A/N: I'm so, so sorry for the long wait! But the last weeks of school were really difficult for me, and I didn't have time for anything – including sleep, and when I finally had the time my internet broke and I had to wait for my summer holidays to begin so that I would be at my parents' place where I could finally use it and blah, blah you probably don't care, but just know that the last chapter is late, not because I was lazy.

Big thank you with a cherry on top for my beta Madame OwlEyes! Wish her happy birthday, because it's her birthday weekend! And go read her stories, "Tears of the Moon" doesn't get as much love as it deserves!

Please read A/N at the bottom of the page?

Magnus woke up to the sensation of slim, long, fingers running lazily through his hair. Gentle strokes continued while he sleepily snuggled deeper into the warm, firm body lying next to him, and he nuzzled his face into what seemed to be Alec's chest.

He groggily opened his amber, cat-like eyes, and looked up to see his boyfriend smiling at him tenderly. His full, red, lips begging to be kissed; and his azure eyes twinkling with adoration.

"Hi sleepyhead." Alec whispered gently caressing Magnus' cheek, and gazing at him intently.

"Hello beautiful." The Warlock rested his chin on the blue-eyed Shadowhunter firm chest and sighed blissfully. He could stay like this forever – snuggled up with Alec in their covered by the indigo canopy bed; separated from the outside world, and its intricate, labyrinthine problems. However, some things could not have been forgotten for long; they were nudging and probing so much that subconsciously one had to remember about them, even if one was laying heavenly warm with their angel-like lover on soft mattress and... "So… tell me what happened during the hunt that you did not see the enormous, highly poisonous demon, huh?"

"It snuck up on us." Alec sighed heavily, and had a sense to look sheepish, his Adam's apple bobbing guiltily as he swallowed slowly. "We were tired and I was kind of distracted. I sensed it when it was about to attack and then… Really Mag, never have I seen such fast demon. The only thing I noticed was a white blurred shape and the next thing I knew was pain ripping through me, and then darkness. I guess I blacked out?" He answered unsurely, absently twisting Magnus' black, glitter-free strands around his fingers.

"You are always distracted these days, Alexander" The warlock huffed, his tongue rolling angrily around the "r". "This must end! You have to stop thinking about things that neither you nor I can change for the time being. You have to deal with this stuff, you…"

"I know, baby. I understand now…" The blue-eyed boy tried to break off shyly from his boyfriend's rant.

"You have to..what?" Magnus gazed questionably, his cat-like eyes blinking rapidly.

"I said I understand now." Alec repeated and chuckled seeing his boyfriend's amazed face. The smile scampered off his face quickly though, and he sighed heavily trying to form his wiredrawn thoughts in some logical set of words, he wanted badly to explain to Magnus what he felt, but didn't know how to convey his feelings. He knew though that his lover deserved it after what he has been putting him through for the last few weeks. Alec's whole being was filed with regret and guilt, now he didn't know how he could let these beautiful, green eyes to be so grief-stricken, so terrified. He couldn't imagine why or rather how he could become so selfish, so self-centered. All he was worried about was his life's shortness and leaving Magnus' behind, but ironically because of such desperate thoughts, he hurt the person he loved the most and pushed him away. " I know I've been horrible bastard for the past few weeks…" He started.

"What? No, you haven't been! " Magnus tried to protest, seeing clear self-loathing on his love's face. Alec gave him a pointed glance what made his words stop.

"I know what I've been. There's no point denying that, baby. " The black-haired Shadowhunter answered, rubbing soothingly back of the warlock's neck and tried to smile reassuringly. "And you were completely right about everything… I thought about mortality again, how I will have to leave you behind and that after my d… death there will be others who will outshine me and you will forget all about me, that on the other side I will have to be alone, without you by my side, and Magnus it scares me so much that there will come the time when your place will be empty." Few burning tears finally fell on Alec's face, the stains marring his pale, beautiful features, and Magnus wanted so badly to stop this; to just kiss his angel's agony away, but he couldn't. He had to let Alec speak, the Shadowhunter usually bottled up his emotions – which was neither healthy nor good for either of them – so if he needed to pour them now, Magnus would suffer through it even if it killed him to see such pain in Alec's azure orbs. "Because of that I've been so distracted lately, I became obsessed with the issue and I was so snappy, unstable… I only cared about my needs and I don't know how you put up with me, I hurt you, and still you have never given up on me…"

"Oh Alec, baby. I would never give up on you. I love you too much. I wanted to help you so badly, but you wouldn't let me near you…" Magnus arms tightened around Alec's waist, trying to comfort him.

"S.. Something made me finally realize what a fool I have been, that I've put a wall between us. And I swear I've never wanted to do that Mag. I got lost inside my dark thoughts, and finally this accident made me realize how much I hurt you. I'm so sorry baby. I promise I would stop thinking so much about the immortality and death. I will try to live every day to its fullest, because every day I spend with you is special, and even if I died in a year I still wouldn't regret it, because I got to be with you, to love you, and … and that is the best thing that has happened to me…" Even though Alec kept his eyes throughout his speech trained on the blue canopy, he couldn't help but glance up to see Magnus reaction to his words. And what he had seen was utter adoration and amazement. "I don't want to waste time anymore, timeI can spend with you…"

"Oh Alec…" Magnus hugged the boy tightly to his chest, placing tender kisses on his neck, and inhaling his boyfriend's familiar scent. "I wish I knew how you had felt earlier. I'm so glad you told me about everything. I promise we will make it all work. " He glanced up into Alec's honest, blue eyes and couldn't wait anymore, he smacked his lips to Alec's, pushing his tongue inside his lover's mouth, plundering it while his hands roamed around his whole upper body - abs, chest, shoulders - finally fisting a handful of Alec's onyx, silky hair, and eliciting long moan from his lover. His lust-filled kisses were growing more fierce when he remembered that Alec shouldn't exert himself after all the healing he had to do, and he backed off; his fingers still tangled in Alec's locks, breathing heavily and looking right into the Shadowhunter's hooded eyes. He smirked at him, and laid down pulling the boy with him. Alex's head was there on his shoulder snuggling happily, and his eyes glued to these of the warlock's conveying his love.

They still had many problems to resolve, they still feared the future, but for now Alec felt secure and he didn't care for anything but his warlock's arms around him. Today everything was peaceful in the confines of their bedroom; today everything was perfect and undisturbed. And that was all they cared for.

The End

A/N:Sorry that I made Alec so emotional and OOC ::beats herself::

I know some of you are disappointed that I didn't solve the immortality-mortality problem, but that was not what I had in mind when I started to write The Fickle Visions. I wanted to show what Alec could be feeling and what it could lead to.

In the next few days I will be posting Malec one-shot, so keep an eye out? And in a while I will be starting new multi-chaptered story.

Also, I have sequel for this in mind, but I don't know when I will be able to get it up, because I want to deal with one-shot and the multi-chaptered story first.

I would like to hear your thoughts, and I mean every reader's ones , even if you don't have account, you can leave me honest review.

Thank you for reading, it meant a lot to me!

Emily