A/N: I'm so sorry for not updating in forever. OTL
But, I'm updating now and that's all that matters! Right?...No? Okay.
I added on more but this is still so short and it kills me.
Hope you guys enjoy

I got up and made my way out of my room. As I stepped into the hallway I saw Near standing at his door, and maybe I imagined it but I could have sworn I saw a look of guilt pass through his features. I stood in the hallway as Roger shut the door but was obviously going through my things checking to see is I had anything else. I walked over to Near.

"Near," I whispered when we were less than a foot apart "I'm not going to rat you out, so don't you dare fucking come clean about your dirty little secret, got it?" All he did was nod, I heard Roger walking to the door my room so I quickly went back to my original spot down the hall. While Roger led me down to his office all I could think about was why I was doing this for Near. I tried to convince myself that I just didn't want him to kill himself because I wouldn't be able to handle the guilt, even though I knew that wasn't the whole truth.

Roger sighed as he sat down in the large brownish-reddish chair behind his huge oak desk while I stood in front of it. I knew he was going to punish me, which is why I wasn't surprised when he took away my chocolate for a month, and decided that I should be put under constant surveillance- "Suicide watch" I think he called it, starting tomorrow. Not only that but I would also begin seeing a therapist as soon as one was found.

Great... now I have to be careful about what I do and say to Near. This will be a pain in the ass later, I just know it. After a long and drawn out lecture from Roger about how self harm was bad, I was finally allowed to go back to my room. But I didn't,of course. I went straight into Nears room, not even bothering to knock first.

"We have a problem." I said, locking eyes with the small,pale boy who was just sitting up in bed. I waited for him to say something, but he didn't. He just kept looking at me with that stupid,sleepy expression which faded soon replaced by that damned emotionless mask. I mean really,I've already seen him without it, so what's the point of continually trying to hide his emotions from me? After all I am trying to help him. Did he really not seen this coming? I seriously wonder sometimes how he's number one and I'm not...that even hurts to think, but if I'm going to help him, I've got to get over it.

I looked over to Near as he slowly moved out of his bed, and over to the window. I walked towards him, not trusting him not to jump considering we were fairly high up and I mean, with all that's happened tonight. "Mello," he said when I was maybe a foot and a half away "...thank you." I could see him watching me, or well my reflection in the glass.

What the hell am I supposed to say to that? I mean, as far as I know he's never said that to anyone before. Unsure of what to do or say I settled for a weak, "Your welcome...I guess." Before excusing myself from this... awkward moment, leaving the room and going to my own for some much needed sleep.

I woke up with a pounding headache, no doubt the result of all of the stress added from last night that has been weighing on me, along with the pressures of keeping my rank as number two while trying to claw my way up to number one, while trying to help the very person I was trying so hard to surpass stay alive and trying to think of how I was going to do just that. My life is pretty complicated, you could say.

And then there was that loud irritating breathing right in my ear...

...Wait...breathing..? What the fuck...?

I sat up quickly, looking on my bed for the source of this unwelcome breathing. My eyes fell on none other then Matt. "What the hell are you doing in here?" I said, glaring at him.

"Eh...Well you see Melly, I-" "Don't ever call me that again, Matt." I interrupted him, not missing the hurt look in his eyes. Not like I cared though. He's annoying, and just because I don't treat him like I do Near, everyone assumes we're friends. The guy is the dumbest person I've ever met, how he was ranked number three was beyond me "Why are you even in here?" I look over to the red-head, who was grinning like the idiot he is. "Can't I just visit a friend?"

I raised an eyebrow at this. "Oh? I wasn't aware you had any, but I can assure you they aren't in here. Now tell me why you're really here." He just smiled at me, probably thinking I was joking when I said we weren't friends. "Well, Roger told me what happened last night and said I would be the one monitoring you and that we'll be rommies soon, isn't that great?" he asked gleefully. ...Why, why me? He didn't notice the glare I was giving him as he continued."So, why were you doing it Mello?"