Hey! I know has been a while but I had this half finished chapter so I thought I should at least finish it and post it =) Warning that it is a heavy topic covered in this chapter, that had been hinted at during some latest chapters. Hopefully I do it some justice/ handle it correctly. Sooo enjoy!

I don't own twilight.

It was the end of spring coming into summer and I had just come back from my one and a half hour run round the forest. I jogged into the house huffing and puffing, must have looked bright red, and just walked up the stairs with my Ipod in not bothering to talk to anyone and jumped straight into the shower. My family thought I was joking when I told them about running in the morning but now it was routine for me. It was also routine for me to fight with my family about eating breakfast. I was sick of them always telling me how I need breakfast to start the day right, how healthy it was to eat breakfast but I didn't pay attention to any of it. I somewhat ate something in the morning just to get them off my back, usually an apple or a piece of toast. I also packed a huge lunch to make it look like I was eating something at school. The person I had to most careful around was Rosalie. She knew that it was something more than just skipping a few meals here and there; she had her suspensions causing her to watch me like a hawk. This is why I was pushing her away. I couldn't have her find out my secret; Dad would go all doctor on me and they would send me away to some mental institute.

"Hurry up Becca. At the pace you are going we are never going to make it to school" Alice said on the other side of the door. I stepped out of the shower and looked at my body. I was tall, with my latest growth spurt making me much taller than Alice and Bella and nearly catching up to Rose. My long, dark brown hair clung to my back with its wetness, hiding my bony back. I could easily count all my ribs as there was no fat to hide them and my legs and arms looked like twigs that could be snapped just like that. It was the first time I really saw myself. I had to turn around I hated the sight so much.

"Becca? You feeling ok?" Jazz asked me on the other side of the door. Damn it! He must have felt the sadness and hatred that washed over me.

"Yup. I'll be out soon." I said with a wobbly voice. No way was that convincing anyone, it's more likely to get more people's attention. I slipped some clothes on; just plain skinny jeans and a nice baggy jersey would suffice for today. I pulled my hair into a slick high top bun, not bothering to dry it and put on some mascara, the least amount of makeup I put on since I started wearing it. I stuck my headphones in, putting on some Ed Sheeran music, his voice was just so relaxing. I walked down stairs and did something I haven't done in a long time, ate breakfast. I grabbed a bowl of cereal and chopped on that as I put two pieces of toast in the toaster. I looked up to see my dad just staring at me in amazement but as soon as he caught my eye he went to back to reading his newspaper without being able to wipe his silly, goofy grin off his face. Everyone was the same all smiley and what not but none of them brought it up, which quite a wise idea. I kept my head phones in the whole way to school, not wanting to talk to people.

"Cya you guys later" I told everyone as I walked away from the car. I don't know why but I was in such a happy mood. I turned around, giving them a smile and got a chance to see their shocked faces. I guess I haven't really been talking to anyone for a while.

We were all talking in the halls before class started, about nothing in general.

"So that is why Slowpoke is the best pokemon of all time" Max declared. I just laughed at the absurdity of his conversation.

"Max you are so weird" Sophie laughed "Ok, I really need to pee now" She then gave me the most judgemental stare as she examined me up and down. "Becca, want to come?"

I suddenly felt a wave of guilt wave over me for eating breakfast. I followed Sophie instinctively, knowing exactly what she was about to do. As I entered the bathroom I caught my reflection in the mirror. I didn't see the same person as I did earlier this morning. This time all I saw was the fat oozing off me. Sophie disappeared into a stool and I went into the one beside her. I could hear Sophie beside, the horrible noise that came out of her. I flushed the toilet to drown out the noise and starred right into the toilet as I made myself gag. I felt the vile liquid rise from my stomach, forcing itself up my throat. It left a disgusting taste in my mouth and the stinging caused my eyes to water. I once again flushed the toilet to get rid of the evidence and then left the stool to join Sophie, who had already left. I wiped the tears away from my eyes when I looked up to see Rose standing there. She had one of the most pained looks that I had ever seen.

"Becca..." She whispered as she took a step towards me.

"Please don't" I told her as I ran past her out of the bathroom and to get my books for my next class. No matter what I was not going to see my family. I ran to catch up with my friends, trying to keep the tears back.

It was time for lunch which I was dreading for different reasons today; I did not like the possibility of bumping into my family. Ness would be fine since her parents wouldn't want her to know but there was no doubt that Rose would have told everyone else who would have something to say about it. We were walking down the hallway to the cafeteria when Sophie suddenly doubled over in pain.

"Sophie?!" Ella asked urgently

"Ahh my stomach" Sophie cried with tears streaming down her face.

"AHHHH!" Sophie screamed out in pain as she fall to the floor. Then she was very still.

"HELP! Someone please help" Jenna screamed out. I looked around to see the crowd surrounding us, with teachers trying to push past. I didn't realise what I was doing until I felt the pressure of my phone against the side of my face.

"911. What is your emergancy?" Asked a voice.

"A a ambulance. My friend has collapsed in pain and is now unconscious."

"Ok. Now where are?"

"Forks High School" It felt like an out of body experience. I didn't know how through all the chaos, I remained so calm. Teachers were trying to get the students to go back to their classrooms while at the same time trying to calm down everyone who was panicking.

"Is she breathing?" I heard the voice ask me. I looked at her closely as I watched her chest move up and down.

"Yes."

"Good. Sweetie the ambulance is on their way and will be there shortly. I need you to stay by her and make sure she continues to breath, Ok?"

"Ok" I sat down next to Sophie and held her hand.

"It's going to be ok, everything will be ok" I started to say and continue to say until the ambulance arrived. They pushed me out of the way while they started to do lots of things to her, all to try save her life. I kept taking steps backwards, slowly one at a time. I couldn't handle being there knowing what no one else knew. As soon as I was out of the small crowd that was still there I ran to the toilets before I completely lost it. Well tried to. Didn't get very far until I ran into Rose, who just engulfed me in her arms and let me just sob. I started to settle down after a while but I still remained in Roses arms not letting go of her, it was soothing having her rubbing my back and talking to me and she was the only one who knew what was making me so upset.

"The office is going to let us take Becca home" I heard Emmett say behind me, still didn't look up though.

"Ok. Becca just be us in the car ok?"

All I could do was nod as I finally lifted up my chest. I looked around to see that the halls were now empty and now filled with an airy silence. As we got into the car, I could see with rest of my family watching me with worry, maybe Rose hadn't told them about what she saw me do today. Must have been completely out of it, lost in my thoughts, because the next thing I knew we were home. I looked at the house, wanting to be in my bed but my body just wasn't moving. Don't know if it was nerves, exhaustion or the fact that my body was running on empty.

"So... Do you want to talk about what I saw today?" Rose asked as she turned off the ignition.

"How did you know?" That's what I wanted to know. She sighed and looked like she was trying to come up with an answer.

"I just knew. The way you acted around food, all the exercise and of course what Sophie was doing"

"Yeah, but everyone saw that but no-one really knew, knew"

"I guess I know you, and I do remember the pressure of being thin and that ideal weight, I struggled a bit myself. I guess I was able to connect all the dots"

"I didn't mean to get this far" I replied quietly. Rose just looked at me, waiting for me to explain more.

"I saw nothing wrong but Sophie started putting voices in my head. Then I started noticing the weight gain since I've gotten back, which I guess is expected after doing some much exercise at school to nothing now, but I didn't like it. So I ate less which worked for a while but I had to eat to please people and I didn't like eating over a certain amount... That's when I would sometimes throw up. I would only do it at school because I would get caught at home and that's why I also ate dinner. I knew everyone would notice if I stopped eating dinner so that's the only meal I ate.I tried to not eat breakfast and hardly ever eat lunch and exercise to compensate for eating dinner" I finally looked up into Roses eyes, she looked almost shocked what I was telling her. She had her suspicions but guess it was hard to hear them out load.

"I didn't mean it to get this far, I thought I had control but now Sophie is in the hospital and I hate the way I look but I feel physically ill when I think about eating to gain more weight. I don't know what to do" Queue the waterworks again. I felt miserable and scared. I didn't want to end up like Sophie but I wasn't ready to admit that what I was doing was wrong.

Rose had the car door open at once and once again in a calming, embracing hug.

"It's alright. Everything is going to be fine. We are going to help you fight this, ok" Rose whispered to me.

"Beeca?" I heard my mum whisper. I looked up to see her standing there with a heart broken look on her face. I guess it would be pretty shocking to hear all that come out of your daughter's mouth, especially when she kept most of it to school so you didn't realise the extent of the problem.

"I'm sorry" I said as she replaced Rose and her arms wrapped around me "I'm so, so sorry" Mum just continued to rock me back and forth and shh into my ear. I didn't realise that I was now in the place I wanted to be, my bed, as mum gently rocked me to sleep just like when I was little.

I kind of want to get this story line resolved and move onto the next one, not to say that I will be updating regularly but I will try and actually do some. So maybe one more chapter on Becca being Anorexic/Bulmic then I'll move on. And I understand that it is not that simple in real life and it will always be a struggle but for the sack of the story Becca is going to have a faster recovery.

Any suggestions about what you want to read are also welcome =)

Thanks for sticking with me!