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I dropped my phone after she hung up and hurried out the door of my RV, starting my car and driving as fast as I could to Jade's house.

The door was unlocked and I walked in, running up to her room. I felt numb as I approached the door.

I opened the door slowly.

She was sitting on her bed, legs crossed; drawing in a notebook, and music was gently playing from her PearPod. She looked up and smiled the smile she reserved for only me. I smiled back, happy to see her, and pulled her into a hug, whispering promises that I would never leave her and that I would always love her.

But then I snapped into reality, and I was holding Jade, who was on the floor, unconscious, while grabbing her phone which had little droplets of blood on it and calling for help, begging Jade to stay with me, because I couldn't lose her. The person on the line said that help was on it's way, and in minutes, there was paramedics taking Jade away from me, telling me to let her go so that they could take her to the hospital.

I begged them to let me come with them in the ambulance, but they refused. There was not enough room, one of them stated.

I watched at the ambulance drove away with my Jade. I didn't notice the blood on my hands, my shirt, my shoes, and my jeans. I walked back up to Jade's room because I wanted-no, I needed-so bad for this to be a horrible, unbelievable nightmare.

The room was empty when I walked back in. No Jade, just things that represent and remind me of Jade.

I sat down on her bed, taking in my surroundings.

When I had first entered the room, I couldn't hear anything, I couldn't see anything but Jade.

But now I could see and hear everything. Every little detail of her room. The black walls; the jars of mysterious things; the band and Broadway posters.

I heard a song playing in the background as I looked over the floor, which had some blood stains on the carpeting. I couldn't identify the music in the background, but it was sad.

And then Cat walked in. Poor, innocent, Cat. She didn't deserve to see something like this, but something in her eyes told me that she knew exactly what was going on and it pained her deeply, but being the actress she is, she put on a brave face and tried not to let the quickly approaching tears fall.

Cat slowly walked around the room, trying to take in everything, like she'd never be here again.

I knew exactly how she felt.

"Beck?" She asked suddenly, he voice breaking.

"Yeah, Cat?" I said, trying to keep my own voice steady.

"Is Jade going to live?" She didn't sound like the Cat who is carefree and ditzy. She sounded like a down to earth person.

"I hope so." God, do I hope so.

"I don't want Jade to die," She swallowed, looking back at one of the posters.

I just looked down at my hands.

"She listens to this song every time you guys fight," Cat said after a moment of silence.

"What?" I asked, confused. I had forgotten about the music playing in the background.

"Anytime she's sad about you, and life, she listens to this song. She says it represents how she feels most of the time. She says that she shouldn't believe you when you say you love her, because it's just handing you her heart on a silver platter, and she says that you unknowingly stabbed a knife into it the first time you guys ever fought and you called her an unlovable bitch." I remembered that fight well. I had never meant a word of it. She had just been pushing my buttons and I stupidly said things that I never meant.

But it sent a pang of guilt through me.

"She also says that when you told Tori that you were glad that Jade broke up with you, that it only twisted the knife already lodged in her heart. Then when you guys fought again shortly after that, and you kept taking Tori's side, she said that she didn't want to deal with it anymore. And then today, well, we both got the call from her."

I nodded slowly.

"Are you alright?" She asked, sitting down next to me.

"Not really," I said.

"Neither am I," She said, looking at something on the floor.

"What's that?" I asked as she bent down and picked up a pile of impossibly tiny paper pieces.

"I think it was a picture," She said.

"Oh," I sighed. "How many times did she go to you, Cat?"

"Every time you two would get into a bad fight, when Tori threw her prome and you were inCanada-" I cut her off.

"Why? What happened at the prome?" I asked, worried.

"Jade was pissed off because she had already booked the Asphalt Café for her performance, and then Sikowitz gave Tori the Café to do the prome."

"I knew that part," I said slowly. But I was realizing that Cat wasn't the bright and bubbly red-head we all thought we knew. People always wondered why Jade and Cat were best friends. They had been close since kindergarten and even I had wondered why, but I had never asked, because I knew what it was like for someone to ask you something like that. People were constantly asking me why I was with Jade.

But I was starting to understand Cat and Jade's friendship now. They weren't all that different. This was the real Cat Valentine. The Cat that was bright, bubbly, confused and overly-innocent was just an act. I don't know why she created the act; maybe she honestly could be that way sometimes. But this Cat sitting next to me was not the Cat that Robbie had a crush on and that Andre called Lil Red. This was a Cat who understood the nature of the world and reality and had normal emotions.

"Tori called her a freak demon, then had Doug the Diaper Guy be the king of prome and Jade the queen, and I didn't know because Tug had been talking to me. I did a performance with Tori, and Tug drove me home, where I found Jade, curled up on my bed, trying not to cry."

"And you didn't think it was odd that she was there before you were?" I was just curious.

"Nope. She has a key and I find her there a lot."

We sat in silence for another couple of minutes, during which, I listened to the lyrics of the song.

It made me wonder what exactly had caused all of this. Had the song given her the idea to do this to herself? Had I been the one who pushed her to it? Had it been her parents?

But I knew that I was to blame for a lot of it.

"We should go see if Jade's okay," I stated, standing up.

Cat nodded her agreement and turned off Jade's PearPod as we left.

Cat drove; she seemed to be the stable one out of the two of us right now.

I saw her bite her lip slightly. "So, I guess you know that I'm not exactly the Cat Valentine everyone thinks they know, huh?"

"Yeah, I kind of caught that. But don't worry; you'll always be like my little sister." I attempted a smile.

She, too, tried to smile, but failed. We pulled into the parking lot of the hospital and walked in.

"I'm going to see if they will let us visit Jade, and you can call Robbie and Andre if you want," I said.

She took out her phone and didn't even question why I hadn't said Tori; she already knew.

"Hey, Robbie," I heard. She wasn't using the regular spacey Cat voice, but the grounded voice.

"Yeah, hey, will you come to the hospital?" A small pause. "Thanks Robbie. See you soon."

"We're here to see Jade West," I said.

"Oh, okay. She can have visitors when she wakes up."

"So she's okay?"

"Yeah, but we almost lost her on the way here. They got her to the ER and she should be up soon." A doctor said, walking over from the hallway. "Her cuts are fairly thin, but deep. We're pretty sure that there won't be any visible scars as long as she doesn't do it again."

"Thank you, sir. Do you know when she'll be up?" I asked.

"In about half an hour," He said and walked off.

I paced the room for a good fifteen minutes, and then Robbie showed up.

Cat threw her arms around his neck and he hugged her tightly.

"What happened to Jade?" He asked, seeing quickly that Cat and I were fine.

"She…" I wasn't sure if Jade would want me to tell anybody.

Cat sat him down and explained it, and Robbie hugged Cat again.

"I'm sorry about Jade," He said. "I hope she's okay."

"Yeah, we should be able to see her soon." I noticed that Robbie didn't ask Cat why she was 'herself'. Did he already know this different Cat?

Cat got up to go to the bathroom and Robbie went to see if he could find some water.

I thought about how crazy weird and terrible this day had been.

And then Andre walked in.

With Tori.

"Is Cat okay?" Tori asked, but Cat returned from her restroom break.

"I'm right here," She said, coming back from the bathroom, using the Cat act that everyone knew so well.

"Oh," Tori said. "Well then is Robbie alright?"

But Robbie had followed shortly after Cat.

"I'm fine," He said.

"Oh, well, then whose hurt?" She asked.

My eyes widened in shock and anger, as did Cat's and Robbie's.

"Jade," I said through gritted teeth.

I swore I could see her roll her eyes a bit.

"What happened?" Andre asked.

"Tori shouldn't be here," I said.

"What? Why?" She exclaimed.

"Because, Jade wouldn't want you to be here." Cat and Robbie said in unison.

"Okay…" Tori said.

"I'll drive you home," Andre said, looking put off that we were telling Tori she had to go.

And they left. I wasn't exactly happy that my best friend had ditched us, but I was happy that Tori was gone. Jade didn't need anymore stress right now.

Then I noticed Robbie had left Rex at home.

A doctor came out. "You can see Jadelyn now. But only one person at a time."

I was the first one to rush up to him. He led me to her room then left.

"Hey," I said quietly.

She looked down, and I sat in the chair next to her.

"I love you, Beck," She said. "I'm sorry I put you through this shit."

"Jade, it's okay. You're alive, and you'll be okay soon, but I want you to talk to me when you get this upset. I love you so much, Jade, and I wouldn't be able to stand it if you had died."

"Beck, I don't even know why you put up with me-"

"I do not PUT UP with you. I love you."

"You've said that." She said shyly.

"Yeah, well, I can't say it enough. God, Jade. I love you infinity."

"You're being sappy."

"I have a right to be sappy."

"No."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"Whatever."

"You know you love when I'm sappy." I said proudly.

"Like I said before, whatever," She stated.

"Cat's here, too, as well as Robbie," I told her.

"Not-not Tori, though, right?" She asked.

"No. I told her to go home." I said, not wanting to elaborate.

Jade looked half frustrated, half happy.

"What's wrong, babe?" I asked her.

It's not the best, but I had a TOTALLY WAY more elaborate chapter written up and I lost it. I'm pissed about that, but tell me what you guys think! P.S. Sorry for the late update. I've been really busy. And for those of you reading How Forever Began, I'll have it updated in a few minutes.