A/N: So let's give this a shot. It's Leah/Jacob/Bella/Renesme.

Leah/Jake - why can't I be happy?

Leah went over it all in her head, and she decided it was ridiculous. Jake was in love with Bella! Not her daughter. Her daughter resembled her greatly. Secretly, Leah knew the girl's beauty came from her father. She couldn't help but hate Bella. She reminded her so much of Emily. It wasn't fair. Why did everyone she fell for have to imprint on these idiots? She was starting to believe she just wasn't meant for love. With Jake, she thought it would actually last. She was stupid enough to believe he actually loved her. She had thought Sam loved her too. They were going to get married. Everything was so perfect and then BOOM. Emily happened. Sam imprinted on Her the same way Jake imprinted on Bella and Edward's daughter. She resented all of the cullens except for Emmett and Edward, they may be vampires but they had been kind to her. That's all she evere wanted someone to depend on. She had her brother, Seth and She loved him but other than that..nobody. Her mother resented her; she knew it. Her mother blamed her for her father's death. She's right it was all my fault. I didn't mean to scare him to death, literaly but that's exactly what happened. She had phased in front of him, and he passed out. He died.

She never really got along with Jake. He was just another annoying one of sam's friends that made fun of her bitterness, and it hurt. She was hurting. She had every right to be bitter! The whole pack felt sorry for her though. She hated that. She hated being pitied. She didn't need it. All she needed was to forget Sam ever existed. She couldn't do that though. Sam was around him 24/7. She followed orders just like everyone else did but she hated him. She hated every fiber in his being. She hated that he was the leader, especially. He didn't deserve it. What he deserved was to have someone take his heart and shatter it into a million little pieces then sweep it up and toss in the trash. That's what he did to her. Sam never cared for her. Not really, not enough. She loved him with everything she had and he destroyed for his little slut. okay, so she wasn't a slut Leah just wished she was. She wanted to hate Emily so bad but she just..couldn't. Emily was a saint. She was a perfect angel. She never said anything out of line once in her life. She never was too angry or too sad or too cruel. Not like Leah. Leah wasn't stupid enough to think she was content with her life. She was angry. She felt like the anger was justified. She lost people and things she loved more than anyone ever deserved. She thought Jake understood that. She thought he would be there for her but that didn't happen. He was with the cullens. He hated the cullens. After all, It was tradition.

She didn't understand why her thoughts keep going back Jacob but they did. She barely got along with him for five minutes but that kiss was amazing. She thought it meant something but in reality He was upset, she upset. It didn't mean anything. It just happened. Leah deserved to be haappy after everything she's been through. At least, She knew that. She didn't need a guy to be happy. Screw what Emily, and Bella and Her vamps thought. Leah was an independt woman who didn't need a guy to be happy. She just needed to live her life. Let go of the bad and focus on the good. Let go of Sam and Jake and the pain of losing them and her father. Let go of caring that her mother hated her. Focus on her brother. She felt like she was ready to finally do that. She actually mustered a slight smile before turning on her ipod and blasting her favorite band -Good Charlotte. That's her phone starting buzzing. Leah didn't hear it or feel it. It buzzed a couple more time then it stopped. Leah fell asleep to 'I don't wanna be in love'

The next morning she woke up to voices, all around her. She recognized them but she couldn't figure out quite who they were coming from. Her vision was blurry. She saw dark hair on one of them or both. She didn't know. She tried to sit up. Big mistake. Pain filled her back. Then she realized it wasn't just her back. Her arm was sore, and her legs felt liked that had been stabbed. OW freaking OW just OW! "What the hell is going on?" She managed to get out as her vision started to become clearer. She saw Sam and Jake standing over her and behind them were Emily, Bella, Rosalie and Emmett.

"Well." She was impatient "What going on? Where am I? Why am I here? What happened? Why won't you tell me what happened? Where's Seth?" She looked around. He wasn't here. That's impossible. Of course he was here. Something was wrong. Something had to be.

"Leah, I am so sorry but He's gone." Sam whispered looking apologetically at her. Almost seeming like he cared. She knew it had to be a mistake. What did he mean gone? Oh No NO NOO NOO freaking way. "What do you mean 'he's gone'?"

Jake took a step towards her. "There was an accident."

"The doctors did everything they could." Bella stepped in.

"Why are you even here?" She glared at Bella.

"I'm just trying to help."

"unsucessfully."

"Look." Bella said.

"GET OUT!" Leah screamed.

"But I-"

"NOW" Bella just stood there in shock.

Rose shoved her a little "Earth to bella. It's her room. She wants you gone so leave. This isn't brain surgery." Bella glared at Rosalie before exiting the room.

Leah was shocked. The stupid blonde vamp took her side of one of her own. The pity must already be setting in.

"Jake." She called out.

He came even closer and Sat down. They were silent for a moment. Jake looked down at her shaking hands and took one of her hands in both of his. Then She spoke again. "Where you there? With Seth?" She was holding back tears that were threatening to fall.

"No. Sam called me. He was with Seth when he..." He couldn't bring himself to say it. It would hurt her too much. She had already lost so much. All she had was Seth, and now he was gone too.

She turned to seth with cold eyes. "What happened, Sam? What did you do to my brother?" Her tone was vicious and accusing.

"Nothing. I swear, I would never hurt Seth." Sam rushed over to other side of Leah's bed.

"Hmm." she said tilting her head to the side "Where have I heard that line before? Oh, that's right. I remember. It's the same load of crap you told me before you ditched me. What happened to my brother?"

It was bad, She could tell from the looks on Jake and Sam's faces. Emmett stepped in "Guys, she has a right to know and she's going to take it a lot better from one of you."

They knew he was right. Rosalie whispered something in Emmett's ear and he nodded. He took her hand then lead her out of the room. Emily stood there not knowing what to.

"Em" Sam said "Can you give us a moment alone with her?"

She nodded "Of course. Take as much time as you need."

Silence took over the room. "Well?" Leah spoke up.

Sam began "Seth was depressed. He was supposed to be taking pills for it but he never took one. It turns out he was having a more difficult time with your father's death than he admitted to anyone. Even you. We found him at the cliff near the outsides of town." She knew the exact one he was talking about. She hated the sound of this. She knew what was going to come out his mouth next. She hoped and prayed she was wrong. "He jumped. I tried to talk him down but I couldn't he wouldn't listen to me. He hated me for what I did to you." Sam finished quietly.

Leah was furious. No scratch that. She wanted to rip Sam to threads. "Why didn't you stop him! Why didn't you save him! You could have talked him down if you rreally wanted to but you didn't. did you? No. You thought if he was gone there's one less thing for you to worry about right."

"No. I swear! I tried to save him!"

"You didn't try hard enough or he would still be here!" She finally couldn't hold it in anymore. The tears spilled out of her eyes. Her brother was gone because he hated his life because Leah had ruined. "This is all my fault" Leah whimpered over and over again. " Dad died because of me. Seth died because of me."

Jake took her in his arms and held her tight. Sam was about to say something when Jake looked at him and shook his no.

It can wait until later. she can take any more pain right now.

The pain was unbearable. Leah couldn't stop the tears. She could even force herself to try. Seth was gone, forever and it was all her fault. She should've been there. She should've stopped him. If she was there. He wouldn't have gone through with it. She knew that. Hours later, the tears started to slow. She looked up, and saw that Sam had left. Jake was still here with her. "Jake. You don't have to be here."

"I want to. I want to help you any way I can. I hate to see you like this." Jakke put a hand on each side of her face and used his thumbs to wipe away the tears. "Do you want me to take you home?'

She shook her head "No. I can't go back there. Not yet, anyway."

"And That's okay." He assured her "I'll call your mom and you can stay with me. At least for tonight."

She looked skeptical but agreed because she knew he was just trying to help her.

She tried to get but failed. "Why am I in pain? Physically? I mean." Emtionally the pain would never go away, not this time. She had no one left now. She was completley alone.

"I'll tell you in the morning, and then we're going to the hospital to get you checked out. Okay?" She nodded. Jacob scooped her up in his arms and carried to her car that was parked close by. He layed her down in the back seat, and he got in the front. He took of driving towards his house. Leah fell asleep within minutes. She deserves it. Jaacob thought. He couldn't believe Life could be so unfair to one person. She lost Sam. She lost her father. Emotionally, she lost her mother. Now, she lost her brother too. Jacob didn't know If she would ever be able to pick up the pieces of her broken heart this time around.