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I OWN NOTHING XD Everything goes to the wonderful Simply Emotional and Tsugumi Ohba! I only own my words... YAY Time for angst angst and more good ol' angst

Here it comes, the darkness once again
There is the blood that follows a whim
Here comes all that I've killed
Will you add me "he"

Do dreams kill or only haunt
Have you noticed all ive wronged
Do these scars scars you now
Or do they only help your cause

Am I him or is he me
Will you go and make me sleep
Do you know the pain that causes
Why oh why can't i just die

You say stress but i say fear
Do you know he haunts me still
In the glass I see his eyes
Why can't I just take my life

Now all my sanity is gone
Totally surrounded by white walls
See the blood that coats my hand
Let me go to my damnation

You will ask and ask once more
But my answer is always poor
Was it truth or did I lie
But now I simply wait to die

Your words and eyes both lie to me
And every day the questions never cease
Today you've decided to let me go
But this is not the home I know

In this hell I shall never sleep
But today I admit who is he
I shall eat but not for him
Yet it is him who you must defeat

Today I finally fell
Yet you never told me death was hell
Are you happy now that I am dead
I see that smile on your head

Sorry's always take too long
Have I always been wrong
Maybe we could have been friends
Stay safe my perfect black angel

Food it helps both of us
How about a tennis match
Kira came out halfway through
And the darkness has come back

Has Kira finally gone away
Now my mind has gone astray
Scars they help me grow strong
Hurry run before he come back

Now I beg once again
Let me die, let me end
These white walls, they haunt my dreams
Why did you put me through such pain

I am just the criminal
And yet these tears still flow
How dare Kira remind me of you
When he embraced me then

I never trusted him, just you
Yet the burns still help me win
You told me you would leave me then
Did you relize I would be alone

Today you finally left
I took the gun and blood came running
You were the reason I continued on
Yet I could not face your wrath

Did you know I never knew
That you cried when I was screwed
Did you know the fears I faced
Wishing only to seal my fate

It was Kira who took your warmth
How could I survive without you L
All the times I had hugged you
Was the only sanity I had left

Kira did not lie that day
It was I who killed the girl
She told me words I had feared
And for that I had submitted

I was hidden beneath the glass
Untill you went and pulled that stunt
You scared me now and you scare me still
When you were about to shoot your head

I had finally admitted my love
Then my dad came stomping in
He scared me then more then ever before
And it was he who made me go under again

My hands cover in blood again
And my screams never reach
The wall he made cannot be broken
In the end he was right

My perfect mask
And wonderful doll
Cry for the enemy
Untill I consume everything

Do not believe a lie
Of love and self proclaiming
For in the end
It all comes crashing down

The pain, it hurts
And Kira passes by
Is that L by my side
Return to the prison known as life