A/N This is set just at the beginning of New Moon when Bella is dreaming (however I have changed the dream) This is a story of self discovery and the difficulty of Bella escaping her absuive relationship. There will be hard scenes in this story and I will trigger warning them, but if hurt and comfort stories aren't your thing or you are deeply troubled by abusive descriptions then this story will probably be uncomfortable for you, I don't want anyone to mentally be hurt because of this. Lots of love. Also feel free to message me if you need any part of the story resonates within you and you want to talk, I am here. :)

I had the idea of this story when I was 14 and I am now 18 and rewriting it slightly, improving the quality and story line etc. Etc. We grow as do our skill. I don't want to change it too much though, I did write this at a young age and I want to hold onto some of the young writing. Constructive criticism is always welcome, but do keep in mind I'm sensitive so please don't be too harsh when criticising, hehe. Thank you! I hope you enjoy the journey.

-this is kind of dedicated to my younger self and any other person who has experienced abuse. The journey of discovering you are a victim and standing up is an extremely difficult one. In my personal experience having those around me support me but not force or pressure me has been most helpful-

I woke up snuggled in Edward's arms, my head resting lightly on his chest. I didn't want to move from my position, I was too comfortable so I shut my eyes hoping to go back to sleep, "Edward" I whispered keeping my head on his chest.

"Gave up on trying to go back to sleep?" he looked down at me smirking.

"Yeah" I looked up toward him with a light laugh. I sat up slightly, opening my eyes properly. I leaned my head against his shoulder, and he kissed my forehead.

But all of a sudden

My head bounced off the pillow, I got up and looked around, but I couldn't see him, "Edward?" I asked climbing out of my bed "Edward?" I said as I started to hesitate, why would he just disappear? Am I in a dream? I suddenly zoned out.

"Edward!?" I screamed breathlessly, my heart beating so loudly I could hear it clearly echoung in my ears. Just a dream, calm down, a nightmare, I squeezed my eyes together, trying to calm my breaths down. I opened my eyes trying to wake myself toreality and brought my legs up and held them tight in my arms as my breath started to become more steady. I climbed out of bed to get a drink of water; In the middle of the staircase I saw Charlie fast asleep on the couch, which surprised me.

He was usually away, on a night shift looking for the bears. I got to the sink and got a cup, turned on the tap and watched the water flow into my cup. 'Where is Edward? He was here last night, maybe he just went hunting or home, he might have missed home or something, what's the time come to think of that.' were a few of the questions running through my mind. I sighed at my thoughts and saw my cup over filling. I emptied the top and started drinking.

I walked back up the stairs and into my bedroom, expecting Edward there... but I didn't see him, the smile on my face started to fade away. "Edward?" I leaned out of my open window into the darkness. Waiting...and waiting... I sighed and sat on bed looking at the time; it was later than I had I expected but still too early, it was a weekend too, so it was definitely too early. I grabbed a random book off my bookshelf and tried to keep myself occupied until I finally drifted back into sleep.

A/N I know not a big chapter, but I wanted to have, like, a little introduction sort of thing before I went into the drama and Bella +Edward+ Jasper and the story, so I hope u liked it :D Please review. I'm planning on continuing this, with all these idea's in my head so I hope it's going to be good when I get it down on words xD thank you for your time

~ Armineh xx