AN: So this is my VERY FIRST FF story so PLEASE be gentle! It is a Finchel Romance/Drama story. I would love to hear your feed back so please leave a review! ENJOY! :)

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN GLEE!

How did it come to this? How can something so real and great turn in to something so terrible? My whole entire life I've known what I wanted. To be a star, to be some little girl's Idol. And in high school… I found someone I needed. My soul mate, and no matter where I was or what happened I knew I loved him, more than anything, even my career. So why couldn't I have both? The life I've always wanted with the man of my dreams? I was willing to sacrifice my entire future for my heart. I was going to give up all of my dreams to be with him. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd give anything to just hear their voice? Look into their eyes? Hold them in your arms? Kiss them just one last time? I have. And deep down I know I still do. So why couldn't I bring my self to say those three words? The words that would fix this whole mess. The words I've only said to one man. The one man standing in front of me with tears streaming down his cheeks? The man with so much pain in his eyes my heart was breaking every time I looked into them. But I couldn't. All I could do was walk away.

1 year earlier.

Looking around my room, the memories flashed in my mind. The first time Finn had come over. The time when Kurt gave me that makeover. The first time Finn and I had made out. The huge mistake with Puck. The girls nights with Kurt, Mercedes, and my self. When I wrote "Get It Right" crying on my bed, I was so torn up my dads thought I was going to hurt myself ( Which I would never). All those summer cuddle sessions Finn and I had after our dates. And now it's just me. Alone. In my room with tons of boxes surrounding me. Where had all the time gone? Summer flew by and before I knew it, it was graduation. And now, now I'm leaving for college in two days. I was so excited to be going to my dream school. Julliard. But I couldn't stand the thought of leaving. Leaving Finn. I sat down on the edge of my bed and put my head in my hands. I couldn't help but cry. Choosing between love and my future was the hardest most painful thing I have ever had to do. What got me through and will get me through being hundreds of miles away from him was hope. He plans on going to community college for a year then he is going to transfer to NYU a school that was about ten minutes from Julliard. He has already been looking into apartments in New York. I loved that he wanted to be with me. I loved that he would do anything to be with me, that he would do anything for me. At times I feel terrible that he has to leave his life here just for me. Leaving his Mom, his friends, his everything just for me. How selfish. And what was I giving up? Nothing.

I hear a knock on the door that yanks me out of my thoughts. "Rachel?"

"Come in." I say with sadness in my voice.

Finn walks in slowly closing the door behind him. "Hey, how's the packing coming along?"

I could tell he was not at all excited about my leaving. I mean I could he be? I am devastated and I'm the one going away to live my dreams. I sigh and tuck my hair behind my ear. "It's going. Everything is pretty much in boxes"

"I can tell. Your room looks so…" I look over at him as he thinks of a word that describes the sad vibe my room has. "Plain."

I giggle at his amazingly descriptive word choice. "Plain?"

He looks at me confused. "What? Your room looks plain."

"Finn it looks the exact same minus the boxes." I smile as he looks around noticing that everything is the same. Every show poster, every picture frame, everything. "Oh… right." He smirks in embarrassment.

I smile at him and walk over to my bedside table and pick up a perfectly wrapped present. It was red with white ribbon. "I uh… I got you something.." I walk closer to him holding the gift in my hands.

He looks down at the gift and then back at me. "What's this?" I look up to him smiling.

"Just open it." I hand the present over to him. "You really shouldn't have gotten me anything." He says while putting his hands in his pockets.

"Finn it's really nothing! Please just take it." I push the gift closer to him.

"Rachel.." Not letting him finish. "JUST TAKE IT!" I yell with the smile I know he can't resist.

"Okay, okay! I'll take it!" He takes the gift from my hands and shakes it as if he was going to guess what it is. "hmm… a movie?"

I laugh " Finn just open it!" He chuckles and starts opening the perfectly wrapped present. He throws the wrappings on her bed and opens the folder and sees a picture of them from their graduation day. He looks up at Rachel and flashes his perfectly crooked smile. He turns the page to see a picture of them from their Sophomore year at Sectionals. While he continues to look through the photo album I cant help but smile.

"Rachel this is amazing!" He moves his hand to wipe his eyes before his tears fell. "So whenever you miss me and we can't skype, you can look at this and remember the times we had together." He puts the album down on her bed and pull her in for a soft but passionate kiss. I reach my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me deepening the kiss.

He pulls away and looks into my eyes. "Not so fast Rach. It's my turn now." He turns to open the door.

"What are you doing?" I say as I look towards him confused. He returns into my room with a less than perfectly wrapped present in his hands. "Finn! What is this!"

"No complaining! If I have to accept a gift, so do you!" He says handing me the gift. I look at him and shake my head with a widening smile on my face. I rip open the paper anxious to see what it was because I had no clue what it could be. It looked like a lumpy blob in the wrapping paper.

I ripped open the last layer of paper to see what I never expected. I looked up at him with him smiling back at me. "Finn! I can't take this!" He laughed and pick the gift up " Yes you can. I want you to have it!"

I smile so wide. I never thought I could even smile like I did. He held it up for me. I put my arms through the arm holes and shrugged it on. I looked up at him " I can't believe you are giving me your lettermen's jacket!"

He laughs and turns around grabbing something else. "And that's not all" He hands me another gift.

"Finn Hudson! You really shouldn't have!" I take the gift not complaining because I know he will make me open it anyways. I rip the paper off to see a number five. I smiled and got on my tip toes to give him a quick kiss on his lips. "Your jersey too? Your really shouldn't have!"

He put his arms around my waist bringing me closer to him. "Now when you miss me and we cant skype, you can wear my jersey to bed and dream of me!"

How did I ever get to have a guy like this? A guy who I would literally do anything for. I looked into his eyes and he smiled down at me. I couldn't help but shed a tear. I was going to miss this. Being wrapped in his arms. Being so close to him. He brought his hand to my face and wiped my tear.

"I love you so much Rachel!" he whispered as he caressed my cheek.

"I love you too Finn!" I say to him with my shaky voice. He grabs my face and brings it to his smashing his lips onto mine. I put one hand on his neck and one on his cheek pulling him closer. He moves his hands to my hips pulling me even closer to him. He sits on my bed laying back pulling me on top of him. Never pulling away from the kiss. I swing my leg over his waist straddling him. He pulls away smiling wildly as I shrug off his letterman's jacket. (It didn't take much seeing how small I was in his jacket.) He tangled his fingers into my hair pulling me back into the kiss. I move my hands down to find the hem of his shirt and start yanking it up towards his chest. He leans up so I can pull it all they way off his body. I lift my arms up so he can pull of my reindeer sweater. He sat up kissing my collarbone as I let out a quite moan.

I pulled away quickly. "Wait! Why did you give me your letterman's jacket?" We were both breathing heavily at this point.

"What … do you … mean? " He had a confused and frustrated look on his face.

"I mean… the jersey… jammies. But … the jacket? I can't really… wear it in public…its kind of big on me." I look down at him and he smiles as his breathing slows to a normal persons.

"Because I know how much you loved when I left it here and you'd bring it to school for me the next day." I smiled "and now… I left it with you so you'll just have to bring it back to me." He smiled and caressed my thigh.

"You truly are the most amazing person I have ever met! And your all mine!" I smiled and started placing sweet soft kisses on his neck.

"Rachel?" While I was still kissing his neck I mumbled a "Huh?" he pulled back and I looked at him curious to why he pulled back. He love my kisses that I placed along his collar bone and under his chin.

"Are you scared?" He asked me in a serious tone. I looked deep into his eyes wondering what's going through his head. "Yes." I am scared. Of leaving, change, being on my own, but most of all being away from Finn.

He sits up a little more and grabs my hands in his. "I want you to know I'm going to do whatever I can to be with you next year!" He is looking in my eyes and I cant help but smile.

"Even if that means quitting school and getting a job out in New York." What? Did he really just say that? There is no way I'm letting quit school for me! Over my dead body!

"Finn you are not quitting school for me! I would never forgive myself!" I looked down. I couldn't bare to see the look in his eyes. "I wouldn't be quitting for you… I'd quit for us."

"I don't want you to give up your dreams and your future to be with me." He put his hand under my chin pushing my head up to look at him in the eyes. "Rachel, you are my dream, you are my future."

This is the moment. The moment I've been waiting for since I saw Finn. We love each other so much its unreal. We are tethered for life, through music, through love, through passion. And now I want to be with him in everyway possible. I know I said '25 years old' but I wanted him. All of him. Now. "Finn."

His hand tickled down my leg. "Yes." I looked down only for a moment then back into his gorgeous eyes. "I'm ready."

He had a kind of confused look on his face. "Ready for what?" I wrap my arm around his neck bringing me closer to him. Close enough to feel his breath on my lips.

"I want you… All of you." Then it clicked in his head. I kissed him softly on the corner of his mouth.

"Are you sure?" I pulled back just a little so I could study his face. He face was full of concern, happiness, and passion, all at the same time.

I smile slightly nodding a little bit. "I've never been more sure of anything in my entire life." I placed my hand on his cheek. "I want to be with you in everyway possible. You are my everything." A smile snuck on his face and before I knew it his lips were on mine.

Thank god my dads were working late shifts today so they can help me move. I pushed him down on my bed as I begin unclasping my bra. I was extremely nervous. This was the first time Finn will see me topless, the first time anyone will see me topless.

Before I could let my bra fall from my bare chest it happened. "Rachel?" I hear a knock at my door and I flew off Finns lap and I was on the floor.

Kurt. Of coarse I forgot he was coming over to help me chose my wardrobe. I put my head in my hands as I hear the door swing open.

"FINN!" He gasps and covers his eyes. "Why are you shirtless!" Finn didn't know what to say, he just laid there silent. "Oh crap am I interrupting something?" I'm looking everywhere for my sweater while I'm still hiding behind the bed. "Rachel?" Kurt's voice was stern. And I was busted. I stand up with my bra, my plaid skirt, stockings, and flats. How embarrassing, my best friend just caught me and his brother in the act.

"Well, well, well. A little farewell gift for my brother eh Rach?" Kurt starts cracking up.

I slap him on the arm playfully. "Can we please forget that happened? Plus we hadn't done anything besides make out."

I see Kurt smile trying to hold back his words. "Yet!" Obviously that didn't work. I rolled my eyes and giggled a little myself.

No matter how annoyed I was with Kurt interrupting Finn and I. I couldn't help but love him anyways. That's a good thing to have because living with him in New York I was bound to be annoyed with him more than once.

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