A/N: So this is my second Fanfiction story and I have to say, I had plenty of hits on my last story, but only 6 freaking reviews . Not that I'm not greatful but come on! Get your lazy butts in gear and review! Just for me pleaseeeee!
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans, because if I did, awwww man! Would I be on the hit list of plenty Robin and Starfire fans? Muahahahaha. Count your Blessings -_-
A/N II: You recommend listening to Can't Be Friends By Trey Songz (Ol' sexy self) and/or One Night Stand by Keri Hilson and Chris Brown (Ol' EXTRA sexy self!)
Regretting Nothing
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I don't regret it, none of it. Do I wish the consequences for my actions were a little less server? Hell yes, but that's not the same thing as regret. Regret in it's dictionary meaning, is to "feel sorry, disappointed, or distressed about an act". I don't feel sorry for myself, not just because it's dangerous to feel anything when having my powers, but because I'm not "sad" about the situation. If anything I'm glad it happened. He got what he wanted and I got what I wanted, simple as that. I'm not disappointed either because well, it wasn't a "disappointing" experience; on the contrary, it was actually one of the best nights of my life, well so far but distressed? Hmm…well I wouldn't be sitting here sipping my fifth cup of tea just after almost 7 hours of meditation if I wasn't distressed huh? But only one third of the definition applies to me, so I'm okay right? No not right. This isn't me, the way I'm acting. Lying to myself and not addressing the problem.
"You okay dark girl?" Cyborg asked with concern. "I'm fine, just tired" I replied taking a sip of my Herbal tea. "Well here's an extra fortune cookie from the Chinese place I went to yesterday, who knows? You may have a good fortune" he winked at me and headed towards the elevator probably heading to work on his "baby". I sighed and reluctantly opened the cookie then unrolled my so call "fortune". "You're not thinking clearly, take a deep breath and start over, your future may depend on it. Do you regret it?" the small paper stated. Even though the fortune was probably made halfheartedly by some random minimum wage worker downtown, I took its advice.
So let's start over, I still don't regret sleeping with Robin, I don't feel sorry for myself, because as I acknowledged before I can't allow myself to feel sorry or the residents of Jump City will be sorry when I burn the town down because of my rampaging emotions. The occurrence last night was one of the greatest memories I'll probably ever have. I've never felt so needed, wanted or lusted for like that in entire my life. And even though some people refer to me as the Heartless Goth girl, which I have absolutely no problem with, I can't deny that I'm still a girl. A female, so those feelings that he extracted out of me last night can effect just about anybody, including me. But I'm just anybody! I'm Raven; I'm emotionless, independent, and strong. Why do I feel so weak and helpless?
I guess this is the disappointment part of the definition. I'm disappointed in myself for letting him make me feel this way, for not getting up this morning and moving on with my life like I was suppose to. Like the Raven I knew would have. I'm disappointed in myself for sitting by the kitchen table right now and watching him hold The Tamaranian Princess in his arms and whispering in her ear like nothing happened between us last night. I want to say I'm disappointed in him, but I can't because he did nothing wrong. I knew it was wrong to mix business with pleasure by having sex with my leader, and I knew it was wrong when I thought about how Starfire would feel, but I pushed it off to some other side of my head because making sure he kept grinding against me and sucking that sweet spot on my neck was more important to me than how my best girl friend (my only girl friend) would feel about this. So I'll ask myself again, do I regret what happen?
No, but I'm weak, so I have to sit here and suffer the consequences by drowning in my own sea of guilt and dealing with the hole in my heart that grows larger and is being filled with hurt and jealously. But yet, I still can't find a reason to blame him for any of this. He and Starfire aren't dating so it's not "cheating". He never promised anything last night, like to love me to the end of time, or me being his one and only. Nope, nothing of the such. It was casual intercourse between to humans that were not in a committed relationship so there's not one fucking thing wrong with it, no matter how hard I try to find one.
"Oh Robin…" the redhead beauty giggled, while Robin whispers sweet nothing's in her ear. I didn't hear anything explode yet so I'm starting to seriously wonder about the T-Car, since it has been the prime target of my loose emotions lately, Needless to say Cyborg has not been too happy. Ugh, I can't take this. Poor Cy, the more she giggles and the more he grins at her like he doesn't know I'm staring him down from this kitchen, the more I worry about that car because jealously is starting a riot, with rage Raven, and Brave Raven in my head right now. Nevermore probably looks like it's ready for war right now.
Her giggles sets my heart on fire because the only dialogue that came from him last night was a mixture of grunts and moans and a "Oh Raven!" when he was close to his climax.
Ha, I guess I must have not realize I was scowling at the two lovers because Starfire is looking over here with concern and sorrow written all over her beautiful features, even though the Boy Wonder himself hasn't looked me in the eye yet. "Friend Raven, is there something troubling you?" Pssh, Understatement of the year. "No, just a bit tired" I replied faking a yarn the best way I could. "Oh and what were YOU doing last night that has you exhausted, hope it's not something your regretting this morning?" BeastBoy teased. Does he realize how close to home base he hit with that joke? Our perfect leader must know because his back is turned towards the TV but his shoulders are rock stiff and his aura just sky rocketed in nervousness and uneasiness.
"Nope" I reply in the most unemotional voice I can mutter up. "I regret nothing."
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