A/N The last enstallment to the John/Jamie saga hopefully you guys like this one as well. Enjoy and review!

Chapter 1 Deja Vu

John's POV

Tiredly I shrugged my jacket on, the flight seemed to be slow and now at last we were able to get off. The day seemed to rush by me and before I knew it I was on my way home. Soon I would be able to see my sweet Jamie and our beautiful baby boy, Jadyn. Ignoring the bad feeling in my stomach I pulled myself up and went to get my luggage. All day there had been a feeling in my stomach like I was forgetting something big and I couldn't shake it no matter what I tried. I grabbed my luggage and headed out to where I knew my truck would be waiting. A big hand landed on my shoulder and for a moment I got a fright.

"Hey could you give me a lift home John"

It was just Randy thank God I thought it was someone else. "Sure man, you ain't got your truck with you?"

He gave me that laugh, a laugh I hadn't heard in a while "Nah thought I'd bum a ride from you"

"Sure I can give you a ride man"

"Thanks"

We got into my truck and I headed for Randy's house, it surprised me that he lived in the same area as me I always figuered he would stay in St Louis.

"There you are man" I stopped in front of his house and he got out. He gave me another smile

"Thanks John, I won't keep you from Jamie, tell her I said hello"

"Will do shiny man"

Randy laughed as he headed up the drive-way. Reversing backwards I headed to my own home. I couldn't wait to see Jamie and our son.

When I got home everything was black and the bad feeling only intensifyed, Jam always had at least one light on. Putting my key in the lock I heard nothing, silently I pushed the door open and headed inside. Sitting in the darkness Jamie was sobbing both her legs tucked up underneath her.

"Jamie?"

She looked up at me and that fear written on her face broke my heart all over again. "Please don't"

Now I knew what the bad feeling was, Jamie was freaking out again.

"Jamie I'm not gonna hurt you" I spoke calmly as I put my gear down, I would never be used to her freaking out.

"Yes you are, you always say you won't but you turn around and do it again."

"Jamie where's Jadyn?" Fear for our child lept into my throat, the whole house was silent.

She didn't say anything and for a moment I thought she had done something to our son. Rushing upstairs I headed straight to his room, silently sleeping in his crib my heart calmed down. He was sleeping soundlessly unaware that downstairs mummy was freaking out about a rape that she couldn't remember. Taking him from his crib I held him in my arms, he looked so tiny. Going back downstairs I decided it was time I dealt with Jamie.

"Jamie I'm taking Jadyn to my mothers for the night"

She just looked at me, tears sliding down her face, nothing I said seemed to get through she was too busy reliving the worst night of her life.

"Please Dean I beg you please don't do it again"

"I'm not gonna hurt you Jamie, I'm going now" I slipped Jadyn into his car seat and headed back out to my truck. I knew I couldn't stay there with Jamie, I had to let her ride it out. Hopefully she would be alright. Starting the ignition I drove to the only person that could help me, Storm. As I drove I couldn't help but think, this freak out marked an entire year. An entire year that Raven had been gone, Jamie seemed to healed from her sister's death. She still had her bad days but she grew to accept that Raven was gone. Randy however seemed to be a different story, he seemed happy but I knew that deep down his heart was broken and I wasn't sure if it could ever be fixed. Leaving Jadyn to sleep I got out of the car and headed up to Storm's front door. Since Raven had gone, Storm and her cousin Harmoni had been the replacement, they helped me now when I couldn't figure Jamie out, they had grown close to me and I found myself thankful for that.

"Hey Storm"

She pulled the bedsheet tighter around her body, "Well this is awkward"

"Obviously I was interrupting"

"Nothing that can't be restarted" Storm smiled "So whats up?"

"Jamie's freaking out and I was wondering if you could keep an eye on her for me, so she doesn't hurt herself"

Storm pulled the sheet tighter "Thats right tonight is the freak out night, sure I can look after her you got somewhere to go?"

"Yeah I'll stay with my parents for the night"

Storm gave me a look before returning to her pleasant manner "Just give me a moment to get dressed"

Ten minutes later she came back down looking a little more presentable, "You know what you should do John"

"What?" I asked as she got into my truck, she smiled at my son sleeping in the backseat.

"You should drop Jadyn off at your mothers then you should go out drinking or something"

"I can't do that not while Jamie is going through hell"

"Its one night John you deserve one night to be normal, its what she's doing right now"

"What do you mean she's being normal"

"This is a normal reaction to a traumatic experinece, once a year on the day it happened Jamie has a normal exprience luckily she can't remember it the next day"

That made sense but it still made me feel guilty that I would be having fun while she was going through hell.

"I can't go out drinking Storm"

"Sure you can, I'm telling you John you need a break so go and blow off some steam and in the morning everything will return to normal, I give you my word on that"

Letting out a sigh, I had to admit having a few drinks sounded like heaven right now.

"Fine but can I leave Jadyn with you instead I don't wanna explain this to my mother"

"Sure he'll be fine, Jamie is probably asleep right now anyways"

I stopped the truck while she grabbed my son. "Go and have one night of fun John you deserve it"

"Thanks again Storm"

"Your welcome hun"

Driving had never felt so good, now I felt awake despite not having sleep for a long while. Pulling up at Randy's I had to figure out how I was going to get him to come out with me, since Raven had been gone he had become severly anti social. Knocking on the door I figuered that at least I wouldn't take no for an answer.

"Hey John what are you doing here?" He looked at me surprised that I wasn't home with Jamie.

"I'm here to kidnap you"

"What?"

"We're going out drinking so get dressed so we can go"

"I'm not going out" Randy instantly went on the defensive. "I don't feel like going out"

"Randy for an entire year you have been depressed and right now I feel sick with worry and the only cure is to drink until we can no longer feel anything"

"Why are you worried, has something happened to Jamie?"

"Its her freak out night" I explained quickly "Storm is over there with her and Jadyn so we're going out drinking"

"I'm not going out drinking John"

"Then I'm coming in" I said pushing my way in "Lets get this party started"

"John you really wanna drink?"

I pulled out a couple of shots from his fridge and tossed him one. He caught it like a pro and promptly opened it.

"Yes I wanna drink, I wanna drink until your pretty"

He actually let out a happy like laugh "Back at ya Cena"