Look at me, See me Chapter 1: Look at me, See me, a batman fanfic

Alright, another Batman fic! Sorry about not updating Another Story but if you read my profile update, you know why. The chapter is still being beta-read, so please be patient! I hope you enjoy this angsty dumb of mine!

Disclaimer: I don't own Batman or any of the characters!

Edit: Alright, just to make it clear. This was inteded to be a One-shot for now. Someday, I might continue this or I will write on it when I'm depressed again or something. I'm glad that you like it, but don't eypect any new chapters in the near futur. I will keep it on on-going though, just in case.

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"Master Damian." I opened my eyes before blinking a few times. The curtains had yet to be pulled apart, but the dim light from the door was enough to make me squint. I rolled over to my side to take a look at the old butler that stood in the door way. "It is time for school. Breakfast is served downstairs." I couldn't suppress the little smile on my face.

"Thanks, Alfred. I will be there in a minute." The man nodded and closed the door again. It was tempting to just fall asleep again and skip the first few lessons, but I had to get up anyway, so why bother. I took a quick shower and put on my usual school clothes- a black sweat shirt and a pair of jeans. I'm glad I was able to convince Father to let me visit an ordinary school. Wearing a uniform with tie everyday was horrible. I took a quick look into the mirror and frown at what I see. Since I refused to use any hair products except shampoo, my unruly hair was falling into my eyes at the front and sticking out in odd angles in the back. I tried my best to tame it over the years, but they just jump back to their former form. With a sigh, I left my room and walked down the stairs. When I arrived in the dinning room, I observed my family sitting around the table for a few moments. What surprised me the most when I first got back to the manor a few months ago was the fact that Jason had returned. No one ever really told me the whole story but it seems like he finally wanted to make things right with Father. Beside him was Drake, or maybe I should call him Tim now. He still looked as scrawny as back when I left but he grew a little taller since then. I wonder if the Robin costume was even fitting him right now. On the head was Father, also known as the current Batman and Bruce Wayne. I gulped a little as I watched him eat his scrambled egg. I quickly turned my eyes away from him and looked at my oldest sibling, Dick Grayson. Since Blüdhaven has been destroyed, he went to New York and started over as Nightwing again. I am surprised he even bothered to come back. Before I could fully step into the room, my ex-partner turned to me and gave me a bright smile.

"Hey there, Sleepy-head! I thought I had to go up and throw your sheets off!" I glared at him before walking over and sitting down at his side.

"You wouldn't, because you know that I would break all your fingers before you reach out to them." I just got a laugh and a ruffle of my already messy hair. I scanned the table again and noted that Father didn't even look up from his paper when I arrived. I did my best to hide my disappointment and just ate my breakfast. After I was done, Dick was smiling at me again.

"So, you want me to drive you to school? I'm free right now." I shook my head and grabbed my bag I had put at the side of my chair.

"Nah, I will take the bus. It's not far from here, anyway." I took one last look at my family before I ran for the bus stop down the street.

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"Damian! Morning!" I turned my head around to barely catch a flash of red before I was pulled into a death-grip hug. I knew by now that resistance was useless, so I just patted Colin on his mop of hair. It was hard considering he had grown taller than me.

"Morning, Colin," I said, trying my best to keep my emotions from my voice. He would never let me hear the end of it if he knew I liked him hugging me. After he realized that the other students were staring at us, he let me go and we started to walk into the High School building.

"So, you asked your dad yet?" Five minutes into school and I already had to talk about the think that I dreaded the most.

"No, I haven't. And I don't plan to." He gave me a shocked look.

"But it's your first big concert! You have to ask him if he can come!" I sighed at his comment but resisted the snarky response that was sitting on the tip of my tongue. Years of training with demons had taught me how to shut my mouth when it was appropriate.

"It's not that I don't want him to come, I just doubt he will be able to. This morning was the first time I saw him for weeks. He's always off having meetings and when he's home, he rarely talks to me." We reached out lockers and I pulled my books out of mine. "I doubt he likes to listen me play Piano anyway." I shrunk back a little when my locker was snapped closed and I just had enough time to pull my hand away in time.

"Don't be like that, D! You're his son! I bet he would be glad to hear you play!"

"Colin..."

"The concert is on Thursday. You still have enough time to ask him. And you will, today. If you haven't when we are on patrol tonight, I will and I promise you that he will be delighted to come." He looked at his run-down wristwatch and grabbed his own books. "Well, we'll better head to out classrooms now. You need to get to your Junior friends, right?" I snorted at him.

"Shut up, Wilkes."

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As it turned out, Father was still there when I got home. He comfortably sat in his chair in front of the TV and ate a tuna sandwich. I walked up to him as I took off my black jacket.

"Don't you have work today?" He turned to look at me but his eyes quickly moved back to the screen.

"I got a few days off."

"For how long?"

"Until Friday. Why do you ask?" Now was my chance. I fiddled a little with the concert card that Colin had given to me since I had thrown away the last one. I just had to get the courage to ask him. I never really asked him to go to anything concerning my passion for music before so I was very nervous. I took a deep breath and pulled it out of my pocket.

"Well, I wanted to ask you if-"

"Dad!" I should have known that something like that was bound to happen. Tim ran down the stairs and rushed to our father, his face stricken with panic. "Dad, I've got a Quiz tournament this Thursday and it's against the best collage in the country! Could you come so I know that I don't need to panic?" Father gave him a smile – the smile he never directed at me - and ruffled my brother's hair.

"I think it's a little too late for that, but sure, I will come. Maybe the others will watch, too, so you feel better." When my brother gave him a shaky nod, he turned back to me, smile wiped away from his face. I hid the ticket behind my back. "So, Damian, what did you want to ask me?" I shook my head, trying to keep my face blank.

"It's not important." I squeezed the piece of paper in my hands. Not anymore at least.

"Oh. Do you want to come to Tim's tournament then?"

"No, I'm busy that day."

But you wouldn't know how important this was to me.

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Later that night, we were patrolling, all five of us. Well, six, if you counted Colin, but he was on the other side of the city. I knew he would probably come up to us to ask about the concert, so I just had to catch him before that so he won't blurt it out. Considering his low speed, it wouldn't be too hard. But at this moment, I just enjoyed the feeling of jumping from roof to roof and the wind blowing through my hair. My silver cape was flying behind me and the elastic tights stretched with my every move. I was paired up with Robin, or Tim, this time around. It must have been a sight to see: A grown man in a tight red-black suit and a short teenager in silver tights and a black vest. Although most people thought we were alike, Sparrow and Robin are not usually seen together, so it must be quite surprising to see us.

"Is something up?" I snapped my head to my brother in surprise. I had expected that someone would notice but I hadn't thought that it would be Tim, out of all people. Despite what was going on in my head, I just shrugged and jumped to next roof, him dangling with with grappling hook behind me.

"Not really." I could almost here him shaking his head.

"Look, Dam-"

"No real names on duty."

"Alright, Sparrow. Your problems won't just magically disappear because you don't talk about them. Alright, they won't disappear because you talk to me about it, but it could help. I could help." I didn't really know how to respond to that but luckily, I didn't have to. I felt a little pull in the back of my skull and stopped in my tracks. I activated my optic lenses in my mask and strained my ears to hear what was going on. When I heard a scream and gunshots, I knew where to go. I pointed at the direction with my gloved finger.

"A riot downtown. Judging from the location and the gunshots, I guess a bank is robbed right now." I heard a whistle behind me and turned to look at the older.

"Have I told you that your superpowers come pretty handy yet?"

"Limited magical abilities. And you could say it more often." I gave him a small smile and took off to the incident. It was considerably a small feat if you compare it to the rest of Gotham's crimes but it would have been a big deal in any other city. No time to think about that. Time to get to work. I wrapped my arm around Tim's waist and leaped off the room. I heard a shout of protest coming from him but I paid no mind to it. I gracefully landed on my feet and let go of him. He almost fell over if I hadn't stabilized. Now that I thought about it, it was also the first time I had ever pulled a stunt like that with him around. I will keep in mind to tell him next time before I do something like that again. I turned back to the thugs when he had gained balance again and took out my stick I always kept inside my cape. Better get started now. I ran up to them and hit one of them into his gut, making him fall to the floor. Tim had recovered pretty good since he was already taking out the others. I had taken out five other guys when I caught motion from the corner of my eye.

"Robin, watch out!" I threw a few of my shurikens in front of the man. They exploded on impact and threw him back against the wall before he fell limply onto the floor. I tightened my grip around my stick and slashed across three of the men like I would have with a sword. After a few more kicks, all of them were down. I looked around again to make sure none of the citizens was injured before nodding at my partner. We soon heard sirens coming our way and left, leaving the rest up to the police. Nothing else really happened that night in the city, so Father called us back to the cave. He and the others were watching the news when we arrived. He spotted us in the entrance and walked over to us.

"I heard what you did today, good job." He put a hand on Tim's shoulder. I wasn't sure who he meant with 'you' but considering he wasn't even looking at me, it was obvious that he did not mean both of us.

"It wasn't much, dad. Just a bank robbing." Why?

"But it was a very big group of burglars. You did a great job on catching them." Why won't you talk to me like that?

"Well done." Why won't you see who I am?

"I think this calls for-"

"Just what is your problem?" I shouted at them from the top my lungs. I couldn't take it anymore! I didn't care about their shocked faces or the way they were all staring at me. It was just too much. "i was there, too! Why do you only talk to Tim?" Father was the first to recover.

"If this is about me making you quit and taking him again, you are old enough to see that this jealousy is childish, Damian." I glared at him even harder and threw my arms into the air.

"That's not it!" Why can't you understand? What am I thinking, you won't if I don't tell you in the face. I tried my best to calm down and looked him straight into the eyes. "You just don't get it, do you? Do you know how it is to get back, to want to spend time with your family and they are not home? And every time I have some sort of event, I don't even bother to ask if you can come, because I know it's better knowing it from the very beginning is better than getting my hopes up and then get crushed when you're not there. But every time the others -Dick, Jason, Cassandra, Stephanie but especially Tim- have something, you always go. What's wrong with me that you won't pay me any attention? Am I so much of a mistake in your eyes that you won't even acknowledge my existence? This is not about becoming Batman or you replacing me as Robin, I gave up on those dreams a long time ago. I don't want you to go around and say how proud you are of me with a big smile on your face. The only thing I wanted all those years..." I looked at the floor and let out a frustrated sigh before looking back up into Father's - no, he was not my father anymore - Bruce's eyes. "The only thing I wanted all those years was you to look at me and actually see me. Past the brat that had been trained by the league of assassins, past the kid that is the result of rape and past the little demon that can blow your head up if he wanted to. To see who I really am. I'm not the little kid I had been four years ago, I changed and I hoped that you would too. Looks like I got my hopes up for nothing again, huh?" I stomped away and got onto my bicycle. As I drove away, an uncomfortable silence settled in the Batcave. I didn't care if he felt guilty now. I was glad I finally said it. I don't need him. I had been able to live without him for most of my life. I could again.

The only thing I might be regretting is leaving my siblings behind, but I would think about that later.

Here it is! If anyone of you reads my profile at all, then you know that it's the full version of the Batman snippet I did a while ago. I've been playing with this for a few weeks, or months, now, so I hope you enjoyed it!

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