Letting Go
By RedEmerald (Edited by freakycalzona)

Disclaimer: We own nothing and borrow lots. No, really... lots. Like every other character past or present on Grey's Anatomy which are the sole intellectual property of Shonda Rhimes, Shondaland and ABC.

Ratings: Overall R.

Story Information: This is Alternative Universe fanfiction. None of the characters have the occupations that Shonda Rhimes intended. We simply asked ourselves how career choices can change the directions of the characters lives, but not who they are as a person.

Summary: AU Sometimes it doesn't matter whether or not it's a dream

Editor's Note 1: All the credit to this fic goes to RedEmerald of LE . com I just asked her permission to edit this one for our otp

Editor's Note 2: so guys this will be the last fic of RedEmerald that I'll be editing. Should I continue editing other stories for our otp? Suggestions and comments are much appreciated...

Chapter 1:

Arizona's POV

So...relationships suck, right?

Okay, I'll admit, I was a hopeless romantic. Still am. Back then, though, I was in one of those phases where I wasn't. You know where those phases happen - right after a relationship rears up and bites you on the ass, right? Pretty much.

I had just broken up with my girlfriend, Joanne. Nice girl, sweet as hell, but with this pesky habit of hooking up with her ex-boyfriend whenever she got drunk. Really annoying. The first time, I got past it - I figured, you know, that she was freaking out about getting serious, and so on. The second time, I thought it was really uncalled for, but what can I say, I loved her. The third time, she got pregnant. That pretty much killed the romance for me.

As chance had it, my best friend Callie had just broken up with her boyfriend too - which really surprised me. She and I had been sharing an apartment since graduating together - we had shared a dorm in college, and it had worked out pretty well. The apartment was definitely an upgrade from the dorm room - separate bedrooms were a luxury - but it was still a pretty cheap place, since neither of us was making much money yet. Cheap, as in thin walls. Very thin. Tissue paper. If I'd rubbed something greasy on the walls, they would have turned transparent.

For night after night, I'd have to listen to her and her boyfriends. Don't get me wrong - I can totally understand why men were always around - Callie's a knockout. She was Latina and gorgeous. Tall, leggy, dark hair, medium-dark skin, big grin - she was the star of the college swim team. To her credit, she wasn't easy - she put those boys through hell before she let them in her bed - but once they were there, they certainly weren't in hell anymore. Callie, as far as I could tell without ever having watched, was loud, responsive, and creative. When you hear shock in a former college quarterback's voice at what a girl's doing in bed - well, I can't even guess.

My romantic life, on the other hand, involved far less fireworks. I've been told I'm pretty, which is good enough for me. I'm short with very blonde hair but big light blue eyes, a startling combination I've always liked. I'm slim, but with enough curves that, in T-shirt and jeans, I look like a girl. Again, good enough for me. I've refused to wear a skirt or a dress since I was ten. I played tennis and field hockey, and wore my hair boy-short until I graduated college. I've always been relatively feminine, but needless to say, I was never really "in the closet".

Anyway, after my latest breakup, I decided I wanted to get away for a while. Since Callie had just broken up too...hold on, that reminds me. I hadn't figured out yet why Callie had broken up with her boyfriend. They'd been going out for more than six months, and rather than just a lot of "oh, baby" and "don't stop" from her bedroom at night, I'd been hearing a lot of "oh god, I love you" and "yes, darling, more, more". Then it was over. I figured the usual would happen: she'd pretend it was mutual, then have a drink or two and sob to me about how he dumped her - or how she found him chained to the wall being whipped by his sixty-year-old gay lover. Not kidding.

So I wanted to get away for a while - at least long enough so that my ex-girlfriend could figure out I didn't want to see ultrasound pictures - and Callie was in the same place, so we found a trip we could take together where we would be totally isolated from the world for a while. We flew out to the Caribbean, and found Hunt Tours.

Hunt Tours was really just a couple with a boat who wanted to make money cruising around the islands they loved anyway, so they would take on a half-dozen passengers or so and float around the Caribbean for a few weeks. They gave us a great deal - apparently, they saw a lot of recently broken-up passengers on their boat.

Oh, by the way, if you want to know more about their boat, don't ask me. I don't know much about boats. It was big. It seemed to be made largely of wood, and it had some number of sails. We didn't actually "sail" very often - apparently, it moved slower when using its engine, and a slow cruise was the whole point, so Cristina and Owen didn't use the actual sails much. A boat with a motor and a steering wheel doesn't take that much of a crew, either, so we weren't expected to contribute much other than untying the occasional rope or turning a crank or whatever. I didn't pay much attention. I wouldn't have picked a boat, myself - they're obviously not really my thing - but Callie had always wanted to take a cruise, so there we were.

Cristina and Owen Hunt owned the boat - she was Korean and gorgeous. Owen was white under his tan, and built like a linebacker. Tall, huge shoulders, powerful build. Surprisingly for a man that size, he was actually pretty sweet - quiet, calm, and upbeat, as though he were the biggest, strongest high school guidance counselor that ever lived. They were a great couple - very much in love, constantly touching and kissing.

Our fellow passengers were a pretty mixed little group. Derek was just a middle-aged man on vacation - he seemed like a lawyer, or a stock broker, or something. Mark was a college student working on some kind of research project - at least, that's what he claimed. I think he was just one of those enterprising types who found a way to get college credit for going on vacation. Teddy was a tall girl with a big soft pretty eyes and a shy smile. I admit that she caught my eye right away - but I wasn't here to rebound.
Oh, and there was Addison, too - Addison was a skinny redheaded girl with a thick Irish brogue and a great laugh, but she had a fiancé back home. Apparently, there was also a friend who was supposed to come with her, but didn't show. Addison decided to go anyway, since her tickets were non-refundable. I applauded the instinct - even if unavailable, she was pretty, and I've always had a thing for an Irish accent. Then again, who doesn't?

We all got on the boat, with the usual round of introductions and small talk, and found cabins. Aside from the master suite where Owen and Cristina slept, there were two double cabins and two smaller cabins - closets, really, with bunks in them. No one much cared - we'd only be sleeping there, after all. Derek and Mark, as the only other men on board, took one of the doubles, while Callie and Addison shared the other - Teddy was shy about sharing a room, and Callie and I hadn't flown several thousand miles just to share a tiny room again, so she was happy to stay with Addison. The two of them hit it off right away. Teddy and I had the single cabins to ourselves.

As the boat left the little port - a lovely little seaside town with a great many smiling people, which is a very nice way to start a voyage - we all changed. The men just wore their swim trunks all the time, of course, while Callie and Addison wore bikinis with tank tops or light t-shirts over them. Teddy and I wore thin shirts and shorts, what I called our "boat clothes", as opposed to what we wore to go swimming. I'd brought a swimsuit, as had Teddy, but didn't want to lie around in it for days on end.

So the eight of us sailed - or cruised, or whatever - out onto the big bright blue ocean, with a lovely sunny day beaming down on us. Within minutes of lying on the deck chatting with everyone, I felt months of tension draining away. There is no feeling quite like being in the middle of nowhere with interesting people and absolutely nothing else to do.

After several hours, Addison and Callie had settled in for some serious sunbathing, while Teddy was playing cards with Derek and Mark and Owen, and I found myself sitting with Cristina near the little room where all the boat's controls are. Again, don't ask - there were levers and wheels and buttons, and some lights. That's about all I know. If we'd hit a storm or something and I'd had to steer the boat for more than three seconds, we wouldn't have survived.

"...and things just obviously weren't going to work out," I finished the long, depressing story of my breakup - believe me, the abbreviated version you've heard is quite enough.

Cristina shook her head. "Some people never learn," she sighed. "We had a nice couple out here last time who were trying to patch things up after one of those. I don't think either of them spent a night in their own cabin - or with each other - the whole trip."

I laughed. "How efficient - they got their rebounds out of the way while they were still in the middle of the relationship."

She laughed as well - I liked her laugh. Very soft but very open and friendly, and her black eyes sparkled when she laughed. "Tell me this, though - why did a smart girl like you give her three chances?"

I winced. "I'm probably too romantic for my own good."

"Ah, don't ever say that," she nudged me playfully with her elbow. "Can never be too romantic." She grinned. "Owen's never given up being romantic."

"It's easier when you're as happy as you two are, I think."

"Well, yes," she admitted. "The trick is to find things you both enjoy, and enjoy them as much as you possibly can."

"Like cruising around the ocean?"

"Exactly." She nodded, reaching past me to do something with the controls. As she leaned past me, she glanced at my eyes, which surprised me. The last time anyone had looked at my eyes that way I'd...well, ended up looking at ultrasound pictures. I resolved to assume it was just a curious look.

"Could you find Owen for me?" She asked then.

"Oh, sure," I got up, still a little confused, but I had shaken it off by the time I got back up on deck and made my way forward to where Owen was sitting with the other two guys and Teddy. "Hey, Owen?" They'd insisted that they'd throw anybody who used "sir", "ma'am", or their last names off the boat.

He looked up at me, smiling that big toothy grin of his. "Hey there, lovely." He called all us girls by some complimentary term. I suspected at the time that it had more to do with a bad memory than any real desire to compliment us. I know now I was wrong - he just honestly loved women of all types - but that's what I thought at the time. I still liked it, though. What girl doesn't like being called lovely?

"Cristina needs you," I reported.

"Oh, sure." He glanced down at his cards and slapped them down on the deck. "I had crap anyway." He got up, and stepped past me on his way to join his wife at the controls.

"Hey, Arizona," Mark greeted me. "Want to join us? We could use a real fourth - Owen's a terrible poker player." Derek nodded enthusiastically.

Teddy just smiled shyly up at me. I shrugged. "No, thanks." I stretched, looking up at the sunny sky. "I think I'll find a quiet spot for a nap."

Derek smiled. "Good idea." I half-expected him to ask if I needed company, but he had some class.

I wandered away, but halfway up the ship toward the back - or stern, whatever, leave me alone about the boat - I heard footsteps behind me.