A/N: Why hello there. The main-main reason i haven't posted is because i have writers block. Normally, i get ideas from random things like songs but lately (for the past two months) I have nothing. Another reason i haven't post is because this is my first fanfiction that i actually knew i was going to finish at some point. and i doubt i'm going to make a sequel for this. If i couldn't post this for almost two months, I really doubt i can post the sequel.
I hardly posted this but; Disclaimer, I do not own anything. Minus, Tristan and Jacob.
& the song used in this was; Hold Up by Demi Lovato.
"Look at you. You're young, and you're scared. Why are you so scared? stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want, listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud and dance to it. listen to your heart, not your head. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the net day. Stop waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks, tell secrets. This life is yours. when are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want? "
- Rachel -
"I'll see you Monday"
Quickly giving him a kiss on the lips, she left the car and when she reached the door, giving him a wave and he drove off. She turned towards the door, taking a deep breath, she walked in. Ready to deal with Noah, but not ready at the same time.
"Rachie! You're back!"
Abbi squealed and hugged her, clingling to her. While hugging her back, she heard footsteps. She wants it to be Gabbie, but she knows its Noah.
"Go up to my room, Abbi, I'll be there in a few"
Abbi nods and skips off towards the room.
She smooths out Mrs. Evans dress, taking a breath before looking up and facing Noah. "Hello Noah, how was your weekend?"
"Probably not as good as yours, am I right?"
"I had a good weekend, now if you'll excuse me, Abbi's waiting for me-"
"Rachel, we both know that isn't your dress. Now where did you go?"
She looked down, and sighed. "Fine, you wanna know?"
"I was with Sam, meeting his family"
"What the hell Rachel!" He shouted, Causing her to jump back a bit and Gabbie to walk in.
"What is going on in here? Noah what did I tell you, stop shouting and you, young lady, where were you?"
"I-I, I was with Sam."
she looked between the two of them before walking towards the dinning room. The other two followed her, and sat across from her.
"Sam's parents wanted to meet me, and I-it was late, so I slept there."
"Is this Sam boy, he's the one from arizona?"
Rachel nodded. "His parents, they-they wanted to meet me, and his siblings are adorable."
"Noah, why don't you take Abbi to get ice cream" Gabbie asked, but didn't bother to look at Noah. She kept looking at Rachel.
"But ma!"
"No buts, Noah, go take Abbi to get ice cream"
Gabbie turned from Rachel and looked at Noah, and stared him down til he gave up.
"This isn't over Rachel"
Noah glared at her as he walked up towards Rachel's room and grabbed Abbi and headed out. Once they heard his car drive away, Gabbie stood up and sat next to Rachel.
Rachel didn't know whether to be scared or relieved.
"Gabbie-"
"Oh, sweetheart" Gabbie shook her head, "Can you explain, what's going on? Just, tell me."
"I- I'm, I blamed everyone else for so long that, that when I met up with Tristan and Jacob- I couldn't blame anyone else, but myself. That same day, I really met Sam. He blames himself, and we got to talking. He's really sweet and over a couple weeks after that, we talked some more and started becoming friends. When he told his parents, they couldn't understand at first and when he explained it some more, they wanted to meet me. So, I went over to his house and had dinner with them. They thought I was just faking it and lying, or that I was using him. But I told them otherwise and-"
She stopped and looked up at Gabbie, "After the dinner, I was talking to Sam and we were laying on his bed, after some talking, I admitted that I not only liked him but starting to fall in love with him and- and he kissed me. I stayed the night, and his mom let me borrow this dress because I didn't plan to stay, and then I came home."
"Sweetie, is this boy, is he going to stay with you through thick and thin?" Gabbie asked, "Are you sure, you want him in your life and the baby's life?"
Rachel nodded, "Yes, He's so sweet and he's different. He has two younger siblings, so he's been around babies. I really, reallylike him, Gabbie"
Gabbie sighed, and looked at her for just a few seconds before making up her mind.
"Okay, I want to meet him. We'll have dinner with him in a couple nights, okay?"
-o-o-o-
"So, what happened after that?"
She smiled, "We fall asleep, he had his arms around me and it was so sweet, Kurt. It was like a fairy tale, his little sister and brother are just adorable and I know his parents are our number 1 fans but they'll support him, and it's just, I can't find a word"
"I can't believe you may be living a fairytale!" Kurt sighed, and pulled out a yellow sundress, "Are you calling each other boyfriend and girlfriend?"
"I-I don't know really know. I still have to talk to Noah, tell him he can't kill Sam. He's so protective of me, and I know he's had feelings for me. I want him to move on, and find someone who can return the same feelings." Rachel sighed, "Just, just don't go telling everyone about Sam and I. not yet, anyway"
Kurt nodded and smiled shyly, and Rachel knew he was up to something already. She ignored it, though, and hoped it didn't involve her. She grabbed the sundress from Kurt, and went into the bathroom to change.
"you talked to lover boy about this whole, dating in secret yet?"
Rachel sighed, why can't he gossip about something else? She nodded and decided to not answer his questions, hopefully he'll get the point.
"How's your life, Kurt? any boys?"
She giggled when she saw his cheeks started to turn a bright red. She already knew he liked someone, but he never said his name or if he's even going to school with them.
"Well, there's this one boy- from Dalton. remember when I went to spy for us?"
She nodded, she didn't like the idea but he did go to the school for about a month or two, before realizing minus the bullying, he loves McKinley. It's an all boys school and their glee club is called, The Warblers. Though, She's not her old self anymore she wasn't the one to say he should spy. It seemed like a breath of fresh air for him.
"Well, the lead for the warblers, Blaine. And for once I like someone who's actually gay! It's a plus! We talked- and he found out I was spying, but he forgave me and we've been texting for a while now!"
She squealed, "Kurt! oh my god, i'm so happy for you!"
They were too busy squealing over Kurt and Blaine, they didn't notice Brittany and Santana walk up.
"Rae, Hummel!"
"Why are you guys squealing? Havin' a hallmark moment?"
Rachel giggled at Santana's comment. "No, well, yes. But we have our reasons!"
"And that would be?"
Rachel looked at Kurt and he nodded, she doesn't know how Santana will react to knowing that she's pretty much dating Sam. She doesn't even want to start talking about how Noah will react.
"This past weekend, I spent it with Sam and his family. I mean, I didn't mean too. I was suppose to just have dinner with them, and after Sam and I were talking in his room and I decieded to spend the night."
"What were you talking about? the baby?"
Rachel looked at her stomach, and rubbed it before answering. "That's the thing though, we just talked. He said he's falling in love with me and me being pregnant with his baby isn't the main reason! and I'm starting to fall for him too, or- I already am in love with him. He's the sweetest, geeky, but he's amazing!"
Silence came after, and none of them moved. Rachel staring at her baby bump, Brittany smiling, Kurt trying to keep a scream or squeal in, and Santana staring at Rachel.
But, before she could say anything back, the bell rang.
"You've been avoiding Puck, haven't you?"
She looked away from her locker, and looked at Finn. She wasn't meaning to avoid him, it's just, she doesn't want to hear what he has to say about Sam. Noah's been talking about it for a while now, and she isnt sure if he's pissed off or anything.
"No, and if he wants to know, he shouldn't send you." she closed her locker and faced him fully, "It feels like he's avoiding me. And before you hear anything. Sam and I are or will date, we like each other and not just because of the baby. I don't need you being protective, Finn, so leave it. Be happy for me"
Finn sighed, and leaned against the locker. "Rach you know how hard it is to keep huge secrets from Puck. It's like he knows you're keeping one, how can I keep you and Sam a secret?"
"You don't have to, just be happy for me Finn. Don't hate Sam, and don't say anything to Noah right now. He'll find out, soon." She smiled and once the bell rang she told Finn bye, and said she'll see him in glee. Walking to her next class, her smile grew when she walked past Sam. Waving and giving him a tiny smile as well, she couldn't feel happier.
"Can anyone tell me the answer?"
She ignored the teacher, she was already ahead in this class, and she's looking for the perfect song to sing in glee. So far, the only song she has is Hummingbird Heartbeat, but it didn't fit quite right.
She felt a tap on her shoulder, looking, she found Quinn staring at her.
"yes?"
"What are you doing?"
"Looking at my iPod, I'm already ahead in this class. And Mrs. Davis knows"
Quinn shrugged, "why are you looking at your iPod? what's so important?"
"You'll find out in glee"
Quinn went back to listening to the teacher, and Rachel found another song; Love Story, but it seemed out of style.
Hold Upcame up, and she looked up the lyrics quickly before picking it.
She's going to sing, Hold Up at glee club.
-
Everyone walked into the choir room, to be met by Rachel already in there talking to the band and Finn, who was sitting at the drums. Mr. Schue had to clear his throat to get Rachel's attention.
"Oh! I'm sorry Mr. Schue, I was just telling them about the song I'd like to perform. It can wait"
"No, it's fine Rachel. you can go first, unless anyone else has something more important" Mr. Schue looked around, "no? okay, go ahead Rachel. the floor's yours"
She smiled at Mr. Schue, and grabbed the microphone. She met Sam's eyes and she noticed his smile grew, her's stilled and she spoke.
"over the past months, i know I changed and my life is never going to be the same. But, like me, we're all just kids. We have to live now, and follow our hearts, and not our heads or others. And my heart- it's telling me to show my feelings for someone"
she nodded at the band plus Finn and they started up. She pressed lightly on her stomach with one hand and grabbed the mic with the other, she let the music start up first.
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
she held up her hands and smiled as she sang.
It's a hold up,
Broken out of nowhere, showed up
I'm in love,
This heist got me skipping a heart beat
I'm giving up
she saw Sam's eye light up, and Kurt smile. She could see Noah with a scowl, but she could care less.
I wanna run, run, run away
In your getaway car, make a getaway
She noticed Brittany and Santana jump up and started a little dance, based off the lyrics.
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If you're gonna take me down, I surrender
I'll give you anything you want
Just don't leave me alone
This is a hold up, this is a hold up
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
She held her hands up again, and stared at Sam. She wanted to prove she didn't care what the rest thought, even if the song didn't show much.
Hey, stranger
I'm addicted to the danger of the touch
Now you're wanted
Better keep me as your hostage
Tie me up
Santana held Brittany's hands behind her back, as if holding her hostage. Rachel put her hands behind her back, and couldn't help but let a little giggle out as she saw Brittany and Santana.
I wanna run, run, run away
In your getaway car, make a getaway
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If you're gonna take me down, I surrender
I'll give you anything you want
Just don't leave me alone
This is a hold up, this is a hold up
Holding her hands out like a gun, she pointed at no one. She smiled at Sam, and sang the next part.
Everybody get down
Get down on the floor, floor
Everybody get down
Nobody gets hurt, hurt
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If you're gonna take me down, I surrender
I'll give you anything you want
Just don't leave me alone
This is a hold up, this is a hold up
Rachel noticed almost everyone smiling, and noticed how Sam's smile got bigger as she sang. She hoped Noah won't kill Sam, hopes he'll understand.
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If you're gonna take me down, I surrender
I'll give you anything you want
Just don't leave me alone
This is a hold up, this is a hold up
She watched as Brittany and Santana danced along.
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
If the weapon is your love, I got my hands up
She let the music fade out before speaking again, and pointly at Noah.
"Noah, I know you don't trust Sam. But I fall for him still and he's falling for me and I don't care what you think, Sam and I are together. Whether you like it or not."
"I'm happy for you Rachel, but I think some of us need to leave to let them discuss this." Mr. Schue said, and nodded at the rest to let the know to leave. Everyone did so.
"Rachel-"
"You can't Rachel me, Noah. I'm a big girl, and I want Sam in my life and my baby's life. Gabbie already knows, and she wants me happy- Abbi wants to see me happy and I am so happy with Sam! Why can't you be happy for me?"
Noah sighed, and looked away from Rachel. "I want you happy. But, how can I trust Sam? Is he going to stay once the baby is here? I want to know I can trust him and that he's staying no matter what. Once I know that- I'll work on everything else"
Rachel's smile grew, "He is going to stay, Noah. He wants to be apart of the baby's life" resting a hand on her stomach, she looks at Noah with a huge smile.
"He's trust worthy and he likes me for me, Noah. Why pass that up? I know about how you wanted to be my boyfriend, but we can't. I'm sure you'll find someone to love, like I have with Sam. But for now, you have to trust me."
-o-o-o-
Rachel met up with Sam a little after talking to Noah.
"I talked to Noah"
He looked at her from looking in his locker, confused. "what?"
"I told him about us. I told him how I love you and how whatever he thinks isn't going to happen and how he's going to have to trust you. He's not our biggest supporter, but he'll try his best not to beat you up"
He smiles, "So, am I allowed to kiss you?"
"I'm 101% sure of that one, boyfriend"
She giggles as he closes his locker and wraps an arm around her waist, pulling her as close as he can to kiss her. She lockers her arms around his neck, and trying her hardest to get closer to him. She feels the baby kicking hard and when Sam pulls away, she's sure he could feel the baby too.
She doesn't know how getting pregnant by a stranger and months into the pregnancy, she meets said stranger and starts falling for him, was in her "life plan" but it did. Now she doesn't regret going to her aunt & uncle's house during the last summer.
Because now she's with someone who loves her for her, and she has a family who don't leave for weeks on end and friends who don't turn their backs on her. Everything for her is right, not perfect, because nothing is perfect.
"Sometimes, you have to give your head permission to follow your heart. You never know what'll happen if you don't give it a shot"
A/N: Again, i don't think there'll be a sequel. & I may post an extra chapter, it may show what evanberry is up too after the baby is born... & who Puck ends up with, and so on.
But who knows.
Thank you to those of you who read the story, it means a lot. :3
It was fun & hard to write. now i have to figure out what to do with the rest of the stories. & I may start another story But who knows anymore.
BTW: if this was a show, it would be Rachel saying the last quote.
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