A/N: I'm on a publishing kick I guess. Not much to say, other than I don't own X-men only the character of Samantha. Please read and review.
Summary: The reasons behind an attempted suicide at Xavier's change the way a few members view the team and what they're really fighting for, specifically Rouge and Kitty. Not much from Samantha's POV please give it a shot and Please Read and Review.

She knew they were right, she knew that she deserved what ever insult they decided to fling towards her. She knew she was useless, she knew she was flawed, and she had no idea how to change that. Samantha was in one of the rarely used bathrooms of the huge mansion, she sat in the bathtub, her sports bra and compression shorts still on, the water warm. She slouched in the tub at an angle that put her face, just past her lips, in the water. Her eyes were red from the crying that she had done earlier though tears were still now slipping out of her eyes.

She felt alone, not only because the mansion was quiet and still, as it had been for hours, but because she felt as though she had nothing nor no one else to turn to. She didn't just feel alone in the bathroom, not just alone in the mansion, she felt alone in the world. Alone is what she had always been but today, today it finally sunk in. Today, Jean had finally had enough of the teen; Jean had finally turned her back on the teen.

Samantha sunk down into the red water that filled the tub; she closed her eyes and listened. Her half feral ears were good enough to hear the sounds of her friends on the lower levels of the school looking for her. Usually Jean was able to sense her somewhere in the mansion, but Samantha learned a long time ago how to use her own senses to numb Jean's mind to her presence.

They had all seen the way that Jean looked at her; they had all seen how it had hurt Samantha when she walked away. One simple look was all it took to break the normally strong and brave teenager down, it broke her down to the point that she couldn't hide her tears from her peers; they had started pouring down before she had even made it to her room to hide them. At that point everyone had decided that it was best not to bother her, to let her cry her tears and come around when she was ready.

After years of living with her, they should have known that the 17 year old wouldn't just come around.

Kitty and Rouge were in the room with her, silent, when for the first time in 2 hours Samantha had moved. It was 12 o'clock at that point; she had spent two hours contemplating the word alone, what it meant to her, and what she didn't mean to them. She moved to her dresser, pulled something out of a box on top of it and slipped out of the room.

2 hours later they had decided to go and look for her.

Samantha poked her head above the now completely red water just enough to glance at the clock that hung on the wall just next to the mirror; they had been searching for almost 30 minutes now, convinced she was somewhere crying her eyes out, some where hurting. Samantha laid her head on the back of the tub and began to sink back into the water, this time not by choice, but because she no longer had the strength to hold herself up.

"No one has found her yet?" Jean asked rubbing her forehead; she felt a migraine coming on as she talked to Kitty who only shook her head. "Why don't you girls go to bed, I'll find her."

"We can keep looking, we're not tired. But you seem like you should go to bed actually." Rouge said as she walked up behind Kitty.

"No." Jean waived her off as she walked away still rubbing her head. "Go to bed." She said, not really caring if they did or didn't. She had to much on her mind to worry about it, she knew she just really needed to find Samantha because she knew Samantha; how she was, how she thought. She knew how Samantha would take what happened.

It wasn't what she had said that would hurt her the most, it was the fact that she couldn't say anything. That she gave Samantha no sign that everything would be fine, even though when it came down to it, it would be. Jean was shocked into submission, speechless for the girl's actions, disappointed and aggravated at the same time. She had wanted to yell at the teenager, had begun to lose her temper and just scream but she only threw her hands in the air, rolled her eyes and walked away.

She knew Samantha knew that, that she felt that and it hurt her terribly. There aren't many things that would make Samantha cry, but Jean in that moment made sure that she had done one of the things that would. She turned her back on her, put off the feeling that she was giving up on the young girl, and the fact that Jean now realizes she did that makes her absolutely sick to her stomach.

The truth was that she wasn't really aggravated nor all that disappointed in Samantha. She was taking the frustration that had been building up for days out on Samantha, frustration that had absolutely nothing to do with Samantha; frustration that she should have known better than to bottle up.

Jean pushed the library door on the third floor open, a place that Samantha usually retreated to if only to think alone. However this time there was no sign of her and so Jean continued to search the last floor that she hadn't ravaged through in search of the young girl.

The next room was an unfinished game room that Scott and some of the other kids had been working on, once again there was no Samantha. Jean stopped and sighed in the dark hall, there was no light reaching it and so it was almost pitch black.

There was however one more door at the end of the hall, a bathroom that no one uses as there is usually no one on this side of the mansion. Jean pushed a stray red hair behind her ear as she walked sleepily to the door. Figuring she would have no luck here, she pushed the door open, it was dark of course and so she flipped the light switch on the wall with her index finger, she was instantly wide awake at what she saw.

"Oh my god!"

A/N: So there you have it, the first chapter to this new story of mine. I hope you like it, tell me if you want it to continue and if so, I'll have another done in less then 2 weeks, hell if enough people review, less then a week! But I suppose we'll have to see. Kitty and Rouge soon to really be introduced. Please review.