for this one but I really need one for my other one! Like really badly! I don't know where I'm even going with my other one, so if anybody wants to co-write with me, message me please! (:

~Taylor :D