This is defiantly my favorite chapter without a doubt… it's kind of split up in two parts, complete with a cheesy intermission!!!  :P  I'd also like to say THANK YOU on the mass of reviews!!  :D  I'm as happy as a monkey with grape juice and twice as high……….. ahem…. Anyway, enjoy…

Time After Time

Fic by MuseQ

Disclaimer: Not going there.  I told you what to do.

Chapter 10: Before the Moon

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Later that day…

Profesor Lupin dropped his quill for the third time and rubbed his temples.  'Like a dog,' he thought in frustration, glancing at the sun setting behind the Forbidden Forest, 'like a damn dog in heat… the only thing that would make this worse would be if-'

There was a light knock on his door.

'Shit!'

Remus got up quickly, almost sprinted to his office door, and listened.  'Maybe it's Severus with my potion,' he thought hopefully, 'As long as it's not-'

"Professor?" Came Hermione's voice.

'Shit!'

With every ounce of control he could allot, he opened the door a crack and peered down at the very object of his emotional (and, at the moment, physical) desires, who smiled widely and adjusted the bundle of books she was holding; one particularly large one in the middle kept slipping.  "Hello, Hermione."

"Hello!" She said pleasantly.  Mind If I come in?  I need to return these books I've barrowed from your collection."

'Like Hell you will.'  "Of course you can."

Hermione smiled more broadly and pushed a little on the door to step inside; Remus was being a little hesitant to let her in.  "Sorry I didn't finish them sooner, but I've been busy of course, you know…" she said offhandedly.

Remus chuckled.  "Yes, I think I do."

"I loved the one about the Garbates, they seemed to… oh damnit!"  She sighed and bent down to retrieve the books that just fell from her arms.  Remus went to help her, but in doing so caught a clear glimpse of flesh just below her neck, and quickly turned, blushing terribly, and making sure his robes were extra baggy on his front…

"Would you like some tea, Hermione?"  He forced out, recovering himself.  "I just put a pot on…"

"Oh…" she struggled with the books, trying not to look too amused at his behavior, "… alright, I wanted to talk to you about something anyway..."  She put the books on his desk and sat down while Remus fumbled with the tea pot and cups.

"What do you want to talk about?"  Remus handed her a cup and pushed a sugar bowl towards her.  'Two scoops, if I remember correctly…' he smiled slightly as she dropped to scoops of sugar in her tea and stirred it thoughtfully.

"Well… I was just wondering… tonight's the full moon…"

"I am well aware of this…" he said chuckling.  Hermione smirked.

"I was just wondering what Remus… what your other self is going to do tonight…"

"It's all taking care of," he said, waving a hand. "Poppy'll be taking him back to the Shrieking Shack like always."

"Oh…" she replied after a pause, and sipped her tea quietly.

Seeing the look on her face, he cocked his head and said, "Why do you ask?"

Hermione looked up quickly.  "Oh, well I just thought… it's silly, really…"

Remus suppressed the sudden urge to embrace her.  "Severus only makes enough Wolfsbane for one werewolf here, Hermione…" He said solemnly.

Hermione nodded and looked into his eyes.  "If the potion was less complicated…"

"Don't worry about me, Hermione." He said suddenly.  "Please.  I… He can handle a night without it alone.  He'll have to for another fifteen years."  He decided this ended the subject and averted his eyes, sipping his tea thoughtfully.

They drank in silence for a few minutes, every once in a while pouring more tea in their empty cups. 

Hermione was adding sugar to her third serving when a realization came to her.  "Remus?"

Remus gulped his tea hard in surprise of her addressing him informally, and blushing slightly wiped his mouth as a distraction.  "Yes?"

 "I've just had a thought…"

"Really?  I've got one too…"

Hermione shot him a smirk before furrowing her brows in concentration.  "What I was thinking was that you remembered everything that happened while you were here, right?"

"Yes."

"So, being that as it is, wouldn't you remember where the enchantment is located, which would save us all a lot of trouble?"

"Hermione, you are one smart young lady."  He commented with a sudden rush of guts while Hermione glowed.  He put his chin in his hand and pretended to think about what actually happened.  "That is a very good question… and I will answer you by saying, simply, I never knew where it was."

"What?  How can you not know?"

"Because, Hermione, I wasn't the one that found it."

Hermione processed this.  "Oh! You mean, I…?"

Remus nodded.

"So… I guess I just didn't have to tell you; it probably wasn't a big deal.  I mean, you get the enchantment, so you get to go home.  Simple enough."  Hermione said casually and sipped her tea, trying not to think about Remus leaving right away.

"You're under no obligation, though.  Tell him when you find it if it satisfies you.  I think I'd like to know."  They both laughed a little, and Hermione finished her cup. 

'The truth was… you didn't want to tell me.'

*

Hermione walked solemnly to the common room… at least, that's where she intended to go.  'I know why I'm down here,' she looked around at the torches held high on the dungeon walls, 'he'll probably be a stubborn git about it, but I might as well try.'

She knocked on Snape's classroom door, which creaked open when she applied pressure to it.  Breathing deep, she stepped inside.

The classroom was empty, of course; the only occupants were crumpled up pieces of parchment and dried up ingredients left over from Friday's classes.  'The house elves probably haven't gotten to this room yet,' she thought sadly, 'Oh, those poor dears always have so much to do…'  (A/N: gag me…)

Her thoughts changed when she saw the desk closest to her and the door.  Sitting on top of it was a goblet filled to the brim with a smoking potion giving off an odd smell.  She walked closer to it. 'Wolfsbane.  It must be.' 

"I know why you're here, Granger," a silky voice called from Snape's office, "and the answer is no!"

Snape swept over to her in a few long strides.  "Yes, I was just delivering this to Professor Lupin… or, Remus, if you prefer."  His lips curled menacingly. "I forgot you two were on more… personal speaking turms now."

Hermione fought an internal battle with herself; one half of her wanted nothing more than to wring his neck.  "Exactly how long does it take to whip up a sufficient Wolfsbane potion, Severus?"  Hermione watched with satisfaction as Snape's smirk vanished instantly. He now seemed to look thoroughly pissed off.

"Wolfsbane is hardly a potion you could 'whip up', Ms. Granger.  It takes hours to perfect, and the ingredients used, including the wolfsbane itself, is somewhat rare, and I would not care to waste any more of them on subjects that just drop in using illegal magic-"

"It wasn't his fault!"  Hermione shouted; her face shining red with rage, "It was a harmless prank-"

"Five points, Granger.  And yes, I know exactly how… harmless their pranks are." Snape retorted loudly, picking up the goblet and swept off toward the door.  "And, Ms. Granger?"

Hermione stared at a shriveled cad brain on the ground and didn't look up; afraid she'd tell him off real good if she did.

"If you are ever informal with me again, I'll take twenty." He said in a dangerous whisper.  "Unlike some helpless old fools, I am not one to fall under your love spell as easily…"  Smirking again he left the room.

"Git… I knew you'd do that…" Hermione said under her breath.  To her very surprise though, she wasn't angry at all.  On the contrary, she was too shocked to barely stand strait.

'He… loves me?'

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*Intermission*

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watch the cheese!

*ahem*

A/N:  I just wanted to say that I have a few song snippets planned to add a little dramatic effect that I'm quite fond of, so here's the only disclaimer on the subject that I'll put up:  I don't own any lyrics to the songs I put up; they belong to the creative geniuses that write and perform them…

On with the story…

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You Must Love Me

By Madonna

Where do we go from here?
This isn't where we intended to be
We had it all, you believed in me
I believed in you

Certainties disappear
What do we do for our dream to survive?
How do we keep all our passions alive,
As we used to do?

 Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say

Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away

Chorus:
You must love me
You must love me

*

Remus climbed solemnly through the portrait hole, and for the first time since he'd been with Hermione, he regretted being in the future.  This would be the first full moon in years that he would spend by himself.  Even in the summers the marauders would meet at James' house, which was positioned nicely by a forest and far enough away from neighbors for a werewolf to cause any real danger.  But now, he was alone, and he knew he'd suffer greatly for that, having no one to bite or even (Remus smiled slightly as a big black dog came to mind) to wrestle with. 

'I hope Hermione gets my note.'  He had left a note with Harry, not trusting Ron enough to keep it closed (he'd been very snoopy around the two for the last week).  In it he apologized for whatever he did to make her upset earlier that day and that he was heading to Professor Lupin's to go on their 'trip'.

As he descended the staircase, wanting to walk slower with every step, he halted suddenly as Hermione made her way up torwards him, looking at her feet. 'Maybe if I hurry she won't see me… where's James' cloak when you need it?!'  Without making a sound, Remus turned on his heal and dashed up the few stairs he descended and ran down the hall almost catlike in pounces.

"Remus?"

'Shit!'

He turned and screwed his face into a pleasant expression.  This was difficult.  Since he was a mere matter of hours away from becoming a werewolf, his skin was sullen and extremely pale, and the dark circles under his eyes gave him a faint haunted look. 

"Hey, Hermione."

"Where are you off to this hour?"  She cocked her head in a fake-curious manner.

"…Professor Lupin's," He said slowly, "Because we're going somewhere… remember?"

"Right."

They stood there for a long spell.  'I'd like to know when he first started to… feel for me.' Hermione wondered, absentmindedly watching a spider squeeze his way through a crack in the wall. 'What if it wasn't until my third year when he taught us?  Or my seventh?  What if it's just a kind of… perverted attraction…?'  Hermione laughed at the absurdity of it.  'Remus… a pervert?'

"What's so funny?"

"Nothing…"  Hermione choked, stifling her laughs.  "I mean, you're not a perv, right?"

"What?!"

"Never mind."

Remus smiled.  "…Well, I'd better get going then…"

Hermione allowed him to get to the staircase.  "The moon isn't full for another three hours, you know."  She said quietly.

Remus slipped on the first step.  Regaining his balance, he closed his eyes and took in what she had just said to him.

'Dear God… not you, Hermione…'

"Remus?"  He felt her presence behind her.  The halls slowly became darker as the sun set behind the trees.  "Remus… look at me…"

Hermione put a hand on his shoulder, but removed it at once.  He was shaking.

"What… are you talking about, Hermione?"  His voice cracked, and Hermione felt her heart break.

"Oh, Remus…"  She grasped his shoulder again and tried to turn him around.  He didn't resist.  She allowed herself a gasp.  He was as pale as she'd ever seen him.  He kept his eyes lowered to his shoes, which was hard given his height and how close they were, but Hermione didn't miss a tear sliding down his left cheek. 

"Remus… oh honestly… I know, alright?  It's not-" Remus groaned over her words and covered his face with his hands.

"I… didn't want you to… not you…"

"Remus…!"

"I have to go…"  He stumbled out of her grasp and went to start down the stairs…

'Oh for heaven's sake!'  Hermione wrenched an arm from his face and pulled him back in front of her.  She pulled off the other arm and grabbing his face held it inches from her own.

"Remus, listen, I've known the whole time," Remus' eyes widened, "I've actually known for years, since you taught us in my third year.  Don't you understand?  It's alright with me…  I care about you, Remus, just like James and Sirius and… Peter..." she finished awkwardly.  Remus then caught her off-guard by resting his forehead on hers, closing his eyes.  He moved his hands, which were hanging useless at his sides, up to his face and held her hands in his own, taking in every detail.  Hermione felt faint; having never experienced this kind of caress… instinctly she moved her hands slowly upward and through his hair.

Remus dropped his hands slowly, tracing her arms the way down, and pulled her into a tight embrace.  "Thank you, Hermione… thank you…"

Hermione put her arms around his neck and hugged back.  As she listened to him sniff back his tears, his face buried in her neck, she felt like crying herself.  'I'm helping him… he's so lonely, and I'm… here for him…'

Remus pulled back enough to wipe his face with his left hand, his right still clasped tightly around Hermione.  He smiled serenely at her glowing face smiling back up at him.  'I can't believe this is happening to me,' he thought, amazed, 'I thought for sure she'd hate me when she knew, then I'd be alone again…'

"You worry way too much, Remus Lupin."  She said quietly enough not to disturb their moment. 

"How did you…?"

"Your eyes talk a lot more than your mouth does…"  And keeping his mouth firmly in mind, Hermione decided to seal the moment and moved her lips closer to his… 'Only an inch apart…'  Hermione closed her eyes….

She felt air from his nose tickle her upper lip, and in an instant it was gone, and the air around her became much cooler.

Hermione reluctantly opened her eyes to see Remus not facing her, his hands in his hair. 

'Oh God!  I took advantage of her!  Why do I let myself go like this?  Tonight's surely an exception… oh I could've done something worse!'

"Remus!"

He turned around sharply, eyes wide.  "I'm sorry, Hermione… I can't do this…"

'And why not?!?'  "but…"

"I'm sorry…"  With a purely agonizing look on his face, he tore his eyes from her and ran down the staircase.

And once again, Hermione wasn't angry or upset.  She watched him pelt away from her with a sheepish smile on her face.

'He loves me…'

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Why are you at my side?
How can I be any use to you now?
Give me a chance and I'll let you see how
Nothing has changed

Deep in my heart I'm concealing
Things that I'm longing to say

Scared to confess what I'm feeling
Frightened you'll slip away
 
You must love me
You must love me

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That should hold you for a while! O.o Kidding… now that the ball is rolling, I'll try to post as fast as I can… I picked up the idea of Remus getting all- well, you know what I mean- near the the full moon from other fics and fell in love with the idea… (what Lupin lover wouldn't??  ;D ) so I had to incorporate that into my story… teheee… Review, by the way, and tell me when you smell something icky…

~MuseQ