A/N: My first freeverse! Thanks to mew-tsubaki for betareading this!

sore loser

You l a u g h

you smile ((too much?))

you ~DaNcE~

you are fun ((to everyone else, but to you?))

you are ENJOYING yourself

you are having a good time ((yeah, really?)

C R A C K

it was expected, luv

f a k e

stop it

it's not ~rEaL~

go away

don't pretend

you are NOT you

you are someone else

Now, fresh air. Think, baby. Breathe, calm down.

Is this all?

Is there no more to it?

Is this what you've wanted?

Is this your LIFE?

A hand on a shoulder

Sweetie, what's w r o n g?

A concerned look

I'm fine, d a d.
Green eyes meet brown eyes

Sure?

Y E S

and he leaves

... drumroll, please.

Why didn't he help?

You said no, dear.

But he's my dad.

Sorry, who's your d a d d y?

H.

A.

H.

A.

very funny.

Surely there's some .b.o.y. in there?

- watching you?

-wanting you?

-c r a v i n g you?

No

no

no

n o

you don't know for s u r e

m-a-y-be so,

but it doesn't matter if there w a s

because that is not what I want

N o w , n o w. There are always those who have it worse.

You are a l u c k y girl.

I know that.

But still:

W H Y does it feels so empty

there is nothing ((NOTHING)) that

r e a l l y

means something

It is pathetic

My life is p a t h e t i c

I am p a t h e t i c

P.a.t.h.e.t.i.c.