Hey everyone, this is my first fanfic I'm planning on making it a one-shot but it could be more depending on how it goes. Please R&R
Disclaimer: I do not own Digimon or any affiliated characters or ideas
Walking Alone
Matt's POV
It was already 11:45 PM; band practice had been really intense because of the gig coming up in a few days. I'm so tired. I think I may skip dinner. Not that my dad would care. Actually, I doubt he'd even be home yet and even if he was I doubt he would care whether I ate dinner. He was usually pretty cool about things like that. My mom, on the other hand, would already be fuming that I was still out of the house this late. I don't even want to know what she would be like if I told her I was going to skip dinner on top of that. Poor T.K. I thought with a snicker. As I walked out of the door I felt a raindrop hit my hair.
"Shit!" I said out loud by accident. It was pouring and my car was towards the back of the parking lot. I began to sprint but my guitar really slowed me down. I was effectively soaked by the time I got to my car.
Cussing under my breath, I set my guitar down and reached into my pocket for my keys. In addition to pouring rain it was very cold. It must be horrid for people who have to walk home I thought. I had never been thankful to my dad for my car then I was now. I had a BMW 3 Series coupe. Although it was very expensive my dad was able to find one that was a little used and got a great deal on it. The only downside was that I had to cover the monthly payments for a year and a half. Oh well, the band had been doing really well lately and I had enough to cover it for the next 7 months. I quickly put my guitar on the passenger seat and then got into the drivers seat. Thank God I have leather seats I thought with a smile or it would be a bitch to get the seats dry. As soon as I turned my car on I quickly turned up the heat. Much better I thought after a few minutes. I was beginning to fall asleep so I turned on the radio to get me home. B.o.B.'s Nothing on You began to play.
Although it was a pretty good song I laughed at the idea of a perfect girl. I thought back to all my relationships. The first was with Sora. It started off well but I couldn't help feeling guilty. After all Tai had liked Sora for a while and he was my best friend. I felt like I was betraying him while I was with Sora so, I decided to cut it off. Then, I went to Kari and asked her if she could help me get the two together. She jumped for joy at the idea and after a few weeks we had gotten the two together. It seemed they were doing really well which made me feel a lot better about breaking up. I then went out with a girl in my calculus class. Her name was Emily. We had been together for a couple of months but then she came to me and said that I just wasn't Mr. Right. Of course I had told all the Digidestined that I broke it off otherwise Mimi and Sora wouldn't have let me hear the end of it. I laughed at the thought of Mimi scolding me for not trying hard enough. Ever since she had moved back to Odaiba she really made an effort to help everyone with his or her problems in order to make up for the lost time while she was in America. I really appreciated her efforts but they weren't necessary. We all cared deeply for her and didn't feel that she needed to make up lost time to us.
Lately though, she began to spend more and more time with me. She always tried discussing my parents' divorce. That was one topic I tried avoiding at all costs. When she found I wasn't willing to talk about it she went to my brother T.K. That was a good idea on her part because T.K. was definitely more emotional between the two of us. The one thing we were both confused about though was why she wanted to discuss that of all things. T.K. told me about how great of a listener Mimi was when she talked to him about it. That was another odd thing about this. Mimi would always give suggestions as to what we should do. Instead, she was asking more questions than she was answering them.
Out of the corner of my eye I see a girl crossing the street. I slam on the brakes. What the hell is she doing? I think furiously. The girl just kept walking as if nothing happened. I was about to speed off but then I realized that it was Mimi. She was wearing yellow half-sleeve top and a purple skirt. She was going to get sick if she was in the rain for too long just wearing that. She was already drenched. She was looking quite pretty though. What the hell was I thinking? She must be freezing, I need to give her a ride. I quickly roll the window down.
"Mimi what are you doing walking in the rain? You are going to catch a cold, and why were you crossing the street when the sign said not to? I say to her. She slowly turns her head towards me. It was almost as if she was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even realize I was talking to her.
"Oh, its you Matt." She said like a zombie. The way she said it made it apparent that something was wrong. It was obvious to me that she was upset about something. Although it was almost impossible to tell I felt like there were some tears mixed in with the raindrops falling and going down her face. She then turned and looked at the ground before beginning to start walking away from the car again.
I was at a total loss as to what could do this to Mimi. The Mimi Tachikawa I knew was always upbeat and positive. What could have possibly done this to her? Regaining my composure I quickly make up my mind.
"Mimi, get into the car. It isn't safe here and the weather is absolutely awful. You don't even have an umbrella. I can drop you home-"
"NO!" she suddenly screamed. "I'm not going there. I will never go there!" I was so shocked by what she said, I didn't even know how to respond. I just stood there with my mouth open trying to figure out what I was going to do next. She must have seen me so confused and mistakenly blamed herself. " I mean that's very sweet of you Matt but its ok. I can take care of myself." She must have thought that I was confused about why she was mad at me. But, that wasn't it. I was confused about why Mimi would never want to go home. Then, abruptly she started to sprint away from the car. I swore in my head and quickly parked my car along the street. Then I got out and started after her.
I was sprinting a lot faster without my guitar now, but Mimi had a head start on me and I had no idea which way she went. She could have gone down the alley or turned at the corner. Something in my head told me that Mimi would never go down a dark alley alone. So, I decided to run on the sidewalk and turn right at the next intersection. Sure enough as I got to the corner and turned I could see her running. The whole place was deserted so it was easy for me to see her. I quickly took off after her. Unfortunately the wind was blowing against me and when raindrops hit my face they stung like a bitch. After about 15 seconds I could hardly see. But, I refused to lose sight of Mimi's soft brown hair. Eventually, I caught up with her. She was kneeling down completely out of breath. She must have been really tired because she made no argument as I took a hold of her hand and dragged her towards a bench. As I took her hand I noticed a series of several cuts on her wrist and forearm. After a minute on the bench I finally asked her.
"Mimi why are there cuts on your arm? And why did you react that way when I said I could take you home? Is everything all right? I slapped myself mentally for saying the last part. Of course she wasn't all right. I mean look at how you found her.
"Matt, its nothing really. You don't need to bother yourself with it. Go back to your house or you are going to get sick." She responded.
"And what about you? I can't just leave you out here. Now, we can talk about this here in the cold rain sitting on a park bench or we can go back to my car. It has heated seats" I said pleadingly. Then, she started laughing. Her laugh was like music to my ears and the best thing was that I was the one who made her laugh.
"Hahaha all right fine we can go back to your car."
"What is so funny about wanting to go to my car where it's actually warm?" I asked defensively.
" It isn't about what you said Matt, it's just how you said it. You sounded like a 5 year old boy begging for a new toy or a candy bar. "
Glad that she had finally lightened up I merely shrugged as my response. I took a quick look at my phone and saw it was 12:30. I was actually surprised to see that my dad hadn't called or texted me about where I was yet. He had to be home by now I thought. Then right on cue I got a text from him. It read:
Hey Matt, there is a huge apartment fire happening in Kyoto. We are going to go cover it so I won't be home for the next few nights. Take care and try not to skip dinner every night. I'll be asking your mom to drop by once or twice to make sure you are doing all right. Feel free to have Tai or someone sleepover. Just make sure they get the couch and not my bed. –Dad
Mimi looked at me at the sound of my phone and asked if it was from my dad. I nodded my head.
"You aren't late getting home because of me are you Matt? I don't want you to get into trouble because of me."
"Nah, its totally fine my dad just wanted to let me know that he has to cover some big story in Kyoto and that I am going to have the house to myself for a few days."
"How exciting! You should throw a party! You could invite all the Digidestined and you could get all the kids from school and then your band could perform for everyone. We could all dance to your new songs. Don't worry about decorations Sora and I can handle that for you. All you would need is to get some pizzas." Mimi continued to ramble about the party until we got to the car. I would throw in a word or two here and there or nod my head to make it look like I was paying attention. In reality though, I was wondering what happened to Mimi before I saw her. She had cuts all over her arm and, she said she never wanted to go home again. Her parents never appeared to be very strict so I doubt that they punished her over something. Her mom seemed nice enough and her dad seemed fine too just a bit goofy I guess. Tai once joked that he seemed a little drunk at times. Maybe that was it. Maybe he just had a little too much to drink and he and Mimi got into a fight. At the thought of that I felt angry bubbles rise in my stomach. How dare anyone harm my Mimi like that? I don't give a damn if he is her father- wait did I just say my Mimi? Luckily, we arrived at the car so I had to push that self-debate to the back of my mind for now.
"Here." I said as I opened the door for Mimi. I then saw that my guitar was on the seat so I quickly pulled it out and put in the trunk. Mimi giggled at the sight of my guitar on the passenger seat.
" You know Matt, sometimes I wonder if you are just going to marry that thing." She teased.
" No way there's someone else I'd much rather marry." I said thinking of her. Shit why am I thinking of these kinds of things? Hopefully she won't press me too hard on this. Mimi was a master of getting things out of people.
" Oh really? And who would that be Matt? Do you still have feelings for Emily? Or did you find somebody else? Matt how could you not tell me? We are supposed to be friends you know!" She had a devilish grin on her face, which then turned into a sarcastic pouting face as she said the last part.
"Uhhhh well you see ummm…."I desperately tried fishing around for something to get off this topic. Then it hit me. I should ask her if her arm is ok." Hey Meems, is your arm ok? There are cuts all over it. I mean what happened? Who did that to you?" I started off genuinely concerned but again when I thought of someone hurting Mimi I became angry and it showed in the way I said it. Immediately, Mimi flinched and looked the other way. " Mimi, please tell me what happened. You know can tell me anything." I pressed. Finally she turned back to me. Her cheeks were red and, she seemed flustered.
" Those cuts on my arm were from me." I looked at her in shock. "Matt there's a stop sign!" I quickly slammed on the brakes. "Keep your eyes on the road stupid!" She scolded.
As I turned my attention back to the road I muttered" Sorry, keep going though."
" I cut myself Matt. I was seriously depressed. My life is falling apart and I can't do anything about it. I have no idea what to do. I feel like its all my fault though and I needed to punish myself somehow." She said quietly. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Mimi cut herself because she wanted to punish herself. What did she think she did wrong?
"Mimi what do you mean your life is falling apart? I saw you a few days ago and you seemed fine what's going on now?" I questioned her. She opened her mouth to say something but we reached my apartment's parking structure." Actually, Mimi save it until we get into the house. We can dry up first and then you can tell me everything ok?" She nods her head in agreement. We quickly get out of the car and get into the elevator. Once we reached the 7th floor we got out and walked to my apartment. I dug my key out of my pocket and opened the door. All the lights were off so I immediately felt around the wall on my right side until I felt the switch. Once I could feel the smooth plastic of the switch I flipped it on. As light flooded my eyes I got a good look at Mimi. Her arm was seriously sliced up even worse than I thought. Also her beautiful brown eyes were red and puffy. I had been right, her tears had been mixed in with the rain. I felt horrible just looking at her in that state. Then, she smiled a brilliant smile.
"Matt, considering that only two men live in this house it is surprisingly well kept and clean. I would have never guessed that you actually clean the house." She teased.
" Hahaha." I laughed. " My mom comes around once a month to clean this place up. She tells my dad she doesn't want her son to live in filth because she knows neither of us are going to take the time to clean it."
" Oh, that's why this place is spotless. Did she come and clean yesterday?"
" No, I think the last time she cleaned was about 3 weeks ago."
" No way! I don't believe that Matt. There's no way you and your dad haven't been able to make a mess in 3 weeks. Guys just can't be that clean."
" Well I think a lot of that has to do with the fact that neither my dad or I have been around a lot lately. He's been really busy with work and I've had band practice going on all week. I normally don't get home until midnight and my dad normally comes back even later. Take a seat on the couch I'll be right back." I quickly go to the linen closet hoping that we had clean towels. After a little rummaging I found some. One was blue and the other was pink, perfect for Mimi." Here you go." I hand Mimi the towel and she immediately begins to dry herself.
"Hey Matt, if you come in so late what do you usually do for dinner?"
" I normally just skip it. I come home so damn tired I normally don't have the energy to make any and I just don't have enough money to eat out every day." Just as I say that my stomach growls loudly.
" Well it sure sounds like you use some dinner right now." Giggles Mimi. " Here let me make you something."
" Geez thanks Mimi that's really nice of you." Now that we were both dry we headed to the kitchen. As she began to prepare some tomato soup for the two of us, I couldn't help but admire her body. She had a very curvy body and she seemed like she was in perfect shape. She had a pretty big rack for her size and her legs were fairly long for body. I had to admit she had a very sexy body. As she was letting the water boil for the soup she turned to me and smiled. A few strands of her hair fell in front of her face and without thinking it through I put out my hand and brushed them away behind her ear. She turned a little red and thanked me. Only afterwards did I scold myself for doing something like that. She was probably worried now that I'd take advantage of her. As I continued to ponder what Mimi meant to me she finished making the soup. Her voice broke me out my reverie.
" Hey Matt, its done do you still want some?" She asked.
" Of course I do. It smells amazing!" I replied truthfully. They say when someone is hungry everything smells and tastes good but to be honest even if I was full I would want some of this soup. It just smelled amazing. There was no other way to describe it. Mimi poured some into a bowl for me and I quickly took a sip.
"Be careful Matt! Its really hot!" She warned. Too late though. I already burned my tongue but it was worth it. That soup was really good. I made a mental note to go over to Mimi's house more often so I could have more of her cooking. That reminded me I still had to ask what was up with her. Why did she say her life was falling apart? I decided not to waste anymore time and got straight to it.
" Mimi what did you mean when you said your life falling apart?" She closed her eyes almost as if trying to figure out how she wanted to start. Then she opened them and sighed.
" Matt, give me your bowl. I'm going to clean up before I start ok?" I nodded, beginning to get a little impatient but I had no other choice. Finally after about 5 minutes that seemed to drag on for an hour we were done cleaning up. We went to the living room and sat down on the two sofas facing each other. I looked underneath mine and pulled out two blankets I tossed one to Mimi who wrapped it around herself. I quickly did the same.
" Matt, I'm not really sure where to start but my parents are getting divorced. I tried to hold out hope that they would make up but I was wrong. They are going to court tomorrow to finalize the paper work. Since I'm 18 I have 3 options. The first two options are to live with one of my parents. The third option is to live alone. I feel like I would be betraying one of my parents by picking the other but, at the same time I don't want to live alone. I don't know if I could handle it. The only thing I could think of was to move in with my boyfriend Kyo. Then earlier today I was at the mall with Sora and while she was trying on a dress I saw Kyo with another girl. I told Sora to wait while I went to the bathroom but instead I went to confront him. When I did he said he never loved me and that he thought I was a nagging bitch. He broke up with me on the spot. I don't know what I did wrong. First my parents and now this, I felt like moving back here to Odaiba would be the best thing that ever happened to me. But, instead my life is getting ruined. I must have made God angry in someway. That's why I started to cut myself. Just so that God could see that I was punishing myself. That way he may make life easier on me." She finished with a sob.
" Mimi why didn't you tell any of us your parents are getting divorced? We could have helped you through it and I'm sure one of us could make room for you for some time. Why the hell didn't you come to me? My parents are divorced I know exactly what you are going through right now! This isn't something you should have tried to take on alone. We are your friends and we would have done anything to help you!" I say animatedly. " We all care for you! I care a lot for you!" I was just about to man up and tell her what I had been suspecting all night now- that I loved her when she said:
" I didn't want to be a burden for anyone. And just by asking you and T.K. what it was like for you guys I realized how much pain you were in. I didn't want either of you to relive that by trying to help me through it. The pain you two were in scared me. I didn't want to go through that. But even more importantly I wanted to be able to share your pain with you to help ease it for you two. Instead, by asking you two about it I felt like I was only making it worse. Please forgive me Matt. You must hate me for doing that to you. And now I'm here with you crying out all my problems to you." I quickly made my way to the sofa she was sitting on and I put my arm around her as she began to sob on my shoulder. She was in so much emotional pain that it was like somebody took a knife to my heart and started twisting it. I felt so bad for her. Yet, all I could do was comfort her. It didn't feel like it was enough. But it was all that I could hope to do.
" Shhhhh. It'll all be ok, don't worry Mimi. You can stay here with me for the time being. And look I won't lie; having your parents divorce is not easy. The worst part about it is how lonely it becomes. But we have each other. That will make it a whole lot easier trust me." I tried to reassure her. She gave me a small smile as she moved closer to me.
" Thank you Matt, you just helped me more than you could possibly imagine." She said quietly. It seemed like she was finally settling down. When she said that I had helped her I couldn't help but smile. " You have a great smile Matt, you should use it more." She said sweetly. If I had been smiling before I must have been beaming right now. It felt like I was on cloud 9!" Matt, I have to ask. Why did you do all this for me? You tried bringing me back to my house. You chased after me in the rain. You gave me a place to stay and you listened to me and you went through this problem with me. Why did you so far?"
" Well we are friends Mimi. That's what friends do for each other."
" I've never had a friend like you then Matt." She smiled knowingly. Damn, was I really that obvious I thought? Oh well nothing to lose then. I leaned in and give her a kiss on the lips. To my surprise she responded very well. After a few seconds we broke apart for some air. Then she said teasingly" Yeah that's what I thought Matt."
" Well you know, I've never been to good with sharing my feelings." I respond.
" Well we will just have to work on that." She said with a grin. Then after a pause, " I love you too Matt." She said sincerely before resting her head on my shoulder and falling asleep.
Well that is it. What do you think? Please, please review even if it is flames. I actively try to take criticism in order to improve my writing. Also, if anyone really enjoyed I have a couple of ideas as to how I can extend it so please let me know if you want me to continue this. Thank you for reading!