I haven't worked on this story for so long that I couldn't edit any of the chapters, so I had to delete everything and re-post. The chapter is the same taking place after the NOP where Jason and Elizabeth slept together. I've done some major editing and rewriting to the story and chapters. I hope you enjoy it.
CHAPTER 1
"Hope and fear are inseparable." Francois De La Rochefoucauld
Jason opened his eyes and looked down at the beautiful woman asleep on his chest. He couldn't believe this had happened. He seemed to never catch a break in his life. Maybe he deserved it for what he did for a living. Seeing Sam and Ric hurt badly but it made him realize he wasn't in love with Sam anymore maybe he had never been. Still he cared about her and Sam's well-being. Knowing what she did would cause a lot of problems since Alexis had seen them and Ric being the bastard he was. There was no way that mess was going to end well.
The only good thing that came out of this miserable day was hearing the knock on the Penthouse door and seeing Elizabeth on the other side. She had looked despondent and he had been the only person she could turn to. It warmed his heart that she still felt she could turn to him. Sure they had gotten closer over that last year but there was still a lot of hurt and suffering that they had caused each other. So they spend the early part of the night drowning their sorrows. Elizabeth told him about catching Lucky and Maxi together and he told her about Sam and Ric. Talking helped ease the pain of betrayal. He hadn't been sure who kissed who first but the next thing he knew he has sitting on the couch and Elizabeth was straddling him kissing passionately as he pulled her shirt over her head. They had made love on the couch, against the wall on the stairs and finally in Brenda's pink bedroom. Looking down at the slowly stirring naked Elizabeth he realized how perfect she was. Jason was stirred from his thoughts as he looked down and saw Elizabeth's sapphire eyes looking up at him.
"Hi." Jason said not knowing what to expect for her
"Hey." she said and then there was an uneasy silence that lasted a few seconds but to them seemed to last minutes. "What time is it?"
"6:15 Am." said Jason as he thought about the nights activities. Elizabeth had come to the Penthouse at close to 9pm. They had talked and drank for almost an hour and had made love for hours until they had drifted off to sleep around 1am. Jason saw the look of surprise on Elizabeth's face as she got out of bed looking for her cloths. "Your cloths are downstairs by the couch remember." he said smiling as it seemed Elizabeth's naked body turned red as she remembered. Elizabeth quickly left the room. Jason followed after he grabbed a pair of boxers and a white t-shirt.
Downstairs Elizabeth found her cloths and began to put them on as she thought about the night before.
Flashback
She had been talking on the couch and then she kissed him. She wanted him if she was honest to herself she had wanted him for over seven years. Pushing him back on the couch she straddled him. As she kissed him and their toughs dueled for supremacy her hands were pulling up his shirt so she could feel his taut stomach and perfectly chiseled chest. She felt his hands coming through her hair and then down her back and pulling off her shirt and camisole. When his hands were roaming her bare back it sent chills down her spine. She had dreamed of this day for so long. His hands then went to her breasts. Jason cupped each on gently and squeezed forcing Elizabeth to arch her back so he could get better access. He took time on each one teasing her. Gently squeezing, licking and biting her erect nipples Elizabeth's body couldn't take anymore and she came with her head rolling back a calling out Jason's name. She fell down on Jason's chest with her head lying on his left shoulder with his hands wrapped around her. She had never cum like that before. Jason had worshiped her body. No one had taken the time before. Then she felt it his erection through his jeans. Elizabeth couldn't wait anymore she had to have him inside her now. Quickly pulling down Jason's jeans and boxers, she needed to see it. His cock was huge, much larger than any of the other men she'd been with. As she pulled down her pants she looked into Jason's eyes that were filled with lust and desire. Removing her pants and then her red silk panties she again straddled Jason raising herself above him and slowly impaling herself on him. It was a tight fit and it took her time to adjust to his length and girth. Jason was letting her take control and she did. Taking things slowly Elizabeth lifted herself up and down nearly unsheathing herself from him before dropping back down. Their slow intense love making when on for minutes each never taking their eyes off each other and kissing each other along the way while Jason molded his hands to her breasts. Eventually they both needed release and picked up the pass with Jason's hands moving to her hips and guiding her faster and faster as she arched her back and threw and head back as she came again and felt herself milking Jason dry.
Collapsing on Jason neither of them moved as they each caught their breath and realized what happened. Looking up at Jason Elizabeth thought she saw something besides pain and hurt behind those deep blue eyes. Was it longing or love? No Jason didn't love her, this was just one night two friends were comforting each other. And to be honest she wasn't complaining this had been the best sex of her life and they had only done it once and wanted to do it again. She could tell Jason wanted to do it again as she felt him hardening inside her. The next thing she knew she was on the floor by the fire place with her back to the floor. Elizabeth wrapped her legs around him as he started thrusting in her and she arched her hips to meet each on. This time the love making didn't last long as the pass quickened until they both gained release. They laid by the warm fire resting until they grew uncomfortable and Jason took got up picking her up along the way and carried her to the pink bedroom that used to belong to Brenda. Elizabeth was glad Jason didn't take her to his bedroom. She couldn't sleep in the same bed that Sam slept with Jason in. They both intended to sleep but things got out of hand as they laid down with her back to him and she snuggled back against him. As she did she felt his growing arousal which led to Jason reaching around one of his hands to play with her clit has he sheathed himself inside her for a third time. This time it was slow and sensual as Elizabeth leaned back into him. His head was on her shoulder kissing her cheek and biting her left ear. Elizabeth couldn't take much more of Jason's left hand stroking her clit, his right hand fondling her breasts and his biting of her ear until she came for a fourth time. The two calmed snuggling into each other they faded into a blissful sleep.
End Flashback
She couldn't believe what had happened. She didn't know why she came to Jason. Things were better between them but there was also still a lot of hurt. The only reason she could think of was simply he was Jason. The man who was always there when she needed him. They had talked about their so called relationships and the betrayal. The next thing she knew she had jumped Jason kissing him like her life depended on it. She had always wondered and even dreamed some nights what Jason would be like in bed. Jason showed her reality is way better than a dream. She had never experienced anything like if with Lucky, Zander, or Ric. In fact the three had paled on comparison to Jason. Hearing Jason coming down the stairs she turned looking up at him and froze. Seeing Jason's strong well toned athletic body in just a pair of boxers and a white t-shirt turned her on which caused her face to blush.
"You're leaving?" Jason asked realizing he didn't want her to.
"Yes. I'm going to need to pick Cameron up from Audrey's and then I have to try and figure out this Lucky mess."
"Please tell me you aren't going to forgive him." Jason said trying his best to hide his anger as he put on his jeans.
"I don't know. He's addicted to drugs and sleeping with his boss's daughter. He needs help." Elizabeth said not know why Jason was getting angry.
"Elizabeth let me help you." he said as she grabbed her purse.
"Jason listen last night was a mistake I don't regret. We were both hurting and were drinking. We comforted each other in our time of need. Let's not make more of this than it is." Elizabeth said seeing the hurt in Jason's eyes. Jason was in love with Sam and didn't need to be obligated to her and her failed marriage. Part of her wished Jason would love her like he had loved Robin, Courtney and Sam. She was never first to him and that always hurt. As she reached for the doorknob Jason grabbed her arm spun her around, pushing her against the door and crashing his lips against hers. His hands went into in her silky smooth hair. Their tongues dueled as Elizabeth dropped her purse and wrapped one of her hands around Jason's waist and the other around his head to pull him closer. The kiss lasted minutes until they had to pull apart to catch their breaths.
"I don't want you to leave. I care about you and want you to stay." Jason pulling back and walking to the middle of the leaving room as he saw what looked like disappointment in her eyes.
"Is that all you have to say to me?" she asked. Elizabeth was getting upset with Jason.
"Elizabeth you know me. I am not great with words. I care about you a great deal."
"But you love Sam. So what do you want me as your woman on the side?" Elizabeth said with a raised voice now getting frustrated with Jason.
"I don't love Sam. I haven't for a long time if I ever have. Elizabeth let me ask you do you love Lucky?" Jason asked looking into Elizabeth's alluring eyes. It took her a moment to answer.
"...No" She said quietly.
"Then why do you always go to him. Put him first above yourself and Cameron."
"I don't put Lucky ahead of myself or my child." She said in denial.
"Yes you do. Otherwise Lucky wouldn't be living with you and Cameron would be with you and not at your grandmother's house. Listen Elizabeth you to take a chance with me...with us."
"You want to know why I always turn to Lucky is because he's always there. He was there for me in my darkest time. Unlike you who comes and go from my life he is my one constant."
"So you owe him. You don't owe him anything. Lucky's a user and an abuser with a god complex, which isn't that surprising considering who his father is. You can't be that naive." Jason accused her not meaning to get upset.
"HOW DARE YOU! What about my blind faith in you and what it cost me. Am I stupid to believe you are a great man no matter what you do for a living? And what about you who put everybody else before me, before us." She stopped as Jason turned away looking at the pictures on the mantle about the fire place. "I can't do this." Elizabeth said going to get her purse and leave. She opened the door and was about to leave when Jason whispered something that made her stop cold.
"I...Love..you." Jason said as his hope left him and water began to well up in his eyes. He heard the door close and the tears slowly began to flow as he realized there was no hope for a man like him. A killer like him didn't deserve a woman like Elizabeth. The he felt it. Gentle hands first on his arm then on his face as soft hands slowly wiped the tears away and he saw Elizabeth starring up at him with sadness and hope in her eyes.
"What did you say?"
"I Love you Elizabeth. I love you more than I've love anyone or anything else in my worthless life. I know I've had feelings for you when I first saw you with Lucky and I knew I loved you when you took care of me in your studio that winter. I'm sorry I couldn't and didn't say it to you before. I was and am emotionally stunted. What I feel for you is different than any other woman I've been with. It scares me to the core to love someone so much. With Carly, Courtney, Sam, and Robin I did love them partially but not completely. When you left this penthouse it broke me, I was lost. I gave up hope which led me down the path I am on now. Putting everything ahead of what I want and need. I've always hoped for and dreamed of a live with you. I know I don't dream but sometimes I do and when I do it's about you. I'm also terrified of a live with you. If I hurt you or my live ever hurt you I don't think I'd survive it. I know you don't love me but..." Elizabeth stopped him with two a finger over his mouth and pushed him back on the couch and kneeling in front of him. Elizabeth had tears falling from her eyes as she listened to Jason pour his heart out to her. What she felt as he poured his heart out was pure happiness. Jason loved her he loves her. She wanted to scream that from the room top of the building for the whole world to hear. First she had to clear things up with Jason, the man she loves.
"Jason stop rambling." She said smiling and kissed his had as it gently came to rest on her left cheek. She leaned into it and began to talk. "First let me say how happy I am to hear you say those three words to me. I've wanted to hear those words since I took care of you at my studio. And I've had a crush on you since Emily first introduced me to her gorgeous big brother."
"You've liked me since then?" Jason asked not believing it but knowing she's telling the truth.
"Yes I've liked you for almost my entire time in Port Charles. Like you after your accident after my rape I was broken and Lucky put me back to together. Though I wasn't complete, there were still pieces missing. Then Lucky died and I thought my life was over until one fateful night at Jake's I was saved by an extremely good looking angle who taught me how to live and love again. You weren't the only one who was scared. Just being near you I felt things I never felt before. Plus I didn't think there was anyway a man like you could love a girl like me.
"I never thought of you as a child."
"You acted that way and it confused me. Then you left why because you were afraid you and the life you chose would hurt me. Lucky coming was a shock to us all. Everyone turned to me to fix him. You were right I help out of obligation. I owed him for helping me so I was supposed to help him. Even if I was to help him I shouldn't have had to do it alone. His family and friends left to me to fix him. I was just a teenager who was still trying to fix herself. How could she fix anyone else? Without real help this led Lucky to who he is now. A controlling, abusive, and angry man who's still lost. When you asked me to come with you I wanted to but I was confused by myself. Part of me thought I should go with you and the other thought I owed it to him to stay and help. Then there was you giving me mixed signals. One moment telling me you cared about me more than a friend and then telling me once we left I didn't have to stay with you. I thought you didn't really want me so I stayed and played it safe."
"I'm sorry for that. Like I said before I've never felt at the time what I felt for you. That's why I said you were more than a friend. I didn't realize that is what real love felt like. When you walked away it hurt you choosing Lucky over me. I thought you didn't want me." Jason said pulling Elizabeth on to the couch and sitting her back against the armrest and her legs draped over his legs.
"We were really two screwed up people back then. When you came back and walked into Kelly's I lit up immediately. It was like the world was brighter place all of the sudden. I wanted to try and you kept pushing me away. Then after I moved in with you I thought we were in a good place and working towards a future together. Jason why didn't you tell me about Sonny faking his death?" Elizabeth asked thinking she already knew the answer.
"Sonny asked me not to and I didn't want you to be touched by my life. I never have and I still don't."
"Carly knew." Jason heard the bitterness in her voice.
"You know Carly, she's" Elizabeth cut him off.
"Jason things aren't going to work if we don't come to an understanding. First thing Jason you are perhaps my best friend. I trust you with my son and my life, but my heart is a different matter. I have a few questions and they should be simple to answer."
"All right what do you want to know?" Jason answered conscious that what he said would determine whether they had a future together.
"Do you trust me?"
"Yes Elizabeth I trust you."
"Did you trust me then?"
"Yes."
"All right then why didn't you tell me what was going on? You didn't have to tell me everything. All you had to say was that Sonny was alive and I would have understood. I would have lied for you and I have. Then you abandon me to be alone in this penthouse worry about you. Thinking that you were hurt or even dead. You looked after everyone else. Sonny, Brenda, Carly, Michael, hell even Courtney ranked higher on your list than me. If this is going to work between us and I want it to. So can you put Cam and I first? And I don't mean your business. I know what you do and I know there are things I can't know, but if it directly affects Cam or me I deserve to know. What I meant was can you put us ahead of another one of Sonny's failed relationships or Carly and her endless messes she creates for herself. Because if you can't then we should just walk away from each other now."
"I promise I will. I'm sorry for not telling you. I trust you now and trusted you then. As for why I stayed away there were many reasons why. One I don't want you to be touched by my life. I was also don't like when you see that side of me. I know I block everything out and focusing on my job, becoming cold and distant. Now I need to ask" Elizabeth cut him off by pulling of on his lap still sittings sideways on the couch with her arms wrapped around his neck.
"I know what you're going to ask. First I've been in danger almost right when I stepped into Port Charles. First there was there was my rape that had nothing to do with your life. Then I hooked up with the Spencer family and the trouble they cause themselves and their feud with the Cassidines. None of that had anything to do with you. Then there was Ric and Zander. So you see my life had and has nothing put danger in it. So if my child and I are going to be in danger I want to be with the one man in the world I know who can keep us safe. I know you don't believe in yourself or think you deserve to be happy. So this should be what matters to you. That is you deserve to be happy and so do I and I believe in you and your ability to love and keep our family safe."
"You don't know how much it means to me to hear you say that. So does all this mean you're going to take a chance on us we obviously should have taken years ago?"
"Yes. It's our time now. No more putting others before ourselves and our family. Speaking of family do you want to have children?" Elizabeth remembering that they hadn't use protection the night before. Jason had tried to stop but needed him then and now and couldn't wait.
"Children with you? Yes I would love to have family with you. I've wanted that for so long and didn't think it would ever be possible."
"Good because we might have one on the way." Elizabeth said seeing the shocked look on Jason's face.
"WHAT!"
"Don't you remember we didn't use protection."
"Well that's because a certain someone had jumped me and bagged me not to stop." Jason said lightly kissing Elizabeth lips. This was the happiest moment in his. Sitting with his soul mate talking about their future together. He knew things weren't going to be easy for them but he didn't care. He'd deal with them as they came.
"What about you? You're the one that jumped me as were going up the stairs pushing be against the wall and giving me to orgasms. You couldn't wait until we had gotten to the bed room. We had just done it two times on the couch and floor."
"What can I say you have that effect on me?"
"I can tell." she said feeling the hardening of his cock and feeling her own wetness. Elizabeth shook it off focusing on what they needed to do. "So what do we need to do first?"
"Well I'll call Son..." Jason said but was disturbed when they heard loud knock at the door. Elizabeth got off Jason and sat on the couch as Jason went to see who was at the door. Opening the door and seeing who it was he thought yes I was right things weren't going to be easy but I'll deal with it because nothing was going to get in his way the family he was building with Elizabeth.