Another monotonous day passed by at Degrassi. Nothing different or exciting seems to happen in my life anymore. As I head down the hall to my locker, I can't help but feel sick as I see how happy everyone is. Why does it seem like everyone is in a relationship except for me? I know that I messed up things with Clare a few months back. Actually, that's the understatement of the century. I royally screwed up any chance of ever being with her again. Yeah, that sounds more accurate. I admit that I have problems, but I've gotten better. I've been seeing a therapist and I'm even on medication now. But even if I knew I was getting better, I knew that Clare thought differently. It didn't matter anymore, though. It's like I've lost the ability to feel emotions. Almost like I'm dead inside.
As I reach my locker, I see Adam out of the corner of my eye. He's holding hands with some girl. I vaguely recall her name.. Katie? Adam never shut up about her whenever we hung out, but I've been tuning the entire world out lately so it's hard to really remember anything anymore. I was happy for him, because he deserved to have a nice girlfriend for once in his life. After the Fiona fiasco, he claimed that he would never love again. But seeing the look of pure happiness on his face makes me beg to differ. I was shaken from my thoughts as I noticed a usual sight play across my eyes.
A tall, stick-thin boy walked by me and over to the locker I used to venture over to every morning so many months ago. He put his arm around a smaller girl with light brown hair and kissed her. Her eyes lit up and she blushed a faint pink as she returned the kiss.
Clare had been dating this new pretty boy lately. Adam had informed me that this guy's name was Jake, and apparently Clare knew him from when they were both kids or something. At first it bothered me; I couldn't stop thinking what was so special about this Jake guy, or what Clare saw in him. But after awhile, my wondering dissolved into a feeling of nothingness. Why should I care what she's doing when she looks so happy? We were simply a thing of the past. I closed my locker and was preparing to head outside when I noticed Clare walking towards me.
"Hey.. how was your day, Eli?" She asked calmly.
"Fine. How was yours?" I replied unemotionally.
"Um.. I was just worried about you because lately, well.. you seem kinda out of things. Adam is a bit worried too. Are you upset because I'm dating Jake?" Clare said while avoiding eye contact.
"You dating someone doesn't bother me in the slightest, Clare. After everything that's happened between us, what we used to be is nothing but a memory. You made it perfectly clear that you don't want to be with me, and I accept that. So how I act isn't really any concern of yours anymore. I'm not a part of your life, and you're not a part of mine now, either. You shouldn't waste your time anyways, because.." I stopped and looked at Clare and noticed that she finally looked up at me.
"I don't have feelings at all."
I turned around and walked out the door before I could hear whatever she had to say. I wasn't really in the mood to listen to her babble on about how I was acting strangely. She lost that right long ago. I suddenly realized I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking because I instantly collided with something. Or, make that someone.
"Ow.. Sorry, are you okay?" A voice spoke.
My eyes met with a girl.. wearing the same colored uniform as myself. She looked absolutely flawless, and strangely enough, I felt a sort of spark fire up inside of me. A feeling I thought I would never feel again.
"Cat got your tongue?" I heard her softly laugh.
Why couldn't I say anything? It was like I forgot how to talk. For some reason all I could do was nod. I reached out for her hand and helped her up off the floor where we had collided.
"Thank you.. Well, nice to meet you. I'm Imogen."
AN- Before anyone throws a shoe at me, let me inform you that I used to be obsessed with Eclare. Like, so obsessed that I wrote over 30 Eclare fics. After what the writers did to their relationship, however, the couple has been completely butchered for me to ever love it again. So, I now ship ElixImogen because I think they're absolute precious together, and also because I have a feeling they're going to be a super cute couple. This story will have a lot of drama between Eli/Clare/Imogen/Jake so I hope you all like drama;) And because season 11 doesn't premiere for a couple of weeks, I have no idea what's going to unfold between Eli and Imogen, so please don't get upset if what happens in this story doesn't match with what actually happens on the show. I'm sorry I had to put that, but I've gotten a lot of complaints in the past because my story had one mistake in it that didn't match correctly with the show. :/
Anyways, I hope you all enjoy the next chapter. I promise it'll be up soon :) xx