Short I know, but seriously I could care less. Now, I want to ask a big favor. Allyouneedislove1797 had a poll on her account. It says, "Should I continue writing?" For some reason, my computer won't let me vote. PLEASE, even if you hate her stories, just take two seconds of your lives and click, Yes. This story is really for Jerome. This will be multi-chapter. I know I haven't updates three of my stories in a while, but everyone just needs some time to think. Don't hate me.

I wish the world wasn't this painful. This terrible. This… tragic.

Ever had your best friend suddenly stop contacting you? Ever had someone just disappear without a care? Leaving you behind to wonder? Then you leave, they come back, and wonder what happened to you.

Ever had that moment when you think that this moment must be a dream? When you say, "Ha…" and just wonder when you will wake up? Pinching, screaming, fighting the tears, none of it works.

Ever had that feeling that you were abandoned? Alone? Sad? Depressed? Like nothing in the freaking world can cure your pain?

Ever had that time that you start again? Thinking that you can finally start living? But no, history always repeats itself.

Ever had that need to punch something? Mentally? But then you realize that you are punching yourself?

Ever had those thoughts of dying? Of killing yourself? But you have to stay away because everyone is watching you like a hawk.

Ever had that time when you wish people would shut up and stop saying, "Are you okay?" And you answer, "Fine!" but in truth your not?

Ever had that diary that you write down all the negatives? But somehow your hand can't write the positives?

Ever had those medications that your parents brag about, saying that, "My daughter is doing so much better. I did a great job." They never think of the possibility that you closed yourself from the world, and put on a fake smile.

Ever wonder why you exist?