Disclaimer: All recognized characters belong to Stephanie Myers.

I've renamed the story to "At the cliffs" use to be "A little something called life"

BELLA POV

I couldn't sit still while waiting for Jacob to get back; I didn't want to go to Emily's, just because I didn't want to bother her. Though I think I was never an inconvenience to her. Instead decided I needed to move, Billy refused to let me cook or clean the house. I might as well start pacing or something before I went crazy, but after awhile the small living room of Billy's house was not big enough for me to move around. It was beginning to become claustrophobic, I needed more space. I quickly decided I would go to the beach, I needed a change of scenery, and being out in the open, with some fresh air would do me some good. Real good if I don't say so myself.

"I'll be at the beach" I yelled to Billy and before he could say anything I was out of the house. I couldn't stand sitting there waiting for Jacob to come back, knowing that he was somewhere out there running around trying to save my sorry ass and protecting his tribe. I quickly walked to the beach and straight to the driftwood I and Jake always sat. It made me calm, being outside, smelling the salty breeze, it made me calm. It relaxed my whole body.

Or so I thought, but it was just plain as annoying, my hair was flying everywhere and I looked like I had a bird's nest in my hair, it was freaken everywhere so I quickly tied it into a messy bun so my hair would stop whipping my face every chance it got.

I sat there for who knows how long, but I was pretty sure that if I checked my watch it would only have passed five minutes. I needed to move, how could someone sit all day? I did enough of that when I was at school, so happy that I had finally finished with it. When I looked up, was where I saw it. It was like a beacon of light, pointing me in the right direction. A cliff that would occupy my time for a little while at least, so I began my trek towards the cliffs, Jacob promised me he would take me cliff diving today, so I decided that I'll just go cliff diving just without the Jacob part. I mean I am capable of doing things myself, no blood no foul right? I wasn't a little kid, I was an adult, or well considered one anyways.

As I got closer to the cliff everything that was in my mind just disappeared. Everything I was worried about left my mind once I reached the cliff. Every current thought, every anxiety just disappeared. I elt calmer, lighter somehow, at ease here. The view was magnificent, waves crashing into the rocks below, birds chirping, the wind blowing through the leaves leaving a rustling noise, the sun high in the bright blue sky, though it was still cold as hell, I could hear children down below laughing. Life was all around me. Wonderful life, and here, for a moment, I actually wanted it to end.

So there I stood. Staring at nothing but everything and then a thought popped out of no-where, what did I do to deserve ending up here? On top of a fucken cliff, freezing me ass off. Was there this huge unknown force out there that hated my guts? What did I ever do to deserve this torture? And I just stood there, staring out into the ocean wondering if I never came here, would my life be any different? What if I had jumped off the cliff, would that have made a difference as well? Did that unknown force have another plan for me? Would I been able to live a normal supernatural free life? Of course, because there is always another path but for me, there was always a new path a head, but at this very moment I could only think of 2 paths for me. 1 was to move on or 2. Continue this pain that Edward inflicted me with and it made me angry. I was livid, fury was burning in me. Edward Cullen was going to pay for what he did. Karma will hit him with everything it has.

"I NEVER WANTED THIS! I NEVER WANTED YOU IN CONTROL! WHY ARE YOU STILL CONTROLING ME, EVEN WHEN YOU ARENT HERE!? WHY? WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME! DO YOU HATE ME? ARE YOU EVER GOING TO LEAVE ME ALONE?" I yelled to nothing in particular. "please" I whispered. I heard rustling in the background but paid no mind to it.

"Who's doing what to you? Wanna explain yourself princess?" Someone said behind me. I whipped my head around so fast I swear I heard my neck crack.

"It's none of your fucken business. So why don't you run back into the woods and go find Little Red Riding Hood, mutt" I said.

"Ngaww, does the little Princess want the big scary wolf to go away?" Paul said faking sympathy and with heavy sarcasm "Well guess what? I'm not. So are you going to tell me who and what you're talking to and about? And most importantly why are you up here, all alone?" he said, suddenly angry.

"Like you care anyways, why you here anyways" I asked.

"Just here to check up on the little princess everyone loves so dearly. You shouldn't be up here alone, people will worry." Paul said sitting down on the edge of the cliff, "you know, you're not alone?" he said softly, his eyes softening, just a little bit.

"Well I feel alone" I sighed, sitting down next to him. We sat there for a while, in silence, it wasn't awkward, and it was comfortable. I waited for him to say something, anything.

We probably only sat there for a good half an hour before he said "Well, don't feel alone, because you've Jacob and the whole pack, so don't say you feel alone. You're never truly alone."

I barked a laugh. "It's a feeling Paul, I could be in a room with millions and millions of people, but I would still feel alone. Have you ever thought what it would be like if there had been no supernatural beings in the world?" I asked curious about what he would answer.

He was quiet for a second before answering "Nah, because I can't imagine my life without the pack so I'm grateful. We're one huge family so no-one is ever left out, even Leah and you. You're pack believe it or not."

"Huh, really?" I sighed. We once again sat in comfortable silence. Then he had to open his big mouth again.

"You know, I haven't seen my mother in 11 years. She's never bothered to call or send a birthday card. So I grew up basically with Jared's mum as my mum. My dad is a drunken mess so when I finally turned 18, I moved out. I was so fucken ecstatic when I finally got out of that hell hole" (A/N: the Paul in my story is 19, a year older then Bella)

I didn't want to push him further by asking about his mother so instead I said the only thing I could think of, "really?" I said "How'd you get the money to get your own place? Isn't it like a lot of money to get a house yourself?"

"Not really. I mean my mother sends me money every month or so, so I guess I had enough to buy a house, as for rent when you live on the res and your occupation is to protect the tribe from blood-suckers you don't have to pay for rent" he scoffed. "Come on, or Jacob and Sam are going to be worried about you" Paul said standing up extending a hand to help me up.

"Thank you"

Paul seemed amused when I said it, "for what?"

"For just being here and telling me that" I explained.

"It's fine. I'm not as mean and hot-headed as everyone thinks you know. If you ever need to get away from Jacob, you know where to find me" Paul said before leaving me in front of The Black's house. I walked through the door, and was faced with 3 solemn men.

"What happened? No one is hurt right?" I said beginning to sound alarmed.

"No, baby, of course not. It's H..H..arry. His… his..." Charlie said before wrapping his arms around me and crying. I felt so bad. There I was in my own bubble of sorrow, when one of my dad's best friend and the man who was like an uncle to me was dead. I felt horrible. For once the pain Edward caused me disappeared into thin air. But not all the pain was gone, it was dulled, and only the pain of Uncle Harry's death was left in my heart.

We sat there for god knows how long, until Charlie stood up and said it was getting late. The drive back was uncomfortable because I didn't, no I couldn't react properly to Harry's death, I couldn't comfort Charlie, yet inside, I knew I had to deal with it somehow, I knew that I had to comfort Charlie and the Clearwaters even if they didn't want my comfort. I had to help somehow.

PAUL POV

We were running our patrol when Quil came across a scent.

"Fuck, it's the red headed Leech" -Quil howled to alert for the others to know.

"What's the matter?"- Sam

"Red Head Leech" I mentally replied trying to follow the trail.

"FUCK SHIT. FOUND HER."- Jacob mentally yelled

"Surround her, don't fucken let her get away this time."– Sam mentally ordered.

"You should really go check on that precious little girl of yours that you try so hard to protect, I'll have my time with her but it looks like I won't be killing her today if you boys don't go see to her. But, I'm feeling nice today so we'll do this another time mutts" the red hair leech said before taking off.

"FUCK SHIT! $%^&* she got away again!"– Jared fumed

"What does she mean? Where's Bella, Jacob?"– Sam

"I don't know, I was suppose to hang with her today, she's probably at my house"– Jacob

"Jacob, go back to your house and stay there, Paul, Embry go look for her just encase she's not at the Black's house"– Sam mentally ordered.

"Why do I have to go look for the leech-lover?

"JUST GO!"– Sam

I phased back, not wanting to share my thoughts with the whole entire pack. Bella, Bellafucken Swan was a fucken goddess. Pure beauty you wouldn't and couldn't find anywhere else. She wasn't fake or tacky. Not the girls I would normally go for, but man, she was something else. She was out of this world, no man deserved her. Not even me.

I was walking down the beach, when I caught her scent. I never understood why all the guys went crazy over her, until now, it was always tinted with Jacob's or Sam's scent. Her strawberry scent was mouth watering. I was lost in thought thinking about Bella when I heard someone speak.

"I NEVER WANTED THIS! I NEVER WANTED YOU IN CONTROL! WHY ARE YOU STILL CONTROLING ME, EVEN WHEN YOU ARENT HERE!? WHY? WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME! DO YOU HATE ME? ARE YOU EVER GOING TO LEAVE ME ALONE?" the girl yelled. I chuckled when I noticed it was Bella as I got closer I could see she was pissed, and I had to admit, she was turning me on even more than normal.

"Please" I heard her whisper. She sounded so sad, so desperate to find her silver lining, her cloud nine. She was always sad. She was always so lost, I just wanted to bundle her up into my arms and have there always.

For a moment I wondered who she was talking to; no scratch that, who she was talking about. But then I knew, it was always the same person that haunted her, Edward fucken Cullen.I guess the next thing I did was a spur of the moment and I mentally kicked myself. "Who's doing what to you? Wanna explain yourself princess?" I asked, I swear I could hear her heartbeat beat a thousand beats a second, probably out of fear or shock, but it quickly slowed down when she noticed it was me.

"It's none of your fucken business. So why don't you run back into the woods and go find Little Red Riding Hood you mutt" she said. Ouch, that hurt.

She had a heck of a mouth I'll tell you that. Never have I ever heard her say such a profanity, I was taken back a little there, but being the smart-ass that I was I ended up blurting out "ngaww, does the little Princess want the big scary wolf to go away?" smart Paul, real smart. "Well guess what? I'm not. So are you going to tell me who and what you're talking to and about? And most importantly why are you up here, all alone?"

"Like you care anyways, why you here anyways" Oh, baby you don't even know half of it.

"Just here to check up on the little princess everyone loves so dearly." I walked towards her, not realizing that my feet were moving on their own accord, I didn't even realized that was next to her, it seemed stupid for a moment, but I wanted to hug her, to kiss her, I plopped myself down on the edge of the cliff, thing wasn't so scary after you've jumped off it a few times. I stared off into the distance for a few heartbeats, "you know you're not alone?" I mumbled, where the fuck did that come from I thought.

"Well I feel alone" she said, silently sitting down next to me, feet hanging off the edge. I was scared that she was going to fall off, I suddenly had the urge to wrap my arms around her. Why? I have nofucken clue. But I stopped myself before I could do any real damage.

"Well, don't feel alone, because you've Jacob and the whole pack, so don't say you feel alone. You're never truly alone" I said because it was true, she was part of the pack now so there was no reason for her to feel alone.

She barked a laugh before saying, "It's a feeling Paul. I could be in a room with millions of people, yet I would still feel alone. Have you ever thought what it would be like if there been no supernatural beings in the world"

I thought for a moment before answering. I never actually thought about it. I mean being a wolf was natural to me, I felt as though I've been a wolf all my life. "Nah, because I can't imagine my life without the pack so I'm grateful. We're one huge family so no-one is ever left out, even Leah and you. You're pack believe it or not."

"Huh, really?" she sighed, I didn't know whether or not to answer that, but it seemed she wasn't looking for an answer so we just sat in silence again. It was nice. It wasn't uncomfortable.

Before I could stop myself for the second time I said "You know, I haven't seen my mother in 11 years. She's never bothered to call or send a birthday card. So I grew up basically with Jared's Mum as my mum. My dad is a drunken mess so when I finally turned 18, I moved out. I was so fucken ecstatic when I finally got out of that hell whole" I didn't know why, but I had a strange feeling in the bottom of my stomach that I needed to get rid of, and once I said that I felt lighter.

She looked a little confused on what I just shared but instead of asking me a million questions she said "really? How'd you get the money to get your own place? Isn't it like a lot of money to get a house yourself?" Did she just really ask me that?

"Not really. I mean my mother sends me money every month or so, so I guess I had enough to buy a house, as for rent when you live on the res and your occupation is to protect the tribe from blood-suckers you don't have to pay for rent" I scoffed. It was getting pretty late and I didn't want a lecture from Jacob or Same or even worse, the Chief , so I stood up and held out my hand to help her get up. "Come on, or Jacob and Sam are going to be worried about you."

"Thank you" she said almost a whisper that no-normal human could hear, but lucky for me I could hear it loud and clear.

"For what?"

"For just sitting there with me and tell me that" she said.

We reached the Black's house and it was awfully quiet I wondered why. Before I left I said, "Its fine. I'm not as mean and hot-headed as everyone thinks you know. If you ever need to get away from Jacob, you know where to find me" and quickly walking towards Sam's house hoping there would be food.

As I walked in the first thing I smelt was salt water. Tears. "What happened?" I asked looking at Emily who was crying on Sam's shoulders.

"Harry. He had a heart-attack" Sam said gravely.

"Is he okay?" I asked. God, Harry was still pretty young to have a heart-attack.

"He, well, he didn't make it", fuck, of course he didn't make it you dipshit. That's why Emily's crying! I mentally kicked myself in the nuts. I went over and gave Emily a hug before going to raid her fridge before leaving I went over and gave Emily another hug, I didn't want to seem like I didn't care, but after what happened today I was freaken hungry. I feel asleep as soon as my head hit the pillows. I dreamt of Bella. It was always Bella in my dreams.

Bella.

Author'sNote: I'm backk guysss! okay not totally, but I've managed to re-edit a few chapters but not write anything, but I feel like writing again, I'm also working on an original story and there are just some days or weeks or months where school just gets in the way of my writing time or I get writer's block, but I am determined to finished this even if I die. I probably won't be updating frequently, I cannot promise you guys that, but I can at-least promise that I will finish this!

The next few chapters will just be the same old chapters and they haven't changed much, so you guys didn't have to read this nor do you guys need to read the next few chapters unless I say "OH THIS IS A NEW CHAPTER I PUT IN, YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!"

See you guys in a few weeks when I upload the next chapter that has already been edited!