A/N: I wanted to let you all know that I have been working with a great Beta, 7 Ace. Starting todayI will be removing the current chapters to update them to the new ones. Thank you all for staying with me through Bella's journey. I want to make sure this is the best story it can be. I promise I am working on the next chapter and should be able to update soon. So if you are a current reader and are not sure we all left off on chatper 19 :) As always i do not own Twilight.

Love Will Bring You Back

Chapter 1

It was Bella's birthday today; a day that she really didn't want to celebrate. Today, she was 18, officially one year older than Edward would ever be. Everyone around her was happy and excited, but not her. It made her stomach turn every time someone wished her a happy birthday. Today, she was reminded that she would continue to get older every day as the love of her life would stay forever seventeen.

"Edward, please. I know you won't hurt me. You love me. You don't give yourself enough credit. Please, just make love to me." She needed to feel close to him. He needed to feel the spark that she felt every time he was near.

They were sitting alone in her room talking about the party, a party that Alice was throwing, a party that Bella did not really want to go to, but a party that she would so that she did not offend Alice. She did not want to celebrate; she didn't want gifts or a cake. She wanted to be with Edward; alone with him.

Edward moved a bit closer on the bed and leaned over her body. He pressed his lips to hers and softly kissed her. She began to feel the butterflies fluttering in her stomach. Her hands went to the back of his head and locked in his hair as they always did. She loved the way her hands felt in his hair; it was coarse and thin, yet still soft. She would lightly scrape her nails over his head causing him to deepen their kisses. This was their game. He kissed her; she runs her tongue over his lip begging to deepen the kiss. Sometimes he would let her, other times he pulled away too soon, but he always pulled away eventually. Today, he didn't pull away as soon as she expected.

Edward broke the kiss first. He was always the one that remembered that she needed to breathe. That's how carried away she can get, how lost she can get in his mouth.

"Belle, love, you know we can't. I can't control myself when I'm around you like this. I could not live with myself if I hurt you. I love you too much. I love you more than my life." The butterflies that were making her stomach their home decided to move on. She knew this was when he would turn her down once again. There would be no more kissing tonight. He would not allow it. She could feel her heartbeat return to normal as she tried to hide the disappointed expression on her face.

"Edward, I trust you. Why can't you trust yourself? I know you love me. You could never hurt me. Can we try? That's all I want for my birthday. Please, that's all I'm asking."

"Love, you are killing me. How can I deny you? I want you, you know I do, but I'm scared, Bella, and it takes a lot to scare me."

She began to feel hope again. He was not saying no. This was the first time he was not saying no. She could feel all her excited and hopeful emotions coming back. She could feel herself getting wetter again. She could feel his hands tighten their hold on her hips. His hands had never felt so good.

"I love you more than anything, Edward. I want nothing more than to be one with you. If you won't change me, can you please just give me this one thing?"

Edward kissed her once more. The feeling in her gut was telling her that she was winning this battle. She kissed him with all the passion that she had. Bella could feel him lean into her more. The weight of his hard body pressing into hers was heaven. She had wondered in the back of her mind how this would work, but he was putting just enough weight on her so that she could feel every inch of his long lean hard body. He moved to kiss her jaw, and then her neck. Each kiss made her wetter, and made her move her body against his just a bit more. She could hear the growl that was starting in his chest; she could feel the vibrations moving from his body to hers. Bella moaned at the feeling that he was giving her.

"I can smell you, love. Did you know that? I can smell the need you have for me." Bella grew wetter as he spoke. She was learning that it turned her on when he dropped his voice and spoke to her that way.

"Then you know how much I love you; how much I need you. Please tell me you want me, too. Please tell me that you feel the same need for me?" Her chest was rising and falling quickly with each breath. She was close, so close and he had not even touched her intimately yet.

"Of course I do, love. I could hurt you, though. How could I ever live with myself if I hurt you?" Bella could see the fear and love in his eyes.

"Well, if you do hurt me on accident you can always change me to save me. It's a win-win," she said, as she laughed a bit.

"Bella, that's not even funny."

"I know. I'm sorry. Look, let's just be together. Let's just stay like this and see where it takes us."

"Bella, I cannot promise you anything. I love you. I will stop if I even think you could be in danger."

The night of Bella's 18th birthday was both the greatest and the worst night of her life. Edward and Bella did make love that night. It was everything they needed and everything that she hoped it would be. He was so gentle and loving. His touch was firm, yet soft. He cradled her body into his.. The feeling of them combined as one was unexplainable. Her body came alive. When they finally came together, she could feel every nerve in her body explode. She could feel his body shake with hers, their breathing matched, and their eyes locked..

Later that night, they went to the party. Edward never let Bella leave his side. He was constantly touching her at all times. They tried to ignore the looks they got from the family. They both knew that everyone knew what had happened and neither one of them cared. Bella had never felt so confident in herself or relationship with Edward.

Bella was surprisingly having a great time, until it came time for the gifts. That was when all hell broke loose. Bella had just started to open a gift from Edward when she got a small paper cut. She cursed under her breath. She was OK until she started to smell the blood. It was rusty and salty. She was trying to keep the cake in her stomach when everything happened. Before anyone knew what was going on, Jasper caught the scent of her blood, and well, you can guess what happened from there. There was a struggle that ended up with Bella being thrown through a table and Jasper leaving.

Edward drove her home in silence that night. It was the longest ride of her life. He normally drove fast, yet tonight he drove the speed limit. For the first time, she was able to see the trees as they passed them. She could see the emptiness of the forest. It was the same way her heart felt. It had begun to drizzle. The night was gloomy, sad. It matched her mood exactly. When they got to her house, he pulled his car up alongside Charlie's cruiser. He didn't even turn it off, just left it in park. This was not a good sign. She took a deep breath to say something, but he spoke first.

He stated that he would not be staying with her tonight. There was something off in his eyes. She had never seen so much pain and confusion in one person's eyes. He was fighting a war in his mind and she was not sure what side was winning. She knew one thing, though; anyone that looked at him would be able to see that something was wrong. Something was really wrong; she could feel it in her bones. All the confidence that she felt earlier was slowly washing out of her body.

Bella did not sleep well that night. She had become so accustomed to having him with her every night by her side. Even in her sleep, her body responded to him. She could feel his presence. He was always right there next to her if she needed him. All she felt now was emptiness; there was a piece of her that was missing, and it left her uneasy and afraid. That night, she vowed never to spend another night away from him.

Edward was not in school the next day, neither were any of the other Cullens. This, in itself, was not uncommon, but with everything that happened the night before, it made her uneasy. She went through the motions at school, but that was it. She put no effort into any of her classes or friends.

He was, however, waiting for her at home when she arrived. The look on his face scared her. There was such pain in his eyes. He asked her to take a walk with him. She didn't want to go. When he reached for her hand, she didn't move hers. She wanted to turn the other way and run. If she didn't take this walk with him then it would be ok. The pain and fear would leave. She took one look into his pleading eyes and finally took his hand. She was beginning to feel like this would be the last walk they took together.

Bella was right about that walk. During that walk, Edward told her that she was not good enough, that his family was leaving, and he told her that she didn't belong in his world. Each word cut her deeper than the last. She fell to her knees before he even finished talking. The tears were flowing and she could not catch her breath to talk. How was this happening? How could he tell her these things? Yesterday he made love to her, she felt whole, complete, loved and wanted, and now he was leaving. She felt helpless, worthless, she felt dead inside. Did he know he was leaving when he was with her, she wondered. He had told her that it would be as if he never existed. These were the last words he said to her. She never even saw him leave. She was sitting on the cold wet forest floor with her arms around her knees holding herself. She held tighter hoping that it would help hold herself together.

She didn't remember the walk home. She wondered how it could be like he never existed if she still had her thoughts. Could he really expect her to forget all the memories?

Bella tried everything she could to find the Cullens. She called all their numbers, daily. She would send text after text. She sent several emails. But there was never a response. Each email and text that went unanswered caused another piece of her to die. How could they leave her? They had all told her that she was family, yet they left her, all of them. Did they ever care about her?

Bella sat at her computer and wrote the third email of the day. This one was for Alice.

Dear Alice,

I hope you are all safe. I am lost without all of you. I can't function, I don't know how. Please know that I still love you. I don't understand why you left, I never will, but please come home. It's been 3 weeks. 3 weeks of silence. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I need you all in my life. Even if Edward doesn't want me, I can let him go if I have to. I know that it would not be easy, but I would do it if it meant that you could come home. Please just let me know you are ok, safe. Please, Alice, I need that peace of mind.

Miss and love you all,

Bella

She hit send then crawled into bed for what would be a restless night. It would be a night full of nightmares and pain; just like every other night for the last three weeks.

Two more weeks passed. It had been five weeks since the Cullens left. Five weeks of going through the motions but not really living. Bella started to get sick daily. Throughout the day, her stomach would turn. She would get queasy. She passed it off as not eating right and stress. What else could it be? She spent most of her time trying to act normal around Charlie. He was threatening to send her to Florida to live with her mom. She could not let that happen. She had to be there when they came home, if they came home. For this reason, she never let on that she was getting sick. Two more weeks passed and the sickness continued. She was sitting down to write yet another email when she got sick again. She ran to the bathroom just in time to empty her already empty stomach.

Dear Edward,

Please know that I have not forgotten. You promised that it would be like you never existed. Edward, I think of you every day. How could you leaving me be for the best? If you could see me now you would know you made the wrong choice. I know that you said I don't belong in your world, but can you please tell me where I do belong? I have never felt like I belong with my family or friends. Then your family came along. I finally felt love of a family, my family, Edward. I live every day (if that's what you can call it) thinking about and wondering where you are and if you are ok. I miss you all so much. Have you ever heard the term heartbroken? Edward, I feel it. I can actually feel my heart breaking. I still can't figure out what happened. In a matter of two days, we went from you making love to me, and then you tell me you don't want me. Is this because of what happened with Jasper? I have told you so many times that it doesn't matter. I don't blame him.

Edward, I need you to come home. I can't live without you in my life. It makes me physically sick not being with you. I get sick every day. I don't know how to stop it. It scares me. It's not right to get sick so often. Charlie wants me to leave but I can't. I can't leave you. Please, Edward, I love you. Please come home. I know we can make this work.

I will love you forever.

Bella.

She hit send just as another wave of nausea came over her. She ran to the bathroom and was sick again. This had to be more than stress. Something was wrong. She was going to have to call the doctor's office tomorrow. She needed to be healthy for when they came back. Who was she kidding? They were not coming back. They left her. Why would it matter if she was sick or not? No, she couldn't think like that. Charlie would surely send her to her mom if he knew it was this bad. She sank to the bathroom floor and cried. When there were no more tears, she took a shower and crawled to bed.

Bella had made an appointment at a clinic in Port Angeles for the following day. She didn't need any of the local doctors talking to her dad. She arrived at the clinic and almost didn't go in. It was only after she got sick in the parking lot that she decided to enter.

They called her name and she slowly walked back with the nurse.

They took her weight and height and went over the forms that she filled out briefly.

"OK, dear, hop up on the table. We will take your blood pressure and go over a few standard questions, ok?"

Bella got on the table and waited for her to continue.

"So it says here that you have been here because you are not feeling well? Are there any other symptoms other than you listed?"

"No. Everything else seems to be ok. I have just been under a lot of stress lately."

"Is everything ok?"

"Bad break up with my boyfriend."

The nurse smiled politely and nodded her head.

"I believe there is no greater pain than losing someone you love. Ok, I have a few more questions. When was the first date of your last period?"

"I don't remember. I'm sorry. I guess with all the stress I forgot about it."

"Are you sexually active?"

Her heart rate began to quicken. Did something happen from making love to Edward? He was a vampire after all. Oh no, what if they find out. I can't let that happen, she thought to herself.

"Only once. About 7 weeks ago. Is everything ok?"

"That's what we are going to find out, dear. We just need to know as much as we can so that we can do the right tests."

Bella sat there in silence as they took her blood for some tests. Her thoughts went from completely blank to all over the place. Could she have had a reaction to his venom? Was there even venom in his semen? She was so deep in thought that she had not noticed the doctor return with the nurse. Two of them, this couldn't have been good.

"Bella, I am Dr. Jefferson. I have gone over your test results and would like to share them with you."

"Do you know why I am so sick?"

"I do, and I can tell you that it will pass soon."

What was he talking about? Was this a flu? It couldn't be, why would I be so sick for so long?

"Bella, I see in your chart that you have been sexually active, I need to tell you that the reason you have been so sick is from the morning sickness."

That can't be possible she thought. Morning sickness came with a…. she didn't have a chance to think it before he started talking again.

"You are going to have a baby, dear."

"But I only had sex one time. How can this be?"

I know it's a lot to take in. But all the tests confirm it. We did both a urine dip and blood test. They both came back positive. We will need to see you in a few weeks to confirm the dates. Is the dad in your life?"

"No, we broke up the day after my birthday, He moved away with his family." It was now that she noticed the nurse handing her a tissue. She didn't even realize she was crying. The nurse put her hand on Bella's and squeezed them in a comforting way as the doctor began to speak.

"I am truly sorry. Do you have support at home? Pregnancy is never easy at your age." She told him she had family that would help her and he began to speak again. "For now, I will need you to start taking prenatal vitamins. I want you to get lots of rest. I have some pamphlets for you. They have information on all of your options. Do you have any questions for me? "

"No, sir. Thank you."

"Ok, we will see you in 3 weeks then. If you have any questions in the meantime, please call."

The drive home for Bella was quiet. She didn't hear the song playing on the radio, or the wind blowing in the window. She didn't hear the sounds of the birds or the other cars passing her. She heard nothing but her thoughts.

She was pregnant with a vampire's baby. Would the baby be human? Would a doctor know that there was something different? What would Charlie and her mom think? There was only one family that could help her with this and they left her. She needed to find the Cullens. They were the only ones that would understand and they were gone. She had never felt so alone, and now she had another life living in her.

Bella did not remember the ride home. Next thing she knew, she was holding a phone and calling Rosalie. It went straight to voicemail.

"Rose, it's Bella. I really need you. I'm scared. I just found out that I am having a baby. Rose, its Edward's. I don't know what to do. Please, I will do anything you need, just please help me."

She sent Emmett and Jasper the same text message.

Em and Jazz. Please come home. I need you. I am having Edward's baby and I am scared. I need you.

-B-

Next was an email that was sent to Alice, Carlisle, Edward and Esme.

Please know that what I am about to tell you, I never thought was possible. I need you. I need all of you. I have never been so scared in my life. Please, there is no one that can help me. As I have said in the past emails, I have been getting sick. I went to the doctor today. I'm pregnant. I know that you think I am not good enough, and that I do not belong in your world. Fine, maybe that's true. Edward, I may not belong but your baby does. I don't know what to do. I have so many questions that I need to ask, but I do not know if I can ask a normal doctor. I'm scared for myself and this baby. I know you don't care about me but please care enough about this baby to help me.

Edward, this is your baby. Please come home. I will leave you alone if that is what you need. But your baby needs you. I do not know how this pregnancy will go. I don't know if the baby will be like me, or you, or both. I am begging you. Please come home. Please, someone help me.

Bella

And baby to be.

That night she did not get sick again. She spent the night crying and thinking about her life, her baby and the family that she would never have.