It was a windy day in the sakura season that you first kissed me. We were on the roof of the Namimori school building. I was napping on the roof when you came in smiling as usual. I pretended to stay asleep because I was tired. You sat down quietly besides me. Using your hand to move my bangs away from my face, you kept on saying that you loved me with a desperate tone. I thought about how stupid you were. I'm not a girl. Then to my surprise, you closed our distance and kiss me on my lips. I was happy for some reason and I detested myself for it. I realized that maybe I love you. It can't be. Loving someone is something for the weak. Am I becoming weak because of you? I wondered what you'd do next. But you woke me up saying something about training with a grin on your face. I was so disappointed. Maybe you knew I was awake in the first place. Maybe you knew from the beginning, the fact that I loved you when even I didn't realize it at first. I lose myself when I'm near you, I keep on noticing you. I don't understand what I'm doing any more. Why did I have to fall in love with someone like you? Why does it have to be an idiot like you?

After realizing my love for you, everything became weird. Whenever I fought you, there was an ache in my heart. Every blow to you brought more and more heart ache to me. I pretended that nothing is wrong and fight you whenever I see you, so you wouldn't notice how I felt. When I'm near you, my heart starts beating fast. I started to want to see your face, hear your voice, to talk to you, and touch you. I blushed when you held me close and told me that you love me. I ignored it but I knew. I knew that I loved you. I guess that this is what they call first love. And I know now that this will be my only love because I can't forget about you. I can't no matter how hard I try. Your warm and gentle touches, the way you always say that you love me, your scent, your dazzling smile, anything and everything about you, and of course your last ti amo to me with the sadness you can't hide behind your mask.

I thought I'd never love anyone. So the first time you told me that you love me. I was confused by my own feelings. I was happy and angry at the same time. I was happy because you told me that you loved me, but angry at myself because I was happy. At that time I only thought I was fond of you, but you proved me wrong. The first time you kissed me. I stopped denying my feelings for you. I started to love you like I've never done before. I wanted to be with you, yet I could never bring myself to tell you. I loved you even if I kept it in my heart while you told me how you felt about me. I wanted to be like you and tell you how I felt about you. I wanted to tell you that I love you.

I wished that you would stay with me forever, but that's not possible. Even though you promised that you would always be with me and love me. You still had your family to take care of and I know that you'll choose them over me, since you always did. I knew that you would leave me for your family eventually, so I prepared myself for the worst. I waited for you to come and tell me that we had to break up. You stopped by one day with that usual smile of yours and asked if you could stay the night. But something about you was different. There was a deep sadness in your eyes. Did someone in your family die again? Or has the time for you to leave me behind already come?

You desperately told me that you will always love me and that your heart will always be mine and I immediately knew something was wrong. You were never like this. You would usually smile happily at me and tell me you missed me and that you love me. I asked you if something was wrong, but you didn't answer. I knew it then that the time has come for us. You came here to break up with me and move on with your life as a mafia boss. After awhile, you talked.

"Kyouya, I have something to tell you."

"What is it?" I asked even though I already knew what he was going to say.

"I have to get married." You turned your head away after you told me.

"And?" I asked as my heart started to ache terribly.

"We have to break up. I'm sorry."

"I'm so, so sorry." He had a guilty look on his face.

"Do you think being sorry helps?" I yelled as tears fell down my face. I felt something inside of me broke then. I don't understand and I don't want to understand.

"Kyouya? Are you crying?" You asked with a concerned look.

I collapsed on to the ground. Unstoppable streams of tears felling down from my eyes. I cried for the first time in years, harder than I ever did before. You bent down sitting on the ground next to me, pulling me into a tight embrace. You comforted me with your sweet word at first. But soon, you started crying with me. We cried and cried on for hours like children while you held me in your arms. After we stopped crying, I looked you in the eye.

"Ai shiteru." I told you face to face for the second time.

"I do too. Ti amo, Kyouya." You told me.

You leaned in and kissed me, licking against my lower lips asking for permission. I part my lips for you and you snuck your tongue into my mouth, exploring it. I fought for control and you let me dominate our kiss just this once. I broke the kiss as I felt the growing need for oxygen. Our passionate kiss ended and you started to undress me while I did the same to you. We were soon naked in front of each other. I watched you carefully, wanting to remember everything since this will be our last time together. Your golden eyes staring at me carefully as if you were doing the same. I blushed when your eyes moved on to stare at my hard member and made it even harder. You picked me up bridal styled and put me down on the bed. You laid butterfly kisses over my skin. You kissed my jaw line and moved towards my lips. I kissed you with all the lust and desire I could muster up. I nibbled against your lower lip hard and you opened up with surprise. Sneaking my tongue in quickly when I got the chance, I tasted the coppery taste of your blood mixed in with your unique, sweet taste. We explored each other's warm cavern. You licked the roof repeatedly knowing that I was sensitive there. A moan builds up at the back of my throat. My face was burning hot as blood rushed to my face. I bet I was as red as a tomato.

"Mmm…" I moaned deeply in to the kiss.

I squirmed around a bit trying to get deeper and taste more of you, when my member unintentionally rubbed against yours. I moaned again as I blushed even harder. My body was hot and a layer of sweat was forming on me. Your eyes widened a bit and you broke away from the kiss, leaving only a trail of saliva connecting us.

"Ti amo, Kyouya."

"I know."

"You know that I will always love you right?" You said with a smile.

"You liar." I said bitterly.

"Kyouya, why don't you believe me?" you looked into my eyes. Our glaze locked on each other for a few seconds but that was enough. I saw through you. Did you see through me too? Once I saw that deep sadness in your eyes, I understood everything. Still I wanted to hear it from you.

"Then why are you leaving me behind? Why are you breaking your promise?" I locked my eyes on yours and asked quietly. I was afraid that if I hear it, I might break. But I knew that if I don't hear it from you, it won't mean anything. But you were silent. After a minute or two, that which seemed like an eternity to me. You started to speak.

"I…" you stopped there.

"Shouldn't I have the right to hear this from you?" I shouted.

"I'm sorry. You do. I'll tell you." You carried a guilty look on your face. "The family decided it without my content. When I found out, I immediate said no. But the elders said that they would kill you if I was against it."

"You think I'd be killed that easily?" I questioned angrily. I trust you so, why…"Why don't you trust me?" I had said what I was thinking out loud. My voice was full of sadness. I was weak. Weak because I had fallen in love with you. Was I wrong to believe your words like everyone had told me?

"I do, but all I could think about that time was to protect you."

"You don't understand in the least bit." I mumbled under my breath.

"Kyouya, I do. I don't regret my decision. I'll protect you no matter what." You said firmly.

"Ironic. You wanted protect me and yet, you're the one who broke me." I lifted my head up and stare at the ceiling. "You protected my life and yet, broke my heart at the same time."

"What do you mean?"

"It's just like I said." I didn't look him in the eye.

"Tell me Kyouya." I still didn't look your way. You hold my face with your hands and moved my head so that you could look me in the eye. "Please."

"Figure it out yourself." The room was silent as you thought about what I said. Why don't you understand? Why? Shouldn't it be obvious? I don't want to let you go. No, I won't let you go. I can't live without you anymore. After sometime, you spoke.

"Did you think I didn't like you anymore?"

"Yes, but that's not the answer."

"Then did you possibly mean that you don't want to be without me?" You asked with a grin.

"Yes, and there's more." I replied in a bored tone.

"Kyouya!" Your grin became a big smile. You were surrounded by your shining aura and I was almost blinded by it. Your voice seemed so happy and you hugged me tight. My hands moved slowly up your back. Before I knew it, I had wrapped my arms around you and hugged you back. I wanted to stay in your embrace so much. But at the same time, I needed you to figure out how much I love you.

"There's more." I reminded you.

"You love me so much that you can't live without me, right?" You whispered into my ears in a husky tone. Your word sent shivers down my spine. I wanted to cover my ears since I knew what you would say next. I won't be able to leave you if you tell me, but you could still leave me behind. "It's the same for me, Kyo-ouu-ya." You slowly said my name close to my ears, stressing the word. You licked the shell of my ear and bit down hard.

"Ahh!" I felt the pain. I could smell the scent of blood filling up my nose. You licked my wound multiple times sucked hard on it. Making me moan and squirm around in your hold. I could hear the blood dripping from my earlobe on to my hand as the pain and pleasure course through my body. I could see that as you lift my hand up the crimson blood on my hand drip onto the bed. I could felt you slowly licking the blood off my hands as if you were savoring it. And, I could taste the coppery taste of my blood as you kissed me lustfully.

I wrapped my hands around you pulling you closer, trying to taste more of you. You played around with my hair for a bit. Then, you angled my head, allowing you more access to my warm cavern. Our tongues moving against each other, intertwining, exploring the familiar cavern that we've explored so many times before. I savored your sweet taste mixed in with the coppery taste of my blood. You always tasted so good, leaving me with wanting even more. Everything about you entranced me and made me fall into this love deeper and deeper, even though I didn't want to admit it. Yet you are about to leave me with the deep love I can't pull myself out from no matter how much I try, a broken heart, all the memories that is now painful to remember, and one last night with you that will be engraved deeply into my soul. You're cruel, you know that? Why didn't you have to come? Why do you have to create the most painful memory of them all for me to bare? Did you have to come and make it more painful for me? But maybe, just maybe, I wanted this chance too. The chance to tell you the truth about how I much I love you.

When I woke up, you were gone. You heat still remained on the bed, proving that none of this as a dream. I thought about you bringing pain to my heart. I couldn't stand the thought of living without you nor the thought of you getting married and living happily with some pretty woman. Now, all that was left was the pain. You left me behind. Even though I thought prepared myself for this already, my heart still crumbled in to pieces. All the thoughts of you came rushing back to me. All the memories that once brought joy to me now brought so much pain. I broke down, crying nonstop. The tears flow down like a river as I sobbed. I felt like you stabbed my heart with daggers. The pain in my chest hurt unbearably and it was getting harder to breathe because of the pain.

"Kyouya."

I just kept on crying.

"Dino loves Kyouya!" the yellow bird chirped.

"So what?" I sobbed. It hurt so much to hear those words. It brought back memories, making me remembering you trying teach Hibird to say that. Now that Hibird said it, you aren't here to hear it anymore. I cried even harder and yelled out, "He… He still left me!"

I wanted to be left alone and Hibird seemed to understand that. Hibird landed on the desk and watched me close, as if trying to watch over and protect me. I cried and cried not taking anything into consideration. I didn't even notice you coming in to the house until the door of my bedroom opened and you stood there. I wiped my eyes quickly pretending nothing had happened. I stared at you trying my best not to cry. But no matter how hard I tried, the tears wouldn't stop flowing.

"Kyouya, why are you crying?"