Disclaimer: Naruto doesn't belong to me… ash! Damn it! And neither does the story, this is an adaptation of the book "The Greek's Royal Mistress" by Jane Porter (Double Damn It!). No copyright infringement meant.
It is also the second part of "The Daimyo's Bought Bride"
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The Uzu's Royal Mistress
CHAPTER ONE
The jet part of The Tea Country's royal fleet, groaned and shuddered and Princess Hinata Hamazaki glanced up. Her tea sloshing in her cup.
It'd been a relatively smooth flight until now. They'd been in the air for nearly three hours, almost halfway home to The Tea Country en route from her week stay in New York and although the princess's secretary and ladies-in-waiting were happily visiting in the back. Hinata was desperate to get home to her daughter again.
Yet she managed not to fidget, her expression remaining calmly neutral, too ingrained by years of public service to ever give away what she was truly feeling. Hinata's lips curved slightly, lighting a self-deprecating smile. It still amused her the varieties of life. People didn't want to know the reality behind the palace doors. They wanted the beautiful hair and smile, the tiara, the stylish clothes. They wanted the fairy tale, not the truth.
The truth. Ah. The truth. Now that was something else altogether.
Hinata's smile faded and for a moment the bleakness of her future stunned her. The walls, the rules, the silence, it wasn't the life she thought she'd have. She'd always been so good, so earnest about everything, she'd been sure life would turn out differently.
Abruptly the plane dropped, a sharp somersaulting lurch that had Hinata's retinue giggling and glancing nervously around, checking other's reactions. Hinata herself skimmed the clusters of passengers. Her own skittish assistants, a couple members of the media, several men interspersed, executives, friends of the Hamazakis and airline personnel.
She hated rough flights. They were inherent in flying, and she'd grown up on airplanes, but now that she was a mother. Hinata dreaded takeoffs and landings and the rough patches of air in between. Yet outwardly she feigned calm and took a sip from her cup.
No sooner had she lifted the cup to her lips than sound exploded from the back of the jet. The aircraft shook, a shiver like teeth chattering, metal scraping metal. The jet dropped yet again, a steeper descent, and suddenly the teacup saucer seemed miles away.
She didn't like this.
Uncrossing her legs. Hinata planted her feet firmly on the floor, doing her best to look relaxed.
Unconcerned.
They weren't going to crash. It was just turbulence. Nothing serious. Planes hit pockets of turbulence all the time.
A flight attendant in the red and cream uniform of The Tea Country Royal airlines came hurrying toward her. "Let me take your cup." she said, swooping the cup and saucer from the princess. "We don't want to get you burned."
The plane was jolting now. Great shudders like a silver belly dancer in the sky. And passengers were murmuring in the back even as Hinata's hairdresser began to cry. Glancing up Hinata's gaze met one of the male passengers. He was sitting not far.
Just across the narrow aisle in a matching leather chair, and his blue gaze continued to hold hers, his expression calm, compelling. He wasn't English, or French. He was too hard-looking, beautiful, but hard, face, all severe lines and planes an uncompromising line of brow, nose, mouth and chin.
"It's bumpy." she said, raising her voice a little, compelled to make a connection. She didn't want to be afraid, hoped she didn't look afraid.
"Yes."
Hinata had the feeling that he resisted company people. "Do you fly a lot?" she asked, trying to keep from thinking about the terrifying shimmying of the plane.
"Yes." His blue gaze was nearly as hard as the line of his cheekbone and jaw. "And you?"
"Quite a bit." She swallowed. But she'd never been afraid like this before. Her fear was intense. "I've never—" She broke off as the plane sank abruptly, and someone behind her screamed.
The hair rose on Hinata's nape and gripping the arms of her chair she concentrated on breathing. Be calm. Be calm. Be calm.
Heart racing, eyes burning, she turned and looked at the man across the aisle. She couldn't disintegrate. She had to remain focused.
Talk to him.
Make contact with him.
She drew a shallow breath, her head spinning. "You have an accent."
His black eyebrows dropped. "So do you."
Maybe he was Latin. Italian? Sicilian? The burning in her eyes turned to tears. She felt ashamed of her loss of control. "I'm from Konoha." she said, naming her independent country off the coast of France and Spain.
"I'm from Uzushiogakure," he said, suddenly rising. He crossed the narrow aisle, took the empty chair next to her.
Ah. Uzu, she thought, even more unnerved by his close proximity. "I'm Princess Hinata—"
"I know who you are."
Of course he did. How silly. She struggled to sound normal. Natural. "What's your name?"
"Naruto Uzumaki."
Her lower lip quivered. Her throat fell swollen, a lump lodged right in the middle. "That's quite a mouthful."
His gaze held hers, eyes so intense they dazzled her. "Yes."
The jet groaned loudly and did a strange ripple as if it'd become serpentine.
Flexible. Mobile.
Hinata's lips parted. She gasped in air. She turned to Mr. Uzumaki. "This isn't turbulence anymore, is it?"
"No."
She hadn't thought so. She nodded, exhaling slowly, trying to ignore her fear, which had become a huge, tangible thing. The fear was cold and heavy, like that of breaking a sweat in the middle of a bad dream and wanting to wake, needing to wake, and yet being unable.
Naruto leaned toward her, his broad shoulder bumping hers. "How's your seat belt?" he asked, but he didn't wait for her to answer. He reached over and checked the tension on her seal belt personally.
His actions said more than words ever could, and her fear grew, spreading within her. "You don't have to do this."
"Do what?" He stared at her, his dark gaze narrowed and focused on her face.
She thought his voice was like gravel, hard, sharp, and she found herself thinking his Uzu accent wasn't like the Uzus she'd ever known. His tone was harder. His inflection harsher. "Entertain me. Distract me. Whatever it is you're doing."
"I call it company."
She tried to smile but couldn't. She fell wild on the inside, her heart pounding, her pulse racing. They were flying over the Atlantic Ocean, heading back home. There was nothing below them but water. Even if they needed to land, they couldn't.
She turned to the window. The shuddering of the plane, the inky clouds, the sense that destruction was just a heartbeat away heightened her senses, time stretched endlessly so that the future was impossible—far. Far out of reach.
Kaori.
She felt the acid at the back of her eyes. She pressed her knees tight to keep from letting tears form. Princesses don't cry. Princesses don't show emotion in public. Princesses must be above reproach.
But her daughter's face swam before her eyes, the sweet pale face, the fair hair, the little lips shaped like a Valentine.
She covered her face with her hands, rubbed her eyes, drying the tears before they could fall. She couldn't lose control. The captain hadn't made any announcement. The flight attendants were buckled into their jump seals but they looked quiet, focused and professional.
The jet shuddered and banked steeply left. Hinata sat forward as the plane continued to verve left. She glanced to her window again.
"I can't see anything." she said, the jet appearing to settle back into a more normal flight pattern. The world beyond her window was dark, thick with heavy cloud, and the plane sailed through the dense blackness shuddering every now and then as if to remind passengers that the danger wasn't over.
"It's dark out." he answered calmly, leaning back in his seat, his body relaxed, no tension anywhere in his big, powerful frame.
She wished she could take comfort in the fact that he was at ease, but his confidence shook her even more. "Can the pilots see?"
"They fly by equipment."
But what if their equipment was wrong, she wanted to ask? Instead she thought back on life, the choices made, the opportunities passed up. "Moments like these are great for self-analysis." she said with a brittle laugh. "Nothing like facing one's self."
"Regrets?" he asked.
Her eyes fell like they were on fire. "Dozens."
"Name one."
She shook her head, her hands gripping her armrests lightly. "There's too many. I can't think of just one. But all of them, all that life experience, all those hopes and dreams..."
"Life's never what you think it's going to be, is it?"
Her eyes sought his. He looked so big, so imposing and yet he projected strength. Calm. "No."
"What's turned out different for you?"
She gave her head a slight shake. She couldn't talk about this. She couldn't talk about anything.
Suddenly she hashed back to her weekend in New York. She'd been the guest of honor of New York's annual Fashion Week, and the event chairs had booked her into the royal suite at the Le Meridien in New York, a sleek, glossy hotel with a strong French influence. She supposed they thought she'd be most comfortable with the French accent, but she hadn't come to New York to find France, or Konoha, or even The Tea Country. She'd come to New York to find a bit of her past, at least her mother's past, but it hadn't worked out like that.
How could she ever find her mother, or even herself, in a posh hotel with sleek marble lobbies and even sleeker chrome and cherry wood restaurants and lounges?
But the hotel had been an interesting juxtaposition: all the white and black marble Hanked by chrome and wood. The lounge was like that of a cruise ship with its enormous circles of light portholes and the small tables scattered tightly together reminded her of the tables on the deck, surrounding the pool. Life at the Le Meridien New York was crowded and upscale, chic and noisy, and maybe this was New York after all. Maybe the throb and hum of street noise mingled with clank of cutlery and surge of voices over the sweet bluesy voice of the singer. Maybe this was exactly New York and maybe this was why Hinata knew she'd always be a stranger here.
This wasn't her island, her husband's kingdom, or her elegant and refined way of life.
But maybe that was New York's allure. She remembered her view from her royal suite, the view over the dark brooding city-scape with its Gothic-like points and steeples, soaring building, bright lights, water towers perched precariously on top of slim and squat towers alike. New York was about change, and choice, power and sacrifice, and as the city had pulsed around her and past her. She knew she didn't have that kind of strength. Or courage.
"Life's a puzzle." she said softly, still thinking of her week in the city, and all that she'd seen and heard. Places like New York and London reminded her that there were so many different people in the world, and so many ways of doing things.
"It can be. Or it can be quite straight forward."
It'd once been quite straightforward for Hinata, too. But not anymore. Not since her marriage. Kaori's birth. Hiro's death. Nothing was clear. Or simple. And thinking of the lack of simplicity reminded her of her waiter just that morning in the hotel's restaurant. She'd had her own table, her personal secretaries and valets seated at one nearby and her waiter defied description. Literally.
"There was a waiter at the hotel's restaurant." she said slowly, picturing the tall waiter, who had to be at least six-foot-one or -two, and had long hair, a soft voice, sloping shoulders, soft waist, full hips, and yet. he was a man. At least he'd been born a man. "The waiter didn't fit his body. I don't know if he'd been taking something to become more feminine, or maybe he was simply willing it, but..."
"But what?"
"I admired him." Hinata looked up, into Mr. Uzumaki's eyes, and she felt her insides wrench. "I admired him for refusing to spend his life as someone, or something, he didn't want to be, for being unable or unwilling to spend the rest of his life in a body that didn't lit. Or playing a role that didn't suit."
"Seems the waiter took drastic measures."
"I think he was brave." she whispered, breaking the gaze, turning to glance out her window at the darkness surrounding the plane.
In the restaurant this morning she'd been first puzzled, then confused, and finally sympathetic. And her deep sympathy made her feel an ounce of the pain he must have felt to have changed his world so.
She knew what it was like to start out as one thing and to battle it constantly. To struggle through the days, to deny the natural impulses again and again, to order oneself to do it because... because…
"Coffee?" the waiter had asked her this morning, with a voice that was pitched soft like a woman's and yet still distinctly male.
The waiter's voice had buried deep in her heart where she tried not to let emotion go. She'd felt such empathy for him that she tried to smile, and yet her eyes filled with tears. This poor man must have endured years of pain. "Please." she'd said, forcing herself to speak, and looking up. She'd met the waiter's eyes, and smiled, really smiled, even as she thought that no one got through life without tremendous pain.
"But you're brave." Naruto Uzumaki's voice brought her attention back to him. "You've done incredible things in your life."
She shook her head, the memories of the morning still burning inside her heart.
"No. Not like that. I've never really fought for anything." And suddenly her voice broke and Hinata closed her eyes, wishing she could disappear. She didn't want to feel this much. Didn't want to think this much.
"If you could do it over, what would you fight for?" he persisted. Hinata stirred uncomfortably in her seat. She wanted off the plane. She wanted away from this man who asked hard questions and wanted real answers. It'd been a long day. but she didn't know how not to answer him. There was something forced in
him. something about him that compelled her to speak. "Happiness." she said at last.
"Happiness?"
Her shoulders lifted, fell. She couldn't believe she was telling him this... sharing this. "I never thought it'd be so elusive. I always thought we'd all have an equal shot at it."
"And you didn't?"
She never talked to people like this, and yet now that she'd started opening up, she couldn't seem to stop. It was as if he'd unleashed a storm inside of her. "I don't know what went wrong. I tried so hard to do the right thing, and I always thought, if you just try hard enough, just be good enough, honest enough, kind enough, compassionate enough... if you work hard enough and give enough you'll discover that elusive happiness that others seem to have. You'll find happiness and—" She broke off took a breath, the aching emptiness inside her like a live thing, humming.
Deep grooves formed at his mouth. "And what?"
"Peace."
Peace. She didn't close her eyes but on the inside she felt so weary and empty that she would have if he hadn't been watching her so closely. But he doesn't know you, she reminded herself, he knows your name, but that's it. He'll never really know you. And even if you survive this crazy flight, something that looked decidedly remote at the moment. They'd never see each other again. Was there really that much harm in opening up? Being honest? Speaking from the heart?
Her entire life had been dictated by duty, country, economy. As the oldest of King Hiruzen Shinobi's three grandchildren, she was destined to be the future queen and monarch of Konoha. She'd known since her teenage years that it was her duty to marry well, provide heirs, secure financial stability and guarantee independence from their powerful neighbors Spain, France and Italy.
To speak from the heart. To live according to the heart. These were not choices she'd been allowed to make. Her heart had long ago been overruled by her head and her innate loyalty and desire to do right had long ago eclipsed impulse and sentimentalism. There was that which was right, and there was that which needed to be done, and she knew when she married one day she'd marry a suitable match, a
match arranged by her grandfather and his advisors. She'd bring prosperity back to their tiny kingdom, and stability.
That was her job. It was the job she'd do.
And it was the job she'd done. Tragically the moment she married Hiro, Hinata knew she'd made the worst mistake of her life and having Kaori only made it worse.
But just thinking of her young daughter made her smile on the inside. Kaori was everything. Absolutely the greatest, purest joy life could bestow. A gift. A reward.
A lifeline.
Suddenly the plane groaned again, metal scraping, the body of the jet rippling now as if in agony.
Hinata clenched her hands in her lap as the lurching plane shivered and shrugged as if struggling to molt its gleaming silver skin.
What was going to happen to Kaori?
She knew her brother-in-law, King Sai Kazuri, the sultan of Barak a had been working on freeing Kaori, trying to find a way to escape the archaic The Tea Country laws, but so far nothing had worked, which meant, if the plane went down, or broke apart, or did whatever it was that planes do, then Kaori would be trapped forever with the Hamazakis in the Tea Country. Hinata couldn't bear the thought. The Hamazakis, Hiro's parents, were cold and hard and they would control every choice, every thought, every breath Kaori took.
Her head spun. Her stomach heaved. She was going to be sick.
From nowhere, a hand pressed to the back of her head, forcing her down, urging her face to her knees.
"Breathe."
Naruto Uzumaki's touch was firm and yet his voice was calm.
With his hand against the back of her head, and her nose bumping her knee, she felt utterly bewildered by the turn of events. Earlier today she'd been in New York, wrapping up her trip and missing Kaori dreadfully, and now she was getting ready to say goodbye.
Eyes squeezed closed she fought for control. You have to be okay, you have to be able to let go. No one lives forever... no one gets forever...
"Breathe."" the voice above her commanded again.
"I can't." Her voice broke and the tears fell onto her knees. "I can't—"
"You can. You must. Come on. Hinata. Be tough."
His hard voice was like a slap, right, left. After a moment she felt calmer. She was breathing again. More deeply. More regularly.
"I'm fine now." she said, and she pushed up against the weight of his hand.
Little by little he let go of the back of her head.
Sitting upright, she tried to meet his gaze but couldn't. Naruto Uzumaki scared her almost as much as the shuddering plane.
Naruto watched the princess knowing that they were in trouble, knowing that he was calm because there wasn't a great deal either of them could do now. They were either going to make it or they weren't going to make it. Either way he'd be with Princess Hamazaki. If they survived he'd be there. If they died, he'd be
there. He could afford to be calm. Certain decisions were already made for them.
It was a matter of waiting.
"I'm fine now." she said again, and this time her voice was deeper, calmer.
He studied the way she sat in her chair, her hands clenching the armrests.
"There's nothing wrong with being afraid." He saw her head jerk up, her pale lavender gaze meeting his. Emotion darkened her eyes, etched fine lines around her soft mouth.
"Are you afraid?" she whispered.
"To some degree, yes."
Hinata looked away, her fingers pressed to the cool metal armrests. She wasn't a little afraid. She was very afraid, and for the first time in years she only wanted the truth. Just the truth. Save the promises and the pretense and all the flowery phrases people were always trying to give her. "Are we going to make it?"
"We're going to give it our best shot."
Naruto's steady voice made her want to scream. He was so fixed, so contained while she felt absolutely sick with fear. If it weren't for Kaori then she could go. She could say goodbye, she could accept that she'd had her turn, lived her life, but there was Kaori and Kaori needed her.
God, give me sixteen years, Hinata prayed. I want sixteen years. Sixteen more years for birthdays and hugs and conversations late into the night about anything and everything Kaori could possibly want to discuss.
I won't ask her to live for me. I won't ask her to be anything for me. I won't ask her to become anyone but Kaori. I just want to be there for her. I want to open doors for her, and then tuck her in late at night, knowing she is home, knowing she is safe.
Hinata flexed her lingers, dug her nails into her palms. "If I don't make it home—"
"You'll make it home."
She wanted to believe him. she really did. "But if I don't, promise me you'll tell my daughter—"
"Hinata."
His hard voice, fixed, like a slab of rough hewn marble, dragged her gaze up. All the way up from his chest to his open collar to his chin and jaw and mouth. Once her eyes met his, she felt cold and hot. A tangle of live nerves. "You don't call me. Your Highness."
"But you're not My Highness. You're Hinata Hamazaki—"
"I hate that name." She grew even colder, ice crystals all over her heart. "I am not Hamazaki. That was my husband's name."
"And he died."
She swallowed convulsively. "And he died."
"And you're not going to die."
"No."
His lips curved into the faintest glimmer of a smile. It was like a black wolf. Teeth bared. "That's the first positive answer I've heard from you."
"And that's the first smile I've seen from you."
"I don't like smiling."
She laughed. For a moment, as incredible as it was, she forgot the shuddering plane, the dips and lunges in space, the wretched nausea pervading every limb. "You don't like smiling?"
"Fools smile."
Hinata choked on her muffled laugh. "You must be joking."
His head cocked, his blue eyes met hers and the feral intensity in his eyes made her shiver inwardly, a shiver that had nothing to do with the plane and fear, and everything to do with awareness.
Like Hiro, he possessed tremendous confidence. But she knew what happened with men like Hiro. They decimated those around them, tearing into them, bile by bile until nothing remained. No spirit. No self-esteem. No sense of self.
Her laughter died in her mouth, strangled in her throat. Hard men, strong men weren't the kind of men she wanted to know.
The jet suddenly plunged down, a steep free for all. And somewhere behind Hinata a woman screamed, a long terrified cry that seemed to go on and on as the jet hurtled toward the ocean below.
Naruto's hand reached out. covered hers, held her fists lightly in his. "I'm here."
She gripped his hand with all her might. "We're going down."
"We're going somewhere fast."
There was an edge to his voice now. a hardness that spoke volumes. He felt the urgency, and the peril. He was meeting her where she was. Two human beings... mortals... no distinction between anyone now.
"Thank you." she choked, her mouth all sand, her heart beating so hard her eardrums sounded as if they'd explode. "Thank you for doing this. Being with me."
"My pleasure."
Yellow masks dropped.
Hinata stared at the bright yellow cup swinging in front of her, and then she remembered all those flight briefings, all those routine instructions. She reached for the mask, pulled it over her head, settling it on her nose. The mask lit.
She turned, looked at Naruto. His mask was in place. His eyes creased.
Her mouth trembled. Tears tilled her eyes. "I want to go home."
"To your daughter."
She nodded, hands gripping the arms of her chair so tightly she thought the bones would snap.
"Tell me about her." he said, his voice coming from very far away. "How old is she? What's her favorite color?"
Hinata blinked, dragged in air. Felt tears well. The jet was in a downward spiral and he was trying to keep her from falling apart. Trying to keep her mind occupied.
"Four." The pressure in her ears, the pressure in her head was intolerable. She blinked, head spinning, ears feeling as if they were going to burst.
"Green." Blinking dizzily. Hinata dragged in another excruciating breath. "Her favorite color is green."
The plane was tumbling, spinning, and her seat belt strained, pulling light across her lap. Barely holding her into her seat. With a thud she felt Naruto's arm strain against her chest, battling to pin her back into her seat. "What's she like?" he demanded.
Hinata couldn't focus. The pressure in her head made her want to scream like the others in the back who were crying out for God and help and deliverance. Shy. She closed her eyes. Kaori's shy.
Her blood was pooling in her head, in her ears and she knew she couldn't withstand much more pressure.
Kaori.
She pictured Kaori, kept her daughter's face before her. Held love for Kaori in her heart. And as the world spun past. Hinata realized for the first time that love couldn't be contained. Love isn't trapped or shaped inside the body but is alive throughout the universe.
Love is inherent in every living organism, every cell, every creature and man.
Kaori would be fine.
Kaori would have Aunt Ino and Aunt Sakura. She'd have Grandfather and Grandmamma and there would always be the people in Konoha who'd love her, embrace her and accept her.
She'd be fine.
A voice sounded on the jet's speaker. The captain announced that they were going to attempt to land.
"Brace yourself."
Brace yourself. For the worst. For the best. For the rest of your life.
Naruto's arm was now forcing her head down again, shaping her into a ball.
"Hold on."
I love you, Kaori.
"Hold on," Naruto ground out yet again, his hand in a death-grip against the back of her head.
I'm holding.