Hi.

This is the author. Frecleface, TheRavingRedhead, whatever. Uh. I'm here to tell you that this fic is dead.

There's a reason it hasn't been updated in over four years. It's not just because I've been stuck in a writer's block for fics in like five of them, although I would like to emphasize that that is 100 percent still a factor.

No, it's because I've just completely lost interest.

I failed the quintessential writer protocol when starting to write this fic. While I did have ideas on how and when I wanted some scenes to turn out, and had planned certain events (i.e. Quirrell's past, the two friends' reunion, Voldy's New Year's moment, etc.), there is nothing compelling me to write anything. Hell, I have drafts of moments that I wanted to throw in the fic somewhere during their later years but now I can't do it because this fic is completely lost on me. It's gone. It's dead.

I am so genuinely sorry. I hate to be one of those writers who just gives up. Who leaves their writers hanging. Who leaves fics unupdated for months and now years. But that's what's happened now. And I hate that. I hate that I've had to left you all hanging for so long, after so much teasing and so much buildup.

So as some condolences, here are factors that I meant to implement to the fic but never got around to (this might be edited later when I remember):

The reason Meredith was so hostile to Voldy was because after befriending Quirrell, she assumed that Voldy was all to blame, and that he had been ignoring Quirrell deliberately this whole time. Later chapters were planned where their interactions would've softened and he would learn about all of this, and the two would not think of each other as enemies anymore

Denise was planned to have a crush on one of the cameo boys introduced during the sorting segment (I think it might've been Chris or Tyler, I can't even remember anymore)

Voldy was supposed to learn about what his "fever" meant through either Bella or Snape

Snape was supposed to be a foil, and the fact that he had a crush on his childhood friend as well but was having trouble with someone else was supposed to have Voldy on edge with Quirrell during their later years

Bella and Voldy were supposed to have sex for the first time in the prefects' bath at some point

Darren, who Quirrell had a crush on, was meant to reject his advances (politely bc the former recognized how huge of a step that was for the latter) and that was supposed to break Quirrell's heart.

Bella and Voldy would break up, because she would notice how he's not really thinking of her the way she wants him to, and would rather spend time with either Lucius or Quirrell than her.

I THINK I meant for Bella and Quirrell to have dueled at some point? And for him to be hurt by her? And him telling Voldy about that? I can't even remember at this point. Maybe I teased at it and never picked it up. Then that was this.

At some point I meant for the two boys to have a "Harry And Hermione" (name of a song on the HBP soundtrack) moment where they reflect on how none of their crushes or relationships have worked out. It would be a huge moment for Volds to reflect on himself and how his love for Quirrell never really went away

Of course I wanted to have a dance – kind of akin to the Yule Ball in the books – where both our boys would go stag, but end up just going with each other because fuck it, right? And then they would eventually dance with each other and it would end with a kiss between the two (those who spoke to me during the inception of Fever know that the inspiration for this was the song "Fireworks" from the OotP OST)

Something would happen between the two - Quirrell would be overwhelmed and not take it seriously at first, thinking it's just a surge of feelings

And then they would have an outside meeting of sorts, truly reconciling and admitting their feelings. Holding each other's hands. And I wanted this scene to end with Quirrell repeating his line from when he first got adopted, but with a much more emotional meaning now that Voldy truly understands. "I love you, Voldy. I always have."

Then there was to be an epilogue of them being dads and getting ready for Wang Mu's first day at Hogwarts.

So yeah. I truly have no excuses. I really don't. I can literally only plead for apologies. And for my readers to listen to a few HP OST tracks to try and figure out how I would've pictured a scene based on that.

I am so sorry to leave you all hanging like this. But I truly have no inspiration to finish this. Maybe sometime. Maybe when I'm retired in like 70 years. Maybe never. I don't know. But I hope these points give you an idea of what I was thinking, and can fill in the blanks.

I am truly sorry for disappointing you.