Chapter 2 – Pretending.

Finn's POV

"Oh, please. Every time you two sing a duet, we lose." Quinn complained. "In Regionals, was Faithfully."

I rolled my eyes, that girl was pissing me off. Finn, you can't hit girls, remember that. Even if they're annoying. Ok, breathe. Or I can kick a chair..

"We didn't sing only Faithfully in Regionals, if you forgot. We did a Journey Medley. In Sectionals, in 2009, me and Rachel leaded the group in You Can't Always Get What You Want. In the Regionals this year, we leaded again with Loser Like Me. So don't blame us."

Everybody was surprised with my speech, but I couldn't let anyone doubt about my chemistry with Rachel.

"Guys, stop it. Let's focus in Nationals!" Mr. Schue asked.

"He's right, we can deal with the love triangle after New York." Mercedes said.

"It's not a love triangle, I know who I love and who I wanna be with."

Yes, I did. And that person was Rachel Berry, It's always been her. After the funeral, that Sue's speech opened my eyes. I knew dating Quinn wasn't the right thing to do. I think I always knew, because I caught myself many times thinking it was Rachel in my bed, talking to me and kissing me. But it wasn't. The kiss wasn't too good and the cute words and actions.. just didn't exist. Always the Prom Queen talk. Ugh, I was so happy that this fucking prom was finally over. And I was quite happy that Quinn didn't win that damn crowd. She didn't deserve it anyway.

"Which song you'd like to sing with Rachel, Finn?"

"I.. wrote one song."

"You did whaaat?" Puck said, laughing.

"What? I'm capable to write a song!"

"Oh yeah.. totally." Lauren said, ironically.

"I'm sorry, you don't get a vote, you're just a back singer."

Puck got up.

"Dude! That's my girlfriend, you're not gonna talk to her like that!" He came to me and almost hit me.

"I'm not lying." I said, calmly. "I'm sorry, but that's the truth. It's not my problem if you can't handle. Your girl don't sing."

Puck tried to hit me, but Mr. Schue pulled him away.

"Finn, it wasn't a nice thing to say. But.. let's hear the song."

I got up and Puck sits next to Lauren, mumbling something. I didn't care. His GF was a pain in the ass, actually. Like Santana says "I just keep it real." I gave some papers to the band boys and Brad.

"I wrote this song thinking in my history with Rachel. The song calls Pretending."

I looked at her, she was clearly surprised. When she dumped me in the day before, I went to my house almost crying. I needed her like I needed air. She was my everything and being apart from her was my biggest mistake. But now.. I'd anything to have her back.

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes, I look away
That's just because i'm not okay

But i hold on
I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever haveoura happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we a-a-a-always a-a-a-always a-a-a-always be pretending

I stretched out my hand and continued to sing. She took it and I couldn't help and smiled.

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no one's let to go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am i supposed to know? – I sang looking directly to her eyes, making sure that I meant every word.

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending

Pretending

Pretending

Pretending… - She sang with me. I knew she learned lyrics fast, but not that fast.

I learned over her and closed my eyes, my lips touched hers and the whole world disappeared. That was the right thing. Me and her. Us. Finchel. Together.

My hands went to her waist and one of hers cupped my face, she opened her lips and let my tongue slip into her mouth. I don't know how long we stood there, but I knew I didn't want break the kiss. Never.

But she did when we hear someone cleaning the throat.

"Hm… that was interesting. We could do, definitely, this song in Nationals." Mr. Schue said "But.. no kiss."

We laughed and I took her hand again.

"Okay guys, now we need one group song, so be inspired or pick a song. Tomorrow we'll see."

I waited everybody to leave and looked at her.

"So.. do you wanna sit?"

"Okay."

We sit next to each other. I took a deep breath and said:

"I wanna be with you, Rach."

"You broke up with Quinn two days ago, Finn. That's not a good idea."

"Why? I know what I want."

"You sure did when you made her cheat on Sam with you."

"That was a mistake. Breaking up with you was a mistake."

"I..-

"Remember the Sue's speech in funeral? About.. being tethered to someone?" She nodded "We're tethered, Rachel. No matter how far we are, we can always feel each other. We're soul mates. And I need you. I love you."

She was speechless, so I took the opportunity and kiss her again, she corresponded it without hesitation. And it feel so good. But a moment later, she pulled me.

"I can't do this.."

"What? Why?"

"I can't suffer anymore, Finn. What if we break up again? I won't make it!"

"Who said we gonna break up?"

"There's Quinn, you choose me over her.."

"I don't love her. I love YOU. No more lies, okay? We left Santana, Puck and Quinn in the past, ok? I want you, just you, I can't be happy without you by my side."

"Finn..-

"Please, take a chance on me. On us. I'm tired to go back to black, I wanna see the light, and the only way is being with you."

She took a deep breath. I knew it was hard for her too. Maybe harder for her than for me.

"Okay." She spoke so softly I almost missed.

"Okay?" I smiled. "I promise..-

"No. No more promises." I frowned. "Last time you promised me something, we broke up. So.. don't."

"Fine.. But I want let you know we're not gonna break up this time. This time.. it's for good. Forever. We're one."

"I love you so much. I missed you." She smiled.

"Me too baby. But now.. we got each other. Forever."

We kissed again and I knew it would be forever. No more tears and sadness, just happiness.