You said I was your everything,
You said I was the one,
You played me like a radio,
You use to love that I had no shame.
Rachel sang the words to the empty auditorium. Lately he had been on her mind. Finn could only keep her occupied for a limited amount of time. He was always talking about football or some other stupid topic. He never once liked the ideas she had for Glee club, and he barely payed her any attention. Most of the time when he did pay attention to her, it was because they were making out in her bed.
Pour my pain into words, Tell me you'll love me like a star
Hold my hand to the flame.
Tell me you'll want me wherever you are,
Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath.
Liar, liar, oh, liar, liar.
Her words echoing through the space. He said he wouldn't leave her but now he was in LA attending UCLA. Not that she wasn't happy for him.
Bit by bit I feel the draft, Tell me you'll love me like a star,
Just sit back and watch it burn,
Hold your ice up to my veins,
Call out, call out my name
Tell me you'll want me wherever you are,
Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath.
Liar, liar,
Oh, liar, liar, liar, liar, oh, liar, liar
Rachel could feel the anger coursing through he veins as she thought back to that day. She had accepted that day, and after lots of thinking and putting herself in his shoes, she understood why he did it. However, that didn't make it hurt any less. Tell me you'll love me like a star Tell me you'll love me like a star
Tell me you'll want me wherever you are,
Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath.
Liar, liar, oh, liar, liar.
Tell me you'll want me wherever you are,
Tell me you'll breathe me until your last breath.
Liar, liar, oh, liar, liar.
Liar, liar.
'I loved you too.' she said in the stillness of the room as his parting words echoed in her mind. She sank down to sit on the stage floor. Her anger subsided as the sadness kicked in. She wished she could talk to him one more time. Just to see in once more, and feel the electricity he gave off once more. She could still see his face, and smell his smell.
His dark curls and jade eyes. Light complexion, strong jaw line. The lines of his mouth then he smiled, the way his brows furrowed in concentration. She smelled something that reminded her of his smell. She remembered his smell. The smell of his shampoo,mixed with his body wash. Even with out the two aromas Jesse had a smell of his own that was sweet and musky. The three mixed could make any girl swoon. His voice was the most prominent memory though. His smoky bass and pure tenor, that meshed perfectly with hers.
She reminisced, about the good times they had had, and the masculine click of his designer boots. She could still hear the sound coming from behind her. Wait...that sound was real. She turned around to see the devil himself standing behind her.
"Jesse?"
"Hello Rachel." he smirked. "I thought you might be here."
"W-wh-" she cleared her throat, "What are you doing here?" she stammered.
"I'm on spring break, and I thought you were too, which is why I am wondering why you would be here." he replied coolly.
"I come here to think, and practice. Just because it's spring break doesn't mean that I can let my edge slip. But shouldn't I be the one asking you as to why you are here?" she quipped, standing up to level the playing field.
"I came to see you. I knew you would be here, even on spring break, seeing as how you are going to be a star. I see you haven't lost your skills. What was that you were singing?" A hopeful look glazed his eyes over for a millisecond, but Rachel saw it.
Her cheeks flushed, "Oh that was nothing." she lied turning away from him. Suddenly, a fury spread over Rachel as she thought back to the song she had been singing. They both knew it wasn't nothing, and she wanted to let him know exactly what it was, and was about to give him a piece of her mind, but then she felt his hands slip around her waist.
"Now, Rachel." he breathed. "We both know that wasn't nothing." His breath washed over her bare shoulders and neck. "Do you have something you would like to say to me?" She couldn't breathe, let alone speak. The old feelings she had for him flooding through her again, and her skin getting all goosebumpy with the sensation. All she could do was nod. His throaty chuckle, flaring her rage back into mind.
She spun around to face him as his smug face melted into one of shock. "That song was about you. The way you lied to me with every breath, and made me fall for you knowing that it was all a lie. You even tried to get me to sleep with you as an added bonus. Then you come back onto my territory, wrap me up in your arms and expect me to forget everything? I don't think so mister!" She roared, and turned away from him once more, to calm herself. She thought to herself, I understand why you did it, but it doesn't make me less angry.
There was silence. She slowly turned back to face him. Rachel was taken aback to find him without a show face firmly situated on his face.
"I'm sorry." he said. Rachels fury subsiding. He looked in agony. "I mean it. I'm sorry. I picked another national title over you and I'm sorry for everything that I did to you. But I came back to make it right. I'm asking you for another chance. I know I don't deserve it, but I know I can make you happy."
Rachel could feel a smile breaking out on her face. She quickly wiped it away. "What makes you think you could make me happy?" She began gathering her things.
Once again he was pressed up against her. Pulling her face to meet him, one hand on her hip, the other gliding across her skin.
"Because I remember how happy you looked when we were together." He dusted his fingers across her collarbone, across her spaghetti strap, and up her neck, stopping just behind her ear. Her eyes, fluttered closed. He drew nonsense shapes in the exposed skin of her chest, causing her breath to catch. "I remember all the smiles, and laughs, all the kisses, jokes, and content moments we shared." A wide grin spread across her face, unknowingly.
He chuckled, as he dragged his lips over her cheek to her ear. "I also remember all the touches, and sighs, every moan, and groan that dripped from your lips." She swallowed hard, her breathing coming faster. His lips sliding over her cheek once more to settle on her lips. His lips so close to hers she almost considered it a kiss, as her lips slightly parted in anticipation. She felt his smug grin as his lips moved against hers, "Miss me?" Her head swam as his sweet breath washed over her face.
She opened her eyes to look at him, her eyes glazed over in a familiar way. "Wouldn't you like to know?" she shot, and captured his lips in a kiss. Now this was the superman of kisses. Finn had no idea what he was talking about when he referred to their kissing as such. This one was full of pent up passion and frustration, longing, lust, and love all in rolled up into a perfect softness. A softness that was broken as he pushed her against a wall, and pushed his tongue into her mouth. He was met with the same fervor.
They finally broke apart, as their chests heaved and ached for air. He laughed fully, and said "I'll take that as a yes."
"This doesn't mean I'm giving you another chance. If you want that you're gonna have to work for it." She broke out of his grasp and went to sit in a seat on the front row of the ocean of seats. "Convince me." She said devilishly.
He took the stage, running his fingers through his curls. Looking a bit uncomfortable.
"Oh don't tell me the great Jesse St. James is nervous." she said sarcastically. I know I put you on the spot, but you've never failed to wow me."
He grinned, and after a moment more, he raised his eyes to hers, sincerity in his eyes.
How can I just let you walk away,
just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all
Rachel could feel the magnitude of his song choice. It was perfect for their situation. She felt a lump raising in her throat. How can you just walk away from me, So take a look at me now,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me
is against all odds and that's what I've got to face
Jesse knew it was a cheesy song choice, but it was just too perfect for them to pass up. He thought maybe, just maybe, it could get her to take him back. She was all he had ever wanted. He had lied to her and caused her more pain than he could fathom, but through it all he had truly fallen for the doe-eyed girl. I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
He climbed down the stairs and grabbed her hand, pulled her up to against him. Tears forming in her eyes. So take a look at me now, Just take a look at me now
'cos there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you,
well that's all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now,
'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take, oh, oho
His song died off, and he looked at her with a questioning look. "Are you convinced?" he asked as he wiped the tears from her eyes.
"Yes." she smiled. He leaned in for a kiss but was met with her finger pressed to his lips. "But we have to be friends for now."
"Why is that?" he laughed humorlessly.
"That's the thing." she took a step back, and wrung her hands in nervousness. "I'm still with Finn."