Hello all you brilliant, wonderful people! I decided that I wanted to do a Fic based on a song…so then I chose Owl City's Vanilla Twilight because it's very nostalgic and sad. So then it came to me…
A/N: I don't own the song or Doctor Who. Props to Adam Young because he's fantastic.
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
The Doctor walked to the chair by the consol and slumped down, completely defeated. He didn't want to look weak (even though there was no one there to see him) but he couldn't hold back the tears that were sliding down his face. She was gone. His beautiful, brilliant, fantastic Rose. Gone.
'cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a post card to you dear
'cause I wish you were here
He couldn't ever see her again. No more laughing at jokes only they knew. No more smiles. No more hugs. No hand to hold. No Rose. Time Lords weren't supposed to fall in love, especially not with humans. That was just the rule. Well he had broken that rule beyond repair. And the worst part about it was he hadn't even told her.
I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
He sat there waiting for something to happen. Nothing did. There would be no showing off wonderful places. No snuggling that they both knew was more than friendship. No cups of tea, no chips, no running from dangerous creatures, no adventure. Nothing. Emptiness.
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly
Sure, there would be other companions. No one would ever come close to Rose. No one. Not ever. No one could say so much without saying anything at all. If he was upset about something, all it took was her hand in his to make him feel better. They were perfect for each other.
I'll find repose in new ways
though I haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
Every memory hurt. Every memory haunted his every thought. Sometimes, he would go into her room, sit on the floor, and remember everything that was Rose. He couldn't stop himself from letting the tears run down his face. This was stupid. Time Lords didn't cry. Yeah? Well they do when they lose their favorite person in the entire universe.
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
He remembered everything. Most of the memories made him smile sadly, but others made him regret things he had, or rather, had not, done. He thought about the times when they had hugged; best friends caught in something that lasted slightly too long to be plutonic. He thought about the time she had gotten mad because she thought he would leave her. He thought about that horrible day when he hadn't said "Rose Tyler, I love you."
As many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
He landed the TARDIS and walked out to one of his favorite places in the universe. The sky was dark blue and every star was visible. He had taken Rose here once, excited to share this place with his friend. She loved it as much as he did. They had curled up to watch the stars glitter billions of miles away, perfectly happy to take a break from running for awhile.
When violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
He looked up at the sky and smiled. Somewhere, in a parallel universe, Rose Tyler was alive. If he couldn't protect her himself, he would settle for her being safe in an alien-free world. She was alive. He would never forget her. Her name would keep him fighting.
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling I wish you were here
She was gone, that was true. No one could replace her. But he would be alright. He wanted her back, but he would be okay.
Writing that made me sad. Thanks for reading and please review!