Chapter 7

James' POV

"You took him back?" Kendall yelled in my face. I turned my attention back to the mirror and finished drying my hair. "Seriously, James? He treats you like shit."

I rolled my eyes at him. I knew that he wouldn't be happy about me taking Roman back so quickly. But I didn't expect him to react this badly. I sighed and continued getting ready for my date. "I care about him. He said he was sorry, I just want to be with Roman." I said growing tired of this already. "Listen, if you can't accept this then I guess there really is no reason for you to talk to me."

I watched as his expression became confusion then turned to anger. "You know what James...fine. When he breaks you heart again don't expect me to be there to put the pieces back together."

He walked away from me and I desperately wanted to reach out and stop him, but I didn't. I let him walk away and I couldn't help but feel a little upset. Kendall was suppose to be my best friend. He should have been happy for me, not yelling at me for dating someone who I cared about a lot. I sighed and walked up to my room and grabbed a shirt to put on and then went down to the kitchen to get a drink before I left.

When I got down there I saw Carlos run in panting. "You okay, dude?" I asked curiously. I could tell just by the look on his face that he was happy about something, I was just curious of what.

"Jennifer and Mason broke up. I was sitting next to their table, she said she didn't think she could be with him anymore." Carlos said with a bright smile.

But for me, that was bad. It meant that my date was more than likely cancelled. I gave Carlos a gentle smile and then walked out to the the hallway and made my way to Roman's apartment. I knocked and when he answered he gave me a weak smile. "James..." He said softly.

I smiled back at him. "I know. Carlos told me, I just wanted to come and make sure that he was okay." I said with a gentle smile. He nodded and let me in. I saw Mason sitting on the couch just looking forward, not aware of anything around him. "You okay, Mace?" I asked softly.

He shook his head. "She told me that she could never introduce me to her parents. They would freak once they saw my hair and eyeliner." He said. He grabbed a pillow off the couch and hugged it closely to his chest. "Maybe I should die my hair back to dark..."

I saw Roman's jaw clench. "No! Mace you don't have to change who you are for someone. You shouldn't have to. If I can find someone then so can you, and what did you expect? She's a spoiled princess."

I felt bad for Mason, everyone knew how much he cared about Jennifer and she had just stomped on his heart. "Your brother is right." I said. He just nodded. "Well, I'll just leave you guys alone. And you owe me a date." I said with a smirk to Roman.

He nodded. "Of course, as soon as possible." He said. He stood up and led me to the door and when we got there he gave me a hug.

"Is he going to be okay?" I asked, I glanced back at Mason and he was still sitting there motionless. I couldn't help but be a little worried about him.

"He'll be fine. He'll write a break up song and feel better. It can be our next hit." He said with a smile. He opened the door for me and there stood Jett looking all glammed up and anxious.

"Hey, I waited down there for twenty minutes..." He said looking from Roman to me. I couldn't help but feel a little bad for Jett. Roman had used him to get to me and that must have sucked. I looked at Roman and then gave him a quick kiss.

"Sorry, my brother is upset so I won't be going out. I'll call you later." He said looking at me and I nodded and walked out. I heard the door slam behind me.

"You don't deserve him...you know that right." Jett said with a frown. I knew that he must have figured out that Roman and I worked everything out.

I didn't even know how to respond to that at first so I just rolled my eyes and started walking to the elevator. "You're just mad because he used you to get me back. And I bet that kills you." I said smuggly because I knew that it was true. Roman didn't care about him.

He didn't say anything until the elevator doors opened and we were inside. "It's okay, next time he gets mad at you he will come to me and when that happens I'll make sure you don't get him back." Jett said. The elevator doors opened and he walked out.

I thought about it the whole way back to the apartment. Roman was spiteful and vengeful. If I did something he didn't like would he just go find Jett to get back at me. But part of me didn't care, I was falling for Roman and that was all that mattered to me. When I got back to the apartment I walked in and saw Kendall sitting with Logan talking on the couch. When Kendall saw me however he stood up and walked to his room.

When I heard the door slam to his door I sat down on the couch and let out a deep sigh. I knew that he was angry at me and hurt because I wanted to be with Roman, but I couldn't help that. I didn't feel like that for Kendall and I didn't know if I could. He was my best friend and I didn't want to ruin that. I let out another deep sigh.

"He will come around." Logan said simply. I didn't know what to say so I just nodded. Logan took a deep breath. "His feelings for you are confusing and the fact that you keep denying him isn't helping much."

"He was the one who didn't tell me how he felt til after I was with Roman. And besides Kendall is my best friend, why would I want to mess that up?" I asked in a serious tone. I should have know that Logan would take his side. He and Logan were closest so it was only natural.

"You know that you can trust him. You know how compassionate and loving he is. Do you know that with Roman?" Logan asked in a serious voice.

I couldn't help but think that he was favoring Kendall a little bit. "It sounds like you want me to be with Kendall." I said getting a little annoyed.

I watched as his eyebrows furrowed. "James I just want you to be happy. But I want the same thing for Kendall too and right now he is miserable seeing you with Roman."

I knew that was true. Whenever I talked about Roman, Kendall would stand up and leave. If he saw me when I was with Roman he refused to talk to me or even look at me for that manner. "Roman makes me happy. And I believe he makes me happier then Kendall ever would."

Logan only nodded. "Well then I will respect that. I know that Carlos likes you with Roman...you really are the happiest we've all seen you in a long time. And don't worry, Kendall will come around eventually."

I only nodded and hoped that he was right because I didn't think I could take my best friend being mad at me and avoiding me, like he was. I hung out the rest of the night with Logan and Carlos playing video games and eating pie.

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We were walking into the studio the next day and we were all pretty excited. We would be recording our new video to "Worldwide" and I couldn't help but love the idea for it. They were taking it back to the nineties and somewhat using an idea the Backstreet Boys used. That day we would be getting our outfits and the dance perfected so we could start shooting the next day.

"I can't wait to shoot this!" Carlos said in an excited tone. I knew that he was most excited, he had actually come up with the idea for the music video. He had awesome ideas for videos, I had to give him that at least.

"Me either, I just know one thing for sure right now. We are going to look good." I said straightening my jacket.

"You always say that." Logan said while shaking his head. I knew that I did, but when didn't we. I laughed at him and just shrugged. I looked over at Kendall and he seemed to be ignoring everything we were all saying.

When we finally walked into the booth Gustavo was sitting there. "Dogs! I am going to turn you over to the stylist and Mr. X for the day. The Storm Riders came up with a new song and we are going to be fine tuning and perfecting it all day."

As if on cue, the three guys walked in. I couldn't help but notice that Mason's hair was dark. Almost as dark as Roman's and I knew that he had dyed it back hoping to get Jennifer back. "Here is the song!" Roman said handing it to Gustavo. I felt him snake an arm around me and give me a gentle kiss on the head.

I couldn't help but look over at Kendall. He rolled his eyes and looked down at his feet. "Wow, this is amazing. Did you write this Roman?" Gustavo asked.

Roman smiled. "No, but my little brother here did. Looks like I taught him well." He said with a smile.

"Let's just hope he doesn't get your habits." Christian said with a sly grin. I watched as Roman shot him a dirty glare and then looked away. I knew that Roman didn't really care for Christian. Gustavo had just stuck him in the band and that had always urked Roman.

"Well, can we stay and hear their new song?" Carlos asked in a hopeful tone, and I couldn't help but hope that Gustavo would say yes too. I watched as Carlos threw his hands together and silently begged and I couldn't help but do the same thing.

"Fine!" Gustavo said giving in. I watched as Kendall rolled his eyes and walked out of the booth and let the door slam. "What's his problem?"

I watched as Roman laughed. "He wants what I have." He muttered and I couldn't help but gently smack him. He chuckled and pulled me in close and gave me a sweet and gentle kiss. "Now, lets get to it!"

I watched as they all started getting warmed up and couldn't help but be anxious to hear their new song. I knew that if it was like any of the other songs I had heard, it would be great.

Now I know,

That I can't make you stay.

But where's your heart?

But where's your heart?

But where's your,

And I know.

There's nothing I can say.

To change that part.

To change that part.

To change.

So many,

Bright lights they cast a shadow,

But can I speak?

Well is it hard understanding

I'm incomplete?

A life that's so demanding,

I get so weak.

A love that's so demanding,

I can't speak.

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

Can you see

My eyes are shining bright?

'Cause I'm out here, on the other side,

Of a jet black hotel mirror,

And I'm so weak.

Is it hard understanding

I'm incomplete?

A love that's so demanding,

I get weak.

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven

Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven;

Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

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"These bright lights have always blinded me," said he.

These bright lights have always blinded me.

I say, hello

I see you lying next to me,

With words I thought I'd never speak

Awake and unafraid,

Asleep or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,

(How can I see, I see you lyin')

With words I thought I'd never speak

(How can I see, I see you lyin')

Awake and unafraid,

(How can I see, I see you lyin')

Asleep or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,

With words I thought I'd never speak

Awake and unafraid,

Asleep or dead.

'Cause I see you lying next to me,

With words I thought I'd never speak

Awake and unafraid,

Asleep, or dead.

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

(Or dead)

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven;

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

(Or dead)

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

(Or dead)

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven;

Nothing you can say can stop me going home.

(Or dead)

I am not afraid to keep on living,

I am not afraid to walk this world alone

(Or dead)

Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven;

Nothing you can say can stop me going home

We all stood there clapping. They walked out of the booth and I walked up to Mason. "Great song, but I guess in the end you had good inspiration." He only nodded in response.

"Dogs, video now!" Gustavo said. We nodded. Roman came up and gave me a gentle kiss and then I turned around and walked out the door.

When we got out, we saw Kendall sitting on the couch reading a magazine. "Dude, you missed an awesome song!" Carlos said in an excited tone the second we saw him. "Mason wrote it and it's all about Jennifer."

"I don't care about anything they do. I don't like any of them." Kendall said in a child like tone. I knew that he didn't like Roman, but that was no reason to take it out on the rest of them. Mason was actually a good guy and I couldn't believe that he would act this way.

"Let's just shoot this video." Logan said quickly, sensing that a fight was about to break out. We all just nodded and went to meet with Mr. X, who quickly started showing us our dance moves. After an hour of practicing we were dressed and filming the new video.

After a few hours we were finally sent home for the night. When we got to the Palm Woods we all collapsed in a lawn chair exhausted. "I swear, if Mr. X makes us start from the top one more time, I will stab him in the eye with a pencil." Kendall said in a tired voice.

"I'm with Kendall. But screw the pencil, I'll grab a knife." I said laughing. I could feel my heart soar when I heard Kendall chuckle at what I said. "Seriously though, this video is going to rock!"

"Yeah, because our little genius Carlos thought of it." Kendall said. I felt him lean over and whisper, "Bet he's never been called that before."

"HEY!" I heard Carlos yell. "That isn't cool."

"But it's true." Logan said, not really thinking.

"DIE!" Carlos said, and launched himself onto Logan. I couldn't help but laugh and think that for a moment things were back to normal. But I wasn't sure how long it would keep it. I watched as Carlos put Logan into a headlock.

After a few minutes Kendall finally stood and broke up the fight. We all walked to the apartment and sat on the couch. We played Call of Duty and tried to see who could get the most head shots. After the first game, Carlos had won. "Well, I'm going out while I'm on top. Night guys." Carlos said and stood up to go to his room.

"Me too, I'm beat. See ya in the morning." Logan said awkwardly. I knew that Logan was just trying to get me and Kendall to talk but I couldn't help but feel extremely awkward about it all. I sighed and watched as they both walked away.

Kendall and I sat there for a few moments just playing the game but after a few kills I saw that he paused it. "Look, I'm sorry for being such a jackass last night." Kendall said desperately.

I smiled at him. "It's cool. You're a jackass quite often so I have to forgive you." I said in a teasing manner.

"I'm being serious James. I'm sorry, but seeing you with Roman kills me. I just...I just want a shot. That is all I need to show you that I am better." Kendall said. "And I can't wait til you guys break up again because that could be a while. I see that you two care about each other, but I know that we could have something more..."

I didn't know what to say. Kendall was pouring his heart out to me, and I couldn't help but feel bad. I knew that I had to say no, but I desperately wanted to say yes, and then I realized that if I wanted to say yes that maybe I wasn't as into Roman as I thought I was. I looked down, I didn't want to hurt either one of them, and I was afraid I would choose wrong.

"Can I maul this over?" I asked. I couldn't meet his eyes at first.

"Are you kidding me? Of course that's better then a no!" He said and I could hear the smile on his face. "Just let me know!"

I felt him kiss my cheek and walk away. Oh no, what the hell have I done?