First of the title is from the song, but this isn't a songfic. The story just fits with the main part of the song.

I know that I have other stories to be writing but I can only write when it comes into my head and this just did. I don't plan out any of my stories, whatever happens, happens so I don't know where this is going yet. I have a few more chapters already written and writing more now. I will try and update my other stories.

Italics or Bold are texts or letters or thoughts (things that people say but not out loud).

Dear Emily,

It was my only way out Em, I'm sorry that it got so far out of hand. I never meant to hurt you but I was trapped, I couldn't stay Emily. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I always loved you.

Love, A.D x

The letter was handwritten and posted through my door. I nearly passed out reading it the first time but re-read it over and over. There was a smaller card inside with an out of state address on. What was I supposed to do? Was it really her? Was it just A messing more with my head again? What about her body ? What was going on? How could this be happening?

Xoxo

I needed to reply to why ever it was, that's what they wanted . It couldn't be A because they wouldn't have so obvious and say directly it was Alison. I couldn't answer any other of my questions so I wrote the letter.

Dear Alison?

How can I know this is you? Is this A? What's really going on?

Emily

The reply came two days later.

Dear Emily,

Em, it's me. How can I prove that to you? Umm... Remember the day we made that film and we found the way to send messages to each other so that no one would notice we were talking ? Its me Em, I meant what I said I'm sorry , I never meant to hurt anyone especially you. It's just so complicated I couldn't be there and I know it went too far but it was my only way out. Who the hell is A?

I will always love you , Alison x

P.S. We can't keep speaking like this, it's not safe. Buy a deposible phone and send me the number in your next letter xx

Xoxo

Dear Alison,

Ok, I believe you. It's been two fucking years ! It did hurt Alison , it almost killed me, supposedly it killed you! How could you do that to me , to all of us. What's more complicated than what you put us through? You always were selfish, you never cared about anyone else! How can you love someone , when you don't know how to be nice someone?

Emily

Tear drops blurred the ink in places and the writing was harsh and pointed due to the fact I was shaking from the anger. I wrote the number on the back of the address card from Alison's other letter and slid it in the envelope before posting it.

Xoxo

Friday night and we were hanging out at Spencer's house like usual when I got the first text from Alison. That felt so weird , so right when the past two years had been wrong.

Damn Emily , swearing? I know I never treated you right and the past two years haven't helped but being away from you made me realise how much I loved you. I was pushing my feelings down, I felt wrong but that's changed. I really do love you , let me prove that.

I'll always love you, Alison xx

' Who's that?'I jumped, Spencer's voice broke the trance I was in, staring at my phone.

'I..umm..no one.'

'I'm guessing...new girl?' Hanna asked curiously.

'Not exactly.'

Xoxoxoxo

What did you expect? Me to welcome you back with open arms? How do you think I felt when you rejected me then disappeared ?

Xo

No, I just thought you might understand. I never thought about that Em, I love you. Forgive me? You never told me, who's A?

Love you , always , Alison xx

Xo

I needed to think about it and I knew the other girls were getting annoyed by me ignoring them so I put the phone in my bag and tried not to think about it until tomorrow when I wouldn't be as angry or confused.

'Finally rejoined the land of the living?'

'Yeah, sorry.