Summary: It started with a vibrator.

Disclaimer: Don't own Degrassi. 'Nuff said.

Author's Note: I have no idea where this idea came from.

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The Sexual Awakening of Clare Edwards
Innocence

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It started with a vibrator.

Okay, that wasn't entirely true and yet, perhaps it was. All Clare Edwards knew was that after a long, agonizing talk with her mother about "the Birds and the Bees" — which, for the record, left her a blushing wreck — she wanted nothing more than to crawl under a rock, erase it from her memory, and go back to being the naïve schoolgirl she once was.

Fate, however, seemed to have other plans for her.

Because as her interest in boys grew, so did her curiosity.

Sex was never mentioned in the Edwards household, at least not directly, and certainly not positively. It was a taboo topic, and the idea of sex before marriage was practically unheard of under their roof. It had been ingrained in her head for as long as she could remember, by her parents and church, that pre-marital sex was bad. It was frowned upon, and since sexual thoughts led to sexual acts, thinking about sex was just as bad. And so, as her body started to change and develop, Clare focused on her studies, using it as a distraction — something to keep her mind preoccupied.

And yet, she could still vividly remember the day that she and Darcy had made their abstinence pledges. She remembered Darcy accepting it with grace, her voice calm and clear and confident. Hers, on the other hand, had been shaky and uncertain, because at nine she had been far too young to truly understand the gravity of the vow she was taking — a vow that would restrict her in many ways, placing a huge weight on her shoulders. Suddenly, everyone had expectations, and everyone was watching — waiting for her to mess up, somehow, because she wasn't perfect like Darcy.

That was something that had always set them apart, she and Darcy.

Darcy believed, with her heart and soul. She was devoted to staying true to her pledge, and to leading others down the right path — showing them the light until her own had been snuffed out, leaving but an empty shell.

Clare did as she was told. She believed because that was what she had been taught. She wasn't pretty or perfect like Darcy, but she was smart, and she obeyed the guidelines her parents had laid down for her.

Then she came to Degrassi, and that's when things started to change.

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