Short and sweet and done on a whim. In some ways I was inspired by Kioko; the list concept came from a fic she wrote for the amnesia! Percy but that's it. I listened to The Script while writing this.

Jason knows few things about himself; it's not a matter of self-awareness, which he likes to think he has in spades. But there just isn't a lot to examine.

With only two weeks of memories and a few hazy recollections, the blond Roman has come to a few hesitant conclusions:

He has a lot of pride. Sometimes it presses down on him like a weight. Is it because of his father? When you are king of the gods and ruler of the skies, it's only natural to have an ego the size of Texas to accompany it.

This pride spawns envy. As much as he'd like to pretend it isn't there, Jason isn't in the habit of lying to himself. His fight with Leo in Medea's shop just dragged the ugly truth into the light. Sometimes he wish it had stayed lying in a dark corner of his mind.

Maybe he should be blanketed in green, not the orange of his new life or the purple of his past. Jason is jealous that his sister cares more for a lost son of Poseidon than her own blood brother. Percy Jackson is just a cousin, in the loosest term. And she is a Hunter. Why should she be allowed to pine over a taken man, when her family is waiting for something more than just a glance?

Jealous that Percy Jackson has an entire camp on the look-out.

But he isn't just a jumble of envious thoughts and actions; Jason is a little more dimensional than that.

He is fair or so he likes to think. Jason does not like bullies or mistreatment. Cruelty is not something that should be tolerated. His anger at Dylan is proof enough of that, right?

Jason isn't a son of Minerva (Athena?) but he hates not knowing. Juno is someone he will always respect, but her recent actions have soured his relations with his patron. How can he really be sure of anything? Piper and Leo's Mist-induced memories are a hint that he can't take anything at face value, even his own feelings.

The doubt is something he wants to eradicate. Want is a weak word. Craving is a snugger fit. It isn't a need, as much as he wishes it is.

Right now his list of character traits stands as:

Prideful

Envious

Fair (Just?)

Confused

He wishes it were longer. There are other things he could add to the list, but it just depresses him: unsatisfied, lonely, angry, frustrated, self-loathing, pathetic.

Jason stays busy and laughs at Leo's jokes, because they keep his mind off the misery that dogs every step. This sadness is not something normal for him. He knows this. He prefers action to brooding. Jason wonders if he can banish the shadows with a blast of lightning.

He also talks to Piper, but is careful not to be too friendly. Jason doesn't want to have to add cheater to the list. Reyna shines in his mind.

Venus can go rot in the deepest pits of tatarus, he thinks, as we watches Piper play volleyball with a few of the Apollo kids.

Disrespect does not come easily, or at least it shouldn't. It disturbs him how easily these traitorus thoughts flow through his mind, and for a moment he curses this Greek influence.

Roman and Greek.

Water and Oil.

Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Jason looks at his list-written in English, because dyslexia has never been a plague of Rome-and crumples it until it barely resembles paper and smashes it under his foot, grinding it against the wooden floor of his cabin.

I hope I succeeded in giving Jason a little more depth. Honestly I find him bland, but I like him a little better after writing this. Best line? Parts that could've been improved? Don't hesitate to share your thoughts.

7/6/11