So I would first off like to apologize for how long this update has taken. I just have been very busy with school and my job. I recently got an internship as well so I've had really no time to work on this. I also no longer watch Glee and haven't since the end of Season 3 so I guess that would be another reason why.

To all the people who reviewed shortly after I last updated, I appreciate it and thank you for sticking with this or thank you for finding this and reading it. I would love to hear what you all thought about the reason of Season 3. To everyone who has reviewed, favorited and etc. recently, just wow. Thank you. I am so happy that this story is still getting new readers and that people still enjoy it. I did get one negative review recently from an anonymous reader. To that person, it is AU and she isn't supposed to feel like Brittany from the show. I appreciate your opinion and it doesn't really hurt my feelings to be honest. I admit that I have a lot of regrets about this story and I would rewrite certain parts of it but I feel like people have still been generally positive about it so I'm obviously doing something right. I'd love to read any of the fics you've written to maybe help myself get a little more insight into what you are talking about.

Anyways, enjoy the update all. I am a little hesitant about it just because I feel like you all deserve an absolute amazing update and that this won't meet the standards/

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Quinn stared blankly at the door with her eyes wide. She took a deep breath trying to compose herself before she followed the path Brittany just took. About a minute or so had passed since Brittany stormed out, so Quinn figured that she hadn't gotten too far. She quickly opened the door, turned towards the elevators and almost immediately tripped over something.

She stumbled a bit before she looked down. "Jesus, Brittany."

"Just because I'm sitting here doesn't mean I want to talk to you…" Brittany mumbled through her hands, which were covering her tear-stained face.

"Then why are you sitting here?"

"Because…." Brittany trailed on before coming up with something. "I called a cab and I don't want to wait outside in the rain."

"It's not even raining…." Quinn started to sit down.

"You don't know that…I checked my phone and it said that." Brittany waved her phone in Quinn's face trying quickly to provide proof to her poorly made up lie.

Quinn shook her hand and hesitantly placed her hand on Brittany's arm. "Brittany…" She whispered causing Brittany to slowly remove her hands.

"I don't like fighting with you, Quinn." She said simply and Quinn just nodded her head slowly. "I don't know how to fight with you."

"I don't want to fight, Britt. That wasn't my intention." She said softly, wiping some of Brittany's smeared makeup off her face.

"I know." Brittany mumbled, quickly putting her face back into her hands. Quinn sighed and shifted her position so that her back was against the wall. They sat in silence for a few moments. A couple of Quinn's neighbors walked passed and gave her concerned looks before they disappeared into the elevators. After a few moments, Quinn got up and offered her hand to Brittany. She reluctantly took it and they made their way back into Quinn's apartment and immediately to the couch where they sat in silence for a couple of more minutes. It was a strange feeling for both of them but neither wanted to start the conversation first out of fear that it would only lead to more fighting.

Brittany let out a sigh as she composed herself and turned to face Quinn. "I'm sorry for yelling at you but to be honest, I'm not sorry for what I said about Rachel."

"Brittany….she didn't mean it…."

"I'm sure she didn't…" Brittany cut Quinn off and let her words linger through the air.

"She was worried. Like I said there is a very complicated reason why she made the connection and it's not my place to tell you…."

"Oh but it's her place to assume that I'm seeing a psychiatrist…I would have told you that myself, Quinn. That wouldn't of been something I would have hide from you of all people." She shook her head, getting frustrated.

Quinn just stayed silent and nodded, figuring that if she said anything more that she may make things worse. It was best to let Brittany have time and let her get this all out.

"Rachel saw me today." Brittany added. "If she was so concerned, she should have said something to me. Not you."

"She barely knows you, Brittany. And she knows that I do and she knows how protective of you I am. Don't you think Santana would have done the same thing?"

"No, I honestly don't. Santana's always been a private person and she respects people's personal business."

"This is going nowhere." Quinn let out a frustrated sigh. "I should have just let you catch your cab…."

"You should have. I shouldn't have come in here with you." Brittany said stubbornly as Quinn rolled her eyes.

"Fine then do us both a favor and leave." Quinn pointed to the door which at this point is opening. A second later, Beth and Rachel walked in, giggling softly together at something.

"Britty." Beth lets out happily. Brittany sent one look in Quinn's direction before she faces Beth.

"Hey, sweetie. How are you?" Brittany face light up as she bends down to hug Beth.

"I'm good. Are you staying cause I miss you so much?" She asked with a tiny pout and all the anger Brittany felt is temporarily forgotten.

"No, honey, I'm not staying." She said before looking at Quinn who now has Rachel standing next to her. Rachel gave a small wave and a smile before it disappeared when she saw Brittany's face.

"Aw, well maybe soon. And Tana can come, too."

"Of course. That would be so much fun." Brittany said, poking Beth's nose playfully. "But I have to go now, sweetie." She said giving Beth one last hug before standing up straight and turning to face Quinn and Rachel. "Hey, Rachel, I'm leaving now. Want to tell the whole world that, too?" She spat out bitterly before walking towards the door.

Rachel's mouth dropped open slightly before she looked at Quinn, who looked like she wanted to kill Brittany.

"Later." Quinn mouthed as she noticed that Beth yawned. "Come on, sweetie. I'll put you to bed." Rachel walked towards the couch as Quinn scooped Beth up in her arms and walked towards her bedroom.

About five minutes later, Quinn returned and sat down on the couch with a loud sigh. She shook her head a few times, blankly staring at the wall.

Rachel gave her a few moments before she decided to speak up. "What was that about before?"

Quinn sat back on the couch before looking over and laughing bitterly. "Well, as I'm sure you can guess, my talk with her didn't go over well."

Rachel just nodded and remained silent as Quinn released another sigh.

"There's nothing wrong with her." She said after a couple of moments.

"How do you know that?"

"I know Brittany, Rachel." She said simply before shaking her head and adding. "I was stupid for jumping to conclusions after you told me but…."

"You worry about her." Rachel finished her sentence and Quinn nodded weakly.

"She would have told me. We've always told each other everything, especially when it comes to big things like this." She leaned forward a bit. "I just had a little doubt in the back of my head because maybe she didn't want to say anything because she felt like she'd make me feel guilty for the crash or something. But I saw it in her eyes tonight…it's some sort of miracle, given all she's been through, but she's fine and she isn't seeing a psychiatrist." Quinn finished speaking before reaching for her phone on the table. She was hoping that maybe Brittany would have texted her or something but there was no such luck.

"Okay." Rachel said, processing everything. "I am sorry, Quinn, for suggesting that. I know how much Brittany means to you and I know how much you've all been through so it would have killed me if I just sat back and let something happen. And especially, when that something included my mother." She said the last word with disgust before sitting back onto the couch. "But so then do you think it was a coincidence? Because I'm still unsure as to why my mother was even there."

Quinn stayed silent for a few moments. "Did Santana lose her internship?" She finally said, completely ignoring Rachel's question and previous statements.

"What? No. I mean there's rumors going around the hospital that she did but to my knowledge, she didn't." She said sincerely.

"Did you spread those rumors around?" Quinn winced as soon as the question left her mouth and Rachel's eyes widened.

"What? Are you serious, Quinn?" She shifted a little, shaking her head. "No, I didn't. I would never do that. In fact, I've been telling everyone to stop those rumors just like Santana asked me to."

"She asked you?"

"Yes, a couple of weeks ago when she and Brittany came over here for dinner. She told that there were going to be things said about her around the hospital and she asked me to try to stop them from circulating."

"Well, Brittany thinks you spread that around the hospital."

"I would never do that, Quinn. Never." Rachel said looking really hurt. Quinn just let out a sigh.

"Don't you think I know that, Rachel?" Quinn said sitting on the couch. "I just still had to ask. I'm sorry."

"But she doesn't. So I'm assuming that's what her comment to me was about." Quinn just simply nodded. "So what…are you going to do?"

"I don't know, Rachel." Quinn runs her hand through her hair. "We don't fight. This doesn't happen. I don't know what to do."

"Quinn…" Rachel takes Quinn's hand. "Just give her some space. I'll talk to her, how about that?"

"No, you don't have to. You're right. I'll give her a few days and then try her."

"I uh…still want to talk to her." Rachel mumbles and Quinn looks at her. "I just…I want her to know I'd never do that. I feel guilty telling you about her meeting Holly to begin with but I only did it because of everything she's been through."

Quinn just nods before she leans in and places a kiss on her cheek. "Come on. Let's go to sleep." She offers Rachel her hand and she happily takes it as the two move into Quinn's room.

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A little before 9, Santana leaned against the nurse's station and filled out the last of her paperwork. She smiled and handed it to the night-shift nurse before turning around and heading towards the exit.

"Hey, Lopez." She heard and slowly turned around, seeing Holly walking towards her. "So have you thought about it?" She asked and Santana immediately rolled her eyes.

"Sorry, I've been a little bit busy, you know, doing my job to think about your lame attempt at making peace with me." She sighed before turning around, only to have Holly quickly grab a hold of her arm.

"Santana…." She said sincerely, looking into her eyes. "Please, hear me out, okay? This has happened between us before and it's unnatural. Two sexy bitches like us need to be taking on this place together." She tried to joke but Santana's face remained neutral.

Santana pulled her arm back. "Yes, it's happened before but because of very minor things, Holly." She leaned in to her and lowered her voice. "You are messing with my career now. I finally decided to make the transition into being a doctor and you and your nosey ass ruined it."

Holly sighed and nodded her head slowly. "Okay, I temporarily ruined it, Santana. I put a delay on the internship. I didn't terminate it altogether." She looked down for a moment. "Look, just come over to my place tomorrow night and we'll talk. You can yell at me and do whatever you want but we need to get this out and the sooner the better."

Santana pressed her lips together and stayed silent for a few moments. "I'll still think about it.." She finally said and Holly rolled her eyes.

"Fine. If you decide to take me up on the offer, then come to my house around 8." Holly said with a bit of a pleading look before she excused herself.

Holly walked into her office where she saw that she had a text message.

From Brittany: Rachel saw the whole thing between you and me and Shelby. She thinks I'm the one seeing her and now Quinn and I are in a fight. Everything's becoming a mess, Holly.

To Brittany: I asked Santana to come to my house tomorrow. This needs to end. You're more than welcome to come even though I'm not 100% sure she's coming yet.

From Brittany: Don't worry. I'll see if I can subtly convince her to go.

Brittany ran a hand through her hair as she walked back to her apartment. Once inside, she looked at the clock and realized that Santana's shift was over. She took a deep breath as she sat on the couch before she called her.

After two rings, Santana picked up. "Hey, baby…"

Brittany smiled a little but then it faded. "Hey, San. How was work?"

"Pretty boring I guess. How was your class and everything?"

"It was good. The kids have really come a long way since they all started."

Santana smiled proudly. "Well, that's because they have an amazing teacher." Brittany laughed and mumbled a thank you. "So what are you doing now?"

"Oh, well I just got home. After I taught, I went to Quinn's…." She trailed on, regretting mentioning her because she didn't want to mention the fight she had with her.

"That's nice. I feel like I haven't seen her in awhile…"

And it'll keep feeling like that… Brittany thought to herself as she shook her head slowly. "What are you doing tomorrow night?" She chose to ignore what Santana said and hoped that she would mention Holly's offer.

"I'm not sure. My aunt is still here. I'm spending some time with her tonight so I probably won't tomorrow…" Santana said and Brittany sighed softly. "Holly asked me to do something but that won't happen."

"Santana…" Brittany sat up a little on the couch. "Come on, you should do something with her. From the time I've known you, you two have always been close and I hate seeing you fighting. Please…"

Santana stayed silent for a moment. She knew that seeing Holly was a bad idea but Brittany was right. They've always been close and it would be a chance to hear the woman out and maybe change her mind. "Fine…" She mumbled and Brittany laughed.

"Good. I'm glad." Her smile faded a little as she realized what Santana going to Holly's would entail. "You know I love you, right?"

"Of course, baby. I love you, too." Brittany let out a soft sigh and nodded before Santana continued. "I'm going on the subway now because Marissa is making me pick up food so I'm going to go, okay?"

Brittany nodded. "Okay. Be careful and tell your aunt and Marissa I said hi."

"I will, baby. They both are going to want to see you soon though so if you are free in two days we should all do something."

"I want to see them, too. And I am free so that sounds perfect."

"Great. Okay, I'm going. Love you."

Brittany ended with an 'I love you, too' before she ended the call. She looked at her phone and saw another text from Holly.

From Holly: Thank you. She'll listen to you. Just a heads up I asked her to come around 8 if you want to come, too.

To Holly: She said she will go. Okay, I have a dance class until 7 so I'll just head straight over to you after it.

To Holly: Should I tell her that I'm going?

Brittany waited for a response as nerves started to get the best of her. She knew Holly and Santana were going to talk about their fight, namely the fact that Holly delayed Santana's internship. That is what Santana understood was what is going to go on. That didn't give Brittany a real reason to be there so her presence may be a little shocking. She also knew that they were going to address Santana's weird behavior as delicately as they could. Shelby had told them not to corner her about it so they weren't. They were going to simply let her know that they were there for her and leave the ball in her court as to whether she wanted to elaborate on her feelings.

Brittany's thoughts were broken when she heard her phone go off again.

From Holly: That sounds perfect to me. No, I'll come up with something to explain why you're there. Don't worry.

Brittany let out a sigh. She knew Holly would figure something out. Once again, her focus shifted when her phone went off. It was a text message from Quinn this time and she ignored it as she decided to go to sleep for the night.

The next morning Brittany woke up to a 'good morning' text from Santana along with another from her complaining about Puck and Marissa. She laughed lightly at it before answered her back. It was then that she noticed another text from Quinn and one from Rachel as well. Both of which went ignored.

About an hour or two later, Brittany had showered and eaten and went to the studio. As soon as she walked in, she heard that Nicole was on the phone.

"How do you still have a job?" She laughed and it was then that Nicole noticed her. Her smiled widened as she cut the person off on the phone and then hung up.

"Brittany, I've literally been waiting all morning for you to come in." She almost squealed as she got up from her seat and went into hug Brittany tightly.

"This is an amazing alternative to the usual greeting you give me…" Brittany laughed and hugged her back. "What's got you all excited?"

Nicole's smile stayed on her face as she pulled back from her. "I would have told you sooner but it needed to be in person. I heard back from Uconn and you are looking at the newest member of Huskies."

Brittany's mouth hung open for a moment before she mirrored Nicole's wide smile and pulled her in for another hug. "Nic, that's amazing. I'm so happy for you."

"You should be sad since it means that I'll be leaving you in the fall." She laughed and then nodded. "I'm kidding. I'll visit as much as possible especially to see you because you're really the only one who believed in me about getting in."

"You're a pain in the ass, Nic, but you're a smart one. There was no doubt in my mind that you'd get in there." She nudged her arm. "You've made me late for my class so I better get the full details some other time.

Nicole nodded and went to sit back down. "Girls night soon. That way you can tell me all the juicy details about you and Santana." She winked as her phone went off.

Brittany rolled her eyes and then sighed as she walked into the room where her class was. Time few by really quickly and pretty soon it was just after 6:30. Brittany watched as the kids went through their latest routine and she smiled at the few who seemed to really connect with their dance partners. It was one of the cutest things about teaching little children to dance.

A few more minutes went by and Brittany could hear the sounds of parents talking outside of the room. She decided to let them go a few minutes early and gave them a little dance number to practice until their next class. The kids all wave to her and some gave her hugs as they left the room and were reunited with their parents. Brittany turned around to shut the stereo system down when she saw someone walking into the room through the reflections from the mirrors around the walls. She immediately stopped what she was doing and sighed.

"Not answering text messages is usually a sign that someone doesn't want to talk to you, let alone see you."

Rachel walked in a little hesitantly and nodded. "I know, Brittany. I apologize for showing up like this. It's very intrusive and stupid of me but I was kind of desperate."

Brittany turned around and crossed her arms over her chest. "How did you know I was even here?"

"I um…I called the studio and spoke to Nicole a little while ago. Another stupid move but again I was desperate."

Brittany nodded slowly and took a step closer. "I really don't want to talk to you right now….actually even if I did, I can't talk to you because I have to be somewhere." She stayed silent for a moment. "And don't worry. It's not a session with my shrink."

"Brittany, I fully deserve that. I understand that you are upset…"

"Upset? Rachel, you saw me that day. Hell, you've seen me for months. Has Quinn ever once mentioned to you that I've been acting weirdly?" Rachel shook her head. "No so then you should have trusted my relationship with Quinn enough to realize that nothing was wrong with me because she wasn't worried. You should have also realized that I would have told her if anything was going on…"

"Brittany, you have to understand that I did not tell her to spread gossip or be spiteful. I know what your relationship with Quinn is. Frankly, I am extremely jealous at how close you two are and how much you mean to each other. I told her because I've always been told that it's the people closest to someone who doesn't see that there's something wrong. I thought maybe Quinn didn't see something wrong because she wasn't looking for it. I couldn't just sit back and do something and I couldn't talk to you about it because I didn't want to scare you away in case something was wrong…"

Rachel rambled on for a few more moments and Brittany listened intently. She was slowly coming to the realization that maybe she had over-reacted a little when Quinn confronted her. She had just been on edge the past few days because she was worried about Santana. However, she wasn't going to forgive Rachel just yet. There were two more issues that she needed to clear up.

"Did you tell everyone about Santana's internship?"

Rachel knew that question was coming and she shook her head slowly. "I didn't, Brittany. Santana had approached me the night the four of us had dinner and she mentioned that people were going to perhaps be spreading that rumor around. She asked me to stop that from happened and I did. I've told every single nurse and employee in that hospital that I have on good authority that Santana is still going to be interning and will become a better doctor than Sue."

Brittany nodded and she stayed silent for a moment. She wasn't going to tell Rachel that the delay was actually true because that was no one's business but hers, Santana's, Holly's and probably a few of the authorities in the hospital. "I'm sorry than. I just…."

"I get it, Brittany. Nurses gossip. It's in the job description." She shrugged and then turned a little more serious. "But we don't gossip about the people close to us. I know Santana and I aren't exactly the greatest of friends but she does affect you and Quinn and Beth and a lot of other people that I am closer to."

"She likes you…" Brittany mumbled with the hint of a small smile. Rachel looked at her with a confused look. "Santana likes you. She just has a weird way of showing it sometimes. You're a good friend to her….and me. I shouldn't of gotten so mad or said what I did to you last night in front of Beth no less."

Rachel shook her head. "You don't have to apologize. I was hurt by everything but I took a step back and realized where you were coming from."

Brittany just nodded slowly and stayed silent for another moment. "Quinn said that there was a reason why you knew about Shelby…." She trailed on hoping that Rachel would catch on and she did. Her mouth formed an 'o' shape as she crossed her arms over her chest and nodded.

"It's a very complicated reason…and I know that you said you had to be somewhere…"

Brittany sighed softly and took a step closer to her. "Rachel, I'm not trying to pry or anything. I just honestly feel like you owe me this much so that I can make sense as to how you knew about everything."

Rachel nodded. She did owe Brittany the explanation because if she didn't give it, she would look like a crazy stalker who isn't able to shut her mouth.

"Right…" She took a deep breath. "I know Shelby very well. Actually I don't know her well but that's besides the point…" She said almost bitterly. "What I mean is that I know Shelby in the sense that she is my mother…my biological mother." She let out and Brittany's eyes widened a little. It wasn't obvious then but now it was. They did look so much alike."

"Rachel…you don't have to continue. I can piece the rest of it together…" Brittany stopped talking when Rachel put her hand up.

"It's okay. She was the surrogate that my fathers used and after I was born, she left to do god knows what. My fathers made sure that she could have contact with me if she wanted to but she never took them up on that offer. I got birthday cards for the first few years until they just stopped when I was in high school and that's when I first met her. We were finally going to establish a relationship when she left again because she felt like too much time had gone by and we could never have a proper mother-daughter relationship."

"I'm so sorry…" Brittany said softly. She had no idea Rachel went through something like this and she almost regretted asking her to explain herself. However, she was also glad that she was telling her because it meant that they were getting closer and perhaps, Brittany could help her and Shelby reconnect in some way.

"Don't apologize.." She smiled and shook her head. "I am a little bitter over it still and seeing her the other day made it worse but I can't dwell on the past or what she did. I am grateful for what she did for my fathers…" She paused for a moment. "I made the connection not just because she was my mother though. I've always known she was a psychiatrist. She's amazing at what she does and I've read up on her so I checked the sign-in book to see where she was going. You had just stated that you were meeting with Holly and she signed in under Holly's name so…."

"You put two and two together." Brittany finished her sentence and nodded slowly. "I understand completely now, Rachel. I guess there was just some coincidental timing on my part as well as Shelby's meeting with Holly. I am sorry though. I can imagine seeing her was hard enough and then how I reacted probably didn't help much…"

Rachel smiled a little and nodded. "It definitely didn't help but again, I understand." She paused for a moment. "You and Quinn talking and making up is the only way that I will be able to forget this whole entire messy situation."

Brittany smirked. "Yeah, yeah. Nice segway there. Quinn and I do need to talk. I regret fighting with her so as soon as I can I will go over to her and apologize for being a bitch and she'll apologize for being an ass." She shrugged causing Rachel to smile a little.

"That's all I ask…" Rachel took a step closer to Brittany. "I'm going to hug you now." She smiled before doing so. Brittany hugged her back tightly and they parted after a moment. "Now, I've kept you long enough. Go where you need to and I'll go tell Quinn that she should expect a visit from you soon."

Brittany nodded and waved to Rachel as she left the room. She took a deep breath and was glad that one issue was resolved in what was becoming a crazy mess known as her life. She took a look at the clock and quickly grabbed her bag and jacket before sending a text to Holly to let her know that she was on her way. Before leaving, Brittany said goodbye to Nicole and congratulated her again before the two established that the following weekend would be good for the girls night.

Meanwhile, Santana was still at her apartment. She had spent the whole day with Marissa and her aunt and now it was close to 8 and part of her was still contemplating on whether she was going to go to Holly's. She knew that she had told Brittany that she would go but she could easily make up something about having to stay with Marissa and her aunt or being called in for a shift at work. She sighed as she finally got off her bed and changed into something a little more presentable. Maybe fixing things with Holly wasn't a bad idea. She could get her internship back and then everything would go back to normal. But then again Santana wasn't even sure what normal meant these days.

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