The Monster Is Loose Chapter 11: Ships in the Night
A/N: Hey everyone! I am very sorry for not updating! I have been busy, I went on vacation, and I had family over from Scotland. I have been trying to find a new job because my current job has been stressing me out but I have had no luck. I just felt I needed a break from writing and I had no motivation to write. Again I am very sorry. I really hope you guys like this chapter, it really felt good to write again. I am interested to hear your thoughts so please review and let me know what you think! Thanks to everyone who continues to read and review my work I really appreciate it!
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Like ships in the night Like ships in the night letting cannon balls fly
You keep passing me by
We're just wasting time
Trying to prove who's right
And if it all goes crashing into the sea
If it's just you and me
Trying to find the light
Say what you mean and it turns to a fight
Fist fly from my mouth as it turns south
You're down the driveway... I'm on the couch-
Previously on The Monster Is Loose:
All of a sudden I turned over and there was Caius.
"Why hello there are you back for more?"
I screamed as I opened my eyes but thankfully no one was there. I sat up and expected to see Edward sitting in his usual chair in the corner, but he wasn't. Suddenly I felt as though I couldn't breathe and I started to panic. For some strange reason I didn't need Jake or Charlie, I needed Edward. He was the only one who could get me through this because he was there. I didn't think I could this without him. So I decided I was going to go back to the place where at one time I wished I could escape from.
My heart started to pound like a drum and my body started to tremble as I slowly sat up from my bed. I couldn't believe I was actually going to go back to Edward, the man who had kidnapped me and isolated me from my family. The idea was so crazy it made my stomach turn and made me feel as though I was on a ship soaring on some wild waves. I know I had begged Edward to free me so I could lie in my own bed and feel safe in my own home. But as I looked around my gloomy room, I realized that I was alone and that scared me. I could feel Caius' presence all around me, as though he was a somber spirit trying to take over my body. The image of Caius sent shivers down my spine and my head start to dart to my window then to my door, desperately hoping that I would not see his figure sneering, secretly at me.
I rubbed my eyes and stared at myself in the mirror. Even though it was dark, I could still make out my gloomy and troubled reflection in the glass. I was a mess. I felt like a rag doll splitting apart at the seams. I had never felt so alone and scared in my life. It was then I realized it wasn't until I left Edward that I started to feel these dark and depressed emotions. I knew what Edward did to me wasn't right but for some strange reason I couldn't get my mind off of him. He always cared for me and focused all of his attention on me and even though Caius attacked me I knew it wasn't his fault. I knew Edward would protect me with his life. All of a sudden my heart lunged into my throat as I realized the reason I needed to go back to the monster was because I was love with him and I couldn't live my life without him. Maybe going back to him would be the biggest mistake of my life, but right now I was willing to take that chance because I didn't want to spend my nights alone and frightened like a little child.
So I quickly pulled on a sweater, grabbed my knapsack and filled it with some things I wanted to bring with me. I pulled out a piece of paper from my desk drawer and wrote a note to Charlie saying how I was going back to see Edward and needed time with him in order to get past my ordeal. I told him I would phone him later and would tell him the details after. I hated writing that letter but I knew I had to tell Charlie I was safe. I also realized that when I got back to Edward, we would have to go over the rules, so that I would have permission to use my phone.
I sighed as a shiver crawled up my body like a spider as I made my way down the stairs and out the door. All I knew was that I had deep wounds and Edward was my vaccine, who could heal them all. I don't know why but as soon as I entered the forest I started to run and run as though I was being chased by a vampire.
All of a sudden something big and furry jumped into my view as I halted to a stop which caused me to fall onto the ground.
"Where the hell do you think you're going?"
It was Jake. Oh great, now what was I going to do?
"No where…" I said trying to maneuver my away around Jacob.
"You're going to see him aren't you?" He yelled as he grabbed my arm in a tight embrace.
I looked right into his eyes and without admitting to it, I knew he knew the truth.
"Why the hell are going back to the same guy who hurt you Bella? What happened to you? The old Bella I used to know would never go back to someone who has hurt you." Jake said as his voice echoed throughout the trees.
"Jake please just let me go! You don't know what happened, only I do and I know the only way to get past what happened is to go back to him! I know you will never understand but please trust me. I know what I am doing!" I yelled back trying to loosen his grip off of my arm.
"Don't you see I care about you and don't want to see you get hurt again? Why…..you love him don't you?" He cried out.
I couldn't do anything but stare at his hurt expression that was written on his face.
"How can you love him? HOW CAN YOU LOVE THAT MONSTER?" He growled as he pushed me on the ground so that the side of my face scraped the side of a tree root.
I could feel the crimson red blood trickle from my wound as I stared horrifically at Jake.
"Oh my gosh, Bella I'm so sorry…I didn't mean to…." Jake said as he started to walk towards me.
I shook my head.
"He's not the only one who is a monster. Now leave me alone and do not follow me!" I cried out as I ran as fast as I could back to Edward.
My head was swimming with so many thoughts and emotions; I thought I wouldn't be able to remember where Edward had kept me. The air was so dark and cold, it felt as though a blanket was wrapped around me. I couldn't even see one foot in front of me. My feet kept on tripping on rocks and roots but I managed to stay up right. Finally out of the brush was the building where I was held captive. I knew I had to be crazy to go back into my cage but I had to. I walked over to a tree stump and sat down to catch my breath. Then my heart started to speed up when I realized there was a good chance Edward might have left when he let me go. I felt my heart crush into little pieces as I looked up at the structure in front of me.
"What are you doing here?" A familiar voice asked.
I blinked and there was Edward standing right in front of me with a concerned looked on his face.
"It's cold and dark out here Bella! You could get sick or get attacked by who knows what is out there!" Edward said in an angry tone as he slowly walked up to me.
"What happened to you?" He yelled as he saw the cut on my head.
All I could do was mumble as I saw him sit down beside me. I couldn't believe he was here and that he had not left.
"Bella I asked you a question." He declared as he kissed my cut and cleaned it. I could feel my body tingle all over as I felt his kiss on my head.
"While I was on my way here, I met up with Jake and he pushed me….I fell and hurt myself…you know me I'm clumsy. But don't worry I put Jake in his place." I said as I slightly smirked.
"That isn't funny Bella! No one should touch you like that but me!" He yelled and then stopped himself.
"Why are you here Bella?"
"I can't stop thinking about you….I need you, I'm scared without you. I think I love you." I said.
"Oh Bella I'm no good for you, I'm a monster, look at me!"
"No, you are good for me! I need you! Please I love you." I cried out.
"Oh Bella, I love you too. Oh God I wished you would come back, oh I missed you!" Edward said as he hugged me.
"I promise things will be a lot different from now on. I'll try to be less of a monster because I love you and you deserve that." He said.
"I know we have lots to talk about." I answered.
"Mmm, I want you but I know you've been through some traumatic things so I will give you some time.
"Thank you Edward, I will let you know when I feel like fucking again." I said as I went slightly red.
"Miss Swan watch your mouth! I can't wait to straighten you out…whenever you are ready of course." He said smiling as he kissed my cheek.
I smiled at Edward as he picked me up and carried me in from the cold. Even though this all seemed crazy I knew I was doing the right thing.
NEXT TIME:
SOME WILD LOVE AND LEMONS!