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Disclaimer; Mild course language.

WHY?

It's been three days. Three very, very long days since she left me. I still don't understand what went wrong between us. Everything seemed fine, then suddenly she was ending things. Suddenly she was breaking my heart.
"Quinn, we need to talk," as soon as she said it I knew it was bad. Those lines are never said in a good manner. "I can't do this anymore." Those five little worlds, brought my life crashing down. Just five little words crush my dreams forever. I look into her eyes, for any signs over pain or regret. Nothing, they are hard and determined."

I lay in my bed, waiting for my alarm to go off. Today with be the first time since that night that I'll see her. I am so not prepared for that. I will never be able to deal with seeing her, when all I can think about is the last ten months of my life. BEEP, BEEP, BEEP! And there it is, the noise I so did not want to hear today. But it's gone off now, I can't change it. So I pull myself up, and stagger over to my wardrobe, I fling open the doors. I rummage through all my clothes, before grapping the edge of a t-shirt. Not thinking about it I pull it out, and look down. I can barely stop the tears that appear in my eyes as I see one of Rachel's shirts 'looking' back up at me. I storm over to the bin back by the door and shove it in. Glancing at the time, I notice if I am going to drop this stuff at Rachel's before school I need to get ready now.

I'm finally ready to go, I grab my school bag before picking up the black bin bag and heading to my car. I smile weakly when I notice that because I am running a little be late, Rachel will of already left for school so only here dads will be home. I start my car, and start the oh so familiar drive to Rachel's house. As I pull into the Berry driveway and quickly notice only Leroy's car is there. I feel slightly happy at the sight. Leroy has always liked me. I have to get this over with, so grabbing the bin bag, I exit my car and head towards the blue front door of the Berry residents. I stand looking at the door for a few moment, feeling tears gather in my eyes, before I knock. Leroy quickly opens the door and simply stares at me.

"Baby, come here," he coos after a few minutes of silence. I takes my hand and pulls me into a tight hug. Feeling such love radiating off him, I completely break down. We just stand this way for a while, before I pull myself together and pull away.

"I came by to drop off some of Rac... her things." I whisper handing him the bin bag. "I want you to know, Leroy, I did NOT break my promise, I didn't hurt her. She ended things, and I have no idea why." I say before running to my car and driving off.

I run through the school doors, with only ten minutes until first lesson. I rush towards my locker, but quickly stop when I see Finn walking towards me, with a smirk and his arm around Rachel's shoulders. Without thinking about it, I turn and run towards into the girls bathroom.

"GET OUT! OUT!" I scream at the younger cherrios, who quickly grab their things and scurry out of the room. I rush into a stall, locking the door behind me. Closing the toilet let, I curl up into a ball crying. All I can think about is the first time we said 'I love you'.

I'm laying on Rachel's bed as she sits at her desk doing History homework. "Rach," I call seductively, "Come to bed." I whisper, with a smirk seeing her shiver.
"Baby, you know I love you, but I can't I have to finish this homework." She replies, but I freeze at her admission. She however seems un-affect by her own words, and continues to flick her eyes between her text book and note book.
"You... You love me," I stumble. Getting off the bed and making my way over to her. This time she stops her moment, and looks like she mentally going over her last sentence. She whips around to look at me, and the look of love in her eyes takes my breath away. "I love you, too" I whisper, before crashing my lips against hers. That was the first time we said 'I love you'. It also became the first time we ever made love.
I can't believe she would do this to me!

I wait till after third period to go to class. I know neither Rachel or Finn will be in my classes for the rest of the day. I make my way towards Advance maths, keeping my head down so I don't see the happy couple again. Thankfully before I can see anyone I reach my classroom door.

Wow, today could not be worse. I have to see my ex, who happens to be the love of my life, for the first time since our break up. Only to discover it has only taken her three days to move on. Causing me to spend three hours alone in the girls toilets, crying. The rest of the day, went beyond slow. I spent lunch time listening to Santana bitch about some shit or another and Brittany try to make me feel better about Rachel, by talking about different types of ducks. And now, now it is glee club. An hour of watching MY Rachel, be all over Finn. Well that would be the case, if Puck hadn't approached me at Lunch with one of his rare, but brilliant ideas, for how to get them back.

I raise my hand and looking directly at Mr. Shue, who looks back at me with sympathetic eyes. "Mr. Shue, could I please sing something?" I ask, smiling weakly. He quickly nods not even daring to fight me on it today. I move to stand at the front of the room, looking around to all of my classmates. I smile at Puck, who is ready with his guitar. Before fighting back tears seeing Rach and Finn sat together laughing. I turn my head away from the sight as the cords start to play. As I get ready to sing, I think back on all the good times we had together, and remember how it is gone now. How, somehow Finn has caused all this pain, and when I can prove it, he won't know what's him. Then I take a deep breath and start to sing, singing with all the love and passion I can.

Suddenly she's
Leaving
Suddenly the
Promise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Everyone knew about Rachel and I, not everyone accepted it, but they all knew. I never imagined I'd be stood singing about the pain she has put me through, about all the tears I have cried over her. All the sleepless nights and nightmares I've had.

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh girl
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of him

When she said it was over, I didn't think I could feel more pain. And then, I saw them together. We were together for over ten months and she only waited three days, three fucking days, before moving on from me and getting together with Frankenteen. She could of moved on with anyone. Why did it have to be him? WHY!

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Brittany has moved to stand next to me, she isn't singing, just simply holding my hand. I turn my head towards her and smile ever so lightly. She may seem stupid to everyone else, but she isn't. She is smart, she may not be book smart but she does notice things other people don't.

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

As I sing the last word, I feel a single tear fall down my cheek. I knew straight away after one tear had fallen, it would be like opening the flood gates. I move my free hand up to wipe away the tear. I look up to see everyone looking back at me, a few of them have tears in their eyes also. I glance over Rachel, to see her looking down at the floor, finding her shoes very interesting. I shake my head before looking away again.

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue

(love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Yep, I was right. I feel like I might drown in my own tears. I can't help but think about all the times, she said 'I love you' or told me she'd never leave me. Still I played the last week or so over and over in my head, trying to work out what the hell I did!

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you
Suddenly

I look straight into Rachel's eyes as I get ready to sing the last verse. Finally I see the things I wanted to see on Friday. I can see the love in her eyes. And the regret of what has happened between. But does she regret our break up or our relationship all together is unclear. But the regret is here and for now that is enough.

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue

(love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do.

As I finish the end of the song, I can barely see through the tears. I glance over at her one last time before running out of the room, towards the bathroom. I slam the stall door shut, locking myself away from everything else. I sit on the toilet lid with my knees drawn up under my chin, sobbing onto my jeans.

"Quinn?" I hear Rach's voice call, "Quinn, baby. I know you're in there. Please come out," She whispers in a voice that sounds broken. Unable to resist her voice like that, I open the door to see Rachel stood there with red puffy eyes that makes my heart break all over again. "Quinn, I'm sorry. Please don't hate me!" She pleads, looking everywhere but me.

"Rach, it's fine. You want Finn that's fine. It's my fault really I shouldn't of ended things... Oh no wait that was you." I say, with anger dripping from my voice, trying to ignore the hurt that flashes across her face.

"Quinn, baby, it wasn't like..." Rach starts to explain, yet again.

"DON'T call me that!" I shout pissed off now. "I don't care what it was like, but it happened. You ended it. That's it!" I rage, before storming out, leaving Rachel alone in the bathroom. I can't stop myself from crying, as I run through the halls towards my car. Ignoring the calls from behind me.

Song; Why do I love you by Westlife.

Should I continue.?