To: finhusdon[at]hotmail. com
From: bradellis[at]gmail. com
Subject: For the book

Good afternoon, Finn,

I'm emailing, as you can probably guess, about the book! You've probably heard from some of the others about me emailing them for details, and I've reached a point where I need your input.

I understand that something happened between Kurt and yourself during your Sophomore year, but I know very little of what actually went on. Was this to do with your parents, and their relationship? Both of you rarely spoke about it in rehearsals, so therefore I don't know anything about what happened, only that something did, and I would like it if you could enlighten me as to the events that occurred.

Speak to you soon,
Brad

To: bradellis[at]gmail. com
From: finhusdon[at]hotmail. com
Subject: RE: For the book

Hi Brad

It's good to hear from you again! Hope everything's going okay with the book and stuff. Well, I guess it is.

And what does 'enlighten' mean? Does it mean, like, set fire to something? Because I don't want to set fire to my computer if that's what you mean.

Anyway, all that stuff that went on. It was weird, right?

I was under a hell of a lot of stress at that time. What with all the crap that went on with Quinn, and the never-ending stuff with the football team and all that, it was just another thing to add to it all. And then my mom just announced out of nowhere that she'd got together with Kurt's dad, and it was just getting more and more. Then that asshat Karofsky found out about it and started saying how we were actually boyfriends and some crap like that, and I mean, I'm all for being yourself and all that, but I'm straight and I just don't swing that way, right? And it's sort-of, I can't think of the right word for it but like, devaluing who you are and making you out as something less of a man when you're that age. I get it now and stuff, but then I didn't, and it wasn't cool.

So there was this one night, and on that day I'd had a fight with Karofsky and Azimio in the boys' bathroom while I was trying to put that Kiss make-up on, and so I was angry and frustrated and all that, and I guess I just snapped.

I said some real nasty shit that I was ashamed of the moment I'd said it, but it was one of those moments when once it's out there, you just keep going and going and you can't stop until someone else does stops you. And then Burt came in, and he was mad and all, and I get why. So he kicked me out, but my mom talked to him about it all, and I was grounded and shit, but it was all smoothed over, mainly. And I tried to make it up to Kurt, and then when Karofsky and Azimio cornered him again, I defended him, and then we were like bros. And it was all cool.

So yeah, that's basically what happened and stuff.

Finn

To: finhusdon[at]hotmail. com
From: bradellis[at]gmail. com
Subject: RE: For the book

Hello there, Finn!

It was good to hear you, and thank you for everything you told me. It sounds like were under a lot of stress right then, and I do sympathise with you wholly.

I'm now very interested in one part of what you said specifically; what was it that you said to Kurt that made his father so angry? And what was it that his father said back to you?

I understand if you don't want to tell me, but it would be very interesting to know.

Thanks,
Brad

To: bradellis[at]gmail. com
From: finhusdon[at]hotmail. com
Subject: RE: For the book

Hey, no, it's cool, it's okay.

But I want to say, before I say any more, that I'm not proud of it. What I said, it wasn't cool and it wasn't right. I get that now. I got it then, but I couldn't help myself. I was angry, and upset, and frustrated, and it wasn't just that one thing, but a build-up of all the crap that had happened ever since that outburst with Quinn, that you saw, obviously.

I don't know how it started. Something about the bedroom we were sharing, and redecorating and everything. And it wasn't that I didn't like what he'd done, because it was actually really good. It was just the fact that we happened to be sharing, and that others knew that, and what they thought was happening between us, and I didn't like it. So I was angry, and we were shouting at each other, and I started saying that his stuff was, well, faggy.

Like I said, I'm not proud of it. And I'm so glad, eventually, that Burt stopped me. I saw just how upset Kurt was getting, and I just ignored it and kept going. The lamp, the blanket, everything about the space, I was just shouting about it all. I was such a douche, I can't believe it myself. But that's what I did.

Burt was right to kick me out, I guess, but my mom stopped him. And I'm glad, because he's like the father I never had. My own dad died fighting in the army when I was really young, and I really miss him, but I never knew him. And Burt's awesome. He's a really great guy, and my mom loves him, and he loves her, and it's cool.

I don't know what else I can tell you about it, but yeah. There we go.

Finn

To: finhusdon[at]hotmail. com
From: bradellis[at]gmail. com
Subject: RE: For the book

Finn, you have nothing to be ashamed of, okay? What you did might well have been wrong, but from what I understand, you regret it and have more than made up for it, which is what matters. The fact that you made amends, and didn't only apologise but then helped to protect Kurt, that's amazing, and honourable.

Thank you for sharing this with me. I understand it must have brought back some bad memories, but you've got lots of good ones with Kurt to remember now.

Don't beat yourself up about it, okay?

Speak to you soon,
Brad

So, I apologise for taking so long to update! I did say I'd write more while I was away on holiday, but I got distracted starting a Klaine RENT-based AU and then wrote A Broken Mirror as well, so that's what's been going on in the meantime. I do promise to update more regularly now!

Thank you all so, so much for reading and reviewing. Your support is invaluable!