Authors Notes.

Hey everyone sorry for the very very long time I am taking updating my stories but thank you for holding out for me and I promise I shall be trying to update more often. Would like to make a big shout out to everyone who has been reading and writing me reviews telling me what they think it means a lot so I do not want to disappoint you. Hope I can keep up the good work, so here it is the next chapter that you all have patiently been waiting for.

Chapter Four.

Sookie's Pov.

I wanted to break down right on the spot, we had agreed that we would pretend nothing would happen but I never expected him to be rubbing it in my face, I thought so much more of him too not do that to me. Tears filled my eyes, I couldn't hold them in any long I ran behind one of the science lab buildings on the quad and broke down next to a dumpster, real classy I know but I have held these tears for him back long enough.

'Why did I tell him, why didn't I think, hold back, it's obvious now why i'm in the friend zone, I'm nothing like the other girls he goes for, I don't dress the way they do, do their hair and make up the same, I'm not his type, I'm not any guys type I have never even been kissed before by a guy and here I am pinning after my best friend holding out for him. I'm so stupid and pathetic.'

I wanted to tell myself it would be okay, that I'm stronger then this but how could I when I felt my world falling apart over a boy, but who am I kidding this isn't any guy, this is they guy who I have been best friends with since kindergarden, the boy who stood up for me when kids were mean, the guy who I told all my secrets, fears and dream, I built this idea up in my head that I would have that moment where he would pull me into his arms, tell me he feels the same, that he's always felt the same and kiss me. That it would be one of though fire works going off, mind blowing, your leg flicks up, movie kisses.

But I didn't get that, I got the ultimate 'FRIEND ZONE' answer.

'I love you as a friend.' I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach when he said though words, my years of fighting my feelings, building myself up, of dreaming of this moment shattered the minute though six words left his mouth.

Seeing him this morning, hearing him talk, I wanted to bury my head in the sand, I wanted a time machine, and men in black memory zapper to blind him with so I wouldn't feel so much like an idiot right now. I knew I couldn't be mad at him for not feeling the same but the fact he was flaunting his little play thing at me and had the balls to just stare at me blankly.

'Maybe he's not who I think he is.' I knew about his past, spent years being jealous of the attention he gave his little fan club, hearing through the grape vine about what he got up to when he would 'go study' I hated that when we would study it was purely studying. Worst of all the fact I had to see his little stunt with Yvetta. Really had to be her, she has hated me since she moved her, I was so nice, introduced myself but because I was with Eric I was shunned, I was the dirt on her shoes from then on.

The tears stopped but I couldn't stop the sobbed from forming, I wanted to know what was so wrong with me, so many questions one right after the other. I was making myself feel worse the only thing that I did know was. No matter what was said between us, I had lost my best friend, nothing was ever going to be the same.

"Are you okay?" I bolted up to see a guy stood in front of me he was about five foot eleven, muscular build short brown hair, blue eyes, gorgeous in total.

"Yeah I'm fine, Just hayfever." I replied rubbing away the tears and flattening my clothes down.

"Are you sure?" obviously not buying my story

"Yeah, sorry I haven't seen you around here before, I take it your new?" I asked the attractive man before me

"Yes, todays my first day, My name is Godric." He stretched out his hand, I mirrored his and shook his, such a good hand shake, soft hands.

"Hi, I'm Sookie, Welcome to Bon Temp High" I replied friendly.

"Thank you, are you sure your okay?" he asked again obviously not giving up

"Yeah, you know one of though bad days, I really don't want to talk about it" I said defensively

"Sorry I didn't mean to offend, I just was curious as to why a beautiful girl such as yourself would be crying.' He said, I felt myself blush when he called me beautiful, no one has ever called me that outside of my family and close friends, Not even Eric has called me beautiful.

"You didn't sorry just kinda wish you didn't see that." I replied smiling slightly, he returned.

"It's okay I won't tell anyone." He said with a small smile

"Thanks" I replied

"You couldn't help a poor guy out I'm lost, and my guide disappeared." He asked

"Sure, where do you need to be." I asked, he pulled out his rota and handed it too me.

"Well your in luck you have all the same classes as me, so just follow me, I'll be your guide."

"Really, thank you so much." He replied sweetly

"Well we have English Lit in five minutes, so I shall lead the way." I said, he stood next me me and followed my lead, we made it half way to class when he stopped, I paused and waited to see what was up.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure." I said very curiously

"Would it be too forward to ask if maybe I could take you out, I'm new in town, and don't know my way around yet, and you seem to know a lot, and I guess would help so I don't get lost...' He started to ramble I wanted to laugh at him

"Are you asking me out on a date?" I asked out of the blue, very bold of me.

"Well yes, it's fine if you don't want too, we just met, but you seem nice and it's okay we can forget..." I didn't let him finish, even though I thought he looked cute rambling.

"Sure, sounds fun what did you have in mind" I don't know what spurred me on to say yes, maybe it was the fact this is the first time someone asked me out, maybe it was my mind telling me I need to move on, maybe I need someone, I don't know what I just think I needed this.

"Really?, well I dunno where is good to eat around here but dinner and a tour?" He asked he looked so cute when he realised I had said yes.

"We can always go to Merlottes, everyone goes there." I replied

"Awesome, Well if I give you my number and call me tomorrow to set something up for the weekend?"

"Sounds like a good time" I smiled

"Can't wait"

The rest of the walk to class was good, there were slight glances we kept giving each other, both of us blushing when we caught the other looking. We stepped in to class and my eyes immediately found Eric he was sat in his usual place, where I would always take the seat next to him, but today I thought I would sit with Godric as he didn't know anyone so we took the empty class at the front and began a small chat about each other, learning a little more about my handsome stranger.

I turned at the back of the class before the teacher entered the room, he looked at me with a questionable look I just shrugged and turned back to Godric.

Eric Pov

After the Yvetta incident I left Alcide and walked by myself to class, after seeing the look on Sookie's face, I felt ashamed, I mean one part of me was thinking we said we would pretend nothing happened and on any other day this is what happened but I knew It was different now, Because the can of worms had been open, I had to be careful of Sookie, be careful how I acted, Yeah I fucked up big time already. I don't know why the entire time I was looking at Sookie as it happened too see her expression turn from shock to sadness.

Alcide was right I had to let her go, I didn't want to but how can things be the same, they won't I would always have to tip toe around her be careful when I told her about going on a date, try and keep my personal life out of the grape vine which I know will never happen. Most of all the part of me that was still confused, piecing together the last twenty-four hours, hearing Alcide explain that by letting her go Sookie would be on the market and hearing that the reason no one every asked her out or tried anything was because of mw made me feel selfish. Like I had been keeping her on a shelf all her life like a toy you didn't want anyone else to play with.

I felt horrible, once more I felt horrible that I didn't see the signs, or refused to, I don't know anymore, everything is a bunch of questions that I don't have the answer to any of them.

As I got to English Lit I sat in my usual space and looked at the empty seat next to me, being close to Sookie in the Car was hard, how will I deal being centimetres away in a classroom. Maybe I should look for a new place to sit, someone new to talk to, but as I looked around and thought about it, no one seemed to fit the seat.

I started to nibble on my pencil as it got closer to class starting, I looked up as the door opened and saw Sookie walk in with some guy I have never seen before, they were talking amongst themselves, seemed rather chummy, I felt something stir within me when I saw how he looked at her, he walked over to the front row and when I thought Sookie would leave she looked up at me and then away and sat down with the new stranger, I felt dumb founded.

I continuously stare at the back of her head the entire lesson until she finally turns around, I didn't know what to do so I gave her a lot obviously stating my confusion, and she just shrugs, she shrugged, really, what the hell just happened, whats going on. I notice her put her hand place itself on this kids sholder to help him out as she leaned over to see his work, My fist clenched, thinking I might break my pen I turned away and tried to focus. But when I looked back up I saw a look, a smile, and everything clicked.

'She's gone.'

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