"I have to go to my daughter", I think as I slide behind the wheel of my Jeep. I need to get to her and fast. I look over to see my mom slide in the passenger seat and I slam the car into drive. I make my way to highway 6 and I am speeding as I am trying to get her before the flood takes the school. I know my husband and father have my other child and they are safe and waiting. Suddenly, I see the road beginning to flood ahead of me. I make the stupid decision to drive across and I immediately get swept away. I get out of the car thinking I could swim across to get to the piece of land off to the side. Then ice comes rushing down the street. "I can do this", I think to myself. I have been swimming my whole life; I was more than confident I could make it. My mom floated up beside me and I drag her with me. I don't realize that the ice is starting to swirl, and I am swimming in circles. I start going numb and I realize I am going nowhere. That is when I give up and die…

I awaken with a start. This dream has been haunting me for three years now. I try to calm my self. "There is no ice holding me back, there is no flood taking over the town. When am I going to stop dreaming about being trapped and dying." I say out loud to myself. I pull myself out of my bed and find that my husband is already at work. He has been working non-stop everyday and almost every night. I feel lonely and neglected.

Even when he is home, he is not "home". He never makes time for the two of us, even in the bedroom.

I wake my girls and start my shower. We get ready for school in silence. I take the girls to school and head off to the high school where I work. I am in my own head again and don't hear Tuesday calling me from behind.

"Hey Shank, wait up!" she calls, as she runs behind me.

"Hey Tues, I'm sorry, I was in my little world again. What's going on?"

"Oh, just the best opportunity in the world!" Tuesday shrieks.

I smile politely just wanting her to move along. "What opportunity?" I ask not really interested. Tuesday pauses for dramatic effect, "Well, I just saw a job opening on the Internet looking for an English teacher in Alaska! Isn't that wonderful?"

"I thought you weren't interested in moving off since Abel has his family here." I say, as I walk into my classroom.

"I'm not silly, but you are. You have always wanted to move out there. You can't tell me that you have lost interest. I have known you since fourth grade, and I know you wouldn't pass this up." Tuesday said as she sat on the corner of my desk.

I give her a "you are crazy" look. "I gave that up when I married Paul. Remember him? He wouldn't want to leave Mississippi."

"That's just it, you see, I have been watching you over the years and I know you aren't happy. Don't you think that you should at least give it a try?"

"Give it a try? Tues, I know you are just being my friend, but I just can't pick up and leave like that. This is my home."

Tuesday looked at me impatiently, "You know, you have always wanted to go up there. Why not book a trip up there and relax for a few weeks during the summer. What will it hurt? You and Paul take separate vacations anyway. You go to Alaska while he takes the kids this year on that cruise he wants to go on. Just think about it will ya?" she says as she sashays out of the room.

"I will think about it." I sighed as my students start trickling in.

I did think about it. I thought about it all day long. I couldn't get it out of my head. Good thing I assigned testing all-day or else, the students would have noticed and taken full advantage. I couldn't help but think that maybe Tues was on to something. I knew I wasn't happy here or in my marriage. Even my dreams were telling me that I wasn't happy! Maybe I will go home and have a long talk with Paul. It wouldn't hurt, right?