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Disclaimer: See Chapter one
"I should have told him before", Sakura whispered into the night, the sadness in her eyes reflected by the shining full moon,"He'll never understand now. Not after what i've put him through tonight. He's going to hate me forever....i'll be surprised if he speaks to me again." She clawed her hands through her hair wildly, clasping the brown straws violently. Guilt racked her mind.
Guilt over what she had done to Li.
How could she have used Li like that? He wasn't a paper doll, he was susceptable to sadness, and she had just caused enough of that to last the poor boy a lifetime. "It was just a kiss....", she sobbed, her knees shaking,"How could a simple kiss have changed everything?" Maybe i should have ignored it, she though, struggling to wipe away the tears that had gathered on her brow, If i'd done that, we wouldn't be in this mess.
But in her heart, Sakura knew that she would never have been able to live with herself if she hadn't broken things off with Li.
Why did it have to be so horrible?, she asked herself, shaking her head, I think i could have handled it...if only he hadn't asked me to marry him. My god, i feel so awful...what have i done? What did Li ever do to deserve this? I'm rotten to the core. I'm such a horrible person...i'll definately be going to hell after this.
To fall in love with a fellow cardcaptor and tempt fate was one thing, and but to kiss and want to be with a judge of the magic was something completely different, and Sakura was caught in the middle.
After running for what seemd like an eternity, Sakura finally spotted a bench in the midst of the park. Desperate for a rest, she sank onto the flat seat, taking solice in the wood. She looked around, wanting a clearer idea of where she was. Impatiently, she brushed the gathering leaves and twigs from her bangs, and to her horror, she discovered that she was sitting on the bench that she and Li had shared lunch on so many times. One time, the two had been so eager to declare their love that they had carved their initials into the back panel with a fountain pen top. Usually when she remebered that, Sakura was hit by a pang of guilt, inflicted by her conscience. It hurt to know that she had defaced a little of the environment in the world that she lived in. But tonight. Tonight all the mark brought forth was sorrow, and the feeling of despair. I'm a coward..., she realised as she stared at the intertwined initials, I've run away from my problems, instead of dealing with them face on...i'm no card master....i'm not even a proper human being.
"Of course you are, you were just unsure of what to do in the moment."
Sakura whirled round in fear, startled at the voice that had spoken to her. She'd had no idea that anyone had been there. "Yue?!", she exclaimed, watching the man pull his wings in to reveal a slightly more normal shape,"Have you been following me?"
Yue sighed, and hung his head, his silver bangs hanging limply at the side of his pale face. He shivered a little as he gazed into the penetrating eyes of his master. Not from cold - he didn't feel things like that. No, it was more of an ashamed shiver, as if he did not want to admit to the young girl that he had followed her. Eventually though, he gave a tiny nod, and conceded defeat. "Yes."
As Yue nodded, thousands of questions ran through Sakura's mind. Why had he followed her? How had he managed to read her thoughts? Why was he defending her obvious mistakes against Li? But all she could manage to blurt out was "oh." She felt so stupid - she had never been lost for words before, but now, with so many things hanging in the balance, all she could do was open and shut her mouth like a goldfish.
"Here". Yue held out a flower in his slim fingers, and petals lay strangly flat in his comanding hands.
Sakura reached out and gripped at the weak leaves gently. "Where did you....", she started, but then her voice trailed off into nothingness as Yue pointed upward, to the tree braches. There, above her head, were thousands and thousands of cherry blossoms, each one holding a different path, a different wish, a different direction. As she studied the flower, a tiny tear came to her eyes, and she tried, without sucess, to brush it away. "Oh mother", she whispered as she curled up into a ball on the bench, with Yue looking on,"What would you do in a situation like this?"
"What's wrong with you Kero?", Madison asked her friend as she finished plaiting her hair. It had taken her all night to do, since her hair now reached almost to the floor. She tied the bright blue ribbons, and turned to the bear, waiting for an answer. He seemed strangely quiet - and that worried Madison, for it wasn't unknown for Kero to talk for three days straight without shutting up.
"I'm worried about Yue", he replied, his eyes locked on the open window.
"Why?", Madison asked, flipping to the start page in one of her magazines. It was one of those typical teenage magazines - all boys, and not much else.
Kero took a deep breath, and sighed. He'd been spending an awful lot of time at Madison's mansion since Sakura had started dating Li - maybe too much time. He was starting to drift away from his new master, and his closest non-beast friend. Recently though, even those weak bonds were starting to fade, and he wanted to know why. Part of him suspected it had to do with what Yue had told him earlier, but he couldn't be sure. He had to find out...or he might lose the biggest part of his soul. "I'm sorry Madison", he said, raising his wings, and fluttering to the window pain,"I can't tell you that right now, but do me a favour, will you?"
Madison put down the magazine, her face full of anxiety. When she was younger, she hadn't really minded not having the magical powers that Sakura, Li, Keroberous, and Yue shared, but now, now life was becoming more complicated, and everyday she found herself wishing for some sort of magic. "Anything for you Kero", she said, nodding her hair, causing her plaits to jingle.
"Look out for Sakura", he called, soaring into the night,"I have a feeling that she's going to need you more than ever soon."
"What is he talking about", Madison wondered aloud, her eyes clouding over in worry. When something happened to Sakura, it was never good.
"You alright kid?", the waiter asked gently, his earlier nasal expression replaced by one of sincerity.
"Just god damn peachy!", Li replied, getting up from the table, and throwing some bills into the bread bin."Here's your bloody money - you might as well take the lot of it, seeing as we didn't order anything!" He shoved the chair back into place, and took off down the street. The clear night air was like an omen for Li - the promenade was packed with couples, out for a romantic stroll with the promise of breakfast in bed afterwards. "That's what it should have been for me", he spat to the ground bitterly as he wound his way through a french kissing gay couple,"Why the hell did she say no?" He searched the area around the cafe until he found a secluded corner in a nearby alleyway. Not exactly great for thinking, he thought, but at least people won't bug me. If they ask, i'll just say i'm waiting for a client. He slumped down onto the freezing ground, face held tightly in his hands. Why? Was all he could think about. Was it his face? His hair? His personality? Maybe he had been to possesive of Sakura, after all, he did despise it when she spoke to another man - particulary that idiot Zachary - what did she see in Chelsea's dumb cousin anyway? He had about as much talent and common sense as a peanut, in fact, the peanut probably had more. He struggled to stop a scowl from emerging on his face. Then, he had a sudden thought...what if he had put her off....what if he hadn't been good enough for her on their first time?
***********************Flashback******************************************** ********
"How are you Sakura?", Li asked running his hand down his girlfriend's cheek. She was hot..almost too hot to touch. But that was what made Li so fond of her. She was beautiful, and mindful, and he liked a girl who had her own opinions. Unlike Meilin, Sakura was perfectly able to stand up for herself.
"Fine Li", she said hoarsely, realishing his touch as his fingers traced down her cheek to her collarbone. She breathed sharpely as she felt his warm lips brush against the nape of her neck, warming her feverish skin to a maximum.
"Ready?", he cupped his hands around her breasts, stroking them with deadly gentleness. He wanted this more than anything in the world, but if Sakura wasn't ready....
"Don't hold back anymore Li", she replied, panting as the fingers moved lower down her slender frame, "Please...i want you to take me."
"If you're sure.....", Li trailed off as he moved his body on top of his partners. This was the ultimate act of love - one he would cherish and remember for the rest of his life. He was glad that he was with Sakura, she made him feel so special, as if he belonged in the world.
Slowly and subtely, he began to thrust, coaxing gentle moans from the girl as she sucombed to his pressure. He began to delve deeper, pushing harder with every movement.
Watching the girl beneath him writh with pleasure made Li feel strangely giddy, as if he were about to explode with happiness. He was on top off the world, and continued to grind against the soft, suculent flesh. This lasted for several minutes, and when they finally broke away, panting for breath, their separation lasted only seconds before they were back, sucking on each others lips.
************************End Flashback***********************************************
"Maybe that was it....", Li acknowledged,"Maybe i was too demanding, or something like that. There has to be a reason, there just has to be....how could she leave me in the lurch like this?"
"Alright buddy", a voice interrupted his thoughts,"Tell me what's going on."
"Keroberous!", Li exclaimed, almost fainting at the sight of the winged beast in front of him.
Well, that was chapter four, hope ya liked it! Sorry if it was a tad short, i've been away lots! I'm really starting to get back into this story, and expanding the plot, so i hope it's not confusing you guys! Thanks for reading, you're all stars!
Disclaimer: See Chapter one
"I should have told him before", Sakura whispered into the night, the sadness in her eyes reflected by the shining full moon,"He'll never understand now. Not after what i've put him through tonight. He's going to hate me forever....i'll be surprised if he speaks to me again." She clawed her hands through her hair wildly, clasping the brown straws violently. Guilt racked her mind.
Guilt over what she had done to Li.
How could she have used Li like that? He wasn't a paper doll, he was susceptable to sadness, and she had just caused enough of that to last the poor boy a lifetime. "It was just a kiss....", she sobbed, her knees shaking,"How could a simple kiss have changed everything?" Maybe i should have ignored it, she though, struggling to wipe away the tears that had gathered on her brow, If i'd done that, we wouldn't be in this mess.
But in her heart, Sakura knew that she would never have been able to live with herself if she hadn't broken things off with Li.
Why did it have to be so horrible?, she asked herself, shaking her head, I think i could have handled it...if only he hadn't asked me to marry him. My god, i feel so awful...what have i done? What did Li ever do to deserve this? I'm rotten to the core. I'm such a horrible person...i'll definately be going to hell after this.
To fall in love with a fellow cardcaptor and tempt fate was one thing, and but to kiss and want to be with a judge of the magic was something completely different, and Sakura was caught in the middle.
After running for what seemd like an eternity, Sakura finally spotted a bench in the midst of the park. Desperate for a rest, she sank onto the flat seat, taking solice in the wood. She looked around, wanting a clearer idea of where she was. Impatiently, she brushed the gathering leaves and twigs from her bangs, and to her horror, she discovered that she was sitting on the bench that she and Li had shared lunch on so many times. One time, the two had been so eager to declare their love that they had carved their initials into the back panel with a fountain pen top. Usually when she remebered that, Sakura was hit by a pang of guilt, inflicted by her conscience. It hurt to know that she had defaced a little of the environment in the world that she lived in. But tonight. Tonight all the mark brought forth was sorrow, and the feeling of despair. I'm a coward..., she realised as she stared at the intertwined initials, I've run away from my problems, instead of dealing with them face on...i'm no card master....i'm not even a proper human being.
"Of course you are, you were just unsure of what to do in the moment."
Sakura whirled round in fear, startled at the voice that had spoken to her. She'd had no idea that anyone had been there. "Yue?!", she exclaimed, watching the man pull his wings in to reveal a slightly more normal shape,"Have you been following me?"
Yue sighed, and hung his head, his silver bangs hanging limply at the side of his pale face. He shivered a little as he gazed into the penetrating eyes of his master. Not from cold - he didn't feel things like that. No, it was more of an ashamed shiver, as if he did not want to admit to the young girl that he had followed her. Eventually though, he gave a tiny nod, and conceded defeat. "Yes."
As Yue nodded, thousands of questions ran through Sakura's mind. Why had he followed her? How had he managed to read her thoughts? Why was he defending her obvious mistakes against Li? But all she could manage to blurt out was "oh." She felt so stupid - she had never been lost for words before, but now, with so many things hanging in the balance, all she could do was open and shut her mouth like a goldfish.
"Here". Yue held out a flower in his slim fingers, and petals lay strangly flat in his comanding hands.
Sakura reached out and gripped at the weak leaves gently. "Where did you....", she started, but then her voice trailed off into nothingness as Yue pointed upward, to the tree braches. There, above her head, were thousands and thousands of cherry blossoms, each one holding a different path, a different wish, a different direction. As she studied the flower, a tiny tear came to her eyes, and she tried, without sucess, to brush it away. "Oh mother", she whispered as she curled up into a ball on the bench, with Yue looking on,"What would you do in a situation like this?"
"What's wrong with you Kero?", Madison asked her friend as she finished plaiting her hair. It had taken her all night to do, since her hair now reached almost to the floor. She tied the bright blue ribbons, and turned to the bear, waiting for an answer. He seemed strangely quiet - and that worried Madison, for it wasn't unknown for Kero to talk for three days straight without shutting up.
"I'm worried about Yue", he replied, his eyes locked on the open window.
"Why?", Madison asked, flipping to the start page in one of her magazines. It was one of those typical teenage magazines - all boys, and not much else.
Kero took a deep breath, and sighed. He'd been spending an awful lot of time at Madison's mansion since Sakura had started dating Li - maybe too much time. He was starting to drift away from his new master, and his closest non-beast friend. Recently though, even those weak bonds were starting to fade, and he wanted to know why. Part of him suspected it had to do with what Yue had told him earlier, but he couldn't be sure. He had to find out...or he might lose the biggest part of his soul. "I'm sorry Madison", he said, raising his wings, and fluttering to the window pain,"I can't tell you that right now, but do me a favour, will you?"
Madison put down the magazine, her face full of anxiety. When she was younger, she hadn't really minded not having the magical powers that Sakura, Li, Keroberous, and Yue shared, but now, now life was becoming more complicated, and everyday she found herself wishing for some sort of magic. "Anything for you Kero", she said, nodding her hair, causing her plaits to jingle.
"Look out for Sakura", he called, soaring into the night,"I have a feeling that she's going to need you more than ever soon."
"What is he talking about", Madison wondered aloud, her eyes clouding over in worry. When something happened to Sakura, it was never good.
"You alright kid?", the waiter asked gently, his earlier nasal expression replaced by one of sincerity.
"Just god damn peachy!", Li replied, getting up from the table, and throwing some bills into the bread bin."Here's your bloody money - you might as well take the lot of it, seeing as we didn't order anything!" He shoved the chair back into place, and took off down the street. The clear night air was like an omen for Li - the promenade was packed with couples, out for a romantic stroll with the promise of breakfast in bed afterwards. "That's what it should have been for me", he spat to the ground bitterly as he wound his way through a french kissing gay couple,"Why the hell did she say no?" He searched the area around the cafe until he found a secluded corner in a nearby alleyway. Not exactly great for thinking, he thought, but at least people won't bug me. If they ask, i'll just say i'm waiting for a client. He slumped down onto the freezing ground, face held tightly in his hands. Why? Was all he could think about. Was it his face? His hair? His personality? Maybe he had been to possesive of Sakura, after all, he did despise it when she spoke to another man - particulary that idiot Zachary - what did she see in Chelsea's dumb cousin anyway? He had about as much talent and common sense as a peanut, in fact, the peanut probably had more. He struggled to stop a scowl from emerging on his face. Then, he had a sudden thought...what if he had put her off....what if he hadn't been good enough for her on their first time?
***********************Flashback******************************************** ********
"How are you Sakura?", Li asked running his hand down his girlfriend's cheek. She was hot..almost too hot to touch. But that was what made Li so fond of her. She was beautiful, and mindful, and he liked a girl who had her own opinions. Unlike Meilin, Sakura was perfectly able to stand up for herself.
"Fine Li", she said hoarsely, realishing his touch as his fingers traced down her cheek to her collarbone. She breathed sharpely as she felt his warm lips brush against the nape of her neck, warming her feverish skin to a maximum.
"Ready?", he cupped his hands around her breasts, stroking them with deadly gentleness. He wanted this more than anything in the world, but if Sakura wasn't ready....
"Don't hold back anymore Li", she replied, panting as the fingers moved lower down her slender frame, "Please...i want you to take me."
"If you're sure.....", Li trailed off as he moved his body on top of his partners. This was the ultimate act of love - one he would cherish and remember for the rest of his life. He was glad that he was with Sakura, she made him feel so special, as if he belonged in the world.
Slowly and subtely, he began to thrust, coaxing gentle moans from the girl as she sucombed to his pressure. He began to delve deeper, pushing harder with every movement.
Watching the girl beneath him writh with pleasure made Li feel strangely giddy, as if he were about to explode with happiness. He was on top off the world, and continued to grind against the soft, suculent flesh. This lasted for several minutes, and when they finally broke away, panting for breath, their separation lasted only seconds before they were back, sucking on each others lips.
************************End Flashback***********************************************
"Maybe that was it....", Li acknowledged,"Maybe i was too demanding, or something like that. There has to be a reason, there just has to be....how could she leave me in the lurch like this?"
"Alright buddy", a voice interrupted his thoughts,"Tell me what's going on."
"Keroberous!", Li exclaimed, almost fainting at the sight of the winged beast in front of him.
Well, that was chapter four, hope ya liked it! Sorry if it was a tad short, i've been away lots! I'm really starting to get back into this story, and expanding the plot, so i hope it's not confusing you guys! Thanks for reading, you're all stars!