A/N: So, this is what happens on long drives to kansas when the only music we get is country..so here are the lyrics that inspired this crap :) BTW..this was originally a longer chapter...but I shortened it, cause the first ending SUCKED, this one still sucks, just less. anyways, love you guys 3

Tomorrow I'm gonna leave here.
I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would.
And tomorrow, I'm gonna listen.
To that voice of reason inside my head telling me that we're no good.

[Chorus]
But tonight I'm gonna give it one last time.
Rock you strong in these arms of mine.
Forget all the regrets that are bound to follow.
We're like fire and gasoline.
I'm no good for you.
You're no good for me.
We only bring each other tears and sorrow.
But tonight, I'm gonna love you like there's no..

Tomorrow I'll be stronger.
I'm not gonna break down and call you up when my heart calls out for you.

And tomorrow, you won't believe it,
but when I pass your house,
I won't stop no matter how bad I want to.

[Chorus]

Baby when we're good, you know we're great.
But there's too much bad for us to think that there's anything worth trying to save.

[Chorus]

Tomorrow I'm gonna leave here.
I'm gonna let you go and walk away like every day I said I would.

!ENJOY!

My eyes widened, the thumb at my lips dropped in surprise, how did we forget this? Miss this?

Early that morning Ryuk had been speaking with me, answering my few casual questions bored out of his mind. I'd asked what day he had dropped the death note, his answer hadn't really been all that surprising in itself. He'd only dropped it a few days before Kira became highly active, of course he refused to tell me where it was, but that started the thinking process anyways. I'd had to thought for a while, the time gap bothered me and I went through the recordings we had from Light's high school and the traffic camera across the street from the buildings.

Just as I thought, we only had recordings up to the day Kira appeared, but nothing before that day. I immediately dialed Watari and got everything from the date Ryuk had mentioned instead. I thought there might be a clue but nothing anywhere near this damning.

I backed the tape up and watched again as a black rectangle fell, pages fluttering, from the sky and landed on the empty lawn. The video feed from the traffic cam had somehow caught an image of a bored 17 year old Light Yagami staring out a window, it showed the subtle changes in expression when he noticed the notebook.

I fast forwarded to the end of classes and watched teens flood outside, picking out Light's auburn locks on both screens. Even though I'd already watched it I still felt a slight surprise as Light stopped and picked up the same black notebook. He rifled through it and smirked, looking amused before sliding it into his bag.

I stared at the screens, showing a now empty campus, my mind churning. I had irrefutable proof Light Yagami was Kira. A distant part of me said I should call a meeting and brief the team before officially arresting Light.

I bit my lip, dread welling in me, I didn't want to do this. I loved Light. I'd known for a while, the beautiful boy drew me and I'd been hoping that maybe, just maybe I'd been wrong. I sighed softly and turned my chair only to find him sitting on the couch watching me.

I felt a heartbeat of fear but it faded and I was left exhausted, sad, and oh so empty. "So, Kira-san, do you plan to kill me now? You can't lie out of this." I meant for the words to come out bored and indifferent, like I didn't care but my voice broke and I choked on them. I blinked, confused as he stood and moved toward me with a worried expression.

I tried to move away, afraid again suddenly as his hands reached for me. I closed my eyes and waited for death only to feel one hand cupping my cheek while he used his thumb to brush away the tears I only just realized were there.

I didn't dare look at him, I couldn't bear to see what his expression was, hatred and triumph no doubt but I didn't want to face it.

I shuddered, no matter how much I loved him, he was a killer and I fully expected him to be the death of me, I was convinced he was merely toying with me now. "Don't cry L, it's alright." His voice was soft and as heartbreakingly sad as I felt, it scared me more than anything. "Shhh. Ryuzaki, Shhh." He murmured, switching to my alias, likely to make me feel better, I opened my eyes to find his face barely inches from my own.

"L-light-kun?" I questioned as his lips smashed against mine and then I fell into the kiss. Our fingers tracing each other's faces frantically and when we finally break apart he's the only thing still holding me up, my hands pressed against my chest and my legs like jelly.

I've lost the ability to think objectively, the kiss made me dizzy and happy but hopelessly sad all at once because I know this can't last and he's probably enjoying watching me break. It doesn't matter though, I lean against him as he supports me and my shoulders shake as I began to sob in earnest.

The first time I've cried in twenty years…it would be in the arms of a serial killer, my worst adversary.

He picked me up and carried me to the bed we shared when hand-cuffed together, laying down beside me and pulling me against his chest. "L, my L, It's okay, shhhh." He kept repeating this until I was calmed.

We lay together for a while, his hands working magic as he trailed his fingers up and down my arms causing me to relax further. Feeling strangely drowsy I cuddled against him and he kissed my cheek, "Everything's going to be just fine L. I promise."

I stiffened slightly and frowned, when he'd said that before I'd assumed it was to relax me, make me let my guard down so he could kill me, not that I really cared anymore but still. "Light? Why do you promise me things you know are lies? You're Kira, I seen you pick up the note on that screen, I know I probably won't see another sunrise and none of that is anywhere near alright."

His expression didn't change, remained calm and sad, though strangely pleased, likely because I'd dropped the honorary kun. Yes 79% chance that was the reason. "

"I promise because, yes, I am Kira, but I can't bring myself to hurt you, not like this when you're laying in my arms. I might've before I lost my memories, but not anymore L, spending that much time with you…I fell in love." He propped himself up while he spoke, "I'm in love with you, I love you."

Finally his expression changed, emotions showing more than they usually did as he looked at me, love and regret coloring his features as he leaned to kiss me. Lips soft against my own as they just brushed and he licked at my lips a bit before pulling away.

"You show the tape and I'll tell everyone all the things I did tomorrow, but I have a favor to ask." He looked at me in earnest and I sighed, "what is that?" Light bit his lip for a moment, love still shining in his chocolate eyes as he thought.

"I know that you think I deserve to die, I haven't changed my beliefs, but I'm in agreement there, I should be killed slowly and painfully." He paused and I felt my chest constrict, he wasn't going to ask me to torture him first was he?

"Please L, if it's going to hurt you, pain you for me to be dead…keep me alive. I don't care if you shove me in a cage and barely see me, torture me, force me to be your slave, anything. Just, don't hurt because of me, I don't want you to hurt." He kissed me between words as he murmured this to me and I felt like he'd just stabbed me, betrayal running deep.

I closed my eyes and savored his last kiss, holding back more tears as I shoved him to the floor harshly. He landed with a sharp thwack and I cringed slightly but looked down at him, shaking slightly,"Liar."

So short, so many mistakes, with So much sucking...ah well, Lemon is coming and chapter's will get longer! I promise XD Review to let me no what you thought and I give you hug! well..try to anyways!

Matt: Oh and forgive the spelling and grammar errors, she typed this while exhausted and dizzy

Mello: Yeah..that's why, mhhmm