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He stared at me. His face impassive. Eye's blank. But no that was not what bothered me- it was the fact that I knew he was about to say something, something that would haunt me forever- call it Karma or setting myself up to bad news I don't know. But the next words that came out of his mouth confirmed my thoughts.

"Love fades. Mine has." I felt incapable of speech. " W-what so you mean by that?" I stuttered-having trouble stringing my words together-I felt as if my world was coming apart. " I mean what I say. I have given up on you-on us" he whispered angrily at me. " but I thaught you loved me. You told me you loved me" I replied quietly, on the verge of tears but refusing to show any sign of weakness around him

"Well I lied to you I don't love you" he paused thinking about his next words carefully "I never have loved you, it may have been true for you but for me it was not. For I could not love a child." Those words tore through me completely ripping my heart out and completely destroying my soul. On the verge of tears I stood up and swang my fist forward and connected with his nose, breaking it on contact. I ran out of the church and towards the gym.

I got a few odd looks on my way towards the gym. Although what do you expect to see when the infamous Rosemarie Hathaway cry. When I got to the gym I looked around to see some practise dummies- sure enough there was a dummie that looked a lot like Belikov- even his name made my heart jab uncomfortably and painfully. After about two hours of bashing up the dummie I felt a pair of strong Dhampir arms drag me away from the dummies and over to the mats where I collapsed onto the ground letting all of the tears flow free.

"Shh…Rose its ok." The Dhampir turned out to be Eddie Castile. "No. no it won't be Eddie." I said shaking my head as he pulled me onto his lap. "Are you ok Rose?" Mia and Adrian asked at the exact same time. I shook my head- shaking all over- "It's cold today isn't it" I said laughing at my stupidity whilst I felt the air warm up around me, I looked up to see Christian there with a sympathetic look on his face. "Thank you" I said looking back at the ground. replaying the scene in the church over in my head.

"ROSEMARIE HATHAWAY WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO!" Lissa yelled. Her jade eye's blazing with such furry it amazed me. "do what" once again stumbling over the words. "You know what. Your conversation in the church!" she continued ignoring the bewildered looks coming from people surrounding her I pondered how she could know about that as the church was mainly empty, as if reading my thoughts she continued "The bond is two way now" her sneer increasing with every word she spoke.

Well that explains how she knows about that since I was thinking about it.

"Why did you have to do that now it will take more time to forgive you" as soon as the words left her mouth I launched in to a fit of hysterics I had tears in my eyes from laughing so much. "Rose im being serious here" she exclaimed glaring at me.

"I know you are. That's why im laughing" I was receiving some 'Rose is crazy' looks I was so use to by now, but they were easy to ignore. "If anyone should be the one forgiving it should be me. I should be the one forgiving him!" I sneered at her. I could feel the darkness seeping through my body. It was tingling in my veins weaving its self through my blood, burying its self into my very being.

"why on earth should you have to forgive him? He didn't hit you" she retorted. Smirking. Man, do I wish I could wipe that wipe that smirk off her fucking preppy face right now, I could see the argument being calculated in her eyes, she was so sure that she was going to win this argument. I decided to tell everyone about how he treated me in Russia no one knew that . yet. I added bitterly in my head 'oh yes I can't wait to see the look on her bloody face when I tell her what really happened. Should be funny really'.

I interrupted her rambling. "good god. Do you know how much you fucking sound like fucking Natalie right now?" I said laughing, receiving a few shocked faces .I continued. "you just go on and on and on. Its tiering really. And you wouldn't know what forgiveness was if it danced but-fucking-stark naked screaming obstinacies in front of you."I concluded effectively shutting her up.

" oh and you do?" she questioned me. Sneering. Again , gosh she dose sneer a lot doesn't she. She continued rambling

"Blood Whore" I whispered. For once not meeting any body's eye's, I vaguely realised that I had moved from my spot on Eddie leaving him only a little bit confused. "what!" my mother, Janine, said as she and Alberta entered the gym. I took a deep breath before continuing.

"In Russia Dimitri used me as his Blood Whore. Every day he would come and fucking taunt me about how much fucking fun he is going to have when he is fucking awakening me and then fucking using me to feed from. If it weren't for Adrian I would either still be there or be a Strigoi by now" I stated impassively.

"Wait how did I help in this?" a slightly confused Adrian asked. "do you remember the last time you dream walked me and I started yelling at you?" I knew that he did remember, my thoughts were confirmed when he let out a timid "yes". "Well when I woke up I looked in the mirror and realised that I looked like a blood whore" I finished, looking around at everyone's facial expression most were sympathetic. But my mother wore a look of murder on her face. And Lissa, well she had a look of pure amusement on her face

I was on the verge of asking her what her problem was when I was beaten to it by none other than Mia. "What. The. Hell. Is. Your. Problem. Bitch?" she growled. "My problem? My problem is that he was only using her for what she really is" Lissa replied haughtily with a huge smirk plastered on her face, "what the hell dose that even mean?" I replied with a look of pure confusion on my face, I could still feel the darkness creeping through my veins like a tiger stalking its prey in the long grass the darkness was tinged with something else, something that felt a lot like power, I could feel the power becoming more dominant in my blood turning and channelling the darkness into magic, dark and powerful.

"that would be a pathetic lowly little blood whore" and with those words my patience snapped, I tried lunging for her but I was held back by Eddie. Attempting to channel as much of the power in was feeling, I imagined her being surrounded by flames, I watched as my thoughts became reality.

Standing not more than four feet away from me I saw Lissa standing there surrounded in a six foot wall of electric blue flames flickering almost dancing, in the bright light of the gym. After the satisfaction of seeing everybody's shocked faces and getting tired of Lissa's annoying screams, I decided to put the flame's out , with a wave of my hand they were out replaced by a jet of deep blue water, Lissa looked up at me from where she was cowering on the floor, she was soaked from the water I projected at her. Her one perfect ensemble and hair now ruined, she somewhat resembled a drowned cat-although amusing kinda scary.

"how did you…"Christian's words faded off as we stared at a shocked and murderess Lissa. Truth be told I was also mildly astounded-not because I had used magic because I had been trying to do that for a while now with me being shadow kissed I can control an element-but because I had just used two elements fire and water. I pondered the possibility of controlling all five elements; Earth, Fire, Water, Air and Spirit. As I looked around I was amused at all of the disbelieving faces.

"I'm shadow kissed." Were the last words I said before turning around and walking around the door leaving behind my family and going far away from court.